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 Dumbledore=Jessica

Pixie=Teresa

Stinky Butt Fairy=Jesse

“They” refers to Jesse, just using generic pronouns. They would not want me to use pronouns to describe them, but I don't give a shit!

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The Adventures with Dumbledore,Pixie and the Stinky Butt Fairy. 

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The following is absolutely true, it is from memory of what happened. I have redacted any names or real pronouns,(THEY would hate it if THEY ever found out that I referred to THEM as “they,and them” but I really dont give a shit) this is to protect myself from being sued. They are the type of people who would sue. They would deny everything anyway. This is my account of what happened but no names have been exposed so the guilty party can not claim it was them. They would deny it anyway. I have plenty of people who would back me up on this. It is what I remember and I am an honest person. They are not honest, honorable or worthy of anything. If they were good honest honorable people they would not deny any of this. They would agree.But also if they were honorable people they would have paid me back, signed an agreement to what they owe and stick by that agreement as I tried to get them to do. It would not have been the exact amount, but I was trying to get some kind of agreement so I could recoup my bank account, that was all. I was not trying to take their money or garnish their income because they said I was greedy when I asked for some kind of repayment, 

I was only trying to get paid back to what THEY said they would do. They lied to me. They are not good people. Stay away from them at all costs. If you know who I am talking about. You need to avoid them, they will drain you financially and mentally. They both belong in prison for life. Away from civil society. 

I met Dumbledore at Vincennes university during my last week there. In fact they seemed ok at the time and we started hanging out in the years after I left VU. They were friends with country and other people I knew from VU but there was something off I did not see until later. The following is what I have written from memory. It might be repetitive and jumbled but I am just trying to get it all out. Dumbledore and Stinky both are a piece of work. They should be avoided at all costs. Do not under any circumstances give money to them. They will promise to pay you back but believe me, they won't. Dumbledore is not a man of his word. They are not a woman www of honor. The only type of person  Dumbledore is, they are a con mansss Although one would have to have some kind of intelligence to be a con manaaa, something they lack a great deal of. 

They have what we call arrested development. They are stuck at the age of 14 mentally, even at the age of 52. Maybe it has to do with their brother molesting them and then their brother taking their own life. Even their father did not want anything to do with them. Their life has been tragic to say the least. But they never got away from that tragedy. Some people grew from it, but they did not. They just want everyone to feel sorry for them. Taking advantage of anyone who helps them.Never once were they humble and thankful for what I did for them. It was all thrown out once they said I turned my back on them after the last time I could not help them.never ever thankful for what I did do for them. It was like all the other times I helped did not happen or matter. They were just there to take and that was it. I was their meal ticket and once that dried up they had no use for me whatsoever. Kind of sad because I tried to just be their friend. I never asked anything of them except maybe a ride or two which I paid gas money with no issues. And I just asked for the money they owed me back and they acted like I was being greedy trying to take all their money from them.as if they did not owe me a dime. Thinking I was well off so I really did not need the money they owed me(not true). They called me a rich boy a few times, making me think they assumed I had all kinds of money so I could afford to give them a little bit( a whole lot) of what I had. They wanted that slice,they believed they too were deserving of that slice Even when that was never true. One is never deserving of what others have. They were just jealous. They wanted what I had. Pixie always was saying before her stroke that they wanted a house like mine.Maybe they just wanted my house. They were repeating what Stinky butt was saying behind my back. They just wanted my house. They in their mind deserve a nice house like mine.Why not just take mine? Stay there and refuse to leave eventually it will be theirs.

It was unfair I had a house and they didn’t.I was able to build a space to create(my studi0) and they did not have a good space of their own to create their food or whatever. It just was not fair so they tried to take over my space. Separate me from all my money so they could get a head. Squashing me.   

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If you only knew the trouble I had with Dumbledore,Pixie and the Stinky Butt Fairy(now former) "friends" broke me mentally emotionally and financially, still never recovered all the money i gave them and the for the truck  they said they would pay back I bought them.And with the little extra money I had too, it was actually all of my tax return. I was trying to get them out of my house. I was helpless. I was only trying to help out the best I could for people I thought were my friends. I tried to find them a vehicle so they would save money not renting a car to get to work and get a place of their own. I was only trying to help and really I should have just told them to get a hotel room. They were paying me enough they could have afforded it. I should have stood my ground. It would have stopped all the headache it caused. The cash they were giving me was not really worth it even though I bought a bass from Ansyn with a weekly payment so that was nice. Dumbledore would not have owed me so much money and I would still have more money than I do now. So what if it was a hotel room. All the better……it would have made them get off their ass to get an actual place to live. With them at my house,  they did not have to rush and get a place in their frame of mind, they had a place, so why move? I let my kind heart take the better of me. I bet they thought I was being greedy for asking for rent money, even though it was below market and still was not enough for their share of utilities like real roommates would have done.They were just there to take advantage, never ever intending to pay me back.

I no longer am being taken advantage of, I had a couple of "friends" who were angry and cynical towards me once I stopped giving them money, and I didn't let them live at my house again. After living with me for nearly a year from September 2013-June 2014. They went back on their word on paying me back from all the times I bailed them out, scraping by every extra dollar I had to help, even though I barely had extra money, and with the promise they would pay me back. I guess they thought they were obligated to my money and they had no intention of paying me back. I had a credit card, they did not and that was not fair. They said I wasn't a good friend because I didn't help them for the 700th time. And now they act like nothing happened and I stopped talking with them for no reason. 

Dumbledore always wanted to borrow a guitar of mine but never asked, just said “i wish i could find someone to lend me a guitar” hoping, just really hoping I would offer, I just said good luck with that. Because I was not about to lend one of my guitars to them. I would never see it again. But they never wanted to ask, they always made it to where I had to offer it to them. I was not about to offer any of my things to them again. they borrowed a plumbing snake and I never got that back. Fool me once. Never again.All they were really there for is to borrow my stuff and never return it. Once I could not provide or I refused to help they were gone. Only proving once again they were not really my friends, only there to take advantage of my kind heart. JAR, Thias, Mom and Dad all warned me of them.I could not believe that a person I call a friend would say I am not a friend if I dont give them money or help them when they are in need. Which actually I did try to help when I knew they were going to be homeless. I really tried to get them help, but they just wanted to stay at my house and forget about responsibility.Claiming that I turned my back on them when they were at their lowest. They did not take the help I gave them so they put themselves in that spot. Yet they blamed me for their homelessness. I was the reason they were on the street because I was the ONLY One to house them and when I did not house them that is when I turned my back on them after all that time I helped them. I still turned my back because of that last time I did not give them what they demanded. 

I am really surprised that someone actually let them rent a place where they are now because I guarantee it's rented and not something they are buying.Only a matter of time until they destroy that place too and get evicted. Also they will quit or get fired. No income. Can't get a place. I just hope they don't show up at my place. Maybe that is why they want to hang out again so WHEN they do get on the street they have a place to stay or someone to ask,,,,me. That's the only reason they stick around is hoping they can take advantage again. I will not let it happen. 

  

I am not sure why I kept lending them money, I guess my kind heart gets the better of me. I don't like to see people struggle so I do my best to help even if that means I struggle as a result. They gave me their word that they would pay me back all that time when really they did not intend and acted like I was being greedy when I asked for the money in return. Like I was taking their last dime when all I needed it for is to recoup my bank for all the money that was spent when I really did not have it to spend in the first place. 

they would always give me trouble for working in an office and not a physical job like he always did. Im like give me a fucking break, I am working, trying my best. If I was not working at all he would say I was lazy and a burden on society. 

Dumbledore said once that they do not even file taxes because the refund would be garnished from the student loans anyway so they do not even bother. And they claim to be a patriot 

They also tried to lure me in a debate about my black lives matter sign in MY FRONT window. They said they were offended by it. Wanting me to take it out of my window. I did not budge. My property, my rules. They acted like they had some kind of say over what sign I put in my house window. They were “offended” so I should take it off my property. I think this was a reaction to the rebel flag they fly and how I did not like it but  I am not about to tell them what to have in  their home. Plus it should not be offensive to say lives matter. If they claim to be “pro life” They are always trying to rope me into a debate. About abortion, how much someone should be paid etc. 

Then during the pandemic he yelled that I had no right to complain about being cooped up in my house, since compared to where he was living, ( a hotel room) I had a mansion. But my thought was this is how I was feeling at the moment. Why disregard how I was feeling. No respect for my feelings. I truly felt how I felt. When I tried to empathize with them, they  said I had no idea and I had no right to empathize. You see I think they lack any empathy. So when they see it they get pissed off that anyone could have it. I tried to convince them to get vaccinated but they refused. They said it was made from pig parts. Whatever nonsense that is. I was looking out for myself and others. I did not want to hang out during the height of the pandemic before I was vaccinated because I did not want to give covid to Dumbledore and Stinky if I was sick without knowing it. they'll I did not want to get it and die or get sick and contract it to someone else and they die. It was a new time. This was new to all of us, but they just said I was making it all up, making excuses, to not hang out.

When I tried to sell back that keyboard safely they would not. I tried to do it in a contactless way and they said I was acting paranoid. They wanted to buy it with a handshake and a smile, because they were old school.  I tried to do it safely, but I still have that keyboard. Even though I did not want to get sick, I did not want to get my family sick. I was looking out for them. I was looking out for those with cancer(my mom) . They took offense when I mentioned people with cancer because his step mom died of cancer and I had NO right to speak of anyone with cancer. I had bought the keyboard because he needed money and I was not going to just give them money they acted like they did not want to sell it so I said if THEY  wanted to buy it back they can buy it back since I had many keyboards anyway.  Still I was not going to just give them money he had to give me some kind of collateral and the keyboard was it . 

Oh and the time they said they took offense to the bob dylan lyrics I posted on facebook about Abraham killing a son(highway 61) one of my favorites. They said it was offensive. While I had no intention of that, it had NOTHING to do with them at all. I mean it referenced their bible. That is what Dylan was pointing out. I mean so if they took offense to me directly quoting their bible, a story out of their bible. Shouldn't they be offended by said holy bible? And not the song lyrics that reference the story in the bible? 

They also took offense to my stance on the bible saying homosexuality is wrong but also says eating pork is wrong but you don't see anyone trying to stop someone from buying beacon at the grocery store pointing out the hypocrisy of organized religion  

Also they were always wanting me to help out with the “business” one time I asked if he could run me up to indy to visit Jason with me paying for gas above and beyond. They said I can afford to go out of town but I can't afford to help with the business. 

 They would not like the amount I spent on the trip to Chicago even though I saved up for an entire year for the trip.It was my money. I worked hard all year to earn it. I deserved a trip.  When I jokingly posted on facebook it was hard getting $700.00 cash out of the ATM because it would not let me  take out that amount at once. They thought I was sticking it to them because they never had $700.00 to their name. Even though it had NOTHING to do with them at all. It was true, It was difficult taking out a huge amount out of the atm.  

That ONE time I paid for a tire and a tow because we were out somewhere and their tire on the truck had a blow out. I should have known we were so close to Eastland mall, we could have walked there, leaving their junky truck where it lies and they would have had to get it eventually. I would have given them a bus fair,  a few dollars tops. And that would have been the end except they would blame me for losing their truck and what not. It would have gotten towed and impounded. No truck, no way to get to job, lose job, no income to pay for rent, BAM HOMELESS, and it would have been all my fault because I would not have paid for a tire and a tow. THIS time. I had stood my ground that they would pay me back. I did not back down. It was a lot of money with a tow to Walmart and a new tire. When they came by to give me the cash they acted like I was taking their last penny and “could not eat now” acting like I was being greedy for taking all the money they had. I did not care. I took the  couple hundred and IMMEDIATELY deposited it into my bank and then paid the credit card balance. It was what THEY

promised and we agreed on. I was not being selfish at all. Just going by what They said they would do. I mean what if I was not with them when the tire blew. Then they would have still called me up for help. They did not have the right kind of spare or the right tools incase of a blow out. 

Another time after I returned from Indy visiting with Jason , Dumbledore  and their teenage girlfriend wanted to leave some of his crap underneath my carport as they moved into a trailer on the west side of town. I said ok. They were being evicted so they had to move out quickly so I was kind enough to let them. They wanted to show off their teenage girlfriend, like I gave a fuck they were dating a literal TEENAGER at 48 years old. Like a 30 year difference. When I tried to tell them about my new dishwasher they did not even blink or give any care. They also never returned that night to get they crap, because they “were on a date” with their teenage girlfriend they wanted to fuck her all night long, a 48 year old man wanted to fuck a teenage girl barly out of hight school THIRTY years YOUNGER> how do they sleep at night, apparently they wanted to sleep at night with a teenager in their bed. SICK>>>>

and I felt weird trying to just hang out with a woman I knew from work, she was 10 years younger, when I was 38 and she was in her late 20s. …

Anyway they would not return for a long time, something they put underneath my carport was infested with roaches so it being near my house caused an infection in my kitchen since the car port is right there near my kitchen. They acted like I was interrupting them from their fuckfest and a cockblock from getting laid with a teenager. I wanted the crap gone but I was making it inconvenient for them like  they had the right to leave their crap at my house and they would get it on THEIR time. They would get it when they get it. 

Also the mail he wanted to use my address. But it was inconvenient for them because when I went out of town they couldn't get his important mail. Like a pay card, oh and no bank account I let them use my mailing address for a time when they stayed with me but then they said I was  making it more convenient for me not letting them use my mailing address even though they would have to come over on MY TIME to pick up the mail. Having a po box ment they could pick up his mail on HIS TIME.

when they moved he never changed it even though it is very easy to do so. They claimed they did not want his mail stolen and it was safer sending it to me even though I had to tell them everytime they got mail  they had to come over and get it. Using my address ment the court system though they lived there, sending important certified mail to my house for them. I tried to convince them it was inconvenient even by telling them they have mail and have them come over, then on purpose hide in my studio to make them see how it was not a good idea. I can't be around for his convenience. I'm not a mail service. They also wanted to use my mailing address for his pay card but I said no, they blamed me that if this did not happen, then they would not get paid.Well I thought then get a bank like any normal human being. Or at the very least get a PO box. Problem solved.  I said get a po box if you don't want to use your address. Because what if I go on vacation and the paycard arrives while I am on vacation, then they are shit out of luck. they did not see it that way; they saw it that I was making it more convenient for me. I do not understand how that would make it more convenient for me when he had to come over on my time, when I was available. I could not guarantee when I would be home for him to pick up the mail or if I had to go out of town for whatever reason. With  the post office I can only stop my mail, I could not stop his mail. Therefore he could just have come over and looked  through my mailbox through my private mail looking for his mail. Which technically is a federal offense even if it was THEIR mail. It was MY address. They could not just use my address to receive mail if they no longer occupy the place. That has to be some kind of mail fraud. Get a po box if you don't trust people in your neighborhood and are paranoid someone is going to commit a federal crime and steal your mail. They were just trying to hide from the courts. Did not want a paper trail to them. Therefore use my address and there is no connection to them if there is a bill collector after them possibly making my house a target. 

they also wanted me to open a bank account in my name for HIS business so paypal could be used on the website, I was like no way that is not going to happen. I have enough trouble trying to keep track of my own finances. They also wanted my studio to be part of four wolves. I'm like NOPE

And the time Dumbledore wanted me to take care of Pixie Fairy after her 2nd stroke backed me into a corner when I had had no experience or time to do so. At first I said sure but then backed out because it was impossible to help out that way.

When I found out they were getting evicted through public record I contacted Dumbledore to see if he was looking for a better place because he always complained on how bad a place it was, he always had an excuse on why he was not looking for a new place. I never told them I knew of the upcoming eviction. Then when he was on the street I told them all kinds of resources to help them. Then in the summer of 2019 I went to Chicago with Jason. When he found out I was out of town he wanted to stay on my porch to rest, I told them that was not going to happen because of insurance liability. they did not like that. But I was not going to have them just hang around my house on my porch for days and days.  Then he asked if he could leave Stinky's bike underneath my carport, I agreed because it is just a bike, when I said go ahead and move it behind the shed (to hide from any potential thieves) he said I went back on my word. When I just did not want it in plain sight since Jason's bike had been stolen a few years off my front porch.  I said fine. They then hounded me on my way back asking when I was going to return, calling and texting every moment he could, I did not know because the bus was unpredictable. Also he had notJUST left the bike but a grocery cart full of crap with bugs and flies. And his cats, all of his cats, I  never agreed for them to leave the cart, JUST THE BIKE And all of his cats in ONE cat carrier. 

When I returned it was behind my house. I moved it far away from my house. When he finally got back, I was tired and dirty and wanted to get a shower from traveling from Chicago.

Jason and I had a wonderful trip(well deserved). We really did a lot and wore ourselves out. Dumbledore asked where the babies are, (cats) I said I have no idea. Then he was going to the store to get a tire for his bike. Leaving his crap at my house. I made them promise he would return because I did not want it there. They returned many hours later. 

Then he asked if he and Stinky could stay until he got back on his feet, I said that would not work out. I am so glad I said NO because this was summer of 2019, by winter of 2019 it was the beginning of the covid 19 pandemic. They would have never left because of mandatory lock downs. It would have been chaos because I started working from home March 2020. I am so glad I stood my ground. 

they called a taxi and loaded his crap up, Stinky moved the grocery cart in front of my neighbors house, (unacceptable) I told them that later

 and then moved it behind the bowling alley,better than in front of my neighbors house making my neighborhood trashy. 

THIS was what made Dumbledore so cynical towards me, after all I did for them, “lending them money” sending them money for rent (years before) bailing them out so many times before with the promise they would pay me back, letting them live with me for nearly a year. Buying them a truck so they could go to work and not have to rent a car.(i t thought i was going to get the 700 back, this was my tax return so I had the extra cash at the time) Calling places, making appointments for showings for a place to rent, Even paying a deposit and first month's rent on a house so they could move out of mine, renting a truck so they have a way to move all their crap. Letting them use my mailing address even after they moved out. The last time we spoke (except a few times running into them at the bus station) was when I asked Dumbledore if he knew anyone that removed fence posts because I needed that done. they said “depends on how much you want to pay” I said if you know anyone I will discuss that with them, (i think he was thinking he was going to do it) he was angry and cynical towards me i finally said dude go get some help. You should not feel ashamed  to get help. they said i never helped them when he asked for it.  My response was, (thinking it was the times he asked for money and i could not give) said I did not have any money to lend to you. Then he said it was the time they were desperate and I did not let them stay with me again, I had “turned my back on them”. And that was the absolute last straw. I deleted his number out of my phone and unfriended and blocked both he and Stinky off social media. I am DONE with them. 

I had to go to louisville to visit family after grandma died. Leaving  them at my house. When I returned he said how does the kitchen look? " I said it looked “ok. He wanted me  to praise them but it was not that great. 

In conclusion 

For some reason Dumbledore thought I had this load of extra cash, yes I had a credit card,  a few of them,(and my trust which he knew nothing about) they would go apeshit if they knew about my trust fund and how I bought my house with “cash” no mortgage.but that did not mean I could just spend whatever,  They always took advantage of my kind heart. I really wanted the best for them, I thought they were friends. I helped them out many many many times, and I did not have to once but I did because that is who I am, I try to help people in need even when I dont have the means to do so, and it was not like I was being greedy(they made me think i was just being greedy and trying to take money from them when I asked for the money I lent them back, which they gave me their word they would..which they made me think that they would pay me back, I had every right to ask for it back they owed me,  so I was just going by that word that they would absolutely pay me back every penny(they had no intention on paying me back. I think in their mind it did not matter if he paid me back or not, in his mind I was rich so the money he stole from me was not a big deal. they lost a friendship because he went back on his word, he is not a man of honor, only a thief. A crook and a coward. they only gave me a few hundred which did not even make a difference to the total amount he owed. I was just trying to recoup what I paid them so I could at least break even, since I really did not have extra money. I tried to get them to sign some kind of agreement to an amount I tried to think was fair,  but he refused because he knew it was a paper trail and I could take them to court. they did not even pay me back for the trip to Pennsylvania even when he gave me his word he would.  And when my basement flooded he was hoping to get money for his loss. If I got any money when suing the city of evansville even if i had gotten any amount it would be used for repairs and not for them. they did not have to live in my house. I could not help it because it rained and my basement flooded. I tried to get them to get a place but he kept dragging his feet. Kept going to the hospital, having health problems. Acting like I was kicking them out when I found a place for them doing all the work finding a place for them to live, paying the first month and deposit so he could get out., even dragging along when he had a place taking his time and my AC was not working making me think that would motivate them to go to a house WITH ac in the middle of a very HOT july and with Pixie Fairy and her health issues. But he still took his time. I had plans for my garage, my studio, but since he had 30 cats that were taking over the garage, I am glad I did not allow them in my house. Those poor cats in the winter it was only supposed to be a few weeks. They never cleaned the litter boxes making my garage trash, I lost my mind yelling and screaming making a neighbor concerned and i yelled at them too. And how they kept the guest room was trashy too. How Dumbledore did not take care of the tv remote or the basement trashing my house. I could not under any circumstances have them live with me again, that is why when he asked again to stay at my house I said it was not going to work out even if that meant he was homeless. They wanted to borrow my extension cord but  I said then I would not have it to use, which I use constantly and even if I only use it twice a year, it is there for ME to use. I am glad he is not my neighbor, he would be over trying to borrow my own tool shed, lawn mower etc etc.  I  am sorry he was on the street but he made his bed, he was not proactive in finding a place. I am not  not here to house them. What if I was not in Evansville? Or in Indiana? What would he have done then? they should have just gone to a hotel . they paid me a couple 100 a week he could have afforded a hotel room. Yeah it would not be a nice house, but it would have been something. Maybe it would have made them more motivated, living at my house was not doing them any favors, in their mind they had it made, why go anywhere else. Paying below average rent, no utilities, free internet, nice big house, so yeah why try for a different place.  I should have been more proactive and said they had to leave before thanksgiving, that was not fair to me.  I gave them resources to help them but he just wanted to take the easy steps and stay at my house. Somehow I had a house so I was obligated to house them and if I did not I was not a friend. And yes Jason was right he said many times over and over that if I did not help Dumbledore, that Dumbledore would say I am not much of a friend. What is this I have a thing, Dumbledore wants said thing so I am supposed to just give it to them? they also came over to use my laundry and shower when they did not have water, with the promise that they would pay me.It seems like a lot of broken promises. They are not a man of his word. They thought I was only helping them to make myself look good. And I was not, I was helping them because I have a kind heart. They called me a rich boy once, which makes me think he thinks I am rich, I am not. I just give what extra I have to help people in need even though I should not because I don't have extra to give even though I wish I did. 

Good riddance to the both of them, they don't understand they can't do this kind of shit to people. I helped them many times and then  the one time i said i could not help them he said I was not a friend. A real friend would not do that. I have other friends who have fallen on hard times but they did not ask me for help because they respect the friendship they know my situation. Even if i was mega rich they would not come to me because they know i am not there to save them like Dumbledore and Stinky thought I was there for, the only reason why they kept coming around is because of my kind heart, the minute I could not give them money or housing they were mean and cynical towards me, telling me I was the one that was not a good friend. That is not what friends are for, I just wanted to be a friend, even if it was just hanging out in my living room watching cat videos on youtube. That did not cost anything. Even if it was going to the river front and just hanging out. Or talking to each other about our problems. That's what friends do, not take take take and then when the other can't give anymore more they ghost you. 

I am thankful for Cassidy which they did give to me, but if I did not rescue her, she would not have survived in his environment. They had like 30 cats and he bragged about it. 

Dumbledore is that type of person that wants you to feel sorry for. If you have a house, he has a hotel room, if you have a three bedroom house he has a one bedroom house. If you have a job, he has two hard physical jobs. You take a bus to work? They have to walk 5 miles to work, oh wow do you want a cookie? I mean big fucking deal. If he drinks 5 gallons of soda a day and you agree with them so do you…. no he drinks more and eats way more unhealthier than you, you have high blood pressure, well he had open heart surgery…..he always wants to one up your misery. That you have no right to complain because he has it far worse than you do. You have everything you need. they do not, he does not own anything(mostly because he steals it) they always have to be the one who has it worse off than you. So he never tries to make his life better because he always has to be the one in the gutter when everyone else is trying to be successful. they have to be the one poor and miserable person  in  the crowd.  So if you are successful and rich he is jealous of that. They want you to feel guilty for what success you have because he does not have it and it is not fair. They are very unhappy people. 

But I guess I am the reason why the friendship ended, it is not his fault at all. They even want me to feel bad about that too. That he misses hanging out and that I should come see his trailer. You see, I have a house but he has a trailer. I sure hope he stays on the west side in his trashy trailer… stay away from me, I sure hope he does not get evicted  because we all know he does not own that shit, it is being rented, and then he would be coming back to see if he can stay at my place again, thats a nope

They have a truck but need a battery. They will pay $100 for a new battery. Instead of walking 5 miles to work, take a taxi, oh but he can't afford it well then get a different job or stop complaining. I don't have a car, or even a license. I have to walk a few miles a day to and from the bus stop and have taken an uber. I don't complain. 

I count my blessings. I have a house and no mortgage, but I am humble about it. I know I have some money in a trust fund but i dont go brag about it. I still work and pay taxes. I know I am not special. I have my own drama but I don't go around trying to make people feel bad about what goes on in my life. 

I think Dumbledore and Stinky just want to be miserable. They dont want to get out of the gutter because then there would be no one to feel sorry for them, no one would have pity on them, they thrive on pity that's how they get by each day knowing that they are the ones in the gutter and miserable. Everyone else is happy but they try to make you unhappy down to their level make you feel guilty for having anything, having a house a studio anything if you have a tree in your yard, that is more than they have because they live in a trailer with no yard etc 

Dumbledore once gave me grief for having a studio and they did not have what they wanted.They just like to guilt trip everyone because they see you are happy. They want to make you unhappy by making you feel guilty for all the nice things you have. Because They have nothing. they did not know that it took a lot of work to have what I have with my studio and house. Over 20 years of learning and acquiring equipment. Also a lot of things I have in my house are second hand. In fact most furniture is from yard sales given to me or I found. If I bought new I worked very hard to save up the money to get it. I don't buy a lot of new furniture. My house was a gift and so was the studio. I can not help that. what i have in that studio i saved up to purchase or just had over the years. It was not just overnight. 

Dumbledore is just one miserable guy, and they want you to know how much in the gutter he is. No one is more miserable than he is or at least that's what he wants you to feel. It's just toxic. That is why i had to just cut ties. I see both Jesse and Stinky on the bus but that's about it I can't help that. I can't totally avoid them because he takes mets too. They would hate the fact that I get free bus rides but I think I am deserving. I have my own struggles but I don't try to make anyone feel bad for me because of my bad knee. Yes I have a bad knee and yes the dr said he is surprised I can walk but I try my best to just live. Everyone has their ups and downs in life. I try to uplift people and not bring them down. Dumbledore just wants to bring you down to his level and make you feel bad for having anything he does not have because he is miserable. 

I mean Pixie Fairy, poor Pixie Fairy, had a couple strokes and he would not be proactive to help her, the doctors and medical professionals advised them to go to a specialist in illinois but he would not do it, he thought he knew more than the doctors, because he was a CNA for 20 years. A fucking Certified Nursing Assisant, cant even distribute medication. Their family contacted me trying to get a hold of her and I wish I had just let them know, I mean Dumbledore wasn't going to do anything but I did not want to be in the middle of that. And now  Pixie Fairy is in some nursing home I assume with her brain as a 3 year old deteriorated. Dumbledore did not get her the help she needed right away. 

One time they changed it and came to my house trying to get a hold of Dumbledore because Dumbledore would not call them, Dumbledore Tersa and Stinky just happened to be there, but Dumbledore like the coward he is ran and hid in my basement refusing to take with her father and sister, they called the cops and he was forced to talk with them. I tried to convince them to talk with them before the cops arrived but he just hid away. Then he got rid of his white truck(which he bought with Pixie Fairies disability money) because now her family recognised the truck. Getting another truck from andrews. He had to get repaired but could not afford the repair so he ran from that bill. Still owing Andrews thousands. 

they would also want to always repair his truck in my driveway leaving it there for days. I asked them to move it and he acted like it was inconvenient for them. When I did not want it there because my folks were coming, my driveway is only so big. One time he asked Thias to help them but thais was like no, “I'm on vacation”. And  I agreed. Jason did not have to do shit. When I went to work, I told Thais that he did not have to let them in  the house or anything and Dumbledore called me giving me grief and I was like I can't control what Jason does. Both thais and jar hate the guy. One time jar was there and so was thias they cooked some food, Dumbledore came over with Pixie Fairy and ate all the food thias made for jar and them. That pissed thias off they had to leave to get away. Dumbledore is just a toxic person because he expected people to bow down to them, give them what he needed. theys homeless so he expected me to house them. Like he had absolutely no one else, so other person or resource could help even though he has a huge family, and all kinds of resources in evansville to help someone like them, no I had to be the one providing a house to them. I helped them and his ladies once, they overstayed their welcome. It was only supposed to be a few weeks one month tops, but shit kept hitting the fan, shit kept happening so they had to stay, he kept going to the hospital having health issues, losing his job. I have a feeling he was doing it on purpose. Prolonging the stay as long as he could because getting his own place ment he would pay more in rent, have to pay utilities etc. he had it made paying me only a couple hundred in rent. And even though it was a little extra income for me it was not worth the stress it had on me. It wore me out and I had to postpone the construction of my studio. That was in the plans even before Dumbledore came; it was actually in the plans even before I bought the house. When I was looking at houses I was looking for spaces to build the studio. but they did not care, they acted like I made that up on the spot to get them out of my house because they did not seem to care much that I wanted to get them moved out so I could start construction on my studio. They never were proactive in finding a place. I had to do  the work of finding a place for rent, contacting the landlord, making appointments to see the place. I paid for the deposit. they didnt do shit, he was always too worn out after work. Well so was I. It did not matter that I worked less hours or just “at a desk” master control was way more than just sitting at a desk. . It was a hard job, (at this time I was working master control AND technical directing) I had to work 2nd shift Saturday and then 1st shift sunday, and Dumbledore wondered why i was so worn out sunday afternoon, just because my job wasn't physical  for the most part because it was a little, it was mentally draining. they acted like his job was worse because it was mentally and physically.  It was important to me and my mental health that they get their own place. They kept saying we were good friends but we could never be roommates, and I agreed . I think he was surprised that I agreed he wanted me to not agree and insist he stay as my roommate. Them staying with me was never meant to be long term, a few weeks tops until they found a place. 9 months was way too long, and it drained me physically, mentally and financially. I still have not recovered financially. Because my utility bills were higher, more people use the water,more people use the laundry water and gas,  and the heat and ac all day vs turn off during the day when I am gone. I had to still pay that bill, it still had to be paid. they did not care. They had it made. Did not care that I had plans to build a recording studio , they did not have their dreams meant and that it was unfair that I had a recording studio, Dumbledore didn't have his restaurant and that was not fair. or could not have other people over to visit like my mom and dad. They practically wanted my house.   I had a house and they didn't and that was unfair.  It was not fair to me they were there for that long. I should have made them get a hotel room after a month, i mean too bad, they could afford it since they were paying me rent. I know they did not want to but at least they were out of my house. If i had not insisted they get a place and search for a place, pay the first months rent and deposit they would have never left. It was in their best interest to stay as long as they could milk it as long as they could no matter the stress it had on me, messing up my house, not keeping their space organized, I mean I am not the most organized person but when I live alone that's my deal. When three other people do the same it makes my house even more trashier. I felt i could not say anything about their mess because i'm messy too but i should have. It was my house, my rules. They should have done better to be a better house guest. But at times I felt like it was not my house; they just took it over. I mean that's what they wanted. They did not care if they trash my house. They did not take care of it, it wasn't theirs. They would still be there if they could get away with it. But I had it. I did my best to get them out, even bought that truck which he did not even test drive. All of a sudden he is handing over the money 700.00 and that was it. they could not even drive a manual. It was a monster anyway. Lifted, Pixie Fairy had  trouble getting in. I had to pay for the tow from Vincennes to evansville. So now he is stuck with a truck he can't buy, trying to sell it, found a buyer to trade with but that ended up being a scam because then some guy called claiming the car Dumbledore got to trade with was stolen. I think that was a scam in the first place. Because then he agreed Dumbledore buy the car give the guy money when it was a straight up trade so the guy and is partner gets the truck and more money. Dumbledore stopped paying and the guy took the car back, so now he was out of a car again. 700.00 wasted. When the whole reason for buying the truck was so he did not have to rent the car, he could use the money to save up to rent a place. So now he is still renting the car and back to square one again. All this time he could have been more proactive to get a place but he really did not want to move from my place. Making it to where it prolonged his stay not giving a shit what it did to me. I had a house so I was some how obligated to share it otherwise in his fucked up head i am not a good friend if i dont help them. 

This is why I MUST avoid Dumbledore and Stinky. They aren't good people no matter how much they convince themselves they are. They dragged me  through the mud and then still asked for more help even though I gave them resources and numbers to call. I honestly did not want them to be homeless, I know that must be rough, but I am a friend, I can be there for them, maybe look up numbers of places for them to call like 211 or something like that but I am not here to provide things housing or money, I can only do so much. I scraped by what extra I had to help them and they still said I was not a good friend because I did not continue to provide for them. It was like they were looking for that hand out even though they both would be against social services like food stamps and welfare for the underprivileged.kind of ironic. They did not want that kind of help except just money and to live at my house they just wanted to stay at my house and forget it. No more responsibilities if they lived at my house.  I had a house so in their mind I was obligated to house them simply because it is the way they saw it. I had a thing, they expected me to share sad things with them. And when I could not provide, oh well I am not a good friend. I was the reason they were homeless because I refused them shelter, like I was the ONLY resource to help them. Dumbledore has a huge family with a whole mess of brothers and sisters, nieces and nephews, but I and I alone were the one to rescue them. I alone was  the reason they were out on the street homeless. It was all my fault because I had a house and I refused them. I was the one turning my back on them. I can not fix the world. I can not fix their problems. They wanted me to fix their homelessness by having them stay at my house with their 30 cats with no regard on how  that would affect my mental and physical health. Also I did help them and let them stay at my house for 9 months and they overstayed their welcome. I helped them and got them out of so many situations like sending money for their rent, (with the promise of paying me back) As long as they had a roof(mine) over their head it did not matter. Screw that and Screw them. NEVER AGAIN. 

When they were homeless I gave them help, as in resources to call but they did not take that help, they wanted money and my house. So when I said no to that they said I turned my back on them. Even though I tried my best to help them without giving them money or my house. Because when they stayed at my house I felt I was being pushed out and did not have control of MY HOUSE. They did as they pleased and treated their space as trash. Trashed the room and did not care. And when I was getting them out to the house they were renting(thanks to me) Dumbledore acted like I was kicking them out and he really did not want to leave because he took his slow ass little time. Even when my AC did not work in the middle of the summer, hot as hell, he still did not rush to leave. It's like he had a place, rent was paid and he still did not move as quickly as he should have. they really did not want to move out of my nice house. Nice neighborhood. They were moving to a shotgun shack in jimtown. And he was slow on changing the mail address even though it was inconvenient for them to keep getting his mail. they had to get it on MY TIME. Yet he said by telling them to get a po box it was making it more convenient for me. But then What if I went out of town for three weeks(for whatever reason, vacation or whatever) and he was expecting some important mail like his pay card. they would not be able to get paid or get his mail. For as long as I was out of town, and when I stopped my mail I could only stop my mail. I could not legally stop his mail so the mailbox would get full of his mail. Making it easy for people to steal. It was just so fucked up.  They were trying to say it was my fault he was not getting paid when he wanted his pay card sent to my house. they didn't want it sent to his address because he was paranoid it would be stolen even though that is a federal offense. So therefore he did not have an address for his paycard, it was my address or no address and if he could not use my address then he could not be paid. And with Dumbledore using my address that meant the court system knew it as mine. What if he had a warrant(could happen he has a bench warrant, came to my house) and the police came to my house looking for them. You see he was using my address to hide he wants to be off the grid. They can't run away forever, if anyone comes to my house looking for them like the police or bounty hunter, I would  tell them what I know, with absolutely no hesitation. The whole situation is so fucked up. I really thought Dumbledore and Stinky were my friends. Many times we would make plans and then they would flake out on me, not even give me a call to say plans have changed. I would rather call me with changed  plans than have me wait all day for them. Geesh my time is valuable.  Yeah we disagreed on some things but who doesn't. no one agrees on everything. That is not the issue. It was the fact he saw I was a kind giving person and he wanted a piece of that. they wanted me to give them whatever he wanted, money, things, my house etc. they saw that I had a house instead of an apartment and he wanted a piece of that. I should have listened to Jason Robinson and Jason  Thias and my Parents. I really wanted to believe they were my friends. But what they did is NOT what friends do.  None of my other friends have asked so much of me because they KNOW I don't have endless amounts of money and the means to help financially the way Dumbledore and Stinky expected me to. Even if I was rich my friends know not to take advantage of that. I have friends who are way better off than i am and I don't ask them for money. My other friends respect the friendship enough to know if they fall on hard times it is not up to me to fix it. They respect me. They can come to me for moral support but Dumbledore asked too much of me. they expected too much. That is not what a friend does. I was a friend to them and once I did not give them what he needed, in his mind,  I was no longer a friend or at least that's how he wanted me to believe. they knew I had a credit card and to them  that was endless money, he could ask for my help, use my credit card “say he was going to pay me back” and get what he needs. No regard to me because I still had to pay the credit card bill. That amount would not normally be on my balance. I still had to pay for it. I had my own expenses and with that extra amount only added to the balance even more. Putting me more into debt.  It did not make a difference to them, it wasn't his credit card he was spending. they did not care if I could not pay the balance, he got what he needed. They once asked to use my credit card so they could get a hotel room, because I said at first I did not have the money, but with my credit card in his mind I DID have the money. The credit card was money. Even though it was not because with a credit card the amount has to be paid. Stinky once said out loud when I was near, that they should get a credit card in case I am not around and can't use mine. She said the quiet part out loud. Why not just get a credit card? Because  then they would REALLY have to pay it back, Using my Credit card they did not have to pay anything back. They never really did until I hounded them. Like if i was not around they would be screwed because they could not use my card. They had no intention of paying me back except that last time I hounded Dumbledore and he did pay me but acted like I was taking his last penny like he was not going to eat now because I took all his money. Oh boo hoo. Who Cares.  Like I was the greedy one. When all i was asking for is to pay me so I could pay the credit card. I did not have that money to pay so I would be in the hole even further. they never cared about that. 

I guess he saw I must have  had money because I bought a house and had money to build a recording studio.  Therefore I had money to give to them as well. They wanted a part of that so he took advantage of my kind heart. We were “friends” and he thought friends help each other when they are in need. Which i did many times, it was not to make myself feel good it was just the thing to do. But he wanted the help he wanted, not some help I gave them like telling them to call 211 or a church to help with his homelessness. That was help but he did not want it. Then said I did not give them any help AT ALL. even after ALL the help I did give money, housing etc. When I said no more he was saying I was not a good friend. 

And then when i worked building a website for four wolves even having dad design a logo at no cost he said the site was plain and was not making any money, he blamed me on them not making money. Even Though they needed a paypal account to make it easy to order and with paypal you need a bank account, which he does not have, tried to get me to get an account for the business. I was like NOPE. I have enough trouble keeping track of my personal bank accounts. I was done helping them with the website, he never paid me for it anyway. Saying I was not doing my part and wanted me to “man  the booth” at the flea market on Saturdays even though I worked on Saturdays at the time I was not about to work at some flea market in the morning and then work at WNIN at night. That's like working 2 shifts in one day. Plus I had to work early on Sunday morning. But then he claimed I was being lazy not doing my part for the business even though I volunteered to design the website when he claimed it was plain and not bringing in business. When they should not be producing food products in a messy dirty kitchen anyway,  and not registered with the state, not paying taxes. I am so glad that my hands are clean of that mess. How could i work the booth saturday morning and then have time to get to WNIN by 2pm on Saturday? It would be impossible to do. they was asking me to do an impossible task and he claimed i was being lazy. they (at the time) had a car, i do not so I rely on METS, saturdays is one bus an hour. And I am not even sure there is a bus by said flea market so how could i get to work anyway. 

they also wanted to make my studio part of the four wolves business, i am thinking somehow that would mean if i made any money with the studio he would want a cut of that. Or somehow piggy back off me if I were to ever become legit with it. Tax wise. Or registering with the state, LLC etc. If  had done all that he would just piggyback off me so he would not have to do any of that. 

Dumbledore is a piece of work, he needs help like mentally. they dragged Stinky again into his world. They are married AGAIN. they truly needs help. they just uses people and takes advantage them he wonders why I won't talk to them anymore. they thinks it's Like one time i got mad at them and decided to walk away. they can not comprehend what he does to people or maybe he does and knows what he is doing. Manipulating people to think its their fault. No more. I know what he does. I walked away and never looked back. I will never call them a friend again. they took advantage of the friendship. That should never happen. Real friends don't do what they did. Real friends just enjoy the company. They enjoy just hanging out. They don't expect anything out of you. Real friends don't ask for money because they know that can tarnish a friendship. Not Dumbledore, he was just there to see what he could get out of me. they never intended to pay me back , Dumbledore is NOT a man of his word. I could just hang out and play monopoly, go to flea markets,  or whatever, like we did but he was up to something. Knowing I had a kind heart and a credit card he knew he could take advantage. It did not make a difference to them, it wasn't his credit card, it wasn't his responsibility. they could just have me spend it on what he needed and not give a damn about paying me back. No wonder he “misses hanging out” they misses using that credit card. 

One time he called me up, wanting to help pay for his new car taxes. I was like I don't have that kind of money, he was not happy because I had the money to go out to eat but not help them out. Screw them 

“they could use my help again” I bet that is what he is hoping, that I come back wanting to hang out then he would be up to his old tricks, he will say, he needs help with rent or help with buying a battery for his truck or what not,. they would say if he only had 200.00 he could get his truck running again so  then he would not have to walk 5 miles a day to and from work.Hurting his knees. Maybe that is why he told me so I would feel sorry and somehow offer to buy a battery for his truck.   Boy I would LOVE to win the lottery, or fall assbackwards into a load of money,  let them know and then never give them a dime. I have something he wants. They think he has the right to my money. I have a  little bit of money and good credit so he has the right to those things because he has bad credit, does not have any money and does not even have a bank account or a credit card so he must have what little money I have. Because it is not fair I have a credit card and he doesn't. So he must take and use mine without any thought about paying me back. They think he is somehow obligated to what little money I have because he does not have any so he must take what I have. They are really messed up in the head if he thinks he can just take take take what is not his with no respect or no regard to what it does to me. they have nothing, he sees I have something and he wants to take what I have leaving me with nothing. No care in the world because he is in the gutter and he would drag me in there just to get out not caring what it does to me. they have to be supreme. Yet he is in the gutter and wants everyone to feel sorry for them, hoping people will throw money at them. They want everyone to know that no one has it worse off than he and Stinky do. No matter what you are going through, with work, family bills, debt, he has it worse off and you have no right to complain because you “have it made” Dumbledore is such a sad individual. They have had a tragic life. His brother raping them

They even got Pixie Fairies disability money but never made an effort to pay me back what he owed. They cashed all of the back pay at Walmart and then bought a used SUV truck which was junk and fell apart. Then he wonders why I did not let them live with me the second time being homeless, guilting me because he was struggling on the street.he told me I was basically saying I would rather them being homeless than live in my house when that wasn't true at all. I would never want anyone to be in that situation, that is why  I gave them resources as in the 211 number to help them but he did not want “that kind of help”  that meant he would have to work for that help, a normal person would understand that I was trying to help them anyway I could(without giving them money or let them stay…take over my house)  they just wanted to stay at my house and forget any responsibility. Giving me more stress. They did not care as long as they had my house to live in. He did not care and they would have taken it over. I did not feel like I had any control,even though it was my house they did not respect it. And then his friend Mike started staying there too. Burning candles in my basement. It was like I was just there and it was not even my house anymore. I had a house, and they did not so they wanted my house. Not respecting my space, making messes, not caring if the back of the remote for the tv fell off, it wasn’t his. they did not respect me yet he demanded respect from me. Even when I posted a Bob Dylan lyric(highway 61) having to do with the bible verse with abraham and god telling them to kill his son) he said that was insulting even though it referenced HIS bible and religion it was nothing new about it. Just a goddamn reference to what he believes in anyway. And it had nothing to do with them. I just randomly posted the verse because I liked the song and what it meant to me. I did not tag them or mention them. they just saw it and  thought it had to do with them. Like everything else. Has to do with them. What a dope.  And most of all it was 2019 when he asked the LAST time if they could stay at my house. Summer 2019. Right before the covid 19 pandemic. 

They would have never left using the lock down as an excuse. That would have been chaotic. Since I had to work from home starting in March of 2020. they would want to watch his Transformers cartoons like an 8 year old. And I would not get any work done. Not to mention he would not get vaccinated probably would have contracted covid giving it to me before I was vaccinated. I am so glad I refused them living with me again. It would not have worked out like I told them, I was being honest. I would not want them on the street cold and hungry and homeless but I would not want them living in my house again. I gave them all kinds of places that help people in his situation so no I would NOT rather them be homeless that is why I gave them resources to help them. If I did not care I would not have even done that. they just had a one track mind focused on one thing…living at my house. they would not or could not go to the homeless shelter because of the cats. they would not get off his ass when he was being evicted. Or go to public housing to get on the list. they just wanted my house and that was IT. and if i told them i was selling it he would have offered to buy it(on contract) 

Even Bob did not like them. They saw the mess he made. And the stress he gave to me. Parking his junky car in my driveway.  That one time I offered them my old freezer for money but he never picked it up. they found out I was selling it and said I backed out on my word. I wanted it gone. Or that time I gave them my old TV. They took his time picking it up. Such a dope. 

Dumbledore and Stinky have had their wages gouged so many times because of the money they owe to various places. I would not doubt that they quit and change jobs just to avoid garnishment. they is that kind of person. they'll Dumbledore said he does not file taxes because the refund would be garnished for his school loans. So why bother. I don't know if that is even legal.

Dumbledore's business apparently has turned into a ministry, no more crappy food, so he can try to bulk even more people out of their money, he won't have to pay taxes because he will claim it is a religious organization. That is a great con for them. I try to warn people of them. They aren't good people. I don't know if they would even have been my friend if I did not have a credit card. I mean I had an apartment for the longest time. What would they have done if they came to try to live with me when I had the apartment? That would not have worked with all their crap and 30 cats. I let Jason stay with me, yes but he is a reasonable person and he got his crap together and was out within a couple of weeks. He wanted his own place. And not be a burden on me. Dumbledore did not care.  Once I got to that house he seemed to want more and more help. 

they was tired of living in that RV so once there was a tiny spark on the electric box he claimed there was a fire. I have a feeling there was no fire. they knew by then I had a house and not an apartment. I bet it was his plan all along to stay at my house even though he said over and over “pete we are good friends but we could never be roommates” and I agreed. I think he wanted me to disagree and insist they move in permanently  But I really agreed that we could never be roommates, i saw how he lived. Me agreeing they stay was only supposed to be a temporary, until he found a place of his own. a few weeks tops, so there would not be a chance to cake in their filth into my house. The cats had to stay in the garage, again it was supposed to be temporary so the cats would not suffer for  too long and I could get started on building my studio. I had just cleaned the basement and replaced the floor from the previous owner having cats I was not about to ruin my house with his 30 cats.  they never cleaned up after them and in that time the garage had flies and more filth and created more cats because when you put cats together in a confined space, More cats will happen that's just nature.   I never in a million years intended for them to stay as long as they did. One time I opened the garage door just to air it out, but then Dumbledore closed it thats what I mean i had no control over my own property. I tried from the moment they came to stay to get them out. But they all dragged their feet, shit kept hitting the fan to have them stay longer, car trouble, health trouble, getting fired from jobs, therefore no income for rent. They did not make one ounce of effort to go out and find an apartment or house to rent. It was that they were too tired from work(when they did work) to go out and look and I was disrespecting their time off by insisting they look for a place. Why would they? They already had a house. The only reason they moved out is that I did all the work and found a place for them, and even  then Dumbledore dragged along to move out I even had to rent a truck to get his crap out quicker otherwise he would take items one by one on  the bus.they acted like he was being evicted from his home and I was the bad landlord. Kicking them out of the very nice house he was living in for no reason. I wish I had insisted they get a hotel room before thanksgiving of 2013. I spent so much money on that food and he made such a mess of my kitchen. And a shitty cold meal too. Jar came to visit for thanksgiving, Dumbledore acted like Jason was disrespecting them when he did not take his gift even though he did. Dumbledore just manipulates people to make them think they are disrespecting them. When all along he disrespected my space and me all the time. I had a house and he wanted it. It was not fair I had a house and he did not. 

Then when they moved out I tried to get the makeshift cage he made. I called them not knowing his schedule woke them up. Trying to get them to take the cage. I should have just thrown it out. they never did anything with it anyway. They are such dope. Expecting everyone to kiss his ass at the same time claiming others do the exact thing. They run away from his problems, his responsibilities. The money he owes like to andrew auto sales. They will never get a dime from them.  I should send a letter to them anonymously  giving them info on them. It is public record anyway. Just warn them they are “judgment proof” and most

 

I could not have predicted covid but that would have been even more chaotic. 

If I ever see them on the bus or what not, I try to minimize the conversation. 

Dumbledore is so clueless on why I will no longer talk to them. They think I am just angry at them and that there is a chance I will crawl back and forgive them. Nope. He is a dope. A thief. They took advantage of my friendship and my kind heart. I was truly his friend. I cared about his well being, his health, his mental health. I even said to them he should go get help for his cynical attitude. And when he saw I said get help that is what triggered it all, saying I would not help them when he needed it even though I did. they claimed the help he wanted , house them. Was what I did not help them with. So therefore I “turned my back on them” I was not a good friend because I did not provide for them. I had a house so I was obligated to provide housing to them after all that time of letting them live in my house for 9 months, buying them a truck, paying for tickets and court costs and bailing them out on paying for his rent when they were in Bumbfuck Egypt still, paying for that vacation to hershey, pa…. Meals, meals, gas, gas gas, hotel rooms, letting them use my credit card to pay for oil and vehicle registration, taxi rides, car tows from vincennes after i gave them 700 for that awful truck he could not even drive. getting them a place to rent, paying for first months rent and deposit, after all  that I was not a friend because I did not help them that one last time. they claimed I would just break my arm patting myself on the back, I guess that means I was just helping them to gratify my own ego and not out of the goodness of my heart. I was asking for what he owed me back but nothing with interest. I was just looking to not go into debt helping them. I can only do so much. I am not the provider of all, yet he acted like I was the ONLY resource to help them, if i did not help them then he was homeless down and dirty. And it was MY fault.  I was the reason he was homeless because I, Pete the great provider did not provide. I had a house therefore I HAD to share what I had no matter what. If I did not, in his eyes,I was being selfish because I did not SHARE my great house. This Proves he was just there for what he could get, the MOMENT I said no, he was GONE. They were angry and cynical and did not want to hang out. The ONLY thing positive about the pandemic was that I used it as an excuse not to see them. They were not vaccinated , Stinky too, so I refused them at my house. I did not want to get them sick because I did not know if I was sick(that's the thing about covid) . I did not want to get sick. I did not want others to get  sick, mom had cancer and did not want to make that worse. they never knew she had cancer because I did not want to make it an “oh poor me” kind of a deal like he would. they were never there to be a friend, he was just there for  the money, the credit card. Oh poor Dumbledore needs help paying rent because he spends his pay check on  ten thousand build-a-bears and a bunch of useless crap as soon as he gets paid, not saving back for bills and rent,  and so does not have money when it is time to pay said rent and bills. I guess he  thought he could just call me up, claim he does not have money for rent, promise to pay me back and that's just free money for them. They never intended to pay me back because when I tried to get it back he said I was being greedy and trying to take money from them, refusing to sign some kind of agreement  that he would pay me saying his word is good enough . they knew I could take them to court if there was a signed agreement. It was a paper trail, but without that agreement it is his word against mine. they could just say I am trying to bulk money out of them, say he has nothing and that I am greedy trying to take his money.  Lousy slob. 

Dumbledore is such a dope, a liar. A con. I am not sure why he thought for a moment since I had a house I was obligated to share with them. They said for years we could never be roommates. I guess that was just a lie. Or just when I had an apartment. I mean I agreed. they were only good in a brief moment not to live with. Once he saw I had a house he saw an opportunity to where he and his women could just live with me, not pay a whole lot in rent, back down on the promise of helping with utilities etc. and have it made. It was not his property so he could treat it like shit. Like he does every place he lives at and he wonders why he gets evicted. Them living with me was ONLY supposed to be TEMPORARY. A few weeks tops. Shit just kept hitting the fan to prolong the stay. they did not want to leave sugar mountain to go to shit creek. 

I could go the rest of my life without seeing them, sadly they take public transportation so there is always a chance. I am saddened. It turned out like this. I really thought they were my friends. But friends would not do what they did. Treat me the way they did. I could not help them out of a jam,  therefore I was not a good friend. Somehow I am loaded with money and I can give give it all away. Dumbledore once called me “rich boy” when he was mad at me to use as an insult. Somehow he thought i was loaded and therefore I had to share the wealth, at one point he was making more money but that did not matter.I am not here to just provide. Just because I have a house, that does not mean I am obligated to share it. It was a three bedroom but only one extra small room really. I did not have a whole lot of room. Just because I have a house and a credit card that does not mean I have to share ANY of it. That does not make me greedy or selfish. Dumbledore and them had plenty of chances to be decent, plenty of time to get off their ass and find a place, instead they used the opportunity to stay, overstay their welcome. Use up what they could out of me and then when I could no longer provide, I was not a friend to them. 

They were never my friends. Just there to see what they could take from me. Never intending to pay me back the money I gave them or all the  times I helped  them. Letting them stay with me for nearly a year, sacrificing my house. It did not matter because once I said I could not help them, the very moment I said no to their demands,  they were gone like the wind. Blaming me that I turned my back on them when in truth they turned their back on me because I did not give them money or whatever they wanted. A true friend would not ask for such things because they know what it can do to a friendship. That is why they were not truly my friends because they did not care about the friendship, they just cared about what they could get moneywise. Credit card use etc. They did not care that the money spent on that credit card had to be paid back and it was out of my budget to spend so therefore had to be  paid back. It was OVER what my income was. Sure they saw I  spent money on equipment for my studio and the studio itself or vacations. But I had to SAVE for that. I could not just go to Chicago on a whim. It had to be planned. I saved back each payday for a WHOLE year to get a few grand for that well deserved vacation. But all Dumbledore sees is that I went to Chicago and spent a lot of money thinking I have money for that but not to help out with his scammy business. I hope no one ever gives them money or anything.

The last time he saw me on  the bus Dumbledore says he misses me, yeah he misses using me, taking advantage of my kindness, using my credit card and or getting cash from me. Like I was the one that walked away and he is not at fault. They walked away the moment he said I turned my back on them for not helping them when they were down and out even when it was the 700th time. I just could not mentally, physically and financially do it. they said I would help JAR out but not them. Yeah but JAR did not need help. When I helped them and let them stay at my apartment he was out within a month, he got his shit together. JAR owns his own company and house. they will be doing fine. JAR and every one of my friends respect me and the friendship. Dumbledore had all sorts of chances to not be homeless. they chose that. So  that he could come to me to show me he was homeless there was plenty of time to not be homeless. Plenty of services to prevent that from happening which i told them about. they did not listen, they just did not want that advice. they WANTED to be homeless and on the street so I would feel more sorry for them and take them in. at least that is what he was hoping for.  If he had used those services that I told them about, he would have gotten help therefore no chance of coming to me to stay at my house. So NO I did not turn my back on them, I was honestly trying to prevent them from getting into that situation. I am not cold hearted despite the fact he tried to make me feel I was because I did not let them stay at my house again after all we went through the first time as if it did not happen at all. I would not want them to be homeless but I also did not want them living at my house. So he claimed I'd rather be homeless than stay at my house. On the surface that seemed true but I just did not want them living at my house and he blamed me for his homelessness instead of taking responsibility for it.  they acted like I wasTHE ONLY way he was not going to be homeless, I was the ONLY person in the ENTIRE FUCKING universe that could help them, despite the big family he had, or services in the city that could help them. they probably burned too many bridges with his own family therefore they would not even take them in because he took advantage of them too. I bet he owes all kinds of money to them as well and they got tired of the bullshit despite them being blood family. They always claimed I was a “brother” . I was family to them because his own brothers and sisters and family  did not want anything to do with them. That is just sad,  that someone can burn so many bridges with their own family, his own flesh and blood who  does not want shit to do with them. 

I helped them out plenty of times. I was not being cold hearted. I was just looking out for my own mental health. The time they stayed with me burned me. I was not about to go through that again. they did not care what it did to me, as long as he had a place to stay it did not matter what it did to others. they did not respect me, my family or my space, my domain, my house etc. . 

Otherwise he would do his damest not to stay at my house instead of guilting me to think I am the reason he is homeless and in the gutter. No one wants that for anyone, but he made his bed. They dug the hole for which the gutter sits. It is not my responsibility to fix everyone's problems. There are an awful lot of people in Evansville alone, I can not help all of them. And will not. Does that make me cold and heartless? NO. I simply cannot. Dumbledore expected my help when I simply COULD NOT. They were expecting me to give in and say ok when he asked to stay last time. they did not expect a NO. I don't think he has the mental capacity to realize what he does to people. How he just uses people, asking if he can put Stinky's bike underneath the car port but then add a grocery cart full of crap.he did not think i would notice? …..Or care. Or all the other times he just walked all over me expecting for me to just be ok with that. 

They have a lot of problems and issues to deal with and should really seek mental health help. There is something truly disturbed about them and Stinky too. Poor Pixie Fairy is in the mess she is in because they did not take action, they let his ego take over saying he knew more than medical professionals did. They were a goddamn nursing assistant. they did not have nearly  the education those doctors did. they were three times BELOW a doctor. they could not even give out medication. Yet he thought he knew better. they clings on to Stinky because she is all he has. They have no other friends. I hope there aren't any other fools that give in to them. They just walk over people and then demand respect from them. I almost feel sorry for Dumbledore and Stinky, but they dug their own gutter. They will always be in the situation  they are in because of it. 

Premadonna attitude, everyone around them is walking on eggshells.anything you say could set them off. Even if you did not mean anything you could look at them wrong and he could say you are an anti jewish or not believe in his god or something and he would bring drama into it.  

They are NOT my friends. They are roaches. That is why they live in filth. They like the company.

And I was willing to forgive all the things he did. UNTIL he said I turned my back on them for not helping them the last time… forgetting or disregarding all  the times I did help them, all the times I “lent” them money, sending them money to cover rent with the promise of paying me back. Renting cars, buying a truck for them. Getting his car towed.….so he does not have to ask. like it did not even matter all the times I helped all the money and resources I gave them that did not matter. That is why I had to just walk away and wipe my hands clean of both of them. So screw them and Stinky.  

I did not have to do any of that but he was supposed to be my friend, and I did not want to see them suffer. But it was all an act. They wanted to be in the gutter and suffer so people felt sorry for them. They complain about walking 5 miles to and from work so someone will feel sorry and offer  to buy a battery for his truck. they said that so I would feel sorry or pull on my heart strings so I would offer to buy a battery for them without them asking. Manipulating me to make me give them what he needs without asking for it, it frees them from asking for help if people offer them what he wants. So it is not on them asking for things all the time. Like the time he said “I wish I knew someone who could lend me a guitar” looking right at me, knowing full well I had a guitar….(he thought to lend)  but he did not ask directly,  they wanted me to offer my guitar. Which I did not. This method takes the asking right out of it, if he could just get people to give them what he needs he does not look like he is pathetic and asking for things he would work hard to get themself. And  I would have never seen it ever again. I was like good luck with that. Sorry but not sorry. And I guess I was the bad friend for not lending them my prized possessions. They wanted to borrow my super Nintendo so Pixie Fairy could have something to play with while he worked. But I was like if I lend it to you then I would not have it to play with. Sorry not sorry but that's not being selfish. My things are not for them. EVER. I bought that SNES for me to play with. Not to lend it out when I would have never seen it ever again. 

How about that time he wanted to borrow my lawn mower, again I would have never seen it again. Or the time he gave me grief for paying someone to mow my lawn (and not paying them) like I was some privileged rich boy(it is a big yard and I do not think i had my riding mower yet) or the time I jokingly complained to them that  i did not get the right onion with my food delivery and he said that serves me right for getting my food delivered instead of getting it myself. What a jackass. Dumbledore is and always has mental issues. Taking advantage of people. Even the people he claimed to call friends. But maybe he was just there to see what he could get because the VERY MOMENT I could not provide he was not friendly and he was cynical towards me. Any normal friend would understand, any normal person would not try to drain and burn out people they call friends. Not Dumbledore, they wanted to blame me for being homeless. In their mind I was the ONLY resource. No other person would help them, I guess That should have been my first clue. They even burned bridges with their own family. Or they did not want to burden their family so they burden me instead.  Say that I was cold hearted because

 I would not let them stay at my house after all they put me through. They didn't care that I had a credit card balance to pay off. I tried to spend what I earned and at the time I was doing good. If I let Dumbledore use my credit card that meant that I had less to spend on bills and myself. They never paid me back, so I had more to pay when the balance was due, when normally I would have a less amount owed. Dumbledore did not care. I wasn't being greedy or trying to take their money, I just tried to be responsible and not get into debt. I was just trying to break even and not make any kind of profit.  After all they said they were a man of Their word. A man of honor. Their words not mine. 

I wish with all my heart that I never gave them a dime.Or let them live with me. It would have saved a lot of trouble.  I am not here to rescue anyone. I did not have the means or the resources to help them. Yet I scrapped what little extra I had just to help them, and everytime they took advantage of it. Then they had the balls to say I turned my back on them the very moment I did not help them again. Like I was the ONLY resource out there. I did not help them so I was being greedy and selfish because I had a home so in their mind I was obligated to share. What is this, why is everyone coming to ME with their problems like  I am supposed to solve them. I have a house so I am REQUIRED to share it. What it comes down to is they were Jealous.They wanted what I had. I had a house and a credit card and they did not, that absolutely was not fair. They had to have what I had.They would have never left. Because they were making sure they drugged the situation as long as they could………getting fired, going to the hospital, cars breaking down, buying a truck they can't even operate. I only wish I had insisted they go to a hotel room. I should have, I know I would have looked like an asshole, a bad friend but after so many months they were just taking advantage. Then they had the balls to ask to stay again after all that after all what happened. And absolutely EXPECTED me to just give in and let them live at my house with no hesitation. But when I said NO with no hesitation they were surprised. They still even asked for an extension cord. To charge their phone. Living in a tent.With some electricity at the campsite. At that point they put themselves in that situation. They took advantage of my kindness and EXPECTED and DEMANDED respect. After all that I did for them not really expecting anything in return(although return payments would have been nice so I would not be in debt) they still DEMANDED that I share my home. And when I did not do as they DEMANDED, oh then “I was not a good friend”, I turned my back on them after all that I did for them I still “turned my back on them” never showing any gratitude for ALL the things I did for them, all the money I spent helping them,the time I gave them. Postponing the construction of my pride and joy………my studio, my dream studio, just to make sure they were safe and had a roof over their head.I could not have any visitors because they were at my house. But at the time helping them was important, that they were taken care of, all that and STILL not ONE ounce of gratitude, Proves they were just there to TAKE TAKE TAKE. 

Then Jesse said I was just doing all that to “pat myself on the back, to make myself feel and look good” They need help and I can not give them help. They will always be in the situation they are in because they will always expect someone else to take care of them or feel sorry for them. They want to be in the gutter, stay in the sad situation they are in so they can use that, make people feel bad for them, maybe get some money from folks because they are “down and out” they want to stay that way so people have pity on them so really I do not feel sorry at all. They could do better but they CHOOSE not to. They blame everyone, including me for their situation. Because I could have taken them in when they were homeless(AGAIN) but I did not after last time, not what they put me through that were without a care. As long as they got a piece of my pie. (what little I had)  

Now just recently when I saw them last on the bus,( a few weeks ago)  they invited me to their place, wanting me to come over sometime, but I know they want to show off their trailer so I can see how they live in squalor compared to the “mansion” I live in.Show off how poor they are,how they live in filth with the bugs and roaches.Jesse acts like it is such a great thing to live on the west side in a trailer. But I know it is so they can shame me for what I have because they have nothing.A real friend does not do that.According to them, no one is worse off than they are. They want to guilt me for having what I have.and I have no right to complain about anything according to them.I have a bank account,a credit card and a house( something that millions of americans have) and they don't so they want what I have. They want all the money I have in my bank account so they can have the money I have and so I will be without it. It is not fair I have money, it is not fair I have a job I actually enjoy and earn money from. It is not fair I have family that visit me, friends that visit me. 

Jesse would always get angry at me for not letting them know when JAR or Thias visited. They both did not like Jesse so why would I let Jesse know when they were in town,  if JAR and THIAS did not like JESSE. Jesse just had FOMO. They did not want to be left out but why would I let Jesse  know when people come to visit if said people did not want to hang out with them in the first place?Plus Jesse never had any money and the things Jar and Thias and I did always required money(like going out to eat) so it would not be fair to Jesse to invite along to something where they had to spend money, they would just expect someone else to pay for them anyway. They were not very pleasant to be around sometimes. Only when they were getting something in return. Always cynical towards me, especially after I did not let them stay at my house again.I was not about to have that happen again. I knew their behavior. It was to get what they needed and be done, never intended to pay me back. If they were to be homeless as an alternative to living in my house then that is what had to be done. I don't really care. I am not here to save the world. They made that choice. They made their bed. It was never up to me to rescue them.Although after the first few times they just came to expect it. Like a sick and lost puppy. 

They want to start hanging out again so I would be obliged to invite them over. Then they would stay late and never leave. I am NOT going to their trailer, and they ARE NOT invited to my house. 

They screwed up the friendship, especially when they said I turned my back on them after the last time they asked for my help 

and I could not help them physically and mentally,I simply could not do it, it was just too much. After all I did for them, according to Jesse, I still turned my back on them because I did not help them for the 700th time. They expected my money, my house, my resources. It did not matter if it stressed me out or I was in debt because of it, they wanted what I had and they were going to take it if I had let them. but I was not going to give in. 

I had enough, they were not going to take what I had. 

Too bad because I thought they were friends. But maybe all along they were never my friend. Just there to see what they can get out of me, money, credit card etc. This is why they said they “miss me”......yeah, they miss my money and my credit card.

I can guarantee they will get evicted again.It WILL happen. That is why they want me to start hanging out again so WHEN that happens they can use me again. Ask me for help. You see everyone sees through  their bullshit so there is no one around they can use anymore. No one they can put their pity on.

 Jesse says they have to walk 5 miles to and from work. Ok then take a taxi, can't afford it? Drive to work then. Don't have a car? Get one. You don't see me complaining that I have to get up at 5am to get to work by 7:30am.AND I have to walk to and from the bus stop from my house and from lawndale which equals to a few miles a day. In the rain and the elements, You will never see me complain. I just suck it up and do it. 

 

So yes I have to do the same even with my bad knee but I will never complain about that.If they ever say that again because they have said it a few times trying to get me to feel bad for them I will just say suck it up or find an alternative. Maybe pay a co worker gas money to pick you up. Budget your money better so you can afford a taxi. Or get a job closer to work. Why should I give a fuck you have to walk 5 miles a day to and from work, so do I. Suck it up, it’s called life. You see they just wanted me to feel sorry so I would offer to buy them a battery for their truck, that is what they are getting at. That is what they do, they don't ask for help directly,they hope you will offer help so they dont look like they are begging for help all the time. If someone offers them help it takes the begging out of the equation.

So what if they had “open heart surgery” I have had multiple knee surgeries and the doctor said he is surprised I can even walk looking at the x ray, You will never see me complain.I walk a few miles a day. Because I have to, or I would have to pay for an uber/lyft and that gets expensive,If they don't want to walk to work then they should quit their job and stay on the couch all day, problem solved. I hope I remember that one. I know they would argue that they are not lazy,or need the job to pay rent, 

I would just say walking to work should not be a problem. I will not feel sorry for you because you are not the only one that has to walk to work. Oh boo hoo. Cry me a river. Put your big boy pants on and deal with it. I have to go to work every day, I have had a job for over 15 years with a few gaps. I never complain. It is what we do.

 Jesse thinks I have all kinds of money to just spend because he sees I have all kinds of things even though a lot of it is found or given to me.The majority of what I have in my house was found, given or bought used. I gained all my music equipment over the span of  25+ years. It was not overnight. And so what if I purchase an expensive audio mixer, microphone or effect processor, etc instead of giving the money to them,it's my money that does not make me selfish. My money is not his money. So what if I was able to build a studio in my garage and he was not able to build his dream kitchen. He even tried to guilt me on that because he was jealous. It took me years to build what I have. And also so what if I had a little money or help from my family to build my studio. I am humble and I do not take that for granted. 

Although I am thinking now they thought they were deserving of my money, my house etc. Even my studio business, they wanted four wolves world wide to be a part of it so any money I make off the studio(if I were to be so lucky) they would say they get a portion of it because it is all one business. That is what they were hoping for. I mean I invested a lot of time and a shit load of money into building what I had with the studio I was not about to share what I had. But on the flipside when I was a part of four wolves. I did help out I did my part with the website  jesse just wanted a part of the studio with no work at all. They were a liability. I was not about to have them be a part of my studio.Jesse did not even like to be in it because they were closaphic.    So how could they be a part of it? 

It tried to have them in my studio to do some kind of project. It was also my idea to do some kind of youtube video, but when I tried to get a meeting going to plan things, like a production meeting,(that is what is done since I was in the business) they never were around. Acting like it was some kind of big production calling it a trailer. I just wanted to have fun no big deal. 

I remember that one time Dad was visiting and Jesse wanted dad to look at a house they were looking at, Dad was like “ok” so we drove over to look at it and Dad was like this is a bad house it's going to take a lot to bring it to living condition. I don't think Jesse liked that answer. They wanted dad to be like “sure buy this house now, it's a steal” 

jesse was always looking at shitty houses to purchase. They thought it was a wonderful place. Eventually they bought a house on contract(in my neighborhood) but lost that because they moved it was unlivable because of their filth and 30 cats(they actually bragged on how they had 30 cats) and when Adult protective services came for teressa. They moved away “down the street” to a “better cleaner place”...it did not stay clean for long because they got evicted. I think Jesse suspected I called APS on them when absolutely  I did not, although I should have. They had 30 cats because they originally had two female cats, then rescued a male kitten, never getting it fixed. Their other cats were also not fixed so when you mix male and female cats together you get more cats, and they continued to have more and more and more and more cats because none of them were fixed. (that costs money) even though having a ton of cats also costs money with food and litter etc(for a responsible cat owner). When they lived with me those cats were in my garage. Ruining the garage. They never cleaned up after them, creating more filth. Lots of flies. I had to clean the litter boxes. They never respected my space. My house or my property. They treated it as if it was theirs and I was just a roommate.  

There is still a hint of cat piss in my studio although it is not as strong as it was before. Jesse promised they would clean out the garage, they never did, another broken promise. Never really intended to,just empty words.Always empty promises. Empty words, never a man of his word. They knew that too. 

I never told them how I bought my house, but I bet they can ASSume. They never saw me make a mortgage payment even though I could do all that online when they aren't around.It is not any of their business anyway.  

I mean there are many people poor and even homeless. Do they think I must give them what I have? Jesse and Jessica were the only people who thought they were deserving of what I had, even Teresa always said they loved my house and wished they had a house like it. I'm thinking good luck. In this housing market. All three of you could never afford a house like mine. They knew that. That is why they just wanted to take over mine. That must have been the “turn my back on them” reason because they expected me to give them my house or at least live there forever. Never leaving. They had it made while at my house. Rent was cheap,no utilities. Why would they move from that situation? Plus they had me and my credit card to buy them what ever the fuck they wanted it was heaven.

For the record I never turned my back on them. I tried so hard to make sure they were not homeless. I gave them all sorts of phone numbers to call on places that help people in their situation. They just wanted to live in my house and forget about it. They disregarded all that help I gave them in the past and even the phone numbers of places that could help.  and then said I “turned my back on them” because I did not give them exactly what they wanted even though I was trying to help them the best that I could without giving them money or having them live at my house. THAT was never going to work out, they took advantage of that so they were not going to get that again. I can never trust that they would pay me back, they are not honorable. They lie, cheat and steal. They will take advantage of anyone they can, pretend to be a friend then use that friendship to manipulate you. They are not good people. What they did was criminal but I have no proof, they would just deny it. I will never recoup the money they owe me, thankful the cats were never in my house. That would have been awful. Would have made my house unlivable. I had Cassidy but female cats don't spray. And she was a good cat. 

Had a litter box. That is why I did not want a male cat. And if I were to get two cats, they were to be both females.

They did not care. Hell I had those cats in my garage in the dead of winter, so cold for them(and I felt bad but I was not about to have them spray piss and shit all over my house)they were never going to stay at my house past thanksgiving anyway but shit kept hitting the fan.and they stayed until June of the next year, 9 months.Almost a fucking year. And they would have stayed longer if I had not put my foot down and did all the work to get them a place, they weren't doing it, probably on purpose because they did not really want to leave, I mean why would they (besides giving me stress)they had it made. Did not care one bit on the stress it gave me, taking over my home like it was theirs to take since they deserved it. They did not care that it caused me stress or heartache. I did not deserve a house,they did. If they cared at all they would do their best to get out as soon as possible, get a place no matter what, even if it was a hotel room, if they cared at all they would have stayed 2 weeks tops and then they would have been gone because they would not have wanted to cause me heartache. But as they saw it they wanted to live in the “lap of luxury” so my house was it, it was the end game for them.They were never going to leave if I did not insist that they did. I was too nice and kind to them. I  thought of them my friends so I did not want conflict.  when I should have been more stern. They could afford a hotel room because they were paying me 200.00 in cash. One time Jessica was going to skip paying me but I was like NOPE,she was not happy.  they just did not want a hotel room. When they had a huge house, 

that is why Jesse gave me trouble about me complaining during the pandemic(2020) about being cooped up,(i was , that is how I truly felt) when they had a hotel room. He was still jealous.He was still pissed and angry at me after 5 years of me kicking them out of the castle.He really did not want to leave but I had already paid 1st months rent and deposit he was roped into it. If I had not then he would not have left. Maybe if I had called the police? That would have been a last resort but since he was getting his mail  there he could claim he was a resident, that is why he never changed his address, plus he was trying to hide from other places he owed money to. Using my address as his own.  

Then they kept calling me up asking for my help,wanting money, and kept asking to use my credit card to get a hotel room etc. They thought I had all kinds of money and unlimited credit.or even if I did not they still wanted it.I was their meal ticket. Even when I went out of town to Chicago , Jesse gave me trouble for having the money to go on vacation but not help them out, what a loser. They even wanted to stay on my porch (hoping I would give them access via hickey, into my house) . I said it was a liability, and that was the truth. I did not want a couple of bums (that's what they were) hanging around my house making it look trashy, What would Bob think? They found out I was out of town so they thought it would be OK to hang out on my porch for multiple days.They did not like my answer. I should have called the police. 

I could not even go on vacation without this loser giving me shit for spending money and not on them.Its like they wanted all my money and all my stuff.. And did not care, they wanted what I had. PERIOD  

 

When I saved up a whole year to go. I could not have gone without saving for the well deserved trip. Plus my money was not for anyone but me. If that sounds selfish then so be it. I am not rich, I barely get by.Hell I had to save up a whole year just to go to Chicago. If I was rich then I would have just gone, no questions asked.No saving just have gone.

I have always said if I had multiple million dollars, I mean millions of dollars I would help out the less fortunate, but not them,they would not get a dime.if I ever win the lottery, they will find out and they will stick to me like white on rice but I will refuse. So what cry me a fucking river. Get the fuck away from me. 

They will NEVER EVER get a dime from me.They lost a friend in me. I never turned my back on them. I was 100% always trying to look out for them. I would never want anyone to be homeless, on that same thought I would not want them to live in my house because just because I have a house does not obligate me to share it, although they made it seem that way. I am not selfish, I just dont think I have to share my house,just because I have one and they don't, that is not how this works, that is not how any of this works.  

 

They are trash. They should dig themselves a gutter and live there, but that is too high class for them anyway. Toxic awful people. I could go the rest of my life without seeing those sorry ass losers. I really did think they were my friends but having no regard to me or my health during the pandemic showed their true colors. They did not care. I was looking out for their health and mine. I was not about to hang out with them if they were not protected from covid. Sure i protected myself but I could still have gotten it, hell I did in december.and it was not fun, just like a bad cold, but still. Jesse took it way too personal, as they always do. Always making it about them no matter what the situation. I could be talking about cancer patients and how I don't want to get them sick and it absolutely has NOTHING to do with them, and they make it about them. They will read this and make it about them. Jesse is the stinky butt fairy, but it is redacted. So they will never really know.Can not prove that it is about them.   

   

I don't care who you are, you don't get to treat people like they are your own personal bank account.Jesse had a full time job, so did Jessica and Teresa, Why was I the target of asking for help, in 2013-2014 I still had a part time job still.Making less money, All three of them made more money yet they were always asking for my help, a hand out. I was barely getting by and they were always asking for my help, they ASSumed I had money. I had a credit card so that was like having “unlimited money”. Even though I had to pay back whatever I spent on it, they did not care, I was their meal ticket. They were going to squeeze me dry because I had a credit card and they did not and that was not fair. In  their mind I did not deserve to have a credit card. They did and they did not want me to have one.

Jessica even said one time when I was with them, they need to get a credit card in case I am not around. I mean what the hell Jessica. So the only reason they stuck around was my credit card? They only saw me as “the guy with the credit card”? I mean what if I was around and refused to let them use it. I would still be around, just no credit card for them. After that I said to them I tore up my credit card.(even though I did not)

 I have blocked their phone number on my phone and blocked them on facebook. So there is no way they could call me up or message me asking for help. I mean they know where I live but they have not once just stopped by.would only be to beg for money. I know Jesse would try to blame me, that the reason they don't come by is that, I did not want them around ever which for a time that was true. I just did not want them around simply if they were not vaccinated.During a deadly virus pandemic, I tried to convince them to get vaxxed so we could hang out. But I refused to have ANYONE not vaxxed in my house. It was not safe with covid. They can take that personal if they want to,It was never really about them, I just did not want to get sick, I did not want to get them sick or anyone else sick. They can take it personal if hey want but I don't care. It's not like they are true friends anyway. I was just a meal ticket. I will never travel to see their trailer. No matter how many times they try to invite me or try to mend the “friendship” they just want me around to try to take money from me or use my credit card. They work, they have an income, they claim they have nothing but want everything from me. My money, my house, hell even my studio.(as a part of their scam business) 

Jesse now has a ministry,four wolves ministry  which technically could be tax free because of being a “religious organization”. I see them doing that so they don't have to pay taxes or file taxes, they don't pay taxes anyway.

Jesse even once got mad that their employer at the time was taking some money out of their paycheck for a retirement savings account. I said to them, that is a good thing,(at that time I did not have that option) they disagreed. I was thinking, well it's your life.I will have a little retirement money when I get older, they won't and I bet they will come to me for help even then. I will give them the grasshopper and ant story. If they ever do. But they won't try to come by, or really hang out, they know they took advantage and they can no longer get money from me that is the real reason they stay away. Their hands are clean of it, to them it is up to me to mend the friendship therefore its my fault the friendship fell apart. 

They think they can just apologize and be clean of all they did. They can not, it is sad. They have a sad sad very sad life. Just taking advantage of me being kind to them. Trying to help them out the best I could, even then that was not good enough because they wanted more and more.  but the moment I could no longer be of service they were angry and mean and not friendly to me. Even when I did my best to help them when they were in need of help.They thought they could just take what they needed, chew and spit me out whenever they did not need me anymore. Or at the very least when they could no longer use my resources they were gone like the wind. but making it seem like I was the one who walked away, as in claiming that I was the one who turned my back on them when Jesse walked away, not me………then,“apologizing” to me hoping I would rekindle the friendship so they could continue to (they hoped) take my money and my resources since they deserved money and I did not. I guarantee that is why jesse claims they walk 5 miles to and from work so I  would somehow feel bad for them,and offer to buy them a battery for their truck so they don't have to walk so much. Oh boo hoo. That will not happen. Even if I had the money I would not help them, they have jobs they can buy their own fucking battery. 

I do not understand why it was ever up to ME to bail them out.When I was barley getting by myself.I am just too nice of a person to see someone suffer.They just took advantage of my kindness. Yeah maybe one or at most TWO times. But they kept asking over and over and over and over again. And without hesitation for a while I helped, because I thought that was the good thing to do.That is what I thought good friends do. But they saw the opportunity to use that to their advantage. They had jobs, they had an income,at a time made more money than I did. but why was it that I was always bailing them out? 

It was because they either over spent and when it came to pay rent they were broke or 2. They lied just to get money out of me. I think it is the former because Jesse never paid attention to their money, and Jesse is not very smart to con me like that. They Do not have a bank account,(because when they did they over drew, blaming the bank for stealing their money) therefore cashes their whole check once they get it, having a big wad of cash on hand every pay day, it is easy to spend it all at once. So they go out to eat,go shopping, bargain hunt, flea markets, yard sales etc.All of a sudden the few hundred they had from payday is GONE.and no money for rent. They could not have had more than a few hundred a paycheck. I tried to convince them to get one. It would be a whole lot easier to manage your money I said. They wanted to use paypal on the website but you need a bank account to do that. They wanted me to get a bank account on behalf of the business. I was like no way. I have enough trouble keeping track of my own finances. They did not like that I said no, but I did not care. I was not about to open a bank account for THEIR business In my name, making me responsible, hurting my credit etc. Why don't they just get a bank account? Oh they have horrible credit and because of that cannot get an account. After the bank account they would have wanted a credit card in my name for the business. Making me responsible for the payments. Ruining my credit score.Because they would not have paid off the balance forcing me to pay the balance. I think that was the plan. What an asshole Jesse is. I try to warn others of both Jesse and Jessica, I will be telling them to go straight to hell the next time I see them.If there is ever a next time. They are awful people. Jason and Thias was absolutely right about them. I wish I had listened. Mom and Dad too. I just could not have imagined people I thought to be my friend would do what they did. That is why they were never a true friend. Jar (although we disagree on some things) is a true friend. He saw the writing on the wall and tried to get me away. He cared for my well being. 

Jesse never cared for me, they just saw me as a meal ticket someone they could garnish money from. They were friendly but they always had a motive to get me to give them money. That was the long con. And when I do see them(rarely) they are always acting like I was the one ending the friendship for no reason.and that they would love to hang out again, that they miss me, yeah  they miss having access to my bank account and credit card. There was not ever a friendship, they just wanted access to my wallet and credit card. Once they could not get access to said wallet and credit card….. (once I refused to help again) they were gone and stated I was not a good friend. They were cynical and angry towards me. Guilting me because I did not help them once again.Calling me “rich boy” calling me selfish etc. They thought I had an unlimited amount of cash available. Or they just did not care.They just wanted money without working for it.Just as Jar stated they would do. It was EXACTLY what Jar said. I was a fool for not listening to the very wise words Jar was trying to warn me with. I really should have validated his opinion. Jar is a very very smart intelligent person. I did not listen because I could not imagine anyone being that low, vile of a person, yet here they were, they were that kind of a person. Both Jesse and Jessica deserve to live in the gutter.

Thias always has said they will never get in a better situation, they will always be where they are now, which is poor,broke and struggling all the time. I think that is true, But I also believe if Jesse was in a better situation, if  they had money and they were not poor, and were able to keep stable financially. no one would feel sorry for them and therefore they could not use that fact to bilk money out of people, Jesse always wants to be in the gutter so people will feel sorry for them, that is what they live for, truly pathetic. And I can not feel sorry for them because that is how they want to live so they can try to bilk more people out of money, take advantage of the fact they are poor and struggling, if they had money they could not use that to their advantage. No one would give them any money because no one would believe their pathetic lies.They would actually have to WORK for their money. But even as they work, they try to make people think no one has it worse off than they do. They have hard back breaking jobs,and are in pain all day after working so many hours, never having any free time. Has to walk multiple miles to and from work. You see no one as worse than Jesse and Jessica . 

Even one time I agreed that I too drink too much soda,(thinking it was not a big deal) and that we could encourage each other to drink more water BUT they actually tried to argue with me that no…. THEY drink way too much soda,way more than I do.  I was like, "Ease up man its not a competition. They were always trying to compete to see who is more pathetic, poor and struggling. I get it Jesse.. you, win. You Jesse are more pathetic than I am. That alone just proves how pathetic they are when they try to compete with you on who is more of a loser. 

That alone is why I try to warn others of them. Jar saw Jesse for what they truly are. They are a snake which is ironic because they claim to be afraid of snakes. 

You see that is who Jesse is, that is their con. They are “always down and out” needing a hand out hoping someone would feel sorry for them.A lot of times they try not to beg,or even ask (so they don't seem to beg) but hope the other party will just feel bad and straight out offer so they don't look as if they are begging or simply asking for a hand out. Ironically they would be against social programs such as social security, disability and food stamps. In their eyes people should pull themselves up by the bootstraps and not rely on the government. But then I was in place of the government, 

Teresa did get money for disability after having their third stroke, could not work, but Jesse just bought a junky used truck with the money, cashed all the back pay at walmart, (it was thousands of dollars) but never offered to pay me back with it. They never were going to ever pay me back really. They said once they would pay me back $20,000 but they just made that up knowing full well they were never going to pay me a penny. They refused to sign an agreement. That would be a paper trail and therefore I could take them to court. The judge would go in my favor with a signed agreement. That is why they refused. Ill never see a dime.And I will never call them a friend again.and it's not really about them owing me the money, it's all the shit  they put me through. It is after all the help I gave them weather it was time, my home, my friendship they still said I was not a friend because I did not give them exactly what they wanted from me.  

It is the fact they said I turned my back on them not ever being grateful for what I did for them in the past. No gratitude at all. I could not help them what and when they demanded it so therefore I was not a good friend despite all I did in the past for them. The very moment I said no, the very moment I could not help they were gone. They were expecting a yes, because I never said no. They took advantage of that. 

I was just a meal ticket not a friend and they were pissed that the meal ticket dried up despite the fact that even last time I tried to help them in some way without giving money,things or letting them stay at my house,I did not want them homeless on the street but I also did not want them to stay at my house. Yet they tried to say i said  to them I would rather them be homeless than stay at my house, which on the surface i guess was  true. I did not want them at my house so if the alternative was them to be homeless I guess so. But I would not want them to be homeless but I also did not want them at my house. It was not for them to live, I had that house for me. The help I offered was  just not what they wanted or demanded.Which was to stay in my house and forget about responsibility. They were going to have to do some real work for once.Without me and my credit card or my house they were going to have to work for what they had instead of getting a hand out, What a loser.  

 

Jesse would always go around, act like he was in pain making a big deal of it. When their leg hurt he would make sure everyone around them knew it. Putting ALL the attention to them. Saying other people we both knew were narcissists. When in fact they were the Narcissist.Thias would call them a primadonna.

Sometimes I felt I had to Walk on eggshells around them, making sure to not piss them off.anything I said could be offensive to them even when not intentional. Why would I try to offend or piss off someone I called a friend? 

They acted like their cooking was the best around. Did not want Thias to even touch their fryer. But Thias will do whatever and he did start using the fryer. That really pissed Jesse off, they wanted to cook the “gourmet food” although anything Jesse cooked as gawd awful garbage. If I was starving for 10 days I would not eat that garbage they called a meal. 

Even one time Jesse wanted Thias(when he was in town) help repair on their truck, and Thias was like “i'm on vacation, I don't want to do any work” Jesse was pissed about this I was like I can't make thias help you and I totally understand if Thias does not want to help. 

Also when Jesse left the truck in my driveway to work on, They came by when Thias was there, Thias called me up to tell me and I said that he did not have to talk to them or let them in the house. Thias just hid away, Jesse then wanted to go in the house to use the bathroom but thias did not respond. Jesse called me up giving me grief that Thias did not let them in and I was like I can not control what Thias does(although I suggested Thias just not talk to them).Thias did not like Jesse anyway.So in no way Thias was obligated to interact with Jesse but Jesse thought it was rude of Thias. And was giving me grief because Thias did not let them in the house. I was like I can't control Thias.I can't make Thias do anything. He is on vacation. He does not have to interact or speak to Jesse if he does not want to, and really I did not blame Thias.  

And then that one time jar and thias was visiting. Jesse Therea and Jessica came over. Thias was making food. And Teresa proceeded to eat it all, they were probably hungry. Thias had to get out of there so he and jar took a taxi to go out to eat. Jesse just takes advantage of everyone they come across.  

Jesse would have this sarcastic cynical tone towards me for no reason,then when I got upset they would claim they were only joking. I am so glad I cut ties with them. I never had any extra money to give them but I have a kind heart. I give even when I have very little to give. They took total advantage of that. Because the VERY MOMENT I could not give(in their mind I chose not to share, therefore being selfish and greedy) they were gone, because they knew I had a house, they thought yes I could share. 

In their mind, the house is big enough and they had the RIGHT to live there, never thinking about what it did to me or my mental and physical health. On the surface I had a house and that it was there for them to use. They just wanted to live at my house and have ZERO responsibilities.They could just quit their job, no bills, no rent, free utilities, free food, free shower, just free. When I said no to that it destroyed their expectations. They were never expecting me to say they could not stay at my house. They were caught off guard. Nevermind that it was hardship on me if I allowed them to live there again. I never wanted them to be on the street and homeless but they certainly were not going to stay at my house again. I was not going to go through that again. I was STILL recovering from the last time they took over my house, without a care in the world. They wanted my house because THEY deserved it. I did not. That is why they claimed I said I would rather they be homeless than have them in my house.Which on the surface is true, but i never want anyone to be homeless and on the street(even Jesse and Jessica ) I just did not want them living in MY house. There are other alternatives to homelessness than my house. It was not “My house or homelessness” and those were the ONLY choices. That is how they wanted me to believe it.And I did not take the bait as they hoped I would.       

If I ever see those two again. I may just tell them to go to hell. They need to get their life sorted out. Jesse especially.Jesse just saw I had things and they wanted what I had.  

The way jesse would over exaggerate when they hurt themself……, making everyone feel sorry for them. Manipulating people. They would always try to manipulate people into getting what they want, like money or things without asking. They would just comment “i wish I could find a way” or I wish I knew someone who could lend me their…(item here).etc 

Oh and then there is that issue with the grill. One 4th or july we were at walmart, to possibly get food for the 4th. And all of a sudden Jesse is buying a 200.00 grill. They brought it back to my house because that is where we were having food. They attempted to build  the grill. They eventually got it built, long story short. It stayed over at my house for a very long time. They never came back to get it. Again I had to “hound” them to get their own grill. Like you know it's my property. I did not want the grill there, why would I have to keep asking to the point where I am hounding them to get it. They did not respect my wishes that it not be there. Making me like a bad friend for asking them to get THEIR own grill. I should have just thrown it out and then say “well you never got it, I wanted it out of here, I gave you plenty of chances to get it”

And that is what I mean, they never respected my wishes. It was always what they wanted. Even when it is my property, my house. They always had to have it their way. Even when I was doing them a favor. Going out of my way to help them. They had nowhere else to go or no one else would help them, yet they took advantage of my kindness.and the very minute I said no. I was “turning my back on them” because they had no one else. I was their saving grace and they still took advantage of that fact. 

Not respecting me or my property. They wondered why I finally said no, because I was so tired of their bullshit. Because I knew if I had continued to help them they would continue to use my kindness. And claim I am not a good friend if I did not help them out. I generally and honestly tried to help them get out of that hole. And they took advantage of that. That being said I generally wish them  the best, even though they screwed me. I hope they get out of that hole. So they never have to crawl back to me for help.I'll just have to say no, give them the 211 number,and other resources I can think of but I am not a charity. My house is not a homeless shelter, just because I have a house and more than $50.00 in the bank does not mean I am obligated to help ANYONE. That does not make me a bad person or selfish for not giving up the shirt on my back to give to them. 

The best way to describe this entire situation with Jesse, Jessica and Teresa, It is like this…

I have a “jacket” on, and it is dirty, torn and tattered, it is my ONLY jacket and I worked hard to acquire said “jacket”. It keeps me dry and warm in the rain and it is about to thunderstorm, Jesse needs a “jacket” . They do not have a “jacket”, they don't want to go out and buy a jacket because they spent all their money on buying useless crap. They will get wet without a “jacket” so they ask me if they can have the “jacket” I have on. I say well that is all I have, then I won't have a “jacket” and I will get cold and wet and get sick without it, so sorry, but……… NO. 

Because I feel bad, and I do not want them to get sick or miss work and miss a paycheck, I do give them several resources and phone numbers to where they can get a free jacket, all they have to do is call and explain their situation and they can get a jacket, but they refuse,they don't want some other used jacket. They are ashamed and dont dont want to ask “the government” for help. They want my jacket. 

Jesse then tells me I am not a good friend and a selfish asshole because I did not give the jacket to them, and now they will get cold, wet and sick and have to miss work and miss a paycheck. BUT If I give them said jacket, I will get wet, cold and sick and I will miss work, I will miss a paycheck. I worked hard to save up to buy that jacket, I did not buy useless junk because I knew I needed a jacket when it got cold and rainy.I thought ahead. They think they deserve said jacket even though I needed it for my needs.   

I am the ant and jesse is the grasshopper,I am the ant, prepared and have what I need. A house, supplies, tools, ladder etc. Jesse is the grasshopper, not doing shit spending money on useless crap and then not able to pay rent.Expecting me to help them. So they just goes ahead and spends their money on useless crap and does not save back to pay rent,  because they think I will just help them no questions asked. When I did not help them because I finally saw through the bullshit they were surprised and on all of a sudden homeless and on the street.I was giving them tough love. They did not like that. But I was tired of being used and tired of the bullshit. When I tried to help they took advantage and not respecting me or my property, thinking they could just have what they needed because they felt they were deserving of what I had. 

One time they asked me where they could get a ladder, I replied… Have you tried Home Depot? 

(I knew what they were doing, they wanted me to offer them mine so they would not have to ask), manipulating me into just offering to lend mine out so they would not feel they had to ask,and beg for one. They said they are like $200.00 and they don't have that kind of cash. Again trying to get me to lend them mine, without actually asking.(That is what they do,they don't want to ask or beg for what they need so they try to manipulate others into giving what they need so they don't seem to be begging for things like a lame ass loser that they are…..i see through the bullshit now) I said well save up for one, not budging to offer mine. One time I did lend it out but I was with them the whole time. Making sure I got it back the same day. I don't think they liked that, I would have never seen it again if I had not been with them the whole time. They were just planning on keeping it, stealing it from me, because they were deserving of a ladder, I was not deserving of said ladder in their mind.I would have been out a $200.00 ladder. When in fact I used it last week(April 10-14) when dad helped me fix my roof, which is exactly why I bought the ladder when I bought my house, I knew it would be needed, so I prepared for things like this. Jesse just felt like they were deserving of the ladder, they thought they were deserving of my house,my money, my laundry, my shower, my tools, even dads chop saw. They deserved these  things, I did not. So they tried to manipulate me into giving what little I had. They were just jealous of my house, my studio. They did not have a space to do what they loved(a kitchen, cooking) but I had a studio. That was not fair. So they did everything in their power to halt and stop me from doing what I loved,distracting me from doing what I wanted to do, which was spend time in my studio. I had to build it first since when they lived at my house I could not start construction until they moved out. 

I now wish I had insisted they get a hotel room like a month after they came down desperate for a place, give them a month to find a place but then after that get a hotel room.they might have actually found a place if they knew it was get out or get a hotel room, or be homeless. They never had any intention of leaving, it was me that finally insisted they leave, and even then they dragged their feet, trying to prolong the stay even after I secured a place for them. Jesse was truly pissed at me, making me think I was kicking them out of their home, like I was the bad guy for uprooting them from “THEIR” house. Totally disgusting and dirty. This is not what real friends do. They were just there to take what I had. Because they were deserving of it and I was not. Real friends would not put me through all that. They would do everything they could without putting me or anyone through what they put me through. They would respect my dignity and space. Jesse jessica and Teresa were not real friends. 

I wish it had been different. I wish Jason was wrong about them and that they would not do this to people. But you see they were never my friends, they ONLY hung around me to see what they could get. From day one. Acting like they were my friend. Going on road trips, playing monopoly, having cookouts, it was all to see what they could get out of me. The VERY moment they could not get anything they were gone like the wind and that is what pisses me off the most. After all I did for them they were just in it for what they could get, not a care in the world what it did to me. 

And recently they saw me on the bus, saying how much they miss hanging out. Will never again. They can say that they miss me all day and I still will not hang out with them, or call them up or go to their trailer. They had their chance. They misused my friendship, and they expect me to go back there again to be used and manipulated again. Yeah sure they miss me, they miss my credit card and my bank account. They want to secure a place for WHEN they get evicted. Secure a credit card for when they need it or secure anything for when  they need it, a battery, gas money, tools, the use of my car port to store their junk. Only to return to pick up said junk on THEIR time.and not when I ask. No respect to me. So I do hope I see them again so I can tell them where to go………… HELL. 

Jesse expected me to give them respect but never gave me respect. Never respected my space and always expected me to give them what they needed without question.Taking advantage of my kindness. Then they wonder why I finally put a stop to the abuse. I am still pissed off and stunned on how they could ask a favor like leave some of their stuff underneath my car port as they move to a new place, (they were being evicted so they could not leave anything behind) but then not coming back at a reasonable time like I was supposed to just allow that to happen, I was just supposed to allow them to leave their junk at my property for as long as they like and I was not supposed to hound them to get their junk moved as soon as possible.I mean I thought they were going to return to make more trips but when it was obvious they were not returning, that is when i called asking what is up but they acted like i was a cockblock and interrupting their date. They just wanted to get their dick wet and fuck a teenager and get laid so i was getting in the way of their fuck fest with a teenage girl.

When they said they would be right back, they had to make several trips but then changed plans without letting me know leaving their junk behind. And Leaving me wonder what the hell is going on, but you see they do this. One time I offered to help them move, so I make plans to do so, and wait for them to pick me up at a specified time and then never hear from them, I finally get a hold of them and they say “oh we no longer need your help”  That was disrespectful to me. I have ADD and I get distracted but even I would have the common sense to communicate if plans suddenly change. I should have said “if you don't remove it tonight it's going in the trash” and I would have stuck by that statement. They never communicated to me about their change of plans  

One time on my days off(before they even moved to evansville) we all planned to go on a day road trip to louisville so I made no plans on the days we planned to go(i don't remember what days). Wait all day for them to arrive or make a phone call. The day goes by and I hear nothing from them. They don't arrive at the planned time. So I finally get a hold of them(thinking something happened to them) and Jesse tells me they had car trouble and won't be coming down, but why didn't they call me and let me know? So they just don't call me up with changed plans? I could have gone to the store or got some errands done, but instead I waited all day for them, not a word from them. It was not like their phone ran out of minutes because I was able to contact them on said phone. What an asshole jesse david ives is. Always thinking of themself and never about anyone else claiming others are narcissists. When looking back at all this and their  fucked up behavior  , they were actually the fucking narsist. Jessica too. Both of them can go fuck off. 

WHENever I see them because it is not a question of IF but WHEN because they take the bus, and live in Evansville so there is always a chance I will run into them again. I WILL tell them to FUCK OFF. 

I truly did try to be their friend. They just took advantage of that. There is something really wrong with jesse mentally to treat people the way they did. I really wanted in my heart to help them and I did not want to see them suffer. They just saw I was a kind forgiving person who did not judge and wanted the best for them and they took advantage of that. After all that, I still wish them the best but don't come near me. I am not their friend any more. I tried so many times to help them get out of the hole they were in. It was the fact that even though I really tried to help them, in their fucked up head I turned my back on them when they were basically homeless even though I tried my best to my ability to get them not to be homeless. I have them resources and phone numbers. Somehow that was not enough. I went into debt, helped them out of a jam, sent them money that I did not really have that amount to spend so they could pay rent with the promise they would pay me back(the only reason i helped is the promise of paying me back) I was not being selfish when i was asking to be repaid(yet that is what they claimed), but they never did pay me back.They actually spent the money on junk and stuff they did not need and when it came to pay rent they did not have it.That is why they came to me broke,but it was their fault, it wasn't like they did not make enough money.They made more money than i did.  So it was their fault.

 But they like being in a hole(as sick as that is) because then some people feel sorry for them, some people will give them what they need without working for it. If they have all they need then no one would have pity on them, and they live on people having pity on them. They are so miserable they don't know how it is to be truly happy and satisfied with what they have. And they want me around to brag on how miserable they are so I can feel bad for having an ounce of happiness.For having a house, a studio, a good satisfying job where I am not in pain where it is not back breaking work.   

It is so pitiful that they actually love to be miserable.So they can have people have pity on them and have people give them things or money. So they don't have to work for such things, they just get handouts, yet they would be against any kind of government programs or handouts. So hypocritical, So lame. So ignorant. I could go the rest of my life without seeing those two. I know I will see them again. It is bound to happen. And they will say  they miss me(like it's my fault we arent hanging out) how they invite me to their trailer(like I am going to waste a full day doing that) They just want to hang out so they can con me into giving them money for a battery, how they have to walk 5 miles to work and how they wish they knew someone(me) to lend them money for a battery and will “pay me back next payday” that would never happen if I did that, they would never pay me back or have any intention to do so. I bet it is not just a battery, it's more  than that. Jesse is shit out of luck. I wish I never met the motherfucker. They just use people and when they cant get anything from you, they just walk away and put all the blame on you like you are the one that turned your back on them. When they are the ones that turned their back on me. So fuck Jesse David   Ives

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Jesse is a piece of work, a real loser.They really need to get help. See a therapist, I really was a friend to them and I really want the best for them. But I can only do so much.They expected way more than I could ever give them. A friendship is not what someone can GET out of someone, a friendship is just someone who can be there, hang out…there are plenty of things that does not involve money. Just sitting on the porch, hanging out was enough for me. I was always down to do things that did not involve spending money, because I understood.AND None of us were super rich. Jesse assumed I had unlimited money because I had a house and I had furniture and things in it. But they never realized or cared to  think that most of the furniture and items in my house were found, bought, used or given to me.Jesse knew I had a credit card, hell I even tried to tell them I tore it up so they would stop asking me to use it for things they wanted.  

It should not have mattered even if I had a credit card with no limit or 10 million dollars. It still does not give them the right to do what they did. I had a credit card a few actually  that was not for them to use. I should have never allowed that to happen, tough shit if they did not get what they needed. Tough shit if they were homeless. 

Jesse always needed help with something and they were always asking me for it. I found out quickly, once I said NO………I can't help…they were gone. They were cynical and mean towards me. Since I did not let them live in my house again when they were homeless. Sorry not sorry I could not do it. It was wearing on my health, mental and physical.I could not go through that again, and financially it was not possible. They were only using me, never a real friend.I never asked them for that much help except maybe a ride or two and I always agreed to help with gas.  I did help them many times over, they just wanted more and more,they kept getting deeper in the hole.That was their fault. They claimed I turned my back on them the moment I said I could not help even though I gave them resources that could help them. It was not money so they did not want that help. They thought they could just use me and my kindness. I did so much for them and they never really appreciated what I already did. They might be in a place now, but it is only a matter of time until they are evicted. This is why they want to hang out again, so when they DO get evicted. (and it WILL happen) They have me to fall back on.Well it won't happen. Call 211 but don't bother me. 

The motherfucker better not bother me again or ask me for help, money etc. Would take a lot to do that after all they asked and never paid back. And then they think i am being selfish for asking to be paid back like I have a big pile of money so big i don't know what to do with. And  that I can afford to just give thousands to them. What a joke. They just think we can hang out like nothing ever happened. Like I never saw their true colors. Cynical towards me because I did not help them out the way THEY wanted. 

By the way, I DID try to get them help that last time, tried to get them to call aurora and other places in town so that they would not be homeless. I would never want to see that happen. I just did not want them to crawl at my door asking to stay at my house, which happened anyway after I tried to get them to call all sorts of places that help people in their exact situation. So it was not like I was being totally heartless and selfish. Truth is they did not want that help,they never even attempted to get any other kind of help.They just wanted to stay at my house and not have anything to worry about. They are lazy, Jessica too. They really did not expect me to say no. That is why they got so upset and ghosted me, became cynical and angry towards me. So when I said get help(for being cynical towards people)  they claimed I never helped them when they needed it, disregarding ALL the help I gave them, only proving they were just there to see what they could get with no regard to me or my well being.Taking all they could take, draining my bank account with not a care. You see I had some money in the bank hell I had a bank account and that was not fair, they just wanted what I had, my money, so they did everything they could to drain my account. I finally was not going to lend them another dime or give them any more help. They were cynical and angry. When I said it was not going to work out(them staying at my house again) because that was the truth I could not go through what I went through again. Even if it was not going to happen and they would leave in a matter of a couple days, the very idea turned me off. The possibility that they would never leave and they would keep asking to use my credit card, borrow money etc.It ended our friendship when I said I could not have them stay at my house, but only proves what kind of people they really are. A true friend would not even think of putting me through that again. A true friend would understand and could have empathy. A true friend would never ask that much of me in  the first place. They were never a true friend,they were only there to see what they could gain. And when they could not get what they wanted, they were gone.

And now the stinky butt fairy wants to hang out again. Probably hoping I will buy a battery for their truck when they ask. So they wont have to walk five miles to work(the reason they keep telling me that)I will say buy your own fucking battery loser. There is a reason why I don't have a vehicle. It is because I can not afford this kind of expense such as a battery.I will have to lie and say I no longer have a credit card and I dont have the extra money to spend.(i am really over spent on all my credit cards) Even if they said they would pay me back that won't work anymore because they would not pay me back and they know it. This is why I hope I never see them again. They will go on and on about how they have to walk 5 miles to work and I will be like why are you telling me this? So do I.(my walk to and from the bus stop is probably close to a couple miles at least)I would say you are not special. Get a taxi if you don't want to walk to and from work, If you can't afford it, get a different job.Otherwise suck it up this is life.  

I never really asked them for anything, except maybe a ride or two and I always offered to pay for gas. And even with “free rides” they never would be equal to what they owed me anyway.

I just can't get over the fact that Jesse kept asking me for help, I am a kind person, I could never really say no because I want to help people out the best I can, and they took advantage of that I am sensitive and kind and never could turn away helping someone. But the ONE TIME i turned them away from helping(the way they wanted…..because I did not stop trying to help) they said I turned my back on them meaning I was not a good friend, just like Jar said they would say.I just could not believe someone who calls themself a friend would say that about a friend of theirs. That the moment the friend can not help them they aren't good friends. Bullshit, because I really did try to help them even if I did not house them.or give them money or my extension cord the last time they came to my house(yes jesse wanted to borrow my extension cord so they could charge up their phone while staying at a campsite) I have an extension cord, but it is for ME to use. If I lent it out,then I would not have said extension cord as they use it, AND  I would have never seen it again. They aren't cheap. I have things, Jesse needs the things that I have, so they will ask to “borrow” what I have, then I don't have said things anymore. They just wanted to “borrow” my things and never intend to return, whether it be a ladder,extension cord,super nintendo, or money,because they felt they were deserving of such things and I was not. If they “borrow” said things and never return then I am out of said things just like they were. In their mind I am not deserving of such nice things so they try to take them away from me. Jesse even asked me numerous times to borrow dads chop saw. And I was like it is not mine to lend out and I would not lend it out if it was. If you need a chop saw jesse, BUY ONE

I really did try to get them out of that hole. But really they never wanted to get out of that hole. Who would feel sorry for them if they were out of said hole? This is why Jesse states they walk 5 miles to work, the stinky butt fairy wants me to feel sorry for them. How am I to react to the fact that they walk five miles to and from work? I mean who says that? I do not even know how to react to that. The stinky butt fairy just wants me to feel so sorry for them. So what if they have to walk to work. It is good exercise. If they do not want to pay for a taxi. And can not get a ride from a co worker(seems like that would be reasonable, just offer to pay for gas) Then why the fuck should I care? Am I a heartless person if I don't care? unless they are setting up the con to get me to buy them a battery for their truck, trying to pull at my emotions. Get me to feel sorry for them and they can get what they want.I mean sure it is a bad situation having to walk five miles to and from work, and I would never do that. I would find a way so I don't have to do that. I live 2.6 miles from work.(5.2 total) I could not imagine walking that distance everyday. I am lucky I can get the bus everyday to work.And If I can not I get an uber. I plan ahead. So I have the money to pay for said uber/lyft if I need it. (in an ice storm etc)jesse has bad credit so they can not get a credit card(therefore can't use uber/lyft),there is always the traditional taxi. and there are ways they could get a credit card in time.They have to build up good credit.but they will never do that,they have proven that they are not good with money. So I am just perplexed on what I am supposed to do with the information they give me when they say they walk 5 miles to and from work? Do they want a cookie? I mean really. I am not being heartless but if they don't want to walk to and from work, find another way. But don't put it on me. 

If I ever see them again and they bring that up, (chances are they will). I will just respond with “what am I supposed to do with that information? I mean there is NOTHING I can do about that. What do you want me to do? Do you want a cookie”? So………you walk five miles to and from work…good for you. I don't, I take the bus.My house and my work is on a bus line and I would never put myself in a situation where I have to walk 5 miles to and from work. I would find another way.I would budget my income if I had to, and at a time when I worked at WNIN, I had to pull out cash every week. (and not use a credit card) this is how I got to and from work on Sunday when I worked Master Control. 

When it comes down to it, Jesse is just jealous that I have a house. That I have a credit card. And a little money in the bank, hell I have a bank account. They are jealous of all that and to them it is not fair I have these nice things and they do not so they try their best to separate me from these nice things. Keep asking for my help, i.e. money, or stay in my house. Therefore I have to share what I have with them. They are sick. I don't think they were loved as a child.           

Jesse is a very trashy person, they expect everyone to give them things and not work for said things. They speak very strongly about “earning your keep” and pulling yourself up by your bootstraps, and not getting help from the government, against raising min wage and government assistance programs, yet they dont do shit. When I tried to give them help so they would not be homeless AGAIN(211,Aurora,etc), they did not want it. They just wanted to stay at my house and not do shit. 

They had it made………very low rent(for the neighborhood) ,utilities included, high speed internet, netflix,youtube etc. And when they did stay at my house they did nothing to get out on their own. Never wanting to look for a place after work, or making any effort to do so.It seemed like they did everything they could to stay at my house, without a care in the world what stress it had on me. A real friend would see that it was stressful and not want to put me through that. They loved it there. They did everything they could to stay. Not giving a shit what it did to me. I was the one that got them the place on Florida Street,found it, made the appointment to look at it,  hell I paid the deposit and first month's rent.anything to get them the fuck out of my house. Even Jesse acted like I was kicking them out of “their” home when they finally left. I even paid for the truck rental so the move would go quicker since at the time they did not have a vehicle. It would have taken longer to travel by using the bus. I had to do what I had to do short of insisting they go to a hotel.Or calling the police. Which in hindsight I should have insisted they go to a hotel in November. And if they refused for any reason I should have called the police. It was my home, my castle. I had that right. I mean I was helping them the best I could but enough is enough. After all the help I gave them, they still said I turned my back on them. We screw that. It is an insult to my integrity. Since I truly tried to help them. But trashy people will never get out of that hole. Just like Thias said, they will always be in the same situation. Thias and I will become successful and they will always be in the gutter, but that is fine, that is where they want to be. If they had money and in a good place financially they would not have anyone to have pity on them.That is what they live for. That is why Jesse keeps saying they walk to and from work 5 miles. They want me to feel bad about that, oh I don't have to walk so many miles to and from work, but I do have to walk every day to and from the bus stop. That is  very difficult. It may not be 5 miles but it is still tough, but you will never see me complain. I just do it. They think that the story of walking 5 miles a day pulls on my heart and emotions.That somehow I will feel bad and try to help them but no more.What could i do anyway? I am over 10k in credit debt. BUt I won't complain to them about it. It is something I have to deal with, not Jesse. They would scold me for spending money i dont have and being irresponsible without knowing the situation. I was laid off but still had monthly expenses and that is how I got into debt. And also they still owe me money.So they don't have the right to talk to me about finances.

They just wanted to use my credit card and stick me with the bill without a care in the world that I would still have to pay that back. Never had any intention of paying me putting me into debt. Fuck them. Jesse and Jessica are both losers and both belong in the trash.        

Well no more of this fuckery. Everyone was right about Jesse and Jessica. They are no good. I really thought of them as being friends. But they were just sticking around to see what they could get out of me. They never cared about me as a person, just my wallet. Jessica even said one time that they should get a credit card in case I am not around. they said the quiet part out loud. I'm like what the hell.I should have never had been an option on money. I am not a bank. They can eat shit. Yes I have a credit card but I have to spend it wisely. I can't just spend spend spend.Whatever I spend on that credit card I have to pay back. Jesse didn't care it wasn't their credit,it wasn't their credit card they would owe on,  they thought they could just use me and my card, see what they could get and then when it stopped they were gone. This is why they don't have a credit card. They don't take anything as responsible as they should. Hell Jesse said one time they dont file for taxes and I know they make more than the minimum to file. This is to avoid paying back student loans because the refund would be garnished anyway so why bother? What a loser.   

If Jesse ever somehow found out the refund I am getting from my taxes (and we were still hanging out), They would try somehow to get their hands on that money. They think they are more deserving of that money and I should not have it. I am not deserving of it, they are. Since it is not fair that I have that money, they would do everything in their power to take it since it should be their money and not my money even though I worked hard for that money. Yes I was unemployed most of the year but I still worked hard to try to get a job. The government recognized my low income and gave me a break. And really if they even filed taxes they would find that out but it would be taken away for student loans anyway. That is why they never file taxes. Such a loser. 

I dare The Stinky Butt Fairy and Dumbledore to come to my house and ask to stay there for a few weeks. I will just have to tell them absolutely not. They don't like it but I do not care. They screwed me too many times, I mean the balls they have to say I was not a good friend because I did not help them the way they wanted me to help them the very last time they asked. The guts they have. What a mistake they are. I am not a good friend? Fuck them I helped them out so many times I sacrificed my house and my space, gave them so much money, with the promise I would be paid back, but then when I asked to be paid back they called me greedy, like I was wanting money that I did not deserve,that I had enough, why was I asking Jesse for his last dollar? That's the attitude I got from them, like I should not even ask for the money back. They refused to sign some kind of agreement in paying me back, they said I should just trust them. They just did not want a paper trail and did not have proof of them owing me. I can't take them to court, it has been so long I don't have a record of what they owe.Or even proof they owe anything.Such a shame someone can do what they did to another human being and claim they are righteous.They are evil. 

All I was trying to do was recoup what I spent extra giving them a little help,(when I never really had extra to spend, I scraped by what I had to help) but they put it off as I should not ask to be paid back, I should just help THEM when THEY are in need. They think THEIR shit dont stink. When I can smell that sewage treatment plant everytime I approach them,. and I truly wanted to help them the best I could. When all they wanted was more, more, more. 

They did not care how having them stay at my house or giving them money, using my credit card, affected me. They did not care if I had to pay the credit card back, or having them stay at my house caused so much stress. As long as they got what they needed out of me it did not matter. 

As soon as they could not get anything out of me, they were gone. The very moment I said no, Jesse was cynical and mean towards me, lied to me saying they are cynical and mean towards everyone, and I said well then go get some help for that. That is not normal to be so mean towards everyone when they did not harm you. Or do anything bad to you. If you think everyone… no matter what is out to get you, that is paranoia, tin hat paranoia. That is not good at all.  

I mean they know where I live. But they avoid me too(a good thing) They don't really miss me, they just miss my wallet. They expect me to come crawling back to them.This is why they dont give any effort to contact me, I know I blocked them on my phone and facebook, but they do know where I live. They could write me a letter or attempt to stop by. But they know what they did and they know I won't really want to talk to them.They want to put it all on me for ending the friendship, when it was not a friendship at all. They were just there to see what they could get out of me, money etc. and when that dried up. I was not a good friend for not providing them what they needed on their terms.  The times I did see them were awkward and short. They will never get out of that gutter, and they will always expect someone else to pay for them. I will never hang out with them again. 

I hope I never see them again. They deserve the gutter. I hope no one else falls for their grift. They are not good people. Jesse should just go back to hell. They need to find their own path, make their own money and stop robbing people. But that is what they do. They find someone, befriend them, and then make them feel sorry for their lazy ass and have them give money and things to them. Once they say no. Jesse and Jessica are no longer your friend.Thats the only reason why they stuck around or even gave you the time of day is to see what they can get out of you. Once that dries up, they are no longer your friend. It is kind of ironic how jesse claimed I turned my back on them when in reality the moment I did not give them what they thought they deserved from me, they turned their back on me. They were cynical and mean towards me, not calling me to check in and chat or anything. Pretty much ghosted me. Because I did not give them what they thought they deserved. Such narcissists. Both Jesse and Jessica. Walk around like their shit dont stink. Expecting everyone to give them what they need, making everyone feel sorry for them because they are pathetic losers. They will always be in the same situation they are in, living in filth, dirt poor, no credit,always struggling, and on the brink of being evicted. 

Jesse does not get to dictate what I do with my money. It is not theirs to have. Greedy piece of shit.They never really knew how I bought my house and that I had a trust fund.And I am thankful for that, they would ask for even more. All they knew is that I had a credit card and they wanted to take advantage of that. I wish I was not so kind.I only lent them money in the promise of them paying me back. This is why I said it would not work out when they asked to stay at my house again. They did it to themselves.and then they are surprised  that I said it would not work out.They are too stupid to realize I was tired of them taking advantage, expecting me to give them what they needed.  They never intended to pay me back; they never cared about them staying with me for so long financially, physically and mentally. 

I do want the best for people but to keep asking and asking and asking for help, they are able bodied. They can make it on their own. If they needed help there are programs out there for them. And I tried to give them a list of said resources, they did not want that help. I am not said program. If they are about to be homeless? It is not up to me to house them, it was never up to me. But I hated for them to be on the street. I really did. But at the end of the day I am not obligated to take them in…..that is why I said no the last time. They expected my help and when I said no, well they said I turned my back on them even though I tried my best with what I had to help them the best I could.So NO I never turned my back on them, I really did try to help them to the best of my ability. They just wanted more from me. They just expected more out of me. Expected more than I could give, and when I could not give to them they were gone.They were not my friends.And it is said people have to live the way they did. They will never have true friends. Because they will expect things from people. And most folks will grow tired of it. I did. It should have been sooner but now it is over. I will never invite them over they can kindly fuck off. They will be alone, they have Jessica but how long will that last? They have each other I guess, but no one else wants anything to do with them because they use people, take advantage of people, even jesse’s family dont want anything to do with them because wouldn't they go to their family for help once they were on the street instead of relying on me?

I am just glad I don't have to deal with jesse ever again.Besides a few times seeing them on  the bus or at the bus stop. It will happen from time to time. They can bitch and whine all they want about having to walk to work etc. It's not my deal. I won't do shit to help them, I mean I dont have the money anyway. They can find some other poor sucker to fall for their grift. I am wise to it now. I mean what am I ever supposed to do with that information? So they have to walk 5 miles to and from work? What does that have to do with anything? Again I ask, do they want a cookie? That is not very special having to walk to work. I do it.People do it every day.They just want pity. They want me to feel sorry for them, to make me think they have it worse off than I do. Trying to make me feel guilty because I don't have to walk so far to work. But I don't brag or complain about it. Get a vehicle if you dont want to walk, otherwise shut the fuck up. So you cant afford to fix your truck and you cant afford to take a taxi to work>? So you have to walk. I just don't know why you tell me these useless facts. Like really what the fuck am I supposed to do with that inforation? You tell me and that is it. Nothing happens from it. So why tell me? You want me to feel sorry? You want a cookie? You want me to give you 50.00 so you can get a battery for your truck? What is it? So you have to walk to work. So do a lot of people. I don't walk 5 miles but I have to walk a long ways to and from the bus stops.it gets tiring. But I do it. I don't go around telling people I have to walk every day to and from the bus stop. That is nonsense. But you feel the need to tell me this information? Tell it to your therapist. 

I was thinking today(4/27/23) If I were to hang out with those two. And Jesse found out I had any cash in my wallet, they would do anything in their power to get said cash from me. Because you see I am not deserving of anything. They are the ones that are deserving of said cash. I should not have so much money(even if it was $20.00) and I should share with them.such a toxic environment. I am glad I am away from those two. I really tried to be their friend.I truly tried to help  them, but they did not appreciate all the sacrifices I went through to make sure they were whole again. They just kept on wanting more and more. I could not do it. I helped them once or twice, that should have been it. They should have seen the writing on the wall, but Jesse is too stupid and too selfish to see the stress it caused me to help them. I don't think they are very intelligent. They just want to get theirs and who cares who it hurts. 

Take money from me motherfucker you better run and hide next time you see me. I helped you.The least you could do is thank me. Instead Jesse you expected more help and when I don't give you the help you wanted (because I gave you resources to help you) you claim I am a bad person, a bad selfish greedy person and not a good friend. What am I just here for the taking? And when you cant get anything out of me you are gone?.After all I did for you, let you stay in my house for a very long time(when I could have insisted you go to a hotel room),have your cats all stay in my garage,and the stay postponed the construction of my studio, give you money to pay for your rent in Terre Haute,find and buy you a truck,so you don't have to rent a car and save money. find and get you a house to rent, pay for first months rent and the deposit on said house. Pay your court costs for a speeding ticket.Pay the DMV fees for the purchased vehicle. Let you use my credit card to purchase a tire and a tow when you had a blown out tire…… And then when you do pay me because I hound you on paying me back. You act like I am taking your last meal. When we could have just left the vehicle where it was with the risk of being towed and you would have been without a vehicle. Let you use my shower when you did not have running water, let you use my laundry to save you money and time on a laundry mat. This is just what I could think of, there is plenty more.I did all of this with little to spare. I am not rich. That is why I was hoping you would pay me back.I was never being greedy when I asked to be paid back, I was just asking to recoup my bank account so that I don't go into debt. After ALL that bullshit you still say I turned my back on you.

And that is just another method Jesse used to manipulate me, make me feel guilty. Making me feel I was the bad guy in the situation, put all the blame on me, I was the reason they were homeless. It had nothing to do with their lazy ass not being proactive and finding a new place, I was to provide them housing, money and a credit card, because they deserved all three.It did not matter what it did to me. They deserved the money and the credit card…or money even if it was 20.00. I did not deserve to have it. I had a job I work VERY HARD for my money(and I did not make very much), that did not matter because what I did was not “real work” I was just “sitting at a desk” bla bla fucking bla. It was still work btw, hard work. Who cares if it was not physical, who gives a fuck if they had a hard physical job that was also mentally straining, and mine was mostly mental, I worked, i had a job, I paid my taxes. What the fuck did they want? If I did not work they would give me a hard time for not being productive. So damned if I do and damned if I don't. Shut the fuck up and eat shit Jesse 

It wasn't fair that I had a credit card. If they ever try to ask me to use my credit card, I'll just lie and say I tore up and I no longer have one. I even tried to say one time I did not have any money to get them off my back, but they said just use my credit card. What a jackass. I hope I never see that motherfucker again. Every time JAR or Thias came to visit, somehow they found out and would give me a hard time about not letting them know Jar and or Thias were in town, but both J and T did not like Jesse. So why would I do that to J or T? They did not want to hang out with Jesse, so why invite Jesse over to hang out? Jesse is such a Primadonna. 100%.You have to walk on eggshells with this motherfucker, they expect you to kiss their ass,give them money, they expect you to help them  the way THEY want help. And if you don't help them the way they expect, you are a selfish greedy person and you are not a friend.SCREW THAT!! I was a friend to them, despite disagreeing on a lot of things, politically. I was still a friend and tried to find common ground. 

They were just hanging around to see what they could gain, money etc, use of my credit card,my washer, dryer,my house etc. I just wanted to hang out and have a good time. Even if it was just talking sitting on the porch. They want to hang out with me again, make me like the bad guy for not wanting to hang out again,(I never really say one way or the other the few times I saw them and they wanted to hang out again)...just said “i don't know about that”  they want to hang out again, like they did nothing wrong. Screw that. They can both suck on a shitty asshole.

As soon as Jesse found out I bought a house(and I did not know it was such a big deal telling them at the time because I told everyone), it is normal to let people know you have moved, I just happened to move into a house. They came up with a plan to take over my house. They were Jealous.I told a lot of people, but Jesse was the only one coming up with a plan to take over my house. I don't even think there was really a fire in their RV. They just lied and said there was.Or it could be that there was a little spark in the electric box, and used that as an excuse, and said there was a fire. Now they would have a reason to stay at my house for a long time. Livin at my house was much better than a crappy trashed up RV. 

Jesse was so Jealous because now I was no longer renting an apartment, I was on a “higher level” as a homeowner, and that was not fair. They wanted a house, and they wanted my house. They did everything they could to stay in my house. Making a lot of stress for me. That did not matter, they were satisfied and had a good solid place to live.So when I insisted they get their own place, just to keep the sanity they still dragged their feet. Even when my AC did not work in the hot summer. When they could have gone to the house they were already renting with an AC, they still tried to stay longer. I mean I paid for the rent already. Why were they still there? Because they did not want to leave. Living somewhere else meant they would have to pay higher rent, utilities.not have a washer dryer, no furniture, no internet, no TV or netflix. And they would live in a bad neighborhood. They had it made in my house, why go anywhere else? Despite what it did to me.Jesse did not care what stress it caused me.as long as they were in my house,paying low rent, and free utilities, free internet, netflix etc they were sitting on the high hog. Did not matter if it caused me stress. Jesse was out looking for one person …….Jesse that is it. That is not what a true friend does. A true friend would not even think of asking me for that much. A true friend would give me respect and know asking me so much would cause me so much stress, a true friend would look beyond their own ego and realize that I am not here to repair their problems. Yet they never respected me but demanded I give them respect. 

Never again. Never again will I ever help them out. Maybe tell them to call 211 or something.But that is the most that I will do. I don't care if I had a million dollars in the bank and/ or if I had a vacation home in addition to my house.It is MY million dollars and it is MY vacation home.I don't have to share. I will not help them.I will not bow down to them. Because guaranteed, if they had a million dollars they would not share a penny of that money with me. If the tables were turned, they would tell me to suck it up buttercup, pull my boots up by the bootstraps and take care of myself like a man. 

They took too much advantage of the little I could spare.and then they say I was not a good friend because I did not give more of what little I had. At the time they stayed at my house, they made more money than I did, yet they expected me to pay for their debts.

They are not very responsible. And I would not be very surprised if they become homeless again.It is bound to happen,as a matter of fact, it WILL happen.The way they live, it is only a matter of time until they do. And WHEN that happens, I would only hope that they DON'T come crawling to me to stay at my house.They do not dare, because they know the stress they caused the first time and they know I will say no. Both Jesse and Jessica are not good people. Suck on shit Jesse and go to hell. 

Jesse is a “must be nice” type of person. They See that I have all kinds of neat electronics, toys and musical instruments, a house, a recording studio, they see the end result and they do not see the hard work it took to get such nice things. All they see is that I have it and they don't and that is not fair. 

  

I know I should forget about these two. But I am getting it all out. Releasing it.Dealing with them was traumatic. I thought they were my friends,I really did… so I lost friends, for no reason. Although they were not really my friends in the first place.I am finding out now. They were never around to be my friend. They were just there to see what they could gain for themselves. I was there to hang out and have a good time.They could have gone forever and not give me a dime or another ride to anywhere and I still would have been their friend. I was not there to get money or a ride from them. I never asked that much out of them.I knew they did not have a lot of money. Somehow they thought I had all kinds of money, I had a credit card, I had a house, so that was something they could take advantage of.They could ask me for help, pull out my heart strings, knowing I have a kind heart and hate for them to suffer.I don't want to see anyone suffer, but I can not provide for the world. 

None of my other friends and family have ever asked as much as they did.They know better and they respect me.Even if I had spare money, if I had a million dollars,an extra house, someone should not take advantage of someone like that.Jesse should have known better. They just saw me as a meal ticket, an ATM and that was it. Once that dried up, that was it.Now they want to hang out again? I think they got the clue.

I hope I never see those motherfuckers again.  

That is the difference.A friendship is not about what can be gained. They said I turned my back on them because I did not give them what they needed,(a place to stay when they were homeless……….again) But I am not obligated to give them housing, I never was, but since I did the first time, they thought they could just come at any time and I would let them live at my house. That is not how it works, that is not how any of it works. Jesse needs to grow up and realize that no one is there to kiss their ass.They lost a friend because of their ego. But since they were ONLY around to see what they could get. Take advantage. They thought they were obligated to my credit card and my bank account for whatever reason. They are really fucked up.Thinking that a friendship is only in existence to what they can gain. And when they did not get what they wanted from me, I was not a good friend. Since I refused to let them live in my house after all that happened, nine months of hell, nine months of going into debt. They expected to stay at my house again because they were….yet again homeless. They did NOTHING to prevent it. I mean you have to do a lot to get evicted. Lose their job every so often, losing income and cant pay rent. 

Maybe they should change their behavior, but they can't, they expect their ass to be kissed. And the ground they walk on to be worshiped. They think their shit dont stink, but roses really do smell like poo poo.   

This is why I will never hang out with them. I mean if they were not a jerk to me and so cynical towards me after ONE time I did not help them, like I was the only saving grace. They burn so many bridges with their family and everyone they meet. I was their only hope. Which is really stupid. I gave them all kinds of resources that could have helped them to prevent them from being on the street. I gave them references to all kinds of places in town that could help them, but they did not take that advice, they just wanted to stay at my house. When I said NO I was the bad friend, I was selfish and greedy.Without them staying at my house again it meant they were on the street and  they claimed I said I would rather they be homeless than stay at my house.I never said that but I did not want them at my house. I tried everything in my power to help them from being homeless again but I was not about to have them stay at my house so if there were only TWO choices, my house or the street? Then go to the fucking street loser. But I tried to help them not be on the street. 

I was not about to have them stay at my house with their 50 cats ruining my house, I could never have anyone over there would not be any room, and they trash every place they live, including my house.jessica kept the guest room like their own personal dumpster…so disgusting. So it would be embarrassing. Granted I am not mr clean with my house, but it would be MY MESS.Add THEIR MESS and it is even worse. And it was Like I was REQUIRED to help them, whatever help they needed,WHATEVER it was, since we were “friends” I was REQUIRED to help them no matter what it was. I was to worship the ground they walk on. But That's not how it works. I was their friend but they were not. So why would I want to hang out with them again? They just want me around so  they can use my credit card, as Jessica once said…..they should get a credit card in case I am not around. Well I doubt they have a credit card. They have nothing. But that is not my problem. 

I am DONE with both of them, Teressa too but they are a mess anyway, probably in some nursing home in a wheelchair, not able to speak or eat or shit on their own all because of Jesse’s ego. Remember they knew better than the medical professionals, better than someone who has been through many many many years of medical school. 

Because they were a Nursing Assistant for 20 years, they knew better than a medical professional that has gone through a decade of medical school. If I remember correctly a CNA can not even administer meds. They are BELOW a nurse. For the record, they did not know better, the proof is there. Teressa’s health went downhill, they were like a child, a two year old child. Their health could have been better if Jesse got their head out of their ass and actually got Teresa some help.It is shameful what they did. Jesse needs help, a therapist, a mental hospital, They are not fit for society.They don't have friends. I was their friend. And they lost me because of their ego. It was the final straw when they said I turned my back on them for not giving them what they wanted after helping them and trying to get more help to the best of my ability. I truly tried to get them from being homeless again, but they did not take my advice, they did not listen to me. So they ended up homeless again. In reality they did not listen to me or get other type of help in hopes they could stay at my house again.Screw that, they are a waste. It is kind of sad really. I just hope there is not another poor soul they attach to and take advantage of. I wish I did not help them so much, but I only hope the best for them. After all the help money and time I gave them I still “turned my back on them” because I did not give them the kind of help THEY wanted.Even though I did try to help them by giving them phone numbers of places that had the ability to help. They did not want that help. They just wanted to take over my house which they felt they deserved. That is very weird. I mean none of my other friends or family felt this way. When I said I bought a house I got congratulations. From Jesse they were down here as soon as they could making excuses on having no place to live. Taking advantage of my kindness, since when I said they could stay it was only supposed to be a couple weeks tops, and I should have known better, insisting they get a hotel room. I would have for ANYONE. Even though they claimed I would have helped jar out why not Jesse?(and I did but JAR was out within a month because JAR has more sense)Jesse has the brain of a peanut.and or they are the type of person who will just use someone and when they cant use said person they leave, or just piss off the person so much the person walks away. Jesse just thinks they can apologize and that is it, but I am done, after they said I turned my back on them…..after all I did for them, never appreciated the sacrifices I made to help them out of the hole. And I did with no expectations of anything in return, just the money I lent out to recoup my bank account. When I did ask for some kind of payment, they acted like I was being greedy, like I had money and I had no business asking for more money. 

They just expected me to give them as much money and resources as they needed. Since they were deserving of such funds. I had a credit card and they were deserving of a credit card, they could not get one on their own(for obvious reasons), and I had a credit card so why not just use mine like it was theirs? 

They just use people and when they are done with what they get out of them they walk away. So really Jesse turned their back on me.They were just trying to flip the table on me and make it look like I was the one walking away when in truth they walked away.and I can see past the bullshit.So why would I walk back to that? They both can go suck on an asshole. I hope I never see them ever again. There is always a chance because we both use METS, (until they don't) But I will never help them. Even if I had the extra cash  and or resources. If they need help I will tell them to call 211.but that is the extent of the help I will give them.Why should I go broke? I mean I try to help the best I can but I am not rich as Jesse claims I am. I never said I was rich, he only assumes that because I have a house, credit card, and things to put in said house, but a lot of the things are found, gifts or I bought used and low price.Some how they thought I had more money then I really had.They just assumed I had money. I never had rags for clothes, I took a shower and I had a job. So I made my money but I was not rich. I mean I guess someone with 5 dollars is richer than someone with 2 dollars. But I was never one with so much extra money, Jesse just ASSumed I had money. I guess they thought since I had a credit card, that meant I had money? ……. and money to share apparently. Fuck That. Even IF I had a million dollars, I am not obligated to share it. Granted 

I tried to help Jesse Jessica and Teresa the BEST I knew how,the BEST of my ability and with the resources I had available to me. and They still said that I was selfish and greedy. How is that even possible? After all I did for them, I still was the bad friend, they claimed I tried to take money from them by means of extortion. 

But  I just wanted to recoup what I took out of my bank to help them out of the kindness of my heart. I mean I did not HAVE to help them at ALL. The only extortion that went on is when Jesse extorted money from me. I did and I still got shit on after I did not continue to give to them. They tried to make me feel guilty for having a thing. Jesse did not have a thing and was jealous.  

Jesse is also the type of person if they find out you have a wad of cash(for whatever reason) they will try their best to separate it from you. You see you should not have that money,THEY should. Even if you have that money to pay a bill, they have bills to pay too and they want that money for them. 

Jesse once gave me trouble for hiring someone to cut my lawn, it is a double lot and takes forever and is a lot of work. Like I am privileged or something for paying a guy to cut my lawn, when I could just pay Jesse to do it. One, Jesse does not have a lawnmower,Two they are not bonded or insured.And Once I got my riding mower, Jesse wanted to borrow it. I was like no, for one it is temperamental, you have to know how to use it, and two. I would never see it again. Buy your own fucking lawnmower. I mean who the fuck gives someone issues for hiring someone to mow the lawn. It's my money, I know what I am doing. I'd rather pay someone than do it myself. This was before I got my riding mower. It is not uncommon to pay someone to mow the lawn. Does everyone forget I have a physical disability with my knee and it is difficult for me to do a lot of physical work? I do what I can but also I work 40 hours a week. I am not lazy. Motherfucker tried to say they have a bad knee too, good then you can relate…but know it was always they had it worse off. 

That's what it comes down to. They have it worse off. Well fine then you have it worse off Jesse, good for you. I will continue to improve my life and I will have a good life. You can continue to be in the gutter if you want. Leave me alone. This is why I don't contact them. They are just a downer. Also took advantage of my kindness. Then when I said NO one time, They were gone. WOW. That action just proved to me that they were just around to see what they could get out of me. Anyone normal would have understood the stress it caused. The stress ANYONE staying at my house would cause. Even when Jar stayed at my apartment we were getting on each other's nerves. Jar also knew he had to get his own place asap and not put the burden on me. Jesse did not care what kind of stress it caused me. They were just out to get what they needed no matter what it did to me mentally, physically or financially. As long as Jesse got what they needed it did not matter.Jesse is a selfish, narcissist,Primadonna, nitwit, does not deserve my friendship. They took too much advantage of my friendship. Claimed I was not a friend because I did not help them, yet I did help them and that is what is so frustrating about it. I helped them, went beyond helping them, I went into debt helping them, spent a lot of money helping them(with the promise of being paid back and I never was) but then they just said I was trying to extort money from them.Jesse is not a man of his word. 

 

 and I still was not a good friend because I just could not continue to help them the way THEY wanted.  

The very definition of Jesse David Ives

a very temperamental person with an inflated view of their own talent or importance.

modifier noun: prima-donna

"the prima-donna behavior of some of the stars"

Prime donne often had grand off-stage personalities and were seen as demanding of their colleagues. From its original usage in opera, the term has spread in contemporary usage to refer to anyone behaving in a demanding or temperamental fashion, or having an inflated view of oneself and a self-centered attitude

Jesse is such a Diva. I would not be surprised if they sucked dick.

Now I know where they live, and I know they are renting, I COULD find the owner and warn the owner about them. Tell them how they are bad tenants,and how they trash every place they live. 

………But really why? Why Would I? It will just get them evicted. I would not want that.Even for the trash that they are, I would never want them to be homeless and on the street.It could spark a possibility that they would come to my house asking for help again, even though last time I could not help them(and WOULD not help them) They would try anything. I know Jesse they would come to me, even though “last time I refused to help them” trying to see if I would take pity on them and give in. Giving me the guilt trip. Eat Shit Jesse

They may have treated me wrong, used me and took advantage of me but I honestly would never want any harm on them, karma will take care of that.  

Friday afternoon. 5/5/23 @1630  

I saw Jesse at Lawndale, no Jessica. They stuck out like a sore thumb sitting on the bench in the shelter, with that gawdawful hat,drinking some drink with the side of their mouth. I am not sure if they saw me, I really dont give a flying fuck if they did. Motherfucker should be in prison for fraud.Mostly wire/mail fraud. I saw them talking with the Washington bus driver. They got on Covert. After I got on the Washington Bus. I would have switched buses if they got on the Washington Bus. I am not sure if they even saw the announcement I made on the mets (now music) page, they are blocked both Jesse and Jessica, so the only way they could have seen the posting is if someone who knew them showed them the post, I also removed it soon after i posted so it would have been a small window to see it. So I wonder if that is what they were talking to the Washington bus driver about. Like I said Jesse belongs in prison. 

It is just a sad situation. I mean I was really their friend. Both Jesse and Jessica. Teresa as well. But Jesse has such a fragile ego, they used my kindness. As soon as they could not get anything out of me like money or housing or credit card, they were gone. They wont speak to me now and will manipulate me to think I was the one that ended the friendship without incident.But it was the fact they claimed I turned my back on them because I would not allow them to stay at my house again, after all that happened. They needed a place to stay, (and I knew that before they did, since I was looking on public record that they were being evicted) I tried to get them to get a better place, and when they were on the street I gave them phone numbers to call to get them help, they did not budge. So when they were desperate they came to me expecting me to take them in AGAIN without hesitation. Despite all what happened before I was just to take them in, Jesse expected it. When I said NO without hesitation…and it was absolutely a HARD NO! I guess that threw them off because they expected me to say, “ok come on in”.... because I “did once before” why not again?(and I regret doing so…they could have gotten a hotel room)

IF they EVER come to me again(i highly doubt it) I will say right away, go to a hotel. My house is not fit for a bunch of people for long periods of time. Why am I the ONLY one to help people in this capacity? I have a house, well so do a lot of people. Why on earth am I obligated to help Jesse and Jessica out as in house them. I did help them,(gave them phone numbers and resources to help the homeless out) but they did not want that help. They said I turned my back on them forgetting or refusing to recognize that I did try to generally help them. I truly did not want them to be homeless but I also did not want them at my house. They did not take the help I gave them,because of their non action to call any of the places I told them to call. They never planned to because they only wanted the help they wanted, which was to stay forever at my house with no responsibilities.If they got any help from anywhere else, that would mean they were off the street and did not have to ask to stay at my house. They wanted to stay at my house above anything else. And when I said NO ,then they claimed I was being selfish, since I had a house, why didn't I share it?...well because it is MY HOUSE. I don't have to share my house as anyone in my neighborhood does not have to share their house. Thousands of people are homeless in Evansville alone, and thousands of people with homes, those of us with homes do not have to share our homes. That sounds greedy and selfish, but I feel bad for the homeless and I don't want them in that situation,but there is a limit. If I had a larger income and greater disposable income I would give to charity.This does not mean I have to give up my house to someone who does not have a house, that is precisely what Jesse was expecting. I had a house, they did not have a house, they were expecting me to share my house, because why…..they simply did not have a home and I did. Well, so does everyone in my neighborhood. 

Why am I the target to share my house, my bank account, my credit card? I have these things for me. They should not be asked to share.It should not even be part of the conversation. Jesse made it part of the conversation, knowing I am a kind person and can't refuse to help someone. Then I finally stood my ground and told them I can not help and that is when I “turned my back on them” Even though I went out of the way so many times to try to help them, the very first time I said NO I am a bad friend. Then they just started to be cynical and mean towards me, not friendly. But then the pandemic happened so I had a good excuse not to hang out, you know because I was looking out for myself and others, this was before I was even vaccinated. I was only trying to do what was right. But all of this is such bullshit. This action just proves they were only around to see what they could get out of me. They were never a true friend. A True friend would never put me through so much stress,they would find another way. Maybe something is wrong with them mentally that they could not even know I was stressed out. They were so far up their own ass that they could not see past their own nose, that maybe something like staying at my house for nearly a year without giving ANY effort to move out would be stressful. They never really tried hard to get a place. It was not a priority because they already had a place……mine. So why go anywhere else? They were just sticking around this whole time to see what they could get. Be it a place to stay permanently. Access to a credit card. Or a lot of cash. Jesse never intended to pay me back. That word of honor crap was just a cover. They never intended to pay me back because when I asked for payment or even signed an agreement they refused and even claimed I was trying to extort money from them, as if they never owed me any amount of money.And I was just greedy, trying to take their money from them for no reason whatsoever. It was a tactic to get me to shut up and leave them alone. They don't miss me, they don't really want to hang out, they just want to make me feel sorry for them and eventually give them access to my credit card( have me spend my card on things for them) and money(cash). That is why Jesse repeatedly has stated to me(they few times they see me)that they walk 5 miles to and from work.I mean how the hell am I supposed to respond to that? “Do you want a cookie”? “Congratulations” “if you don't want to walk so far, get a taxi/uber/lyft” “talk with a coworker about rideshare” “get a job closer to where you live” “move closer to your job” otherwise, pull your big boy pants up and deal with it.  There ARE other ways to get to work besides walking. They want me to feel bad for them, trying to eventually get me to pay for a battery for their truck(they mentioned a dead battery) 

or truck repair, or something so they aren't walking so many miles.That is why they want to hang out. They want to eventually get me to pay for something they don't want to pay for themselves. As if I have millions of dollars or something. Jesse has no concept of what a friendship really is. This is why they have no friends. I was just the sucker who tried to really help, 

I truly thought they were my friends. So I wanted to help the best I could, but I needed to be paid back because I am not rich, I really did not have the extra cash that I gave them, at the time I was working part time, I barely made any money and was struggling to get by. (I guess they thought differently somehow they ASSumed I had an unlimited amount of cash and assets.Jesse even called me “richboy” in anger a few times I don't remember the context but it was probably after they asked for more of my help or something I don’t remember, but it was out of line coming from someone who claimed to be my friend.  It was not like I was being greedy(as they claim), I never asked for interest(i should have) or anything. Just the amount they owed. So I could recoup my bank account pay and the credit card balance. I did not want to go into debt. They acted like I was being greedy and trying to extort money from them. 

When all I wanted to do was to balance my accounts to make sure nothing was in the red for a long time.Any normal person would want that. Any normal person would be responsible and not go into so much debt, but Jesse is so stupid and ignorant to even think of such responsibilities. It did not matter to them if they spent my money how much money, it wasn't their money. Yet they acted like I HAD to give them any help they demanded. Looking back it is kind of sad. They will never get ahead in life. They will always be in the same situation they have always been. They will never get out of the gutter. Too bad. They no longer have me to bail them out. I will never help them with rent etc. I learned my lesson.

When I told them they could not stay at my house again I did them a huge favor. It taught them that I was not their saving grace. I was giving them tough love. I even said that to them and I know Jesse did not like that but it was the truth.It was for their benefit that I no longer help them. I was a crutch, and honestly I did not have the means to help them. I lost a friendship, but it was never a friendship to begin with so I really did not lose anything. Jesse lost their meal ticket, but learned they had to do things on their own….just like normal.  I want to help people, but I can not burn myself in order to help others. I have to in some way think of myself as well. I can't starve myself in order to feed the hunger. I must feed myself and make sure I am stable before I help others. I was not in the right position to help them. I wanted the best for them but I really did not have the means to help them. I only helped them because Jesse promised to pay me back, but that was just an empty promise. A lie. No intention to pay me back.Just something they were saying to convince me to give them what they needed. A Con. They have a bad knee? Well, so do I. They think they are SO SPECIAL (eyes rolled). Jesse always wants people to feel sorry for them. If they were successful and out of the gutter, then no one would feel sorry for them. They make shit up and exaggerate their situation. Hell Jesse may have a bad knee. It may hurt. But so does mine. But I don't exaggerate my situation. I don't draw attention all on me. Jesse fed thrived  on attention they wanted all the attention on them. They hated it when someone else had a bad day. It meant that they were not being attended to. I've had bad days, so what, Jesse has had an even worse day. No matter what, they always have had it worse.  

You could be having the worst day ever, it does not matter. They have it worse off. Always thinking of themselves. And always wanting you to feel sorry for them.  

This is why the last few times I ran into Jesse, they have said to me they have to walk 5 miles to and from work.I just do not know what I am supposed to do with that information.It is like a broken record. Furthermore, why tell me? I mean really…….WHY?? I am not involved in keeping track of how you get to work Jesse. It makes no sense whatsoever. I mean do you want me to feel bad for you? Do you want me to feel bad because I don't have to walk five miles to and from work? I am a good person, I am sensitive to the fact you have to walk so far, but I can not do anything about it. It is out of my control. I can not change the fact you have to walk so far. 

I believe the reason Jesse tells me this multiple times is that I come up with the idea to help them, pay for taxi fair or pay for a battery for their truck so they can drive to work instead of driving. 

This is what Jesse does,  they manipulate you to get you to give what they need. Like saying “I wish I knew someone with a guitar so I could borrow it from them”(they know someone with a guitar…me, but they don't ask or beg) Making me think as a good friend that what I should do, “oh here Jesse I have a guitar you can use” this is what jesse does, it is so they don't have to ask and beg for what they need, they just manipulate people to get them to offer what they need to them, 

so they dont look like bum begging people, it's pathetic.It is a different way of begging, getting the other party to just give out what they need and then Jesse does not even have to ask. If they just manipulate people into giving them what they need.

If you want a guitar then buy a goddam guitar Jesse, I would never give out any of my gear to ANYONE. It is rude for you to even try to manipulate me to get me to lend you one of my guitars or any of my gear.Or a ladder, a saw or tool. Or ANYTHING I OWN. It is for me to use. They were always asking to borrow something. If I lend it out then it is not available for me to use, which is precisely the reason I purchased it. I am not selfish, but goddamn it.  

When it comes to walking 5 miles to and from work, I suggested Jesse take the taxi, but they claim they can't afford it. I suggested Jesse take the bus, but they claim they work too early and the bus does not run at the time they need it. I suggest asking a coworker to get a ride, but they don't know anyone who lives close by. No matter what solution I suggest,there is some kind of excuse they give. It is out of my control. They only want me to offer to buy them a battery for their truck. 

Maybe I should say. How about if I buy you a battery for your truck but you pay me $200 million dollars first,this is my fee for buying you a battery. They will say they don't have that kind of cash, and then I will say well then I won't buy you a truck battery.If you only had $200 million dollars to give me you'd have a battery for your truck, so you would not have to walk to and from work. That's your fault.They would say if we had $200 million dollars we would not need me to buy a battery for them, my response would be well then you are finally getting the picture. Buy your own fucking battery.  End of discussion.        

A very sad ending to a very long “friendship” a long con in reality, although it was never a friendship at all, it was what people call the long con game.(although I do not think Jesse or Jessica have the intelligence to be con artists) They certainly tricked me, because I try to see the good in everyone. Boy I was so wrong. I was being manipulated into thinking they were my friend when in reality they were just there for whatever they could get out of me, money, things, housing, food etc. Once they could not get a dime from me,they were cynical and mean towards me, (again another way to manipulate, get me to crawl back into their good graces when I did nothing wrong at all) When they were despite and wanted more help, they claimed I was not a good friend, because I did not give them help they wanted, when in reality I did try to help them the best I could,the help I offered was not what they wanted, that was not good enough because they knew I had a house so they demanded I share my house again after all that went on before, I had a house so to them I did have the help they needed, I was just being selfish and not sharing. they still demanded I share my house. So when I refused to share my house when they were homeless(AGIN) I was the “bad friend” not helping someone in need. Although I tried to give them help but they did not want it. The help I was trying to give them meant they would get out of the gutter and they would be self-sustaining eventually, the help I offered would require actual work. If they get out of the gutter then there is no one to feel sorry for them and they live on people feeling sorry for them, there is no one to manipulate if they have what they need. No one would give them money if they are on their own, and are getting help from services designed to help people in their situation. That is why they wanted to stay at my house so they could continue to manipulate me into giving them what they need so they would not have to work for it. I had a job, why not have me pay for everything and they can sit on the sidelines diddling themselves, dating young teen agers, showing them off like they are a trophy. I will say this….. I am glad that the young woman had enough sense to get away when she did. 

Somehow, having a house obligates me to share it? This whole situation is really sad. 

I am so glad I am not involved in hanging out with Jesse and Jessica anymore. This way they can't try to manipulate me to give them money,bail them out on rent because they spent money on crap instead of holding back for rent.Like any rational person living paycheck to paycheck would do.(can't afford to buy that thing you want because you have to pay rent instead? Tough shit) They cant have access to my credit card, or bank account (they asked once for me to open a bank account in my name for the four wolves business using my name and my credit, basically getting access to my bank account) They can no longer ask to borrow money or things like a ladder or tools or a guitar etc. They won't have any reason to go to my house and ask if they could stay there WHEN they get evicted. They were only around to see what they could get from me. Oh what are they ever going to do now. They will have to actually work and have real responsibilities. They can no longer diddle themselves all day. They will have to get a job, and save back money for bills. 

The very moment I could not help them, they were GONE. Manipulated me to think I was the one who walked away, ( i was not even  though I am walking away now…i wish i  did sooner, but i really did think they were my friend) making them look good. When in reality they walked away. 

I am finally over them and I dread seeing them at the bus station or on the bus.I’ll have to hear it from Jesse on how they have to walk to and from work 5 miles. How their knee hurts, or don't make enough money Or hear some other sad sob story. 

Jesse needs to go back to Arkansas.Get the hell out of Indiana. Both Jesse and Jessica can go straight BACK to hell.  

If they DO ever come by the house to harass me or ask me for money or help, I will ask them to leave and call the police. Knowing Jesse they will not go near my house, claiming I was the one that shoved them away even going as far as claiming I said to them that I never wanted them on my property again. I never said that……… but OK if that makes it to where they never go near my house OK Jesse just made it easier.Makes to where they really don't have a reason to come by the house.They would never ask for help because they KNOW what kind of answer they will get, after one time I said I could not help, the motherfucker was gone like the wind.Only proves they were sticking around only to see what they could get from me, not a real friend. If any of my other true friends asked me for help and I said I just cant be sorry, they would understand, but really they would not go as far as asking for the kind of help jesse asked for because they know me too well. 

My real friends and family know I don't have a lot of income, or resources, despite the fact I have a credit card and a house.They don't assume I have lots of money. They have way more respect to ask me about such things. But if they did and I said I just can't, they would understand. Not what Jesse did and practically shoved me underneath the bus just because I said I can't help. They would step all over me if we raced to get our only meal in days.They only think of themselves. And if they claim otherwise, it is a lie. 

And what kind of person does one have to be to burn bridges with your entire family or the kind of person that does not want to put said family through what they put me through. They could have gone to their family for help if they were so desperate. But they acted like it was either I helped them or they were homeless.They would not ask family for help because they respect family more, only proves jesse is one big pile of shit. They did not respect me one bit. Only saw me as someone with money (I am not rich but in their pathetic brain I was)they just wanted to separate me from my fortunes.Whatever small amount that was. Jesse is nothing but a thief and a liar.  

Jesse would always make it a competition that they have it far worse than I do. 

Well congratulations Jesse you win. I am not going to sit around and feel sorry for myself. Yeah I have my obstacles(as we all do). But I find ways to get around them. I come up with methods to make my life easier. That's high intelligence. I don't mope around feeling sorry for myself. Expecting everyone to have pity on me.I try my best to make my life happy. It is not perfect, no life is.I also don't manipulate other people,(people i supposedly call friends and people I respect) into getting what I want. I don't ask and ask and ask,promising to pay back with no intention to do so. When I see someone in need I try my best to help.and sorry not sorry, I will give the help I can give and not any more. Jesse just expected more and more,more and more,  when I did not give what they expected they were gone. They were no longer friendly to me, just another way to manipulate.A way to make them stop being mad at me would have been to give them what they wanted, like a 5 year old would.Well no more. I will never call them or spend my day going over to their place.Its probably trashed anyway.

Skibidi Tolilet

When someone says “I have had a bad day” my response is oh well i hope it is better tomorrow. It is not “oh YOU have had a bad day, wait until you hear about my bad day” or “you have no right to complain about your day”

This is what Jesse does. I would complain about something or just make a comment and they would say I have no right. Like during the height of the pandemic where we were all locked down in our homes,  I made the comment that I felt cooped up because we could not go anywhere and everything was closed down anyway. And I honestly did, this is how I felt. Well Jesse did not like that “I have no right to feel  this way” because I have a “mansion compared to where they live” (a hotel room)Jesse never validated my feelings or concerns. And then I once said the food delivery was incorrect, and Jesse said “well that's what you get for getting your food delivered instead of getting it yourself”....when I don't have a car and I choose food delivery to save time, it takes all day to do so and I am just glad it is available.and at the beginning of the pandemic it was a lifesaver.  

I just hope they never go into Goodwill where I work or ask for a job application, or call the goodwill office for whatever reason, that would be awkward. 

Jesse is just one sad fucked up individual, something must have happened to them in childhood. They are really fucked up. I was their friend. All I wanted to do was hang out and have a good time. Play a few rounds of monopoly, go to flea markets, go out to eat or just hang out. Sure we did not agree on anything politically but who does 100%. Jar and Ansyn both would love to suck trumps dick, but I still talk with them. I still stuck around despite their political views. We just did not discuss politics or at least I tried to. I know Jesse tried to egg me on with me having a BLM sign in my window on my property and they said it was “offensive”. But I was not going to remove it because Jesse is offended.All I could say is “sorry you are offended” I know they wanted me to remove it but I would not budge, it's my property, I can do what I want. BUt they tried to control my narrative, every part of my life. Even my own property. I could not have that sign up because they are offended. 

Just like if jesse had the confederate flag hanging in their window. I would not like it but it's not my property. I have realized after all these years Jesse was just around to see what they could get,they did not care about me or my well being at all otherwise they would have enough sense to realize how much stress having them all stay at my house caused. They don't have the ability to have compassion towards others. They only think of themselves and how they can get ahead no matter who they hurt. Even if it was someone they claimed to be best friends with and known for almost 20 years. It did not matter. I did not help them why they wanted to be helped so therefore I was a bad selfish person, even though I tried to help them the best I could with the resources I had. But since I had a house, I had to give that up to them. I “lied” when I said I did not have money to help them(they assumed I had extra money) I lied when I could not help them when they were homeless because I had a house. Well sorry motherfucker I am not going to share my house. That might sound selfish but it's my home, my castle. My domain. I don't HAVE to take you in AGAIN. I did that once before(I regret I ever did) and you Jesse took advantage of that, kept taking and taking for your gain and without any intention of paying me back. And even before that you kept asking for help on rent and I did so out of the kindness of my heart even though I did not ever have the extra cash, and you kept asking and asking. I was the dumbass for even giving you a penny. You jesse never had any intention of paying me back. You are not a man of your word, you just used that line to get money out of me.You just spent your money on crap you did not need thinking 

“oh I have to pay rent?, I'll just ask Pete for help, I'll buy this crap I don't need instead of holding the money back for rent, I ask Pete, and  Pete will pay my rent”. 

After all I did to help you, you STILL said I turned my back on you after THE ONE TIME I said I can't help. What a dumb motherfucker you are.You were never a friend. You were just there to get money out of me, that is it. From the moment you found out I had a house you came up with a plan to take it over. You wanted my house. You did not have a house and I did. That was not fair. So you wanted to live at my house and not pay rent or bills. Lazy ass motherfucker. Go Fuck Yourself. 

I really do hope you rot in the deepest part of hell, while getting anal raped by 12 demons and at the same time sucking on Satan’s cock,for eternity.

I hope to never see your ugly face again. Fuck off and leave me alone. I will walk away and avoid you if I ever see you. I will not acknowledge or say anything to your motherfucking face. That is my right.I don't have to speak to you. It is one thing to ask for help, but when I say I simply can not help, you  take that as gospel, because it is the truth. Say ok and move on, like a normal person. I am not selfish because I can not give you my “last crumb”.Somehow you thought in your fucked up head that you were obligated to everything I had, my house, my money, my credit card my shower, my washer, dryer, my ladder, my tools, etc. I am scrapping by just to survive and you have the balls to ask for everything I have because you want it. Because you have nothing, I have something and you want it for yourself, kicking me in the mud to get whatever you need for yourself. I tried to help the best I could and that was not good enough. I only wish I told you to fuck off years ago, you did it to yourself when you claimed I turned my back on you after all I did for you, Jessica and Teresa. You never appreciate ANYthing I did, you were never humble or grateful. Just there to take take take without a thought on how it affected me. Never thought about how I had to pay back the credit card balance on which you spent, that did not matter to you, you got what you needed. Rent was paid but you said I was the one trying to “extort money” from you for simply asking to be repaid. That was it, I just asked to be repaid for what you promised to pay me, no interest or anything, just to recoup my account so I don't go in the red. So I dont go into debt.Who really is the selfish one? And then telling Jar to “humble himself” but who really needs to humble themselves? Jar is a far far better person, friend,and a more successful businessman than you Jesse will EVER BE. 

I am not your meal ticket, not anymore. SO KINDLY GO FUCK YOURSELF JESSE DAVID IVES.      

There was the time when Jesse wanted to borrow my dads chop saw, I told them every single time they asked, this saw is not mine to lend out (and if it was mine I would not lend it out). Jesse is like that bad neighbor always wanting something to borrow. I am glad they were not directly my neighbor.They lived on Parker which was walking distance down the street and that was all I could handle. Even then they would not pick up that grill. They acted like it was a complete inconvenience when I finally got them to pick it up. Everything is an inconvenience when you think you are so important and your shit doesn't stink. Jesse thought of themselves as very important. They expected everyone to kiss their ass. Do things on their terms. Even if they are house guests in my house. It was their rules I had to follow. And when they needed help, they expected me to give in and give whatever help they wanted, otherwise I was not a great friend to them.No matter what they were asking, they expected it. They were homeless? Well it was my fault not theirs. Because I had a house therefore if they could not stay there, then that meant they were on the street and homeless instead of staying at my house like they expected to. 

They could not go to ANYONE else. I was the ONLY one in the entire universe that could help them, according to their actions. It was either I let them live at my house or they are homeless, there was no other alternative or inbetween. And if I refused then I was the bad guy kicking them out on the street to fend for themselves and starve to death. It was not “pull yourself up by the bootstraps” as they would tell anyone else in the same situation. It was 

“I demand you let me stay in your house, so I can have no responsibilities and i can diddle myself all day”   

If I ever win the lottery or come into a lot of money, like millions, I would not let Jesse have a dime. Somehow they would find out but nope they would not get a penny from me.They already ASSume I have unlimited amounts of money OR they just take advantage of people even if they aren't wealthy. I hope no other poor sap comes across them. They just use and abuse people, take advantage. Once they are done with them they are gone. Not friends anymore. I really did think they were my friend. But once they could not get what they wanted out of me they did not want anything to do with me, that is why Jesse was so cynical towards me. The pandemic did not help because after that summer where they asked if they could stay at my house the pandemic happened. It was right after I got back from Chicago. They kept messaging me asking when I was going to get home. I was like I don't know. I am at the mercy of the greyhound bus.Wanting to leave Jessica's bike at my house but lied to me because they left more than just a bike. I insisted they get the crap out and away from my property that same day. I know how they are about leaving things at my house, from the grill to the crap they left when they were moving to even their vehicle. They think they can just leave it there for an unlimited amount of time at their discretion as if I did not matter. and I would be fine with that. Boy they knew how to walk all over me but I tried to get them to stop, but they just acted like they had the right to have their stuff at my house. What a dumb motherfucker.  

Jesse would see that I have $40.00 cash in my possession, my wallet. They would try to remove me of that money because they are above me and deserve that $40.00.and I don't….. Seems childish right?, because it is, no one in their right mind would try to take money from a friend, same thing with my house. Jesse saw I had a house and they wanted to live there so they would not have to pay rent or utilities. They always stated that yes we are friends but we could never be roommates.This was when I had the apartment. I mean they said this out of the blue, I never mentioned it. They said it more than once, and quite frankly I agreed. I think they wanted me to insist they become my roommate or something. They did not like it that I agreed.But It was the truth, I saw how they lived. This is why they mentioned it more than once. Thinking I would change my mind. I saw how they lived and they did live with me for way longer than they should have. They had no respect for the property,living space, or property owner whatsoever.

Hell they were doing a rent to own, so basically the place was going to be theirs, and they had to leave because the living conditions were so bad.

I can only imagine how their current place is. It is only a matter of time until they get evicted again. I just hope they never show up on my property despite having a place to stay. I blocked Jesses number so they can not call me, unless they get a new number or something.

I ONLY offered to let them stay because I really thought it would be a couple weeks tops, enough time to find their own place, but Jesse had other plans, they NEVER planned to leave.

This is why they stalled and stalled. Car broke down, had to rent a car so could not save up for a deposit, had health problems so was fired from  their job and had no income therefore could not save up for a deposit or pay rent. Jessica had a job the whole time,teresa was incapable,jessica paid me something at least but it was below market and no participation in help with utilities,and that is why they stalled stalled stalled,even when they had a place,that I found and paid first months rent and deposit, they still stalled. AND my AC was not working, they still dragged their feet. They really did not want to leave the luxuries of my house. I think that is why they made themselves homeless and got evicted so they could get a possible chance of staying at my house again.

I even paid for that gawd awful truck that jesse could not even drive. Never took it for a test drive, just handed over the $700.00 like it was nothing. And then had to tow it back from Vincennes to Evansville because jesse did not want to try to sell it back. Hell it was not their money they spent since they had no intention of paying me back. Jesse is a thief. 

Jesse walks around like their shit dont stink and they own everything and deserve everything they demand. They are a karen. Expecting everyone to kiss their ass at the sametime refusing to be a good person or kiss up to anyone.

 

If they are homeless then they ASSumed I would take them in again.That is why they made NO effort to not be homeless, did not take my advice on getting help. They did not call any place in town that would help them, they did not apply for emergency housing, why? because They wanted to stay homeless so they could have the possibility of staying at my house again so they would not have any responsibilities like before, using me for all they can. Getting more access to my bank account and credit card. Assuming I was just a nice good friend and I would take them in again after all I did for them before. Boy were they wrong. This is why they said to me that I turned my back on them when they needed help(even though I did try to help they just did not want that kind of help) because they EXPECTED me to help them the way THEY wanted and when I did not give them the help they expected I was the bad friend, a selfish greedy person for not “sharing the wealth” when I did not have a big pile to share to begin with. I am just trying to get by the best I can, and I could not afford my own place with the income I have, even working full time. I am fortunate enough to have what I have. It was given to ME, and only ME, because of my situation. I can not get a high paying job, I tried. I got some education but the world is rough.  A lot of high paying jobs are physically demanding and I can not be on my feet all day. 

That is just ME, I am sure other people are in the same situation. (jesse would claim that they can't be on their feet but still do the hard work, well good for them)I am just speaking for my situation. That is why I am humble in what I have. 

This is why Jesse is a snake, they might be afraid of snakes, but they are the biggest and slimiest of them all. 

They can owe all kinds of money all over town to all kinds of places and people but they will contest it, refusing to pay the debt. I can not sue them or try to take them to court because I have no record or proof of what they owe me. I tried to get Jesse to sign an agreement but they refused claiming I should just trust them that they will pay me, I have yet to be paid back in full and when I asked for payment they claimed I was trying to extort them, when all I wanted to do was get paid back.So I don't suffer. They acted like I had the extra money so I really did not need to be paid back at all. They just assumed that I had the extra money, so they lost a “friendship”(meal ticket) over an assumption. 

I am SO GLAD I no longer have to deal with their bullshit and bullying. I will never give them a dime again. I will never invite them over to my house. I was the better friend to them when all I wanted was to hang out.We did not have to do anything that cost money, hell none of us had money(jesse just expected me to have all the money)we could have just hung out on my porch. Or played super nintendo, watch cat videos on youtube.Go for a drive(gas money but that is it)hangout on the river. There are things to do that do not cost money. Come to find out Jesse and Jessica were just hanging out to see what they could get, use my credit card, ask me for help(since supposedly we were friends)and friends help out friends when they are in need apparently. So when I could not or would not help them at their “lowest” I was being selfish. Although I DID try to help the best I knew to my ability

That is what pissed me off the most is that I am accused of “turning my back” on them when I DID honestly try to help them at their lowest. It was just that they knew I had a house so I guess in their head I HAD to share it.I never really asked anything of them except maybe a ride or two. I always offered to pay gas money.I am a normal human being. I don't ask much of anything from people. They even one time gave me grief for not offering to(help)pay for gas when they went up to indy, when they were going up there anyway. I was like well you did not ask, and they were like I should have offered. What a croc. After all they did for me, after all I paid for and never got paid back even when they promised they would, they expected me to think of offering to help pay for gas. If they needed help they should have disclosed that before we went and then I could have made the decision whether to go or not, instead it was that I should have known(what they were thinking) It was like they only wanted me along so I could pay for the gas? And then they claimed I complained too much when we went last time, I think it was that I wanted to go sit down because they took too long shopping, I never once complained, but that was Jesse gaslighting me making me  think I complained. If I moaned or groaned it was because my knee was hurting so bad I could not stand up or sit.

It had NOTHING to do with them, but they are such a narcissist that they think everything, absolutely everything has to do with them.Even when someone has pain in their knee, somehow Jesse has to make it about them. This is why I am done with Jesse and Jessica. I will never go to hang out at their dump,and they will never be invited to my house. If I ever see them in town as I am doing errands or going to or from work,  I will do my best to AVOID them. 

I am so done with Jesse and Jessica, Jason was right from the very beginning. I should have listened. Jason Thias never liked them either. Mom and Dad were right too. It is sad because I truly tried to be their friend. But this is how Jesse treats people. Why was I a person they could just walk all over and abuse and take advantage of? ALL I tried to do was be a friend to them. Do they just not want to have friends? Because if they continue to treat people like they treated me, they won't have anyone………ANYONE.I am sure they will claim that is OK. Burn enough bridges Jesse will be totally alone. They won't have anyone give them anything.They wont even have anyone who wants to hire them. Out on the street homeless. No one to blame but yourself Jesse David Ives.You would walk and kill your own mother to get a meal. Pathetic loser. And they won't have anyone to blame but themselves. Jesse will be alone, it is only a matter of time until Jessica has had it. But Jessica sticks around because Jessica has no place to go. They can feed off each other I guess.I really dont give a flying fuck what they do as long as they do it far far away from me.  

I mean really Jesse, I helped you the best I could to the best of my ability but you kept wanting more and more and more.You keep coming to me for help as if I was the ONLY one on the entire planet that could help you. You were SO dependent on me.Why am I the one you come to for help? I tried to give you help the last time you were homeless, I truly did. You ONLY wanted to stay at my house, you did not want all that other help. Then you claim when I said you could not stay at my house again you said I was not a good friend even a year later. I am not rich, I do not have piles of money to just give away. I dont have the resources to help you long term. You wanted that from me, I could not provide so therefore I am a selfish greedy person. I do not have an unlimited credit limit, when I buy something with my credit card, it HAS to be PAID off. I can not just not pay it. If I did not let you and Jessica stay at my house that meant you were homeless and on the street? Why only come to me and not have an alternative, was it Because I offered to help you one time? Did you not have anyone else that would fall for your bullshit? That's right, you had NO ONE, not even your own family.Is that why you called me family? Because your own family disowned you for being such a pathetic excuse for a human being? You Jesse are like a wounded animal kept coming back for more and more and more.You act all tough telling people to pull themselves by the bootstraps and be self-sustaining, yet you are so dependent on other people.and you cant even make it, I mean truly make it. So you come to me because I have a good heart and I am a kind person who hates to see anyone suffer even if it means I suffer while making sure you don't and that is precisely what happened.  

When you were homeless Jesse, I knew what happened. I knew you were being evicted. It is Public record. So I tried to get you to get a different place. Without telling you I knew. But you did not budge. You said you wanted to find a different place  because the trailer you were living in was falling apart and not very livable., so why didn't you? You claimed you did not have time to look for another place to live.Who else was going to do the work for you? So once you were evicted and homeless I tried to get you resources for people in your situation. You did not take it or act on it. Even after you were evicted and on the street, I gave you phone numbers of places to help you.I did not want you to be on the street and homeless(i did not want you to come asking for my help, asking me if you could stay with me) You see I was trying to help with the best ability I had. I did not turn my back on you because I honestly tried to help you. I just did not give you the help that YOU demanded from me. You just wanted to stay at my house and not have to pay rent. You expected that.You DEMANDED that. I mean I had a house, why wouldn't I share it? ………Because it’s mine, that's why. I don't have to share my house with you, or anyone. That is not how that works, that's not how any of this works. Millions of people in the USA and around this whole planet own their own home, yet I was the ONLY one obligated to share mine? 

Why am I the savor of everything? I don't have a lot of money Jesse yet I scraped every bit of extra money I had just to try to help you. So I asked to be paid back so I could be whole again,no interest mind you.Just the principle. Just what you promised you would pay me when I lent out the money to you. When kept asking for payments You claimed I was trying to extort money from you as if I never lent you any money at all. What a waste. Then when I could not help you again as you expected you said I turned my back on you. Fuck you,Fuck you,Fuck you.  

Extortion. 

the practice of obtaining something, especially money, through force or threats.

On another subject with Ansyn, Anthony suggested I let Ansyn stay with me when he was in need of a place to stay. I originally messaged him in concern for Ansyn asking Anthony what we could do to help. Then Anthony said "have Ansyn stay at my house, I said I don't have room." He said sure I do,(as if I was just making an excuse)not knowing I have one tiny spare bedroom that I currently use as a clothes closet and file room. I have the basement but it is not fit to stay in for long periods of time, not really a living space, no privacy and technically not a bedroom. Anthony stated he would let Ansyn stay at his house, but did not want to deal with Tyler

(I did not even know Tyler was part of the package at the time) So why the fuck pawn him off on me when you Anthony would not even let Ansyn stay at your house? 

All talk and no action Anthony. ALL talk and NO action!  

Why the fuck am I the ONLY one on this whole  entire planet to help people? Apperently If I can't help (the exact way THEY want me to help, which is  give them money and shelter) then I am a bad friend,a greedy, selfish and awful bad person. I could help in other ways, like give them a phone number to call, as in like 211. 

NO  that is not what they wanted. They want my money and they want my house. Pure and simple. If I dont give what they want then I am a bad friend.   

I will say this, I am a much better person than Jesse will ever be. I am not walking around manipulating people into giving me what I want.I dont walk around like my shit dont stink. And I don't go around acting like I am the ONLY one on the entire planet with a bad situation. Or try to “one up” my bad situation with other people.Saying no matter what you are going through I have it much worse.Having no empathy towards anyone and their situation. Only thinking of myself. 

If jesse wants to “one up” me on how bad of a situation they are in, have at it hase. I won't stop Jesse from living in the gutter.Not anymore.If Jesse wants to always be in a worse situation than I am, then go for it. This is not a contest, but if you say it is, 

YOU WIN. YOU WIN the entire “I am worse off than you are” contest. Congrandufuckinglations.It is the ONLY thing that you are good at. Living in a worse situation than I am. I will continue to be successful. I will have friends and family who respect me. I will always have a house and practically everything I need. 

congradufuckinglations Jesse David Ives you win the “I live in the gutter contest” the only thing you will ever win.or ever be good at, that is in reality to be a pathetic loser. I tried to help you man. I tried to help you get out of that hole, but all you did was try to pull me in with you. Then when I got you out of said hole, you shoved me in the hole telling me I turned my back on you as you looked down on me.  

Maybe at one point I did not want Jesse to be in that situation and I wanted a better life for them, after all I did consider Jesse,Jesica and Teresa my friends so it would only be natural to wish the best for them .but in reality Jesse continued to kick me in the mud when I was down, just to make sure they got ahead.

They assumed I had all kinds of money,(because I never complained about paying bills?)I had a credit card so that meant I was rich? Or maybe because I had things(in reality I saved up for or said things if bought new, or they were found,used or a gift. Nothing in my house is really new except maybe music gear.

Jesse has nothing, so they see I have something and they want what I have, 

like one of my guitars(you see I have multiple guitars so I should share) or my super nintendo. They don't have a super nintendo, I do(which I bought used off of ebay)so they want said SNES. They ask to borrow it and I decline because then I wont have said SNES to play with. That sounds selfish? Well the few things I lent out I never got back.I lent out a ton of money and never got it all back.

Another example of manipulation, they need a ladder and “wish they knew someone with a ladder who could lend out to them” (manipulating me into offering mine). Because they do know someone with a ladder…….ME. I say well Home Depot has them for sale, they say they are $200.00, too expensive. I say well save up for one then. 

They try to manipulate me into giving me what I have so they don't appear to be begging or asking for things all the time, but I see through the bullshit.

 

Jesse has no empathy.They do not have the capability. And when I say I have empathy towards their situation(for example: homelessness….and I really tried to)they say that is not true since I never experienced what they have experienced(homelessness). I mean that is true, but cant Jesse just take it as it is and be thankful that I am being a friend. and that I am TRYING to understand what Jesse went through instead of putting me down for trying to empathize? It is because they don't have the capability of empathy, therefore no one can possibly have any kind of empathy.If they can't have said empathy, then no one can. That is their narcissistic attitude. What a waste. I truly was their friend. The very definition of empathy is to try to understand what someone is going through. Jesse was never a friend. Jesse was just hanging around to see what they could get out of me, money, credit card, shelter, food, etc. 

Empathy: the ability to sense other people's emotions, coupled with the ability to imagine what someone else might be thinking or feeling.

In the end Jesse was angry and cynical towards me because I did not give the help they demanded when they were homeless. When in fact I DID try my best to help them. I truly did not want them to be homeless. Then after not giving them the help they demanded Jesse was all of a sudden mean and cynical towards me, I finally said to them why are you so mean towards me? What did I do to make you so angry towards me? They claimed they are cynical toward everyone. I responded by saying maybe they should get some help.Like see a therapist,(because Jesse did say they had a mental breakdown a few years ago, I was looking out for their mental health) 

Then they respond to me(in reference to getting help) (in a text) “Help? You did not give me help when I asked for it” I said(thinking it was the many times they asked for help as in money) Well I did not have the money to give you. Jesse then said “no it was the fact you did not let us stay at your house (again) when we were desperate and homeless”. Claiming this turn of events of me not letting them stay at my house meant I turned my back on them. Well that was the last straw that broke the camel's back. I was DONE with Jesse, Jessica too. Since I DID honestly try to help them. 

I did not want them on the street and homeless.I just did not want them living at my house. Is that wrong? Don't I have a right to have limits on what help I give out? They did not think so. They demanded I give them everything they wanted.If I did not give them what I want then I was the bad friend. I was being greedy and selfish because I did not “share the wealth” I did not and do not HAVE to give or share anything with anyone, yet I did.I shared a lot with them. I let them live at my house for NINE months. Have them place their cats in my garage. Postponing the construction of my studio, something I planned on doing even before I bought the house. (they acted like I made that up to get them to leave since they did not seem to care)But Why should I make up lies to get them to leave MY house? Shouldn't they want to have their own place? Not sharing my house is my freedom. I have a house, yes, I have a credit card, yes, I even have a bank account(roll eyes). Jesse did not have any of these things(even a goddamn bank account) and yet they EXPECTED me to share said things. They DEMANDED it.I could have used the money I gave away to them on better things, such as saving it or spending it on myself. 

Yes I want to help people, that is in my nature. I do not take my fortunes for granted, I do know I am blessed. But to say after ALL I DID and sacrificed I STILL turned my back on you JESSE? Fuck off Jesse.FUCK OFF.   

At the time I gave them(money, use of my credit) card without hesitation because I was promised to be paid back, but when I asked for the money back Jesse said I was trying to extort money from them.Only proves they never intended to pay me back)) They knew they owed me money, they just tried to prolong not paying me as much as possible.Claiming now I was trying to extort money from them, making me the bad guy for simply asking for the money I lent out and was PROMISED back. And now I am SHIT OUT OF LUCK, since I wont talk to them,they wont even attempt to contact me. They know where I live. If they really wanted to hang out they know my address.But they won't go near my property(thank goodness) Probably would never get the money anyway since they would never show up for court.  

I scraped by every extra amount I had to help them(with the promise to be paid back).I use my credit card for expenses, and I only have a certain amount to spend each month. Using said credit card to send them money would mean I have less to spend on what I need for the month and the balance would be bigger the next time it was due. And when I sent them money(with the promise they would pay me back) the balance was bigger than normal. I had to ask my folks for help and have them send me extra money to make sure I dont go into debt. Jesse just took advantage of my kindness. I would have never helped them if nothing was going to be paid back(I simply did not have the extra money to help).It was like I was giving them an advance since they PROMISED me they would pay me next pay day, and they NEVER DID. That is not being greedy, it is being sensible.I did not and DO NOT have the extra assets to help people. Jesse just assumed and demanded that I give them what they needed.It did not matter to them whether I had the money to spare or not. Jesse thought they were tough shit and better than I was. so they demanded what they needed. Jesse just assumed they could take any amount of money they needed from me and never pay me back. Jesse is not a good person. Jesse is not a man of his word. That is all bullshit and they knew it the moment they said it. It was never their intention to ever pay me back. That was the plan from the beginning. It was just a way to separate me from my money. Jesse is a thief, con man, and a grifter. They never really had a father figure in  their life but I am willing to bet their father is exactly the same piece of shit who did the same exact grifting bullshit, only difference is, they are no longer alive. 

The more and more I think about the shit they did to me, the more I want to beat the ever loving shit out of jesse. But I am a pacifist and I refuse to fight. My best bet is to stay as far away from them as possible so they do not have a chance to ask me for help if they even have the gall to ask again after all that has happened. They already know my answer so I doubt they will ever come to me for help.They would guilt trip me anyway saying I would not help them when they needed it   

IF there is a hell that did exist, Jesse is going there. May their soul rot in “hell” for eternity.  

Jesse David Ives is a creepy,vain, narcissistic,

Prime Donne (pre madonna) shit slinging man child, who likes to fuck teenage girls barely out of high school.

I would not be surprised if they were caught trying to lure an underage teenager for sex that they met online. They are THAT creepy. 

I think what happened is traumatic. I had someone who I thought was a friend,

yeah we did not agree with everything socially or politically but who does? 

I draw the line on nazis, bigots and racists.I dont think Jesse was any of those, just narrow minded at times,a fabric of their upbringing if you will. They were not going to march for the white race or kill anyone that was not white.

 I tried to help them out the best I could, but apparently that was not good enough. They expected more. When all I tried to do was help them, they wanted more and more and more. Then  they had the gall to blame me and put it all on me that I was the one that walked away, and turned my back on them. They were not going to take the blame. That is traumatic because I am put to blame for their homelessness when all I tried to do was help them the very best I could with the resources I had at my disposal. But You see I had a house so I was expected to share said house. I had a credit card so I should use it to help them out.BUt that is not what a friend does. Jesse went over that line. 

Every single one of my other friends and family know you don’t do what Jesse did. You don't ask that much from someone, even someone you call a good friend, even a friend that is so close you call them family.you don't even do that to family, I would have done anything to help them but they took advantage of that and went over that line. They kept asking and asking and asking.They kept asking me for help, promising me they would pay me back, all fake broken promises, all lies. Since they never intended to pay me back. 

They even took advantage of that Rabi.That poor old man, He was disabled, on disability and was low income. He lent them money too. But then Jesse complained about the guy not giving them any more money. Said he(rabi) would break his own arm patting himself on the back because he helped jesse. Funny, Jesse said the same about me. When all I wanted to do was help, I am sure the same for that Rabi.What a piece of shit Jesse is.I think that is why Jesse kept saying “we are family” so I get in my head that since “we are like family” then I must help Jesse like they are family. Their own family did not give a shit about them. That is why I was the last resort to give them shelter when they were evicted and had no place to stay. Even their own family saw through Jesse’s bullshit.Jesse is a lonely pathetic little man. 

They have no one to blame but themselves. They had friends but they blew that out of the water. They are capable of working some kind of job. It's not like they can not have some kind of income. They always brag about people have to pull your own weight or pulling yourself up by the bootstraps, but then depending on others to pay for everything, what a lazy piece of shit.I just really hope they never just show up at my house. If they do I have the right not to answer the door. I mean what are they going to do? I have that right not to answer. 

Jesse is so hard headed that they ASSumed I had a ton of money, that is why they called me a rich boy(as an insult). I mean they never had access to my bank account balance, I don't think. Never knew about my trust fund. I made less money and worked less hours than they did(at the time when they stayed with me)So how in the hell did I have more money? It was because I had a credit card and that I had a house. That is why. Yes I had a few credit cards and yes I had a house, so fucking what. I am fortunate, but that does not mean I have to share, that is just stupid. Having a house in no way obligates me to shelter anyone I call a friend.Most people know how to be an adult and not rely on other people as much as jesse did. 

I mean if I had not been in Evansville at the time of their many times being homeless and I was still living at home in Louisville, what would they have done? They would have figured something out.It would have been another way for them. They should not rely on me so much.  

Well don't rely so much on me to pick you up out of the mud, when you kick me down in said mud after I let you up.    

Here is how I feel about the whole entire situation. 

I helped Jesse out after they were kicked in the mud, by lending a hand and pulling them up out of said mud nearly breaking my legs in the process. but then once they were out of the mud,and dusted themselves off,they pushed me into the mud stomped on my head, making sure I ate some of that slimy wet shitty mud and then walked away,and as they walked away they said to me “You piece of shit rich boy, you are greedy because you did not offer to give me your clean shirt, do you expect me to walk around looking filthy?, that is a bad look for me, I can not walk around looking like I was just shit on,I demand you give me your shirt”

But since I was shoved in the mud(by Jesse), now I have a muddy dirty shirt. Jesse says to me “you see what you made me do, now your shirt is muddy and filthy. Do you have a clean shirt? You can't expect me to wear that one, I demand you give me a clean shirt, now go get me a clean shirt rich boy”

You see they expected a clean shirt after being shoved in the mud.They were dirty and needed to get cleaned up.They did not want to walk around looking filthy, like they had been shit on. I had a clean shirt, so I should have already known after pulling them out of the mud that I should also give them the only shirt I have, which is the one on my back.

BUT Now that Jesse shoved me in the mud, my shirt was dirty as well, but they still demanded I give them a clean shirt.Since they think I am rich and I can afford multiple shirts. They demand I get them a shirt. 

This is an analogy to the whole situation on how they asked for my help and never stopped asking.Never once stopped to think how it affected me. Once I said that is enough and told them I just can not help them. They got angry and defensive. Said I was a selfish greedy person because obviously I had a house, I COULD offer them shelter since I did have that nice huge wonderful house.(much better than the street or hotel room) They EXPECTED to live at my house as long as they saw fit, and when I suddenly kicked them out they did not like that.

and that my friend is absolutely insane. It is the reason why I don't talk to them anymore, I don't even acknowledge their existence if at all possible.If they are on the bus, there is no way for me to avoid them.I do as little interaction as possible.I don't want to see or smell their dirty shitty fucknut face ever again.  

They did not even acknowledge the fact that I helped them, and I went out of my way to help them. I sacrificed so much to make sure they were ok and all they do is demand more and more. Never really appreciating what I did to help them. I did not help them for praise or to make myself look good. I did it because it was the right thing to do. In the end Jesse claimed I was just helping them for my benefit. They are so fucked up that they can not comprend someone just helping out of the goodness of their heart. Jesse has a cold heart, if they have one at all.

I hope Jesse goes to the deepest part of hell.Their ass raped by many demons with very large cocks multiple times an hour while being forced to suck on satans massive cock and the demon seed expoding in their mouth multiple times forcing them to swallow satan’s massive load of cum every hour for eturnity   

Jesse and Jessica have lost all respect. I truly wanted the best for both of them but after all that went down in the end.Putting all the blame on me.Saying that I turned my back on them with ALL that I did for them.After ALL that I sacrificed and spent money on(that I really did not have) I was at my wits end. 

Plus they kept hounding me when I was on my way back from Chicago.(a well deserved vacation) Asking me when I was going to return. I was like I will return whenever I get back.I was tired and dirty and wanted a long cold shower after I got back(as it was August and a hot day), I wanted to relax and get ready for returning to work on Monday(i think it was Saturday possibly) I did not want to deal with Jesse's bullshit drama. I did not give two fucks if Jesse  was jealous that I went on vacation and out of town to Chicago. Jason and I saved up and planned for it all year. We both could not have done it if we did not save the ENTIRE YEAR for it. 

Then Jesse had the gall to ask if they could hang out on my porch for a few days as I was away. They were really hoping they could stay IN my house. But I was not going to have that. Staying on my porch was also not an option.That is a security and insurance risk. I mean I can't have people just hanging around my house while I was away.What would the neighbors think? Jesse did not like that but tough shit.   

I really tried to help Jesse. They were on the brink of being homeless so I tried to motivate them to get off their ass and get a new place.Maybe apply for emergency housing, they did not do so.Once they were homeless I gave them resources such as Aurora and 211 to get them the help they needed. They had cats so they could not go to the shelter. Although they asked if the cats could stay with me, I was like no way jose. I have enough with Cassidy. I have that RIGHT to refuse to help in that regard if it deems too much on my end. I HAVE THAT RIGHT.It does not mean I am a BAD friend.It does not mean that I am selfish or greedy, It just means I dont have the ability to take care of their cats.For one they had just too many, two they aren't fixed so they would spray everywhere, ruining my house.And I would have multiple litter boxes, and have to feed them etc. Jesse never thinks about how it would affect me, only what they can get out of it. They needed someone to take care of their cats as they looked for a place or to stay in a shelter, so they asked me, they never thought about the hardship on me. This is why I have ONE fixed female cat, And she is a handful. My house, My rules. 

I dont give two shits if you think I turned my back on you Jesse, I never did. You walked away the moment you started being unfriendly and cynical towards me. Don't give me  “I  am cynical towards everyone” line…that is bullshit. It is a cover up. You were cynical towards me because I did not do what you demanded, which was to give you shelter. You are a man child. You expect everyone to kiss your ass, and give you respect, yet you never respected me or my space. If you did you would understand the hardship it was helping you. I did without hesitation the first time. I thought you would be out within a few weeks. Since it was crowded and not ideal. Plus the poor cats in my garage, in the cold winter.(at the time they came to stay it was only October so not very cold) They never cleaned the litter box.Causing a fly infestation. They did not take care of their area of the house. Jessica trashed the guest room. Jesse and Teresa never kept the basement cleaned. True my room was not the cleanest but it was MY HOUSE, I could not have three other messy people also living at my house.So what if my own room is messy. They never contributed to the household expenses, only paid me a few hundred dollars a week for rent. It was never supposed to be permanent.Although they tried to make it that way. Jesse had no intention of leaving. 

They would have stayed as long as they could(and to be honest they did, they stayed until I insisted they leave).jesse even acted like I was kicking them out of THEIR home. Just another tactic to guilt me, making me look like the bad guy…”kicking them out of “their” home” 

Jesse refused to be proactive and find a place on their own.I dont give a shit if they were tired after work, so was I. I am glad they were working but Jesse had a responsibility to find a place. They simply could not stay at my house indefinitely. (I believe in my soul that is what they were hoping for since they tried to prolong their stay at my house)I literally think Jesse got themself into the hospital so they would not have to look for a place, therefore prolonging the stay at my house. They simply did not want to leave.I mean they COULD HAVE gotten a hotel room only a few weeks from moving down to Evansville. But I was NICE enough to let them stay. They just took advantage of that.Jesse took advantage of a lot of things, and once that dried up, I was the “bad friend” I was the one who was selfish and greedy for not sharing my money and my house. What a load of bullshit. 

I HAD to be the one to find them a palace, I was the one that made the appointment to see it and I was the one who paid the deposit and first month's rent. That is how desperate I was to get them the hell out of my house. And EVEN WHEN they had a place, Jesse still dragged his feet getting out, 

I mean they literally had a place of their own and they STILL WOULD NOT LEAVE MY HOUSE in a speedy manner.

You see that is why I lost all respect for them, They lost my friendship. I will never invite them over. I will never go over to their place, I have blocked them on my phone and social media. 

The ONLY way they could ever speak to me is if they see me in town, at the bus station, on the bus. and even then I do my best to avoid them and if they do see me, have as little conversation as possible.Thats my right, I don't have to talk to Jesse They COULD come to my house and try to talk to me that way, but I have all the control at my house, my domain,my castle, I could refuse to answer the door.and would that be just great, they spend all that time coming over to my side of town only to find out that “i am not home” 

It's probably why they make no effort to contact me by the phone or social media(i blocked them anyway).because they know I am in charge at my house, if i were to go to their house, then Jesse is in control there, that is probably why they offer me to come over instead of trying to come over to my house.They would have to make plans in advance and they were never good at that , even when i was speaking to them we would make plans, I would clear my calendar and prepare for them to come over(after we had made plans) and then they would never show up at planned time on planned day, when I finally get a hold of them, they would make an excuse on why they aren't coming over,never once called to cancel or reschedule, just not show up. I wasted my whole entire morning/day when I could be doing other things. And then they never told me of the changed plans, I had to be the one to try to contact them.Jesse had no respect towards me, never respected my time. After all, I cleared my day to hang out. If we were not going to hang out I could have done other things. I did not start a project or something because their plan was for them to come over.jesse had no respect towards me or never respected my time.My time is valuable, (and so is theirs) why waste my time? It is easier for them,ro not just contact me>? 

I would have to be the one to spend all day going to the west side of town, literally taking THREE buses. They KNOW they took advantage, and they KNOW I am not happy with them. Why would they want me to hang out again? Just to attempt to separate me from my money. They have jobs. They have an income, it is not like they are so desperate but that does not stop them from trying to take my money(since you know, I don't deserve it). 

So no, I would not want to hang out with them. They would just try to come up with a plan to separate me from my money.Ask me for help on something that they could pay for themselves.That is why they want to hang out, they want the use of my credit card. Rent is due,a utility bill is due, they need help with their vehicle so they don't have to walk to and from work,(this is why jesse keeps telling they have to walk to and from work, so that I offer to pay for a vehicle repair)

they won't ask for help, they expect people to offer it to them,because they see themselves as better than everyone else. They don't ask for help, people just give them the help they need. so they dont look like the one begging) 

They need food. They could use my help, use my credit card for something they could purchase with their own money.payday is not until “next week” and they need to spend the money now they “can pay back the money next week” all bullshit. And then when I would ask for the money back their response would be , that I am trying to extort money from them as if I never lent out the money in the first place. They miss me, yeah, they miss my credit card!!  

Jesse never really respected me,the “friendship” was always toxic. That is why when I let them drop some stuff off in my car port as they moved/being evicted they did not communicate with me. They were all of a sudden on a date trying to get laid with a teenage girl barely out of high school. They just wanted to get their dick wet and I was a cockblock for having the gall to bother them, when all I asked for was them to get their stuff. I had the kindness to let them store their stuff temporarily.They were in a tight spot, I was close by to where they were moving from, and that is “what friends do” But Jesse did not have the respect to get the stuff quickly. They did not respect me enough to communicate when they were getting the rest of their stuff, since it took multiple trips to get all of their bug infested junk. 

After all, I had the kind heart to let Jesse store their stuff on MY property the least they could do was get it quickly. Was it that they deserved to have their stuff at my house, and they will get it on THEIR time? Not giving a fuck about me even though it was MY property they were leaving it on? 

And really that was kind of the beginning of the end. I did not catch on and it should have been the end. I should have just trashed their junk. And told Jesse they did not come back quick enough. Or just tell  them if they don't pick their junk within 2 hours it's all going in the trash. Jesse took forever to get that grill, like they deserved to have the grill stored at MY HOUSE. That one time Jesse claimed I did not respect them because I called them in the middle of the day, not knowing their work schedule waking them up, I wanted Jesse to get the cat cage, Dad was helping haul it to them. BUt I work Jesse up, (they never told me their work schedule) somehow I was disrespecting them because I woke them up. If I KNEW their schedule and if I KNEW they were sleeping I would not have called. BUt really I just wanted that cat cage out of there. It ended up being trashed anyway so I should have just dumped it.

    

 Jesse is a leech. And Jesse lost a good friend. I was a good friend to both Jesse and Jessica, I generally did try to help them, but they just took advantage. And you don't do that to someone. I am not saying I am special. I mean you don't do that to anyone.Espically someone going out of their way to help.And giving so much who had so little to give. I am not rich, I don't have a lot of extra money, yet I scraped by and did my best to help Jesse,with what little resources I had, but they expected more than I could ever give. and then telling me I turned my back on them after I could not help anymore.Telling me I was selfish and greedy for not giving them what they demanded.I did not have the strength or the mental power to help them anymore,it was just too much. Helping Jesse took a lot out of me,mentally,physically and financially and I had enough, I think anyone going through the same experience would say the same thing.I was over it. 

That being said, Jesse and Jessica are not sworn enemies or something like that,I wont do anything to harm them,or to sabotage them. but I won't go out of my way to help them anymore. I won't make plans to hang out with them.I won't spend my day going to meet somewhere, they would flake out on me anyway.I wish them the best but I wont waste my day with them anymore. I just hope I never have to see them AGAIN. 

Since they take the bus it is guaranteed I will see them from time to time on the bus or at the bus terminal both downtown and lawndale, but I won't make plans with them. Unless they somehow get that vehicle fixed.I doubt it,if Jesse cant even afford to purchase a battery for it, what if it needs more than just a battery? Then they are SOL. I blocked them on my phone and social media. Unless they change phone numbers they won't be able to contact me that way.

It IS kind of sad really. I consider myself to be a friendly, kind person. I am not the most outgoing individual I know. I am an introvert. I know this by my own observations. And there is absolutely NOTHING wrong with being an introvert. That is not what is sad. The sad part is that I lost a couple of friendships. I have had many friends throughout my life, but the ones I connected with even if I don't see them for many many years they are still my friends.Jesse and Jessica are the first people I considered to be friends who I no longer want to be around, EVER. Teresa is sadly already gone. Jesse is a jackass, they come from a family of jackasses. Their father was probably a jackass,I mean he was kind of absent according to Jesse. Jesse is just like their father I guarantee it. I never met the man but I am willing to bet Jesse’s father was a slimy snake and a coward just like Jesse is. 

Now I know Jesse has suffered some trauma in their life. No father figure around,I have no Idea what their mother was like but I can imagine much better than the sperm donor. Their brother sexually molesting Jesse when Jesse was younger, and then committing suicide.This is a lot for someone to deal with. That is why I believe Jesse needs help, not help the way they want like money, etc but like a therapist. Lots and lots and lots of therapy, many years of therapy.Jesse even told me they had a mental breakdown. That is not something you take lightly, or ignore, yet they have.I want the best for Jesse. Their whole life has been a nightmare. Has a family with a history of mental illness obviously. That is why they are always trying to get people to feel sorry for them.They always have it harder than ANYONE else, no matter what.It is an easy con and then they can manipulate people into getting things they want without working really hard for it.and they can get things without begging and asking for it.That is all they know. 

The struggle is real for them, but they make it a struggle, it is almost like they go out of their way to struggle. They don't have to struggle if they work at it, except they don't because then people won't feel sorry for them. This is why they manipulate people and the system to stay in the gutter. 

If they were successful and have what they need then people would not feel sorry for them. And then what? They would have to work hard for what they need instead of manipulating people to get what they need. If there is nothing to feel sorry about then no one takes pity on them.But They dont want that,they go around like they are poor and without anything.In Pain etc. Telling me they have to walk 5 miles to and from work, like what am I supposed to do with that? I mean really? It's not like I don’t care but there is absolutely nothing I can do to fix said problem.So why even tell me? They just want me to feel sorry like they are the only one suffering and I have “it so much better” giving me the guilt trip.So what if I don't have to walk FIVE miles to work. I DON'T have to walk as far, but I still have to walk a good distance. I could not walk so far without my knee brace.My knee is fucked up, so fucked up my doctor once said they are surprised I can even walk according to the x-rays, so fucked up surgery is not really possible without a lot of complications. But you will never ever hear me complain. Jesse is just whining and complaining like a little boy. Again, Jesse just wants me to feel sorry for them, trying to manipulate me into offering them money or help with something so they don't have to walk as far.

This is what they do,they don't ask,they try to get the other party to just offer things to them so they dont look like they are asking, and begging. So they aren't a bum(but they really are a bum,just manipulating people into giving them what they want)It's a form of slimy con man trickery.When Jesse tells me they have to walk 5 miles to and from work, I'm like well that's what you gotta do I guess. I can't do anything about it..and I really can't. But it is their way of manipulating me or attempting to manipulate me to get me to give them money or something, buy them a battery for their truck, or get their truck repaired. They don't want to spend the money(or claim they don't have it) so they try to get me to pay for it.That is why they tell me this story the few times we have ran into each other. They think it will work eventually. BUT I am on to Jesse, I know what they are up to. JAR was 1000% right about Jesse, I was just too naive to listen. I should have stayed far away, Jesse DID have a mark on me.Saw how kind and naive I was, used that to their advantage. 

They give their sorry ass stories like not being able to pay rent, if only I could send them money for rent this week they promise they will pay me back next week which is pay week.It was all a lie and they knew it. 

They just spend their money on junk they don't need instead of holding it back for rent( like a normal person living paycheck to paycheck would do),and then call me up for help, no intention of ever paying me back.And when I finally stood my ground after helping them with a flat tire, they paid me but acted like I was taking their last meal.Like now they could not eat because they gave me their last dollar.But I did not care, I had to spend a couple hundred dollars on my credit card and I did not have the extra cash to pay off that extra balance, I would have been in trouble if I could not pay that off. If Jesse could not pay me back then they should not have gotten a tire and tow for their truck, leave it where it is and deal with that later.

BUT It would have been impounded, they would have been without a vehicle, possibly a hardship,having to walk to work or take a bus(tough toodles) could not afford to get it out of the impound.Could not make it to work, getting fired, no income for rent, getting evicted, and eventually homeless. So after all that it would have been MY FAULT for not helping them out. When I did not have the money to help in the first place, that is why I insisted they pay me back, they acted like I really did not need to be paid back since they also acted like I was the one taking their last meal 

and I was being greedy. But really Jesse do not ask to borrow money, promise to pay it back if you can't really pay it back!  And then do not act like I am the one being greedy for taking your last dollar and now you can't eat because you gave all your money to me. Well if you paid for the tire and tow yourself you would be in the same situation. You were just hoping to get me to pay, so you would not have to and then still have money for whatever else you needed. Flipping me the bill for your problems.Thats not how it works, that's not how any of this works.You see Jesse you HAVE to learn to take some responsibilities.I have bills too Jesse, but I don't go around asking other people for money to pay said bills.I look at my income and I try to budget and not spend over what I earn.and if I do…I am responsible for paying back my debt, not anyone else. I am a much better person than Jesse and Jessica. If they want to have a contest on who has it worse off, well Jesse you WIN. I will move on and be successful. 

I will eventually get out of debt.You Jesse and Jessica on the other hand will never get out from where you are. You will be in the same place you are now, broke and pathetic. I no longer feel sorry for you. It is where you want to be. Best of luck to you but stay far away from me.  

It's like this, I just want to live my life.I make an income and I have bills to pay. That money is not for Jesse to spend. I have a credit card but with that card comes responsibility. When I spend money on said card I have to make sure I can pay it back.Jesse just wanted to spend money, and not have to pay it back since we were friends. They thought this is what friends do. This is also why Jesse does not have good credit, or a credit card. They can't spend it wisely.I believe they would not be able to do so. I want to help people in need but I can't save the world. Jesse expected too much from me.Yeah they were evicted and yeah they had no place to go and they were desperate, yes I have a house. BUT I helped Jesse and Jessica(and Teresa) once, it did not go so well. They took advantage of me letting them stay at my house, and they really made no effort to leave quickly.They did not make an effort to look for a place right away.Jesse was always making excuses, they were too tired after work etc. Well I understand being tired, I am tired after work too, but it had to be done.I was actually the one that found a place for them. I worked too and did not have free time as well. They paid me very low rent for the area, and did not contribute to the utility bills. They did not help much with chores and kept their rooms messy, yes ok I was not “mr clean”,my room and office was messy too, but it is MY  HOUSE.. 

I did what Jesse should have been doing.(which is to find a place for them to live, they insisted it not be an apartment so I searched for houses and they were more expensive) I even paid the deposit and first month's rent. Jesse never paid me back for that by the way. I think if I did not find them a place, they would never have ever left.I would eventually have to say get a hotel room. Tough Shit(because I KNOW Jesse did not want to go to a hotel room) 

I mean when I let them stay at my house it was NEVER supposed to be permanent. There was never a formal agreement but it was implied that it was to be temporary. Jesse treated it like it was supposed to be permanent because when they were finally moving out Jesse acted like it was sudden and they were getting kicked out of THEIR FAMILY HOMESTEAD and I was the evil landlord evicting them for no reason.That was NOT the truth, It  was this was my home, it is simply not the space for these many people for a permanent amount of time.(i can have people visit, but not for NINE MONTHS) So what if I have a mansion compared to a hotel room, Tough Tiddles. I work hard, 

I own a house, but so do millions of Americans. It is not my job to shelter Jesse Jessica and Teresa. It is not my job to provide for them. It is not my job to be their bank. 

Yet they EXPECTED me to provide said things to them without question. When they were homeless AGAIN, Jesse just expected me to give them shelter without hesitation. Not realizing the stress it caused before. The financial and mental stress it caused. They were not thinking of that or just did not care.So when I said NO that meant I “turned my back on them” when they were in need. Why was I expected to give them shelter? I am just not sure why I am the one to rescue them. When I did all I could to help them before they were in that situation. They put themselves in that situation. I did not put them there and I could not have rescued them because they will be in that situation again. I guarantee it.They WILL get evicted again.       

Never again will I talk to Jesse, Jessica or even Teresa(that was already happening anyway) I have said before I wish them the best, I never wish them harm, but they took advantage of my friendship. They wanted too much from me. I had a house yes, I had a credit card yes, but I am not OBLIGATED to share those things. 

I have a credit card for a reason. To use it  but I know I MUST PAY BACK THE BALANCE. Jesse had me use my credit card to help them out with the promise of paying me back, but they NEVER FUCKING DID. SO I was stuck with paying the balance, the extra amount that I normally would not have spent, IT WAS STILL DUE.

I saw those motherfuckers at the bus terminal downtown. I think Fucknut saw me, and nodded at me, gave me this look like “why don't we talk anymore” look. but I ignored them. I am not sure if they said anything else but they did not try to approach me and talk to me after they saw me. I mean am I to approach them? I want nothing to do with them. 

There is always a chance to see them at the bus terminal downtown. I never know their schedule so I don't know if it is a daily thing or not. I saw them Friday 5/19 but that does not mean I will see them Monday 5/22 at the same location. I don't want to talk to them ever again, and I don't have to. 

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The friendship ended when Jesse said to me that I turned my back on them because I did not help them when they were at their lowest…… the truth is, I did not give them the help they DEMANDED even though I tried with ALL OF MY ABILITY to help them at that point(without giving them money or shelter), I gave them the contact information to Aurora of Evansville, Catholic Charities, local area churches, and 211.(even though they have the ability to look all that up themselves, I was just doing what friends do)that was just not good enough, Jesse thought they were entitled to my house, bank account and credit card for some fucking reason. and I went OUT OF MY WAY to help them so many times before in the past…so many fucking times,spending money that I DID NOT have on my credit card with the promise I would be paid back,(I have a feeling Jesse just ASSumed I had extra money and they really did not HAVE to pay me back, that is how much a pile of shit Jesse is) and I was not paid back.(because they really did not intend to pay me back, they were entitled to that money for some fucking reason) I bought that stupid fucking truck(and the ONLY reason I had the money was my tax refund) I had money(so they assumed) and they wanted it, they were entitled to it.Somehow I was not even entitled to my own money? I let them put their cats in my garage(which was going to be my recording studio) Did Jesse care? NO Jesse did not give a fuck, as long as they were living at my house they had it made.I still had to pay that credit balance even though I did not really have the extra money, It still had to be paid back to the credit card bank. AND since I had a house they EXPECTED to live at my house, they were entitled to it. I had a house so they DEMANDED I share it.Or I am a bad friend, I am a selfish person, this is another tactic to manipulate. 

I went out of my way to give them shelter. I let them all stay at my house for NINE months, putting me in a very BAD situation financially. That did not matter, They were ENTITLED to my house. They had their multiple of multiple cats in my garage, postponing the construction of my very anticipated home recording studio(plans were made even BEFORE I found the house.Making it even messier, never cleaning after them.Promising they would help clean my garage after they left but never did.I did not bother asking for help on cleaning the garage, because I insisted they go to the place they were renting instead of still staying at my house and they were pissed off at me for some reason.I don't think they REALLY wanted to leave.I remember Jesse specify telling me that they would rent a power washer and help clean out the garage of any cat smell.

They never respected me or my space. That did not matter; they thought that they were entitled to my house(and my garage) . They did not keep their rooms clean(Jessica trashed the guest room and the basement where Jesse and Teresa were staying was not any better. Jesse even lost the cover of the remote, I found out and I insisted they find it. This is an example of being a house guest but they did not respect the fact that they were ONLY guests. They did not contribute to the utility bills,or offer to do so.They paid a very small amount in rent(for the area). That did not matter; they were entitled to my house. They wanted my house to be theirs. And they got pissed off when I told them they had to leave. Like I was the evil landlord(another tactic to manipulate) I truly believe they thought they were ENTITLED to my house, my credit card and my bank account. It was not a true friendship. Jesse was just there to see what they could gain. And once they could not gain anything like money or shelter, they were mean and cynical towards me, 

This was a tactic to try to manipulate me to think I did something horribly wrong to them. JAR was right, Thias was right, mom and dad were right. I just wish I had listened.I thought they were my friends so I could not wrap my brain around the idea that someone who they consider a friend would just use someone for what they need and claim to be friends.I really thought Jesse and Jessica(and Teresa) were my friends. We may not have agreed all the time politically but who does? That is not the point. I could see past that.Jesse on the other hand could not see past me not giving them everything they DEMANDED.They were at their lowest, Homeless and desperate, so they felt they were entitled to my home for shelter, since I had a house and I had helped them out once before,they felt that they were entitled to anything they needed from me.And when I did not give them EXACTLY what they demanded, they were cynical and mean. I did give them resources to help them, what else did they want from me? No way did I turn my back on them. I felt bad that they were homeless but I did not have the resources to help them like they wanted. 

It was not fair of them to demand so much from me. I am ONE person, I can only do so much. It was very exhausting trying to deal with them. Everytime(past a certain point) they would call me up asking for more and more help, and everytime I had to turn them away and with my kind hearted personality I hated to do that.It broke my heart to have to turn them down.I felt really bad. Just because I have a three bedroom two bathroom house with a full basement does not give them the right to demand I share said house. It may seem like I have a lot of room, but I designed my house for ONE person. There is ONE small guest room(i use as a clothes closet) and another room as my Library/Office.So really no way for more people to stay longer than a few days(i don't mind visitors) I could have a 7 bedroom 4.5 bathroom house with a 2 bedroom 2 bathroom guesthouse and that still would not give them the right to my house and my property.I share and give on MY TERMS. They were demanding I give more than I could hand out on THEIR TERMS, trying to be in control of what I decide to donate and they were trying to make me feel bad for not giving what they demanded. Such a pile of garbage.Never humble to accept the help they were given. They just wanted more, more ,more,  I mean I did not have to take the time out of my day(my time is valuable) to find the number for 211 or Aurora of Evansville, Catholic Charities etc(it did not take very long but not the point).My time was valuable.jesse was very capable of looking up those numbers, being computer illiterate is not a valuable excuse. They can look up a goddamn phone number on google. I didn't even have to let them stay at my house for nine months(I wish I had insisted they stay in a hotel room after a month)Although in their mind they would think I did have to offer my house. They think they are entitled to it. The reason they drug their feet for so long is that they really did not want to leave and they tried to milk it as long as they could making NO effort in finding a place of their own. 

Making up every excuse to stay, getting themselves in the hospital, quitting their job, doing all they could to make sure they stay at my house. They just wanted to stay. 

I can remember one time Jesse wanted to use my credit card to buy a game on their phone. I was like NOPE. It was not for food or rent, it was for a fucking game on their phone, something that was not necessary AT ALL. Probably just testing to see how far they could go on begging for things.And that is what I mean, Jesse kept asking and kept asking, Jessica too. Everytime they were out of money,short on rent,needed a bill paid, somehow I was the one to rescue them.I truly believe Jesse MADE themselves homeless instead of using the services available to them, using the resources I took the time out of my day to find for them.My valuable time. They EXPECTED for me to let them stay at my house again, so they made NO effort to get other kinds of help. And when I said NO they can't stay they were taken aback with no back up plan, because they were EXPECTING me to shelter them. That is why they claimed I “turned my back on them” . 

I was the “bad friend” for not helping them when they were at their lowest, even though they put themselves in that situation. I even told Jesse when they asked to stay again at my house it was tough love,that I was telling them NO. They did not like that one bit. BUT it was absolutely true. They had to learn no to rely on me so much. It was exhausting.

It was TOUGH LOVE, because I felt if I kept giving in and giving what they needed they would never get it on their own, always relying on me to just give away everything to them what they need.Never working for it. Although they always complained about how people on social services were a leech on society when in truth Jesse and Jessica are the biggest leeches of them all.

One time Jesse was hounding me to explain what a terabyte and megabyte was,and what the difference was too. I tried my best to explain but I think it was just a tactic to put me down when they did not comprehend what I was explaining, blaming me for not explaining it to them very well.Putting me down to make themselves feel better. And for no reason whatsoever. This is not what a friend does.Only another reason why Jesse was not really a friend.and that is sad, because I was a friend to them. I would never put them down or talk down to them or make them feel awful.

Jesse made me feel awful a lot. For having a black lives matter sign in MY HOUSE WINDOW, for being an atheist,(or simply not believing in their god or religion ... .automatically makes me an atheist I guess. telling the sales guy at best buy, like it was their business, it was not,for not giving them shelter when they needed it for the umtheenth time.They wanted shelter, but they did not take the help I gave them which would give them shelter eventually.I felt I was not obligated to give them shelter even though I had a house that did not mean I was required to let them live there.Jesse acted like I was an awful selfish person for not giving them exactly what they demanded. Not a very good friend. 

Well if not letting them live at my house ment they were not going to be my friend anymore then they were not a friend in the first place.A real friend would not ask so much of me. If after ALL I did for them and still not showing gratitude and being humble for what I shared with them. When absolutely I did not have to do ANY of it. So when I did not give what they wanted after all I gave it still meant I was selfish and greedy, and what I did give I was just doing it to “pat myself on the back,and make myself look good among my peers”,. Well,they were not a friend in the first place.They were just sticking around to see what they could get from me only to throw me away when they could not get anything from me anymore. That is not how a friendship works,that is not how any of it works. 

Jesse EXPECTED me to give what they demanded like I had piles and piles of money stashed away just to give away without even thinking about it. Jesse was just using me as an ATM Always asking ME for help when they were in a jam. And when I finally said NO that was the end of it. They were no longer friendly to me. 

Jesse can act like I ended the friendship all they want, but they ended it when they said I turned my back on them. They can act remorseful or apologize to get them in my good graces, but Jesse went too far, taking far too much and expecting even more after I gave all I could. If and when I see them again, I'll just act like I don't even know who they are.They can call me by my name all they want but I will act creeped out like why do you know my name. I will say no… I don't want to have sex with you, get away from me, pervert.  

I would always try to empathize with them, be there for them, even if it was just to talk. That was never enough.Jesse was just hanging around to see what they could get from me.Because at the very moment I did not give them what they needed and how they needed it, they were not friendly and cynical towards me.yes they were evicted and yes they were homeless, but why the fuck is it up to ME to provide for them?   

I sure hope they don't try to apply for a job at Goodwill especially after we move into the new location. That would just be awful and exhausting. They would try to talk with me, be friendly when I know their motives.They would eventually try to get back in my good graces only to bamboozle me again.  

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On May 23 2023 after work(at lawndale), I saw(only) Jesse on the Washington bus(they were already on the bus), they did not even talk to me. Well I did not talk to them as well.I avoided them like a sickness. But then I realized I needed to go to CVS so I quickly got off the Washington to get on the Covert. Knowing Jesse they will think that I got off the bus because they were on the bus, such a vain person. 

As I am currently doing my budget and I barely have any money left over after my bills. I have ALWAYS scraped by with barely nothing left to spare.I work hard for my earnings. Jesse was always asking too much of me. I was their crutch. If they were short on rent, I was the ONLY one they called. BUT FUCK I did not really have extra money, Jesse only ASSMED I did.It was mainly because they knew I had a credit card, they took that as an advantage. It was not their credit they were ruining so who gives a fuck. 

I only lent them the money with the promise they would pay me back. They were short on rent and pay day was a week away(this seemed to happen often). I did not want to see them struggle, (even if I was struggling too) So I tried to help(with the promise of being paid back since I really did not have the extra money) But then when payday came, they had excuses why they could not pay me(everytime).(but I still had to pay the credit card balance)They even promised to pay me a little extra for the effort on helping them but NOTHING came of that, 

This is what pisses me off, and why I want NOTHING to do with them. They made NO effort to really pay me back, refusing to sign an agreement (this would have been used if I took them to court(if they even showed up)and Jesse knew this,that is exactly why they would not sign an agreement)they paid me a few hundred dollars here and there but nothing to make a difference in what they owed in total.They were insulted when I asked to sign an agreement, it was like “can't you just trust me, I am man of my word” sounds like something a con man would say. 

Then claiming I am trying to extort them when I ask for a payment on what they owed,just another tactic to manipulate and stall any progress on paying me back, what a loser. 

I want little communication with them as possible.I did so much for them, I WAY went out of my way to help them the BEST I could,I sacrificed my HOME, my garage, my time, my space, postponed the construction of my studio(my dream studio)I could not have family visit or other friends.

Oh but I was “lucky my folks visited me” guilting me that I had family close enough to visit. 

That was not good enough. FUCK. why not? The best I could do to help them was not good enough? The time and sacrifices I made was not good enough? They were homeless AGAIN. They EXPECTED me to shelter them AGAIN. Jesse was mean and cynical towards me,they had it in their head that I turned my back on them as in I would not help them at all when they were in need and at their lowest,  which was not true. I tried to get them the best I could to my ability but since I had a house I was EXPECTED to share. 

The help I gave them(resources to 211 etc) was not good enough, I mean FUCK, the help I gave them(211)was not good enough? I had a house so they expected me to share it. That is what they wanted from me. Since I had a house and they were without a home, the expectation was for me to shelter them with my home and if I did NOT share my home, then I was greedy and selfish, because I had a home, they did not. 

They needed a home. I had a home and they expected me to share my home..Even if I had been earning a million dollars a week and a 6 bedroom home, I still would not be obligated to let them stay forever in my house. Jesse put me in a very odd position to where I had to help them the way they expected me to, and if I helped any less than they expected, then I was not a good friend.Even when I did try my hardest to figure out how I could help at the best of my ability(without letting them stay or give them money…i was no way going to go through that hell again) I tried to avoid that, it does not mean in anyway that I am greedy, it just means I am smart and that just because I have such nice things, no way obligates me to share any of it) In Their mind, I did not help them when they were at their lowest.(even though I tried my best to help, I really really truly did) They just wanted to stay at my house and they were not going to take anything less. 

If said help did not include me offering them money or having them stay at my house indefinitely? 

Then they did not want anything to do with it. That was not fair to me. They did not care about “fairness” and how it affected me mentally or financially. I had a house and to them that was not fair. Screw what it did to me. I had a house they did not. So screw me for having such nice things. Jesse wanted what I had. 

Just because I have a house and a credit card, that does not mean I am obligated to shelter them or let them use my credit card when they need it. That is absurd. A real friend would not ask that much of their friends. They know boundaries. Jesse did not know boundaries, they are not intelligent enough. A real friend would KNOW how much stress it caused and would not dare ask again. They would not dare ask that much from me.

 Jesse was draining me, it was exhausting because I had to turn them away and it broke my heart. Jesse did not understand this. They are not capable of this simple understanding.They are only thinking of themselves in this scenario and how they can survive. They used me to survive and then stomped on me when they could no longer use my resources.Jesse would drag me through the mud if it meant they would get ahead,yet they were always trying to complete with me on who had it worse off (i didn't even know I was in the contest to see which one is more pathetic).Obviously you win Jesse.Winner Winner Chicken Dinner. 

I mean which is it Jesse? Are you in the gutter and like it there because you can use that to manipulate people to feel sorry for you, conning them to give you what you want or do you want to get ahead and be successful and not have to beg people for money and food. 

Face it Jesse the use of manipulation and getting people to give you what you need by making them feel sorry for you is just another way of begging, you might as well stand on the street corner with a hand made sign and cup asking for spare change, its the same fucking thing. Only difference is it makes you feel that you are not begging. Or it makes you look like you are not begging therefore it is not pathetic. But I see past that. 

I have debt, I am struggling, I have credit cards to pay off because I had to spend money when I was not working. Now I am in a hole. BUT I would not ask Jesse for money or for help. That is asking a friend too much. I think Jesse is too fucked up in the head to even know what a real friendship is. That is sad really. They had a friend in me but they used and took advantage. When I could not help them out the way they wanted they were no longer friendly. They decided to walk away, not me. It was only after and their true self appeared when I had enough. I walked away because I saw they were only there to see what they could gain from me. Not there to have a friend but there to see how much money they could take from me. They thought I was just an ATM to take money from and not pay back. They did not care what it did or that I had to pay back the credit card loan, as long as they got what they needed, and then when I said I could not help anymore, I was being selfish and greedy, just a way to manipulate.and make me feel bad. I am done with that bullshit. I feel sad I lost what I thought was a friendship but the drama is not worth it.

True, every relationship, even friendship has its own drama, but not this kind of drama, the fact Jesse stated I turned my back on them after ALL that I did for them,After ALL I sacrificed.And the debt I accrued helping them,let them stay in my home,use up my space that I would otherwise use, use my garage as a cat breeding mill,making it even worse to construct a studio in.(thankfully it was ok and would be awful if I let the cats in my house) I could not have any body visit, my mom and dad could not visit as often as they would have liked, I could not come home for the holidays, I sacrificed and gave up a lot for them to help out. They are both leeches, just sucking up whatever they can and when they have nothing left to take, they go on to someone else to take advantage of. 

Even trying to help them the last time the very best I could to the best of my ability without giving too much of myself, my money,my resources,material things, or my soul,(why would I?) It is insulting that they would state I turned my back on them after I tried to help them. What the FUCK. That is the complete opposite of what turning a back on someone means.

It was the TYPE of help I was offering the last time they asked, that is what they did not want. They did not want real help. 

They wanted more help from what I gave before as in resources, money, things, shelter. They did not care for a phone number of services that might or might not help them, they just wanted to separate me from my money and my assets. I had something and they wanted it for themselves.  They did not care if I stood there struggling and in more debt, as long as they could get a head.Making me poor did not matter, They would stomp all over me. I guess they were trying to get me to be the poor pathetic one of the group. (They kept calling me “rich boy”)  So they could look good. They made everything a competition. It was my house they wanted, it was the fact I had good enough credit to have a credit card and bank account. They wanted those things too. So they just leeched off of me. Without caring what it did to me. Dealing with Jesse is exhausting. I avoid them like a sickness. The Guyddy gives me the creeps.They lost me as a friend. I don't wish harm on them but I want nothing to do with them. It's their loss. I did nothing wrong by not letting them stay at my house again. In fact I would not be doing them any favors if I did that. It would just teach them that they can leech off of me instead of getting it on their own.It was better for me to not let them stay at my house and have them get out on their own. 

I was not going to hold their hand anymore. Jesse jessic and Tersa  would have been worse off if I just let them stay at my house to leech off my resources and not contribute to society like normal people. They just wanted to have me do all the hard work while they diddle themselves all day.        

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I mean sure, wouldn't everyone want to not work? Not pay rent, or at the very least, pay as little rent as possible? I was enabling Them by letting them stay at my house. It was an easy life for them.I was NOT doing them any favors even though they thought I was. It was to their benefit that I not let them stay at my house again.if I did they could just float on by, no responsibilities. Put it all on me. Don't pay me anything and just live the “good life” walking all over me and taking advantage of the fact that I have a nice big house. Them being at my house caused me stress and anxiety? Who cares, they did not have to pay high rent or even a high utility bill(I was stuck with the bills) 

And I can understand why Jesse did not want to leave my nice house and move into something downgraded. It was the good life. They paid me a little amount in rent(for the neighborhood), like $200.00 a week. 

That's roughly $600-$800 a month. That is WITH utilities included. A nice house too in a decent low crime neighborhood.and near two popular bus lines. Compared to where they moved to on Florida Street,only bus was the trolly and I don't think it ran often. The house on Florida was $700.00 a month, they had to pay utilities AND the landlord was a slumlord which meant Jesse was responsible for any repairs, compared to my house where of course as the homeowner I had to take care of all the extra expenses, 

The landlord for the Florida street house took them to court(because of course he did), over THREE GRAND in damages.That is NOT surprising,they way they live and treat their rented home. They would have done the same to my home and on the path to being more damaged Jessica kept the guest room, it was literally trashed. The condition of my garage would have been my basement.After Mom and Dad and I spent all that time putting in a new floor. 

AND  Honestly I do not know if the landlord was a slumlord, Just going by what Jesse told me, that all expenses are Jesse's responsibility. 

 

For example, when my basement flooded.getting it back to normal was just a part of homeownership.And then Jesse claiming they wanted part of the settlement(if I won) when I tried to sue the city of evansville for damages to my basement. Because they claimed they lost things too, but not my fault. I lost a lot more. And it was my property. That is why they could never take me to court for damages, because I was not at fault. They were not on a lease, since I was just letting them stay there temporarily. And it was not like I made the flood happen, I lost things too.and had to pay to clean up the basement, even though they both tried to insist they clean it. Got offended when I hired a professional crew instead. Same old bullshit, walking on eggshells with that motherfucker. I mean it was MY PROPERTY. I wanted the cleaning done CORRECTLY.

Jesse was always trying to be in control, even when they lived at my house. And when they did not anymore they even tried to tell me the black lives matter sign was offensive. I was like OK and that was the end of it. Jesse did not like that and acted like I was supposed to apologize and take it out of MY window or something.

I will say I am glad Jesse gave me Cassidy, she was in bad shape when I got her, and probably would not have survived if Jesse kept her and put her with the other million cats they had.They never really took care of the cats they had, Jesse knew they had too many, that is why they have Cassidy to me I just hope they never try to take her back out of spite. I'll be like NOPE. It is sad that I lost the friendship because I was a friend to them, but it was all fake on their side. We had some good times, but toward the end Jesse kept asking and asking with no respect to me.Like especially when they asked to put their junk underneath my carport as they moved not communicating to me when they were going to get the rest of the junk, total disregard to me or my property.Total disrespect. That is why they lost my respect. If I see them I won't talk to them unless they speak to me and I will keep it minimal. 

It is all you Jesse, you did this to yourself. They were not really friends at all to begin with. Just to see what they could gain from me, take money from me,use my credit card, stay at my house and milk that as long as they could. The ONLY reason they FINALLY moved out was because I found a place and paid first months rent. 

They did not do shit for nine months,claiming to be so tired after work, well so was I, but I was willing to help them get out of my house,(without going broke) never made any effort whatsoever to quickly find their own place, and why would they? They had it made at my house. Not a care in the world if it caused me stress. This is why I am DONE with them. They can claim I was the bad friend or the selfish bastard that did not help them when they were at their lowest(just a tactic of manipulation) but I know in my heart of hearts that I tried to help them the best that I could and that is what makes me so mad, is that I tried to help them to the best of my ability with the resources I had available and that was just not good enough. They knew I had other resources such as my house, my credit card, even money in my bank account, and they EXPECTED me to share such things. I was tired of giving and giving and giving. It was so exhausting. 

And for example of how Jesse gave me disrespect, I had another friend cancel plans they made to visit this weekend ,they had the respect to let me know plans have changed and they won't be coming down. instead of me waiting all day on Saturday(date of expected arrival) wondering where they are. Jesse would just not show up and not even answer the phone, making me think something awful happened to them.

This happened all the time on more than one occasion. I mean I get distracted too. I have ADD and forget things, but this is not an excuse, because the friend who just canceled plans on me also has ADD and went out of their way to make sure they tell me plans had changed instead of making me think they were still coming.That is why this particular friend has my utmost respect……Or maybe that is just what NORMAL people do when plans change. They let the other party know plans have changed instead of making them think said plans were still happening. I mean I understand shit happens. I will not be hurt if you dont grace me with your presence. I will figure out different plans Jesse. But at least let me know and not leave me in the dark, when I cleared my calendar to have you over or what ever.My time is valuable(and so is yours)I could be doing something else, instead I wait around all day for you to show up, not starting any new projects for fear of getting into deep of something else.Or going out running errands, hanging out with other friends, shopping etc.What a creep Jesse is. 

And they wonder why I stopped communicating with them. It was exhausting. Always asking me for money or to borrow a tool or a thing or whatever. Never again. It was just too exhausting dealing with them. I would post my opinion on social media and Jesse would act all offended like I posted it to offend them directly and intentionally, when it had nothing to do with them. Walking on eggshells with everything I did to make sure I did not offend MISS JESSE IVES. I never wanted or intended to offend someone I call a friend. It was unnecessary drama and so exhausting dealing with their bullshit. I just hope we never cross paths because I really have nothing to say to Jesse or Jessica, they can now act like they have nothing to say to me because a couple times I saw them I did not speak a word to them and I know that pisses Jesse off that I did not acknowledge their presence.But so be it. I have real friends who honor and respect me. Not that I demand respect because I know it is earned. Jesse lost my respect it was the beginning of the end when they asked to drop of a load of crap underneath my carport so the could make a couple trips moving after they got evicted from the house on parker(just down the street from me)They made ONE trip and then never returned.Knowing how they left their grill at my house for ever I did not want a repeat of that. But then when I called them up I was interrupting their fuckfest with a teenage girl.I was a cockblock. Leaving crap at my house, Roach infested outside of course but then the critters got inside somehow in my kitchen since the carport is next to the kitchen.   

 

Sometimes people are not worth the time, Jesse is a prime example of this.I gracefully gave Jesse my friendship, opened up my kindness and spent SO much money to help them,(when I absolutely did not have to,,,,and I wish I did not give them so much help, they would have been fine) and all Jesse  does in the end is push me down in the mud, And take advantage that I am a kind giving person. The fact that I don't want to see people suffer.And then once I said I just could not help them(the way they wanted)because I did indeed try to help them, it was not like I did not help at all or even attempt to help. They threw me away and they were all of a sudden mean to me and gave me the cold shoulder. They were in need, yes, homeless? Yes. BUT that in no way meant I was to give them shelter. It was tough love.I was not about to have them take over my house again. And then never leave, make excuses on why they can't look for an apartment. Quit their job intentionally so they would have no income to pay me or pay rent somewhere else.  

Hell even JAR and Thias don't like Jesse, when ever they would visit me and Jesse would find out, and then give me trouble for not letting them know or including them, leaving them out of all the fun.When in truth, since Jar and Thias did not like Jesse they did not want to hangout, so why would I put Jar and Thias in that predicament. So instead of telling Jesse that Jar and Thias don't want to hang out, I got rid of the possible drama and just did not inform Jesse they were in town. But it still made drama because at the time I shared on facebook that they were in town, or what we were doing with pictures and whatnot and then Jesse would find out that way and then text or call me wondering why I did not include them in the activities. Thias even added Jesse as a friend on facebook but that was just to see the bullshit. I know Thias does not like Jesse and what they did to me.   

I just wish the best for both of them. I don't wish them harm and I don't wish to try to get them evicted. What would that solve? That being said, I hope both Jesse and Jessica both never try to come to my house again. All they would want is something from me like money.If I see them on  the bus, bus stop etc. and they try to talk to me, I suppose I will talk, but only if it is friendly. If Jesse tries to put me down or guilt me anyway I am walking away and ending the conversation. I want nothing to do with that bullshit.I have that right.   

It is a shame what happened to Teresa though. I don't know if there would have been anything I could have done when her family contacted me trying to find her. I felt like I could not make Jesse talk to her family. All I could do was to send the message they wanted to get ahold of Jesse. That dumbfuck thought they knew better than the doctors, and did not get Teresa the proper care they needed in the time that they needed it, Teresa had a stroke(second one) so it was important, but as usual Jesse dragged their feet and thought they knew more than everyone. Teresa's family (rightly so) took Jesse to court and won back custody of Teresa. And this is the kind of shit Jesse puts people through.

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I wish Jesse and Jessica the best, I wish no harm for them. It is shameful that  Jesse had to be such a jackass towards me,take advantage of my kindness. 

I went out of my way to help them many many many times but they were like a wounded animal. They kept coming back for more help because it was the easy thing to do, they did not have to do any hard work if I just provided for them. I helped them once or twice before, they figured why not every single time they needed something. And then the very last time when I gave them help, it was not good enough and that is what is so annoying. I go out of my way to try to help them and they want more help or a different kind of help, they did not accept the help I was trying to give to them. I had a house and a credit card, so they EXPECTED me to share.And if I did not share my house, and my money then I was greedy and selfish, when in reality I did not have to share all the time.because I did share and I still get pushed in the mud for not sharing MORE of what I had. 

They relied on me to bail them out. I was a crutch. Instead of getting it on their own, they now expected me to bail them out. When they are perfectly capable of getting it on their own.I was not doing them any favors by enabling them.This is why I have stopped talking to them. Jesse did this, they caused this drama, it is their loss. Not mine. Jesse turned their back on me, not the other way around.Even though if they ever do talk with me they would claim I walked away from them and it is my loss. 

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I am 100% sure it is THEIR loss.I was a good friend to both Jesse and Jessica.(and Teresa) I helped them, I went way out of my way to help them and sacrificed a lot…..A LOT to help them (at first) without hesitation.I sacrificed my heart and soul for them,money,time,my garage,and my home.I opened my home to them, I let them live in my house.use my utilities such as heat,A/C water,Internet, use of netflix, my washer, dryer, etc. They did not contribute to those bills.I paid for them.And they were higher because more water was used,the heater/ac was on more.Compared to if it was only me in the house(I could turn off heater/ac during the day while I was at work) I did NOT have to let them stay at my house at all,yet I did. They took advantage of that. They did not act like a house GUEST. They acted like it was THEIR house, and I was their GUEST. 

This is why the second time around I told them it was not going to happen that they would stay at my house. 

It is MY house, my choice, my rules. And I stand by that statement.Even to this day, they are not allowed anywhere near my property.It does not make me greedy or selfish.It makes me sensible. I mean just because I have a thing, for example, a house, It does not mean I am obligated to share said thing with anyone at all. I have a lot of things, such as a ladder, extension cord, guitars,super nintendo,Table saw. ETC.(as do a lot of people) These things are for MY use and if I lend out such things, then I wont have them at my access. And that defeats the purpose of having said things in the first place. I may not use such things every day(who does?), but they are at my exposure when they are needed. If I “lent” these things to Jesse, then I would not have them available when I need them. Jesse would just “borrow” a thing and never return it(happened with the plumbing snake),lose it and or break it, make it unusable.Or claim I said keep it(gaslighting) 

Most people when they need a thing,they BUY it for themselves so they don't have to worry about returning it(as if Jesse would care to return it anyway) AND I lent Jesse my plumbing snake one time and I never got it back. Hence my point and reason for not lending things out to them.Without proper supervision, which I did when I let Jesse use my Ladder. They did not like it when I supervised and watched them use it and made sure they gave it back AFTER they used it. They acted like I could not trust them, they were absolutely correct. I did not trust Jesse.I would have never seen that ladder again. And they are not cheap, $80-$100.00. That was the plan, to borrow my ladder, and then never return it. Jesse would guarantee to make me carry said ladder back to my house(when they lived on Parker Avenue(close to my house, but still), not offering to put it on their truck and drive it back) Just to be a jerk. And not really wanting to give it back. I would have called the police on Jesse if they truly did that.

Jesse would always ask me if knew where they could get a ladder,(wanting me to offer they borrow mine, a form of manipulation) I knew this was what they were attempting to do,  and I respond with, try Home Depot or Lowes, and they would rebut with they are expensive and can't afford one(again hoping I would feel sorry for their misfortune and offer to lend out mine) I would then say, save up and get one when you have the money. Not skipping a beat to even remotely offer mine.because I had to do the same to get my ladder. Again not being selfish, but just because I have a thing no way obligates me to lend it out to a “friend” who does not have the thing. 

Get your own goddamn ladder, get your own goddamn super nintendo, get your own goddam table saw, get your own goddamn guitar, get your own goddamn house.Get a goddamn JOB , get your own goddamn credit card,and get your own goddamn paycheck and Stop asking for mine,then claiming I am selfish and greedy for not giving you what you want.I worked hard to acquire such things, either I paid for them myself or I was lucky enough for someone to gift some things to me. I am not rich in the sense I don't have money, but I am rich in the sense I have people who care about me. And also I don't take advantage of that. I know I am lucky for what I do have, and I am truly humbled and grateful.Just be happy with what you do have Jesse. Stop trying to get what others have and take from them.So then they are left with nothing. 

That is called STEALING.Just because someone has a thing, does not mean you are obligated to said thing,(because you can't afford to get your own,or just don't want to spend YOUR money on said item) I mean you a perfectly capable to get one yourself but you won't, you want it for free, you want things without really working for them. (But you always bellyach about others on social services and welfare programs being lazy, taking “handouts” You believe you should just take it away from someone else and keep it for yourself.

That is not how this works, that is not how any of this works. Who truly is the selfish greedy person in this scenario? I mean really. I have a thing, you want to said thing, (and you don't want to buy one yourself) so you do everything you can to just take it from me)Now you have the thing but I am left without it.STEALING, pure and simple. Fucking STEALING. And from someone you claim to call a friend? No. Also when I say NO you can not have said thing because then I would be left without it. AND you have the gall to call me selfish? I will share what I choose and who I share it with. Who cares if I would have helped JAR out, I would and I know JAR is responsible and would never take advantage of me. JAR respects me. You see, JAR is an adult.

Everyone has their limits to what they will share.That does not make them selfish,or greedy as you claim. You can not expect someone to share absolutely everything they own, because if it is not returned(in your case Jesse, it would never be returned, or if returned, it would be damaged and unusable) then they are left with nothing. You flew too close to the sun Jesse and you lost a good friendship trying to see how far you could go on taking advantage of someone. A hard lesson learned but you were never my friend to begin with.

I had something Jesse wanted, Jesse did not have said thing and it was not fair so Jesse did everything they could to take said thing away from me.So Jesse would have the thing and I would not have said thing anymore. So when I finally stood my ground and said NO…no matter that it meant Jesse would call me a bad friend, selfish and greedy(because I knew in my heart I was not)

FINE if not giving you want you want Jesse meant I was a bad friend, selfish and greedy, if this is what you think of me then so be it.I am not hurt if you think I am selfish because I know I am not.You are an idiot. 

If a stupid dumbfuck idiot who can't even wipe their own ass thinks I am a selfish greedy bad friend, it is no skin off my back.have at it hause. It absolutely makes no difference to me. No one else I know thinks that I am a selfish greedy person.They ALL tell me YOU Jesse are the idiot, you are the crook, YOU are the selfish one for trying to take away the little that I do have and keep it for yourself. YOU are the bad friend.   

 

 Fuck you Jesse, FUCK YOU . 

I'll be just fine without you.In fact I am better off. I have real friends who don't take advantage of their friends. It was never a friendship to begin with, so nothing to lose in the first place.You flew too close to the sun Jesse just to see how far you could go and you lost a good friend.Hey look at that Jesse, you lost, I mean isn't that what you want? To be pathetic and a loser? So people will feel sorry for you? Except no one feels sorry for you.   

I will no longer enable you. I was your crutch for far too long. Your addiction to Money will get you killed. You are a leech and need serious help. I wish the best for you,I don't wish you any harm, I wish I never met you. My life is so much better off without you.Do not attempt to contact me or step foot onto my property, if you do I WILL not hesitate to call the authorities. Sianaria motherfucker. And good riddance.  

Best,

I am a much better person, citizen and friend than you will ever be Jesse, Grow up, and learn to take some responsibility. Nothing is just handed to you.It might appear that I was just handed everything but that is not true. I worked hard for everything I have. You ASSUME too much Jesse.I am not rich.You can think that all you want is motherfucker but I don't have a lot of money. Everything I own I worked very hard for.Just think about it, I have a beat up old couch. If I was rich, don't you think I would have spent the grand to get a new one instead of buying a used one in the first place? And you have NO right to try to steal from me. That would make you a thief. Actually you are a thief. Because you manipulate people into giving you what you want, and you don't have to really work hard to get things. If you manipulate people into offering to give you things then you don't have to beg and ask. Or at least on the surface when in reality what you do in fact is begging, but it is done in a way so you feel good about it because you believe you are not begging, people just give you what you want. But just like a child if you don't get what you want or that manipulation does not work you turn mean and cynical towards that person(just another way of manipulation into getting what you want) if that does not work you just cut off ties. 

Really Jesse, I don't NEED your friendship. I have plenty of people who care for me and are my friend.I tried being your friend the best I could, I tried to help you the best I could but in your sick mind that was not good enough. You just wanted more, You wanted my money and you wanted my house. I bet the moment you found out that I got a house(by me telling you, because I did not think you would be a child about it)You were thinking of ways to get my house, or at least stay there for as long as you could(because stealing my house would be wrong) You milked it for as long as you could,until I finally got you a different place,even paid the first month's rent. I really should have insisted Jesse and co get a hotel room after the first month. I don't care if that is not what they wanted. They did not act quickly enough to get a house or apartment so this is what they are stuck with. I have a feeling when they were in a hotel during the pandemic(2020), Jesse was still mad at me that I did not let them stay at my house(2019), that is why they went on and on, on how I had such a nice house compared to their “tiny room” and that I didn't have the RIGHT to complain about being cooped in. It is how I felt and Jesse never validated anything I said or felt. Only always thinking about himself. A very toxic person. but who gives a fuck. 

Just because  I have a house does not mean I am obligated to share it. Everyone in my neighborhood most likely owns their home, does not mean they have to share it.and that does not make them greedy or selfish if they don't share their home. Staying at my house was NEVER meant to be permanent.Jesse tried to make it permanent. They would have never left, since they made NO effort to leave on their own. I had to insist and even when they did they acted like  I was kicking them out of THEIR home.  Losers! Jessica, Tersa and Jesse, all pathetic fucking losers. 

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It’s Jesse’s loss, I did NOT do anything wrong. I am NOT the bad guy in this situation. I did EVERYTHING I could to help Jesse. I am a decent unselfish person.I try my best to help people out to the best of my ability and to the best with the resources I have. Just because I have a house, a bank account and a credit card(like most normal Americans) it does not obligate me to share. And If I don’t share that does in no way make me a selfish greedy person.

Jesse go out and get your own fucking house if you want one. But don’t try to steal mine, which is precisely what you were trying to do. Which is to take over my home,to where I was only another housemate, a tenant,someone just occupying a room. Just someone to share the rent and expenses with, except you Jesse and Jessica(and Teresa) did not contribute to expenses, only a tiny $200.00 a week rent. $600-$800 a month all other expenses paid.Hell Jesse did not even take me seriously when I tried to get them to leave because I wanted to start construction on my studio, in my garage. I believe they thought I was bluffing to try to get them to leave, true I was trying to get them to leave but NO I was not bluffing. The studio was planned even before I bought the house.     

I remember Jesse kept asking to use my washer and dryer I got fed up one time and said I did not have any laundry soap and that it took a special kind of soap(not 100% a lie..so they could not just go to the dollar store and get the cheapest laundry soap)I even hid the soap I had in case they came over and would see it, accuse me of lying.(At that time I was not in the mindset to tell Jesse plain out NO) That is how Jesse is, always taking advantage and asking but then when someone tells them NO, they act like a baby not getting their way. (I found that out when I finally said NO Jesse acts like a child and pretty much is mean and very unfriendly. It just shows how childish and immature Jesse is. Doesn't get their way? They are very mean and cynical.Well tough titties..no one gets absolutely everything they want. Work for what you want Jesse, dont expect people just to hand it out to you, you fucking welfare shit. 

I know this is to be true, because the ONE time I told Jesse NO, they wrote me off like trash. Never really being friendly to me again. Only proves they were only there to see what they could take and steal from me, not really being a true friend. So fuck Jesse. Fucking Loser.I could go the rest of my life without seeing your ugly face.Fucking moron. I hope I never have to speak to that loser ever again. I will do everything in my power to avoid them, but I also will NOT stop doing what I have to do, like take the bus or run errands. If that increases the chances of seeing them while I am out and about, that is what it is. I will NOT change my routine. I am safe from them in my home and my studio. It is my domain. And I hope they NEVER try to show up.If they do they are showing up on MY turf. Why would they anyway? They don't have a vehicle so It would take them time and money to visit my side of town,via public transportation.That is why they kept wanting me to take the time to go to their place all the way on the westside of Evansville, where I am using up my time and money. That's a NOPE!!!! 

And if Jesse is remorseful for losing me as a friend, they should. Someone should just not be able to treat someone as Jesse did to me and expect to still be friends. 

They can tell people that I was a bad friend and I turned my back on them all they want. When it is 100% a LIE, they know it is a LIE but they need to make sure they are the good person in this scenario, when they are very bad people.

I saw them at the bus terminal downtown(5/26/23) Jesse acted like they did not see me, I said hi to them(felt weird doing that) they said hi back but that was it.For now on if I see them I will avoid  talking to them, not even a nod or recognition. Fuck them. They don't even deserve a friendly nod.Normal people would just move on when told NO.aND they would not act cynical towards the person telling them no. Normal people would understand if a friend does not have the ability or proper resources to help the way they wanted. And really, I did try to help with the best of my ability and resources I had available(without giving them money or my soul), but that was not enough and that is what makes me mad the most.That is I tried to help and they would not take said help, then they have the gall to say I did not help them at all. 

But in reality a true friend would not have asked as much from me as Jesse did. Most of my friends and family know that there are boundaries in any relationship.Jesse knew I had a house so they assumed they were automatically obligated to stay there. 

I was required as a friend to offer them my home.That is what they EXPECTED. I had a house so I had to share said house. No excuses. WRONG.

Jesse flew too close to the sun and got burned, But I did not burn them, Jesse did it to themself. They were greedy and selfish.They did not care how it affected me, just as long as they got what they needed and got ahead, who cares what it did to me.Jesse would push me in the mud if it meant they got what they needed. I don't think Jesse was really ever told no.

That is why Jesse acted the way they did when I said they could not stay at my house, even if it meant they were on the street. It did not mean I did not care.because I did. I did not want them to be homeless, that is why I went out of my way to try to find them services in town to help them, so NO I would not want them to be homeless I just don't want them living at my house. Jesse once told me I said to Jesse I would rather them be homeless than have them live at my house, just another way of manipulating. Jesse had things twisted as often as they do. Yes I did not want them at my house and that probably meant they were homeless so in their twisted mind, me saying they cant stay at my house meant I wanted them to be homeless because I would not want them in my home, the only alternative is homelessness. Yes I don't want them at my house but that does not mean I want them to be homeless, My house was not an option.It was not a homeless shelter.  

They had other ways to get off the street, JEsse just did not want to use those resources.

Here is Jesses fucked up logic. 

The only way off the street for Jesse was to stay in my house and I was preventing that, so therefore I was the one causing them to be homeless, ie “i'd rather them be homeless than live in my house” well I did not want them in my home, so if the alternative was on the street. ……GO there Jesse. BUH-BYE.You dont have to go “home” but you can't stay here, EVER.  

I gave Jesse resources to help them NOT be homeless, They DID NOT take said resources or act quickly on it, so THEY caused their homelessness, not me. I am NOT to blame.

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And obviously they are fine now, the last time I talked with them, according to Jesse, they have a trailer home behind Schnucks on the west side.Unless they get evicted again, which WILL happen eventually. Jesse will lose their job because someone did not kiss their ass and worship the ground they walk on at work,Jesse will quit which means no unemployment payments and then Jessica still working and the only one bringing in a paycheck will get jealous that Jesse gets to diddle themself all day doing nothing so Jessica will quit their job too. Again no unemployment payments because they quit the job.  

Having no income, they will fall behind on rent therefore without a doubt they will get evicted. And having been evicted before (more than one time) it will be very hard for them to find a place to live. I just hope they don't show up on my property begging me to have them stay at my house. That is 100% without hesitation NO. Sorry not sorry, NO. They burned that bridge a very long time ago. Jesse tends to burn a lot of bridges but never owns up to that it is Jesse at fault.

Jesse had an opportunity when they were staying at my house to do good. 

They could have just stayed at my house a few weeks(my original idea), got their shit together, paid me for rent and contributed to utilities while at my house(without argument),get out my hair and get a place of their own. If Jesse had any sense at all, they would have never asked so much of me. Knowing that staying at my house was stressful and very inconvenient.But instead, they were giving me the guilt trip, saying they will “leave me alone now”.Thinking I did not want to be friends and that I was somehow mad at them. Manipulating me, trying to make me feel bad for telling them to find a place of their own, like any normal person would do.Instead of staying at my house.Since it was never the plan for them to stay as long as they did.From day one I was wanting them to find a place AS SOON AS POSSIBLE, and at the same time Jesse was making plans NEVER to leave.I had a house and they wanted it. 

Jesse does not have the mental ability to realize how stressful it was, they can't see past their own nose.No one has it worse off then they do. NO ONE. They never validated my feelings or my thoughts on things. Never cared that the stay at my house caused stress, and was very emotionally and financially draining, Jesse did not care, 

They had a roof over their head(my roof) but a roof just the same. It did not matter if I could not have visitors stay or I could not get my studio built.I would be selfish If I wanted to build a studio instead of having them at my house. Fuck my plans,Fuck my feelings, Jesse is here and we must all worship the ground they walk on. This is how they act. So if I ever see them at the bus terminal I won't even acknowledge them. And it would be great if they did the same.In fact that is what I want them to do. If they don't talk to me or acknowledge my existence, that is exactly what I want them to do. 

There was one time I was walking home from work and after working all day I was extremely tired. I walked by where Jesse and Jessica were living on Parker. I saw Jesse working on their truck, but I did not stop to say hi, I was tired and I just wanted to get home, have dinner from CVS(why I was walking down Parker)and go to bed. I let Jesse know I was in the area and they were not happy that I did not stop by, they could have used my help. Uhhhh I said to them through a text message, that I was tired and I was going to go to bed soon, it was like 6pm so I guess it was weird for Jesse, I was not about to stop and help and socialize, I had food to cook and dinner to have. 

AND I was tired. It is like Jesse expected me to stop and say hi. They did not believe I could have been so tired after working (the job I had was not physical) so for Jesse it was an “easy” job. Not really knowing the nature of the job, this was just an ASSumtion and Jesse knew nothing about what I did. Although they thought they did. 

Jesse always gave me shit for being a “desk jockey”  “white collar” job. HEY AT LEAST I HAD A JOB. JESSE WOULD GIVE ME SHIT FOR NOT HAVING A JOB,AND NOT CONTRIBUTING, So it's damn if you do and damn if you don't.It not like Jesse's job was any less, but that is the way they made me feel, like my job was so much better and I was shit for having such a non physical white collar job.What kind of friend gives someone shit for having a job? I mean maybe I can say it is one thing for not having a job and maybe they can say someone is being lazy and not contributing paying taxes, but to actually give me grief and trouble for HAVING A JOB, A FULL TIME JOB, going to work every day 8am-5pm having to leave at 6am and not get home until 7pm. Working over 12 hours a day because I count the commute as working since I am in route to work, I can't do any recreational activities as I commute to work. ITS WORK.

So this motherfucker Jesse has the gall to actually give me shit for having a JOB? No Fuck you Jesse. It's not giving me shit for working, it's giving me shit for the type of work, white collar desk job. Because all Jesse is mentally capable of is wiping ass. Again just shows the limited mental capacity Jesse has, they are actually jealous I have a job I enjoy and keep working for the same employer for over a decade.   

FUCK YOU Jesse, I had a job. And I kept my job for a very long time. I made my money, I was not rich(like you assumed)you still took advantage as if I did have unlimited resources and money. You Jesse did not care either way, as long as you got what you needed, no matter how many people you stomped on to get whatever you needed, So yes when I see you, I will ignore you and if you do the same GOOD. That is exactly what I want you to do.And if you say anything to me, I will ignore you. Good riddance. 

I get rid of toxic people in my life, like Dale, Sonny, Jesse and Jessica.They no longer exist in my universe. 

Jesse always made it about them, they always had it worse off than I did.So be it. Jesse wants to be in the gutter then they are welcome to it. Jesse would never validate or empathize with my troubles because they always had it worse off and I should not be complaining.Jesse never cared about me or cared about the friendship. They were only there to get what they needed.I tried to help, I really did. But that was never good enough. After all that help I gave them,after all that I sacrificed, money I spent, time I wasted. After all that they STILL had the gall to say I turned my back on them, even AFTER I tried to help the best I could. Jesse does not even deserve a nod or even eye contact. Just another stranger. If they talk to me I’ll act like I don't even know the motherfucker. Jessica too, just as bad as Jesse , Jesse flew too close to the sun, got burned up by the flame, but you know what, Jesse did  that to themself. No one else. Jesse should have known better than to try to use and take advantage of people like they did.No more. I will NEVER give Jesse a penny. Sorry for your luck man, have to walk to work? Tough titties. So do I(from my house to the bus stop and from the bus stop to work back and fourth, it's not 5 miles but it's still hard especially with my fucked up knee, youll never see me complain) 

Get a battery for your goddamn truck if you don't want to walk so far, why tell me? I can't do anything about you walking to and from work 5 miles. I mean absolutely NOTHING I can do. So why even tell me? Does that sound cold and distant? Maybe but jesse has fucked me over so many times I dont care if they have to walk 5 miles or 25 feet to and from work. I could not do anything the first time you told me, what makes you think I can do anything the second time or third time? Jesse just wants me to feel sorry for them so they can somehow manipulate me into giving them money, that is all that is. I mean everyone I know has their troubles. But none go into so much detail as Jesse does. I guess I am cold and bitter towards them because they screwed me over so many times. They have new court dates, more medical bills that will never be paid. But that is not any of my concern, Jesse will always owe people money that is why they can't get a loan or credit card.They are better off without a credit card. It is easier to stay off the grid if they don't have a credit card. Most criminals such as Jesse and Jessica try to escape their responsibility at the same time criticizing others for doing the exact same thing they are doing.Hypicrites.  

Never have I ever had so much trouble with anyone I called a friend like I did with Jesse. Maybe Dale is tied. BUT I dropped Dale too. 

Listen, I try my best to help people. But when I try to help someone with the resources I have and I still get called a bad friend because I did not help enough or why they demanded it. I am done with them.I gave them help, they did not take the help. 

Then they wanted more, more, more , more. and I could not provide. Such a loser Jesse is. I am not a bank, Jesse. I am not a money tree. You can not just ask people you call friends that much of them. I would never do that.I respect my friends and family.How could anyone be that selfish and greedy?  I am not sure, but all I know is that Jesse is selfish and Jesse is greedy. They project by calling me selfish and greedy but in reality Jesse is very self centered, vain and a narcissist. They tried to make me the bad person by saying I am greedy and selfish but I simply asked for the money I lent them back(like anyone normally would) and I also said they cant stay at my house AGAIN. After last time, never again. Jesse took advantage of my kindness and did not treat me  well while staying at my house. They treated me as if I was just a housemate and as if it was not my house, not my property at all. Treated my garage as their own domain. So why would I put myself through that again? Draining me even into more debt.Because I know Jesse would do that. If Jesse or Jessica asks me for something as small as bus fare(even though I have a ton of tokens) I would say the bus is free for me. I don't ever carry any cash with me. Or say “not unless you have change for a $1000.00 dollar bill and walk away.           

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Jesse did it to themself. They are ALL at fault here. I did absolutely nothing wrong. I did everything right to the best of my ability. I mean I did not want them to be homeless, but I also did not want them leeching off of me, taking advantage of me and taking over my home. So If the choice was to live at my house or be homeless then GO BE HOMELESS.Jesse put themself and Jessica in that situation, NOT ME.I never wanted Jesse to be in that situation. That is exactly why I tried to help, give them phone numbers of services that could help them NOT be homeless. I went out of my way to take the time out of my busy day to find said phone numbers. They just would not take that help. 

So now what happened? They ended up on the street. NOT MY FAULT. Jesse did not act fast enough when they were getting evicted and I tried to get them to get off their lazy ass and go find a better place. 

I never turned my back on them. BUT the moment Jesse stated to me that I turned my back on them because I did not help them at their lowest?(which is a lie because I did try to help) I was done, because I DID try to help. Jesse did not take that help because it was not the kind of help they wanted, which was to just stay at my house with no responsibilities. That is not what a friend does, a real friend would be grateful to any help they get. I am offended Jesse would not take the help that I tried to give them. I KNEW they wanted to just be lazy and stay at my house. And I had a feeling any help that did not include me offering them to stay at my house was not good enough. BUT I had to stand my ground. After last time, NINE months and not really making any effort to get a place? NO, I was done with the bullshit…..I AM DONE with the bullshit, It was NEVER a real friendship. Jesse never respected me or my space. Just looking out for themself.  And then Jesse had the gall to actually say I was a bad friend.Claiming I did NOTHING to help at all. Fuck You Jesse.You can go to hell. Stay wherever you live Jesse, just don't ever come to my house, I WILL call the POLICE. 

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So from now on I will not even say hi to Jesse or Jessica, if I see them, not a nod, a wave or even a how you doin’.... NOTHING, Absolutely NOTHING. They do not even deserve that. Jesse and Jessica no longer exist in my universe, just another stranger.I dont even know who the fuck they are, if they try to talk to me it is like a stranger trying to do so. And I don't care. Jesse had a good friend in me, I cared for their well being. I still do not wish them harm after all the shit they put me through, and I really do hope they get some help, as in seeing a therapist.Jesse needs a team of professionals that can help with the troubled life Jesse has had. Maybe even get evaluated for mental illness. Jesse does not have the mental ability to show any kind of empathy. Jesse is an extreme narcissist, they can not see past their own nose. They are only out for what Jesse needs even if it means walking all over someone they called a friend. And when I show empathy towards them, they say I have no idea what they are going through, 

I mean that is correct, but that is what empathy is, TRYING to understand what they are going through. 

Jesse never did that with me, it was always about them. 

It was always a competition to see who had it worse. Well Jesse you WIN. I am not trying to compete with you to see who has it worse off. You WIN man, you have it worse. But don't try to guilt me for having my fortune.I avoid living in the gutter, whereas you thrive to live there,you do so because you want people to feel sorry for you and then you can manipulate folks into giving you what you need instead of really working for it. I will never apologize for having what I have.I will continue to work for what I have and earn an honest living. Not you Jesse, you are a thief and you have always been a crooked lying awful person.I just wish I had seen it sooner, instead I try to see the good in people. JAR was correct, Jesse is trash. Go back to hell Jesse, you are not wanted here. 

I have my dream recording studio, a space where I can get away and create? Yeah, but don't guilt me for having it, because I worked hard for it.I have a house? YES but fuck you for trying to take it over as yours. Get off your high horse and leave me alone. I don't ever want to see your butt ugly face ever again.You ARE the stinky butt fairy because you stink of ass all the time. Take a bath more than once a week, my GAWD shit for brains, you stink BAD.      

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If I ever see them at the bus stop, bus terminal or anywhere else in town, I will ignore them and If Jesse and or Jessica tries to talk to me, have a conversation with me etc.I will be like “who are you?, Can I help you?” No recognition that I ever knew them. Give them the cold shoulder,I never really knew them in the first place because I thought they were my friends, turns out they were never really friends so there is no loss of a friendship. Sianaria motherfucker. Jesse can act like I DID know them all they want. I will just deny ever knowing them and ever being their friend. It was a waste of time. Jesse took advantage of my kindness. And now they don't get to do that anymore. 

THEY lost a friend and it is ALL on them. Not me, it is THEIR loss. I did not lose anything. In fact I gained back my sense when I finally stopped interacting with Jesse and Jessica.Such a waste of space, both of them are. It's not like I am special. BUT they need to know that they can not treat people like they did me. I helped them out, I really did not expect anything in return EXCEPT payment from what amount I lent them.No it was never extortion, because they owed me a debt. Extortion by definition is just trying to take money from someone where a loan did not take place. 

If Jesse had a credit card and they owed a balance(money) on said credit card, would they say the credit card company is trying to extort money from Jesse? After the Credit Card company sends them a bill? As a matter of fact Jesse is so retarded they probably would try to claim that, so never mind, they are that stupid. 

I sacrificed a lot for them. I lost a lot of money because of them,I lost sleep and had a very stressful time. Something I will NEVER get back. I only lent them money because they PROMISED to pay me back, I would have never just given them money with no return.I am not a goddamn charity.yet Jesse thought I was a charity and I could just give them whatever they wanted with no return.Jesse is such a lazy fuck, a leech, with absolutly no contrition to society.Hell Jesse even once told me they dont ever file for Federal and State taxes. Now they may not make enough anyway, but if they have a full time job taking in over $10.00 an hour it seems like they would owe something.

Jesse would have to be making less than $12,950 a year for federal and $2000.00 a year for state of Indiana in order not be required to file taxes. 

Even WITH making the Indiana state minimum wage($7.25/hour) 20 hours a week(no overtime) that is $7540.00 a year(taxable income). Not enough to file for Federal but way over for state. So Jesse is in trouble if they really do not file any taxes. 

But they also move around a lot and change addresses so how could the IRS find them? hell they would change jobs just to avoid garnishment.   

I am so glad I did not have those fucking cats in my house for NINE months it would have been a disaster, and Jesse would not have cared.It was not their property they were destroying. They did not care that I could not build my studio when they were in my home, and the cats were in my garage. I tried to tell them they need to leave so I can start building my studio. Jesse Jessica and Teresa just brushed it off like I was making up excuses to get them to leave(basically lying to them) and I was really not building a studio. I bet they were surprised when I actually built one, and they must have assumed it cost quite a bit of money too(and it did). 

SO FUCKING WHAT. That is not any of their concern. I could have had a Million Dollars in the bank, and none of i t… is,was or will ever be obligated to Jesse. I know Jesse had other ideas, such as we were friends, so I was to share the wealth.NO that is not how it works.Jesse was just a lazy leech, and just wanted what others had, Jesse just wanted to float through life without actually having to work for anything.  

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There was this one time, I posted my professional headshot on facebook, this was for work. and Jesse made the comment that “my face would scare the rats away” Just out of the blue, not being provoked or anything like that.Whereas everyone of my other friends and family members were commenting on how great I looked,Jesse just had to do the complete opposite because they are an asshole. I mean, was that REALLY necessary? I never said ONE mean thing to Jesse, put them down or anything.In the WHOLE time that I knew Jesse I never once put them down, belittling them made them feel guilty, NOT ONCE. Or at least not on purpose, this jab was on purpose and it was pretty low.Low class and trashy, just like Jesse.

Since it was unprovoked. It is pure bullshit. I am not a punching bag, that was really uncalled for. Jesse is just an asshole. a shitty stinky asshole. 

They do not deserve my time or friendship. I am done with Jesse, and Jessica too. Like I said before, I will not even acknowledge them. It is sad that I put my time and effort being a friend to Jesse when all they did was use me. Take advantage of my kindness. Then when they were at their lowest(again) Homeless AGAIN, they reached out for help. When I gave them the best help I could with the resources I had(without giving away my soul) I even knew they needed help before they actually reached out(because I knew they were getting evicted even before they did with looking it up on public record) they acted like I was being selfish. Here I am with a nice three bedroom two full bath ranch style house with a full basement,a credit card, a bank account and a recording studio, so I HAD to have some money stashed away…… and well golly gee I won't share it. I have a house, bank account full of money and a credit card and here I am not sharing it? WOW what a selfish fucknet I must be. After all, I shared it before with them and got stomped on, but I guess I must do it again to get stomped on again. What a waste of space Jesse is. EXPECTING me to help them out the way THEY wanted.Taking nothing less than $1000.00 cash and an offer to live in my house for as long as they like. I mean I DID help them, it was just not the help they expected. Since I DID have a house. In Jesse’s mind that meant I was EXPECTED to share it. This is not what a true friend does, hell a true friend would not even ask as much as Jesse did.But that being said a true friend would take any help or advice given and move on. Knowing full well that I can not provide as much as Jesse asked. Any other normal person would be grateful for any kind of help. They would never ask to stay at my house because they would know it would be inconvenient, awkward and weird. Even my best friend that I have known most of my life would have never asked that much of me. That is how much of a piece of shit Jesse is. They would stomp over their own mother if it meant they would get a free meal. That is exactly what Jesse did to me, took advantage, kept borrowing money with the promise of paying me back then when I asked for it back with no interest just the principle, according to them, it was extortion. I was trying to take money from Jesse as if I never loaned them money. Just another way of manipulation and stalling to not pay what they owe. Jesse is a deadbeat loser, a leech on society. Jesse steals from the government(that is a very bad idea…but not my problem), they do not pay taxes, They try to stay off the grid so they won't be found.Jesse owes money to so many people and so many places.

Jesse will never be able to get a loan, credit card, buy a house or buy a new car. Unless they win the lottery! Jesse will always be in the same place they are now.Even if they did win the lottery, they would never attempt to pay me back, because they are that type of person. They do what they do to get ahead or just get what they need and if they need to walk on someone and throw them in the mud to get there then they absolutely will. 

I do try to see the best in people, and I gave Jesse and Jessica more than one chance. They proved how horrible they are. I gave them a pass more than once because I considered them friends, and sometimes friends banter with each other, but not what Jesse did.. Even after the put downs and giving me shit for simply being, like having a goddamn job? I mean really, giving me trouble for having a job for which I am good at and  it is not physical. Since you know I don't have full use of my legs. Would Jesse shame someone in a wheelchair for not standing during the anthem? because that is how it feels.   

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I never want to see either of them ever again, but I know that is very impossible because we all take the METS bus. 

There will be times where they are at the bus stop or even on the same bus. I can't do anything to prevent that. IT WILL happen at some point. In fact the few times I took the bus downtown after work to catch Washington home(so I don't have to cross the street) I have seen them waiting on the bus at the downtown bus terminal. It is 100% a chance I will see them if I take the bus downtown after work each time, because they are getting off or going to work or to a gay sex orgy who knows.   

—--6/9/23

/Jesse is such an asshole. They had a friend in me, I truly cared for their well being. I don't wish them any harm,I would never do that. They just have to learn not to take advantage of people who are trying to help them and take the help that is given,with gratitude,like an adult. (all I got was an attitude from a child) and not expect more than what is offered, which is EXACTLY what Jesse did. I gave what I thought was good advice and good help and they did not think it was good enough, because they KNEW I had more “resources” at my disposal(my house, my credit card, my bank account)Which was not really for me to share. It was mine. I can't share everything I own. I can only do my best to help.

They DEMANDED that I SHARE what I had. and if I did not share, I was a horrible selfish greedy rich boy.It was insulting to me to not take the help which I took the time out of my very busy schedule to find. All Jesse wanted was to stay at my house, and expected me to pay for everything,nothing less.What I gave to them just was not good enough.That is offensive to me because I went out of my way, and used my time to find resources to help them and all they could do was “spit on the ground at me” because the help I gave did not include me offering them to stay at my house AGAIN. 

 

They were in need and at their lowest(homeless, although it was totally their fault and could have done more to prevent it they EXPECTED me to rescue them and bail them out AGAIN

FUCK OFF and GO TO HELL and stay far far away from me JESSE DAVID IVES. 

—6/12/23

I have said this many times, but if Jesse somehow saw I had ANY kind of cash in my wallet,say $5.00-$20.00. They would ask for help and for me to just GIVE said cash to them without thinking that maybe I am struggling to get by and I need said cash to pay a bill or buy food. If I say I can't help,and that I need the money, they would say I am selfish and greedy for not helping a friend in need, because clearly I have the money, and I should give it to them.I mean I have money in my wallet, Jesse wants said money, why shouldn't they have said money? It's not like I need it for anything right?(eyes roll)same thing with the credit card, 

I have a credit card, Jesse needs things so why shouldn't I help Jesse get what they want? Jesse needs help with rent? Why not ask Pete? They spent all their money on junk and things they don't really need and did not save back for bills and rent..”just ask Pete”

The ungrateful attitude they gave me when I said I could not let them stay at my house was immature and uncalled for. Clearly I have a house so I should automatically give it away to them? and Because I did not give them the help they WANTED(have them stay at my house) I “turned my back on them” Because yes, I actually did give them help. They just did not take the help that was given. Jesse is not very grateful for the help that is handed to them, they just want handouts,and money so they don't have to do ANYTHING, 

Jesse is actually very lazy and would rather have everything handed to them without actually doing any work. Yet they would be the first to criticize anyone using any kind of government (“handouts'') social services.

It's like Jesse did not literally look into my wallet and see money in it. All they knew was that I had a credit card and I bought a house in 2012. So they assumed I had a ton of money, therefore kept asking and asking and asking and asking for my help, like I had money to just give away. 

A few times I jokingly said to Jesse I “won the lottery”. It was when I won a dollar or two…… $20.00 at the most from a scratch off ticket. It WAS true, I did WIN the lottery but I guess somehow Jesse thought I won millions of dollars, and if I did ever win the BIG JACKPOT, I would NEVER give them a dime of the winnings, besides, I would NEVER let them know I won that much cash anyway. There would be no doubt they would try to take that money away from me.Jesse is that kind of big of a bag of shit, they don't care if I am struggling to get by,barely making it,they dont give a shit if I need that money back to pay back the extra balance since I only earn a certain amount a month and the money spent to help them went over my budget. They need money and I have some so therefore they DEMAND I give it all to them, because THEY need it and I don't deserve it, THEY DO.

 It is no wonder Jesse’s  “business” failed. They do not understand budgets and how to spend within said budget.Hell they would not even file taxes or get a bank account. You can not run a business without filing taxes,registering with the state the business is in or even having some kind of bank account.Jesse wanted to stay off the grid because they owed so much money, but also wanted to run a business? It was all a grift anyway.

If jesse or jessica EVER ask me for help(i can not imagine that they would because they would claim I am the bad friend and horrible human being because I did not help them at all when they were at their lowest and they don't want to ask again only to be turned down again.(even though I tried my best to help the best I can).They are that kind of people so they just might,just so that they can put the guilt trip on me and shame me for not helping them.

IF they do ever ask(and that is a BIG IF),  I will say this to them…..“good luck to you, but I can not help” They can believe me or not, but that is the truth. sorry, not sorry……I am not a bank, I am not a charity, I do not have the extra funds to help everyone who needs it.  and all the help I gave them before, they were never  truly grateful.I really don't care about that(although it is kind of insulting), The fact that they took advantage of my kindness and never had an ounce of empathy and feelings on how all of whimpering and whining and begging for help affected me. 

They were only out for themselves no matter who was hurt by their actions, even the people they called friends. 

They would probably push their own mother in the mud to get a meal,cash money or just to get ahead in line. They have empathy whatsoever. They even gave me shit for trying to show them empathy.They were just jealous that I could actually care about someone other than myself. And that even though I may not have gone through exactly what they were going through, maybe I could possibly try to feel what they are feeling.The very definition of empathy. 

Jesse lacks the capability of caring for anyone but themselves.If it does not give them any kind of gain,they want nothing to do with it. I no longer gave them what they needed, money, shelter, etc,they wanted nothing to do with me.and they were mean and cynical towards me. They were no longer friendly. 

They don't have the capability of being friendly toward someone that will not give them something in return.a simple friendship is not enough.Just being there and hanging out is not enough. In order to be a friend of Jesse, you MUST provide for them.Give them money, shelter, something in return, otherwise you are not worth their time.jesse proved that to me when I could not help them, ie give them shelter even after I tried to help the best I could to my ability they wanted nothing to do with me because I did not hand out free things to them. I no longer gave them money or access to my credit card, so they did not want anything to do with me. They were only sticking around to use me for my money and see how much money I could give them. What a loser.I bet their father is the same way.

This is why Jesse has no friends. They have Jessica, but Jessica only sticks around because Jessica has no other place to go. They can feed off each other for all I care. Jesse even screwed that poor rabbi. Used him for his money, was disabled and on low income, social security. Borrowed all kinds of money from him too with the promise of paying him back, just like Jesse did me. 

After Jesse could not borrow  money from me anymore they went to the rabbi, using his kindness. He had enough of the bullshit too and would not help Jesse out.Jesse even told me that. but Jesse would never take blame,it was only we were selfish and greedy and refused to help someone in need, even though both the rabbi and I went out of our way to help, Jesse was just ungrateful. They were the one that was being greedy.   

 

Sorry, not sorry, I will NEVER EVER help them again. They can go diddle themselves in the gutter for all I care.That is where Jesse belong, and they are probably more comfortable in said gutter anyway, being in the gutter means they can get people to feel sorry for them.This way they can use and manipulate others into giving them money and things so they don't actually have to do any of the work.It's all a con. Yet they would criticize anyone trying to get a hand out, and being lazy and not actually working. When they beg and ask for handouts it is different somehow, yet it is actually the same. They won't be getting a dime from me EVER!!!! 

Fool Me Once Shame on you

Fool Me Twice Shame on me

There will never be a second time.

Jesse has a sad life, I don't think they were ever loved as a child. What a sad way to be. Always expecting things from people. Expecting a hand out having no empathy or remorse, taking advantage of people who were friends to them. Always expecting people to bow down to them but criticizing others who do the same.asking for handouts, asking for something without doing anything and putting those down who do the same. Do as I say and not as I do attitude. Being a total leech on society. Does not pay taxes, and is not responsible enough to pay their debts.Tries to avoid paying any debt.Claims to be a “man of honor” but that in itself is a LIE.Asks for help, but then is not grateful when help is given because in their mind, They expect help. They should not have to show gratitude for something that they have the right to. And it is not just ANY help, no they expect a certain kind of help, money mostly. If someone just gives advice or even resources or services to help that is not good enough. If it is not green, it is not the right kind of help. 

Any other kind of help besides money or free shelter, would require Jesse to actually do some real work, and that is not what they are about to do. Jesse is very lazy. They do the bare minimum, that is why they have had so many jobs, they were probably asked to do work and Jesse refused because it was “too hard” They expect everyone to kiss their ass and worship the ground they walk on, but would talk shit about anyone else who would do the same. Such a hypocrite.

Apparently,since I have a credit card they have the right to use it without paying me back on what is spent on said credit card. I have a house, therefore they have the right to stay at my house for as long as they like, no questions asked. Fuck You Jesse.You are not privledged enough to have anything you demand.

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Jesse was never grateful for what was given to them, they always demanded more. Jesse wanted to be in charge of everyone(they could not even take charge of their own life), even when living at my house they wanted to reign supreme. They never once made any effort to find a place. I had to find it for them. They are so lazy. I don't care if they worked 40 hours a week. I worked too.

It did not matter if at that time I worked less hours. They had a responsibility and they did not act on it. They just demanded a hand out. They thought in their sick mind that my house was owed to them.Why go out and look for a place and pay 3 times as much in rent when they could just have stayed at my house??, no regards to me at all. No empathy towards my mental health or feelings.As long as they get what they need. It did not matter if it hurt me. in Jesse’s mind Jesse was owed a house, I had a house and they wanted my house. They were going to stay at my house for as long as they could.Sure was better than paying rent at some other dump. I am done with them. No love loss because the friendship really did not exist. Jesse was only there to gain what they could get from me, MONEY.When the well was dry, they were gone. So fuck jesse and jessica, both can go to hell.    

Even if I had money, I dont give a shit, it is not for Jesse, they may think they are privileged to said money, but how? It is MY money. If Jesse wants money, they have to WORK for it. Learn to live within your means. Budget. If Jesse falls behind on rent, too bad. Sorry not sorry, not my problem. I should have said that  the first time they asked. 

I was promised to be paid back.That was the ONLY way I would lend Jesse money. I was fooled, and tricked into giving Jesse my money. Jesse is a thief and a liar.

I have to be more careful who I help from now on. I really tried to help Jesse, they just took advantage.They were never really grateful for the help I did give them.I gave them help,gave them money, and I let them live in my house, sacrificed my time and I got not one thank you.Only wanted more and more. assumed I had more money than I actually had and Jesse tried to take it from me. How does Jesse have any friends with that attitude? I bet they don't. No one can put up with that kind of shit. I mean even their rabbi had enough. So I was not the only one Jesse screwed over.

jesse (and jessica) have no moral compass, they may say they have morals, but who takes advantage of someone's kindness and still has good morals? Who thinks they have the right to just do that? They are very bad people. They have each other(for now)but people should stay far away from them. I am amazed they still have a place to live. 

Eventually they will fall short on rent but they better not dare come to me for help, my guess is they have not fallen short on rent because they don't have me to bail them out and they know this, so they are “smarter” about holding back their paycheck for rent but that does not mean won't get evicted,they do probably have a few dozen cats by now and live in filth.That alone is grounds for an eviction. 

I never want them to ever come to me for help again. I never want to see them on my property or ring my doorbell, bang on my door.look through my window to see if I am home. If I know Jesse at all, they will not come to me for any kind of help again,and put the reason that they that they don't come to me anymore all on me,it would be my fault they don't talk to me, saying I am greedy and selfish and I would not help a friend in need, so they don't bother.

I have a good feeling that they won't even set foot near my property or even my street and neighborhood. They live way over on the westside of town.That would take some effort,time and money(bus fare) to get over to my side of town.Unless they have another form of transportation(like their own vehicle) they won't waste their time. 

They know I would turn them down. jesse is an ungrateful pile of garbage. 

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They are SO toxic, Jesse was NEVER a friend.Jesse NEVER respected me.Not really. It seems all that time we were hanging out it was just to get me to be friends so they could take advantage of me,ask to borrow money and use my credit card, and when I finally said I couldn't they claim I was a “bad friend”,It was all a con from the beginning. Only there to see what they could gain from me, money, credit card etc. They were never really good friends because they were gone the moment they could not gain anything from me.Real friends are not cynical towards their friends,especially after I could not help, real friends would understand, and honestly a real friend would not have ask as much as Jesse did.Because my real friends understand my situation and know I can not give that much and even if I could, my real friends would not ask so much from me. 

I could not help them directly with shelter when they were homeless but at least I tried to get them other alternatives, they just did not want said alternatives, that would take real work.  I did not care if they were out on their luck(well I did kind of)but I am NOT a charity!It is not up to me to save them from being homeless. I helped them once and they expected it again,(NO) That is the difference.Jesse expected me to help them the way THEY wanted(i helped them many many many many times and they just want more and more and more and more). I did try to give them help,it was an alternative to them living at my house using up my resources, but I did try to help them.It was not like I totally turned them away when they were in need. They just did NOT take the help I was trying to give to them(resources of places that would help them) 

That ONLY means they did not want any help that did not involve me offering them to stay at my house or if it was not money they would turn their nose up at me. Any other help was “hogwash”.So therefore since I did not offer them the help THEY expected then “I turned my back on them”, even though I tried my best to my ability to help and it is offensive to me that they would not even look at the help I was trying to give to them because they knew I had a house, a credit card, and a bank account (with some money) so I was a bad friend for not giving them said things. They did not have to act on said help, that was up to them but at least take the help and say thank you and move on. 

I mean really, just because I had a house, credit card and a bank account with some money does not obligate me to give it all away when someone i know is down on their luck. I am in debt but I don't expect any of my friends and family to bail me out. 

I can only give so much of my soul, Jesse demanded way more than I could ever give and I was a “bad friend” because I could not follow through to their demands. 

That is what makes me angry about the whole situation is that they turned their nose up on the help I was trying to honestly give them (without going broke..again) or destroying my house…(again)

This is the reason I will NEVER invite them to my home, NEVER hang out with them or even acknowledge their existence and whenever I do see them,at the bus stop, around town etc they are strangers. I won't even give them as much as a nod. Screw them both. I was a good friend to both Jesse and Jessica and they took advantage of my friendship.THEY lost that friendship and it was THEIR loss. I would be very surprised if they had any friends at all. If this is how Jesse and Jessica treat other people.

They are really the first two people I considered friends and now I refuse to talk to. I am a friendly person and I have a ton of friends throughout my life,some I lost contact with but never refuse to talk to if I ever do see them again. Some I may disagree politically but still I would talk to them at least.They are the first that I once called friends that if I see them around town I will not even acknowledge them or their existence. It is sad really but they did it to themselves. They had a friend in me, but not anymore. I won’t wish harm to them.They will do that to themselves. If they get evicted(and they will) it will be their fault.Chances are they will be homeless again. Jesse needs help, a therapist. but they reuse that help.They won't admit they need mental help. Jesse even said once they had a mental breakdown. Well go get help then.

 Jesse by their own admission says they are cynical towards everyone, maybe there is something wrong with that. 

—>and that is what led to all of this is me telling Jesse they need to go get help and by that I meant a therapist.They responded to me that I would not give them help when they needed it.(like I am the provider, I am the ONLY one who could help) and I was like I did not have money and they responded it was when I did not let them stay at my house(again why is my house a homeless shelter??). Jesse carried that grudge for TWO years.and was not friendly towards me just because I did not give them the kind of help they demanded even though I did try to help the best I could, that was not good enough. I mean they knew I had a credit card, I could have let them use my credit card to pay for a hotel room, like it was money growing on a tree or something, what a pile of trash jesse is.To expect me to do  that for them with no repayment. Jesse just thought I had unlimited money or just did not care.As long as they could get ahead or out of the hole, it did not matter who it hurt.jesse never really planned on paying me back, they only paid me what they did to make it seem like they were making an effort.another reason I will never speak to jesse again.No love loss there. It was never really a friendship to begin with. 

The pandemic only made it to where we could not hangout. It showed who they really were. They showed their true colors because they did not care if I was looking out for myself, my family and even Jesse and Jessica by staying distant. They just claimed I was paranoid.The pandemic really made me realize what kind of person Jesse really is and that JAR was right about them all along. Jesse is a real pile of garbage, always was. 

I will say this…. I won't be selling back that keyboard to them.They had their chance. I tried to sell it back safely. They refused to do social distancing during a deadly virus pandemic. It is mine now.  

Jesse   would always guilt trip me for being “more” fortunate than they were. If I had only 5 dollars to my name, well they only had 2 dollars. shame on me for being so " rich". The Same thing with the credit cards, the house, the recording studio… (it did not happen overnight, over 20 years of gathering equipment, planning and dreaming of a studio! I always had nicer things than Jesse, hell I always had a place to live. Even when I rented an apartment, I did not trash it. Jesse and Jessica always lived in filth, and treated their living space like shit. My guess is that they did not own it so why should they care, although they were at one time buying a house(rent to own) and it was still treated like shit, so maybe that is just the way they live no matter if they own or rent. They never really treated my house well. They were guests in my house and they still treated my house like it was theirs.Giving no respect to me at all.If Jesse respected me, they would have tried harder to get a place, and have a goal.I know they were tired after work,(so was I) but they were in a situation where they HAD to pull though to get a place, Jesse never did that,I was the one doing all the work for them. If they were not in a place by a certain date they would get a hotel room, that is how it SHOULD have been. If they did not want to stay in a hotel room well then work harder to get a place. I really should have not been so nice about it. But they were my “friends” so I gave them a pass. They took so much advantage of my kindness. I am so angry with myself that I let it happen. I was a friend to Jesse and Jessica..Teresa too. 

It is their loss,not mine. I do not feel bad for not trying to contact them or hang out with them. Once Jesse showed their true colors, showed who they truly were I was like fuck this. I can not deal with someone who just uses people. I was nice, I let them stay at my house, and then I let them put shit underneath my car port as they move, but even then took advantage, never communicating, taking their time and then making me feel like I was bothering them for asking them to get their crap moved but they acted like it was an inconvenience for them and not for me. “they had the right” to leave the stuff at my house for as long as they please, without any consideration to me or my needs. What a load of crap that is. 

And then in summer of 2020(when I was on my way back from vacation) they asked if they could leave Jessica's bike underneath my carport. I was like sure,(thinking it is ONLY a bike) but it was more than just a bike. They lied to me. Kept texting me as I was traveling back when I was going to be home. I was like it is  greyhound I am not sure when. If I gave it time and it was wrong they would claim I lied. When I said to them I could move the bike behind the shed, (you know so it is out of view and wont get stolen..since it happened before with Jars bike), Jesse claimed l lied to them because behind the shed was not underneath the carport. So petty.

I only told them so they would not think it was taken or stolen giving them the heads up.

Jesse

You claimed I was not a good friend for not giving you the help you demanded, you said I turned my back on you and you did not even acknowledge the help I was trying to give then fuck you jesse david ives.You are not special. You can not just demand the help you want.You ungrateful pile of garbage. If someone offers you help then take it for what it is worth, and be grateful for it.Show some gratitude.Just because I have a thing, it does not give you the right to demand I share said thing. I am not obligated to hand you over money, let you use my credit card or let you stay at my house for an unlimited amount of time as you see fit. Or ANY amount at all. I mean I know you were down on your luck, that is too bad, but geesh, I tried to help you and to get you out of the situation you were in, I did not want you to be homeless. I never wanted that. But if it was between my house and the street, sleep well, the sidewalk is hard.You should buy a tent or something. 

You did not take said help, and just pointed your nose up at it because it did not involve me giving you money or an offer to stay at my house. To you it was like I never offered you help at all and that is just sick.Just because I let you stay at my house at one point,it does not give you the right to just expect me to offer that again.You took advantage and I am not going to fall for that again. And when I said it was not going to work out when you asked to stay at my house(AGAIN),the reason was because YOU took advantage and did not move fast enough to get out on your own.I was not going to go through with that again.Plus you had like a million cats and I no longer had a garage, it was now a professional recording studio, so the situation changed.I was not about to have a bunch of cats in my house or my studio. I have limits to what I am capable of and you found out real quick what those limits are. You wanted to see how far you could go, and you lost a friend.Too bad Jesse, it is YOUR LOSS. If I continued to talk to you, hang out with you and be your friend. You would have just continued to use and take advantage.Degrade me and guilt me.Put me down.

I see who you truly are now, I see your true colors. You have shown me and I do not like it. You are like a lost child, constantly wanting attention because you were never loved as a child. You always want to make people think you have it worse off. It is not a competition, but if it was, congratulations Jesse you win.Which is ironic because you WANT to be seen as a loser so people feel sorry for you, and give you things or whatever. but you win the biggest loser(not that one) contest. You want people to feel sorry so you can manipulate them into give you money and things so you don't actually have to work for anything.Just con and manipulate people hussle so you don't actually have to work a real job. Then when people don't give in to your demands you guilt them into thinking THEY are the piece of shit for not sharing.calling them greedy and selfish for not sharing what they have.  

Any real friend would not have taken advantage as much as you did. They would have NEVER asked so much from me.They actually respect me. You did it to yourself  motherfucker  .May you rot in hell for eternity. I will not even look at you when I pass you by at the bus terminal. You are now a stranger, and if you say my name, I will look at you like do you know you? Why do you know my name?  

So fuck you for guilting me for just having things, for having a job I love, earning money with said job. Buying things with income from said job. You are so goddamn lazy, it is sickening! Yeah sure I had a job in an office and it was not a “physical job” who gives a fuck, I dont have the use of my legs fully. I can NOT do a physical job. It is not an excuse, it is what it is but at least I am working, and trying to be a productive member of society. At least I PAY my taxes and I file taxes every year. At least I pay my debts or at least attempt to make payments consistently on time. You want to shame me for having a job at an office behind a desk instead of in a factory? Because you think white collar jobs are better than blue collar? I mean you indicated it, not me. I never once said I was better than you because of the job I had. I am just trying to make it like anyone else. I can not work those $20/hr jobs(i wish I could), they are too physically demanding so I take the job I can do with a pay cut(and it sucks). 

Fuck you for thinking I have unlimited amount of money, who the fuck do you think you are anyway. I am not a charity.and even if you did not think I had unlimited amount of money, fuck you for taking advantage of someone who is struggling. (most likely since you called me rich boy, you assumed I had money) I was your friend Jesse and Jessica, but not anymore. I do not wish you harm and I would never intentionally harm you. BUT please stay away from me. 

Hey, I will never give them a penny anyway. I will never help them out, give them money or let them use my credit card ever again so chances are because of that I will never hear from them anyway.That is why they stuck around anyway.Once they did not have access to my credit card,my house, my bank account Jesse was cynical and mean towards me.Only proves once again they were there just to take money from me.I blocked them on my phone so they can’t call me, I blocked them on social media so they can not message me or comment on my posts.They live on the west side of town so I don't see them ever coming over to the east side just to chance it to see if I am even at home.I would not answer the door(unless I am doing yard work)

they would not know if I am home or not) I am not obligated to answer the door to anyone. 

It would take too much time and bus fare to even attempt to come to my side of town.

The only time I ever have seen them lately is at the downtown bus terminal and they did not even speak to me, only when I said hello that is when they said something, and it was very brief. The next time I see them I won't even nod at them, they no longer exist in my universe. They are dead to me.    

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Jesse has only themselves to blame. I did not do anything wrong. I was a friend to them. a very good friend. I went BEYOND what any normal person would do trying to help them. I tried my best to help them and Jesse has the balls to point their nose up at the help I was trying to give them at the end of the very toxic friendship(loosely call it a friendship). I mean they were on the edge of being homeless, I did not want that to happen, I would never want homelessness for anyone, so I went out of my way to try to get them help, 

I took the time out of my busy day to look up places that could help them (even though they were perfectly capable of doing it themselves) I still did it, because I am too kind, I never want anyone to suffer. I just DID NOT want them living at my house again, hell one time they came over to visit, and it was getting late, I felt uncomfortable having them even stay the night for fear they would never leave and that was their way back into my house. So what if they had to walk all the way home I was not about to have that happen again. I had to draw the line somewhere. Even if it did mean they had to walk all the way back to the west side in the dark….have fun. Get a fucking taxi if you dont want to walk. Can't afford it? Get a job you lazy slob. They did it to themselves by not 

The only thing is,the help I was giving them and the very end was not good enough. The help I was trying to give them would still require work on their part and they did not want that. They just wanted everything just handed to them. Then even after all the effort I went through to try to help them from being homeless, Jesse still says I turned my back on them. After ALL I did to help them, 

I sent them money when they were short on rent.let them stay at my house for an extended period of time. Found and bought them a vehicle.Paid for it to be towed from Vincennces because Jesse could not drive it. Paid for a few times to get the car towed(when they still had a car) ,paid for court costs and speeding ticket, paid for the DMV fees when they bought or traded a car for that truck Jesse could not drive. Found a buyer for that truck as well. Also found and paid for a rental house first months and deposit. Paid for a taxi ride to and from work when Jesse did not have a car to get there.Not to mention the numerous things I paid for when we went to York Pennsylvania.(I am thinking they just had me along so I could pay for everything) I let them use my laundry facilities, use my shower when they did not have any running water, Jesse even insisted to pay me but they never did.At that point I did not expect them to follow through on that promise, just another lie. and so after all that(i am sure I am leaving a few things out because I am doing this on memory) Jesse still stated I turned my back on them. After I did try to prevent them from being homeless. 

They just EXPECTED me to offer to stay at my house even though I no longer had a place for their cats,it was a disaster the first time, Jesse made NO effort to get a place, they just assumed they would stay at my house forever.Yes they paid me weekly rent(low for the area)and they did not contribute to help clean the house or pay utilities. Acted as if the house was theirs and I was just another housemate. Did not care if they lost the remote for the tv they were using.

It was after all that drama that happened after all I did for them after all the money I “lent” to them (only lending them money with the expectation of being paid back…and I never did get paid back fully,they said I was trying to extort them when I asked to be paid back) They EXPECTED me to have them stay at my house again. What a waste.   

And then one time after we got back from Indianapolis, Jesse gave me shit for not offering to pay for gas.(a few days later after the fact) I mean why? They were going up there anyway. They expected me to think of it instead of saying to me or asking if I could help, they expected me to offer.I really did not think of it,Jesse putting me down made me feel small for not thinking of it myself.

SO really I am glad Jesse showed their true colors by stating I turned my back on them,(after trying to help them) It gave me an out and a realization of what a piece of shit Jesse really is. It woke me up to the abuse and toxic friendship it really was.Jesse thought they had the right to my house, my credit card and my bank account. Other friends would be grateful for any help I attempt to give. Not that I am all high and mighty that I expect a thank you, even if I did not get a thank you or gratitude that alone would be “ok”,that alone did not end the “friendship”, but the fact that Jesse claimed I was a bad friend for not helping them the way they expected me to broke the camel's back. The “friendship” should have ended a long time ago, 

I should have just had them stay at my house for a couple weeks at the MOST and tell them that, after TWO weeks if they did not have a place, then get a hotel room. Give them a reason to get off their ass and get a place. 

But you see Jesse did not have an incentive to get their own place. Because in their mind 

they already had a place…….mine.       

It was never a friendship anyway, it was just to see what Jesse could get out of me, because the very moment I did not give them what they wanted they were gone. That is not a friend. That is not what a friend does.That is sad, Jesse has a very sad and troubled life, to think they are so privileged to use people like they did.I can't imagine Jesse has any friends. The way Jesse treats people I would hope people are smarter, I was not smart and that is why I am angry with myself for giving Jesse the benefit of the doubt. I was a friend to Jesse and Jessica, I wanted nothing from them, just a friendship. I never asked them for money or for them to help me on my bills.I just wanted someone to hang out with, play monopoly with, Go out to eat, even if it was just hanging out watching cat videos on youtube, that was fine. THAT did not cost any money. BUT Jesse was just there for one thing, to see what they could get out of me financially. Jesse was perfectly capable of earning their own money, I know times are rough but why were they coming to me because I was not rich? Jesse only assumed I was or just did not care,they were going to squeeze me dry of my resources and then move on.Jesse is a bonafide leech.Lazy as hell. and expects everything to be handed to them on a silver platter. 

Motherfucker thinks they are more privileged and entitled than everyone else and that we ALL should worship the ground they walk on. They think their shit dont stink.

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Jesse is a primadonna.The fact is, they are not entitled to anything. Jesse can not just expect people to just hand them over what they demand.Yet that is exactly what they were doing with me. They were on the verge of being homeless. I had a house, so they expected me to hand it out to them because I helped them once before, well why not? 

Here is why not, Jesse Jessica and Teresa all wore out their welcome. They made NO effort to find a place. I was stuck just being another housemate.They were taking over my house and losing control. 

They should have taken it upon themselves to get a place and get out on their own in a decent amount of time. 2-3 weeks tops.Then it should have been a hotel room. It was not up to me to find them a place.yet I did after NINE months of them doing NOTHING to get a place on their own.AND I paid for it(first months rent and deposit).....they ended up being evicted from that place, but that is their business.

 I do not give a shit if Jesse was tired after work. So was I.(even though I was not working full time, my weekend shift was back to back and it drained me) Jesse had a responsibility and they did NOTHING. Fucking NOTHING.Jesse David Ives is a fucking leech. and they serve no purpose to society, hell they dont even file taxes because “they would garnish the refund so why bother” well its the law you stupid motherfucker. 

Such a waste, such a drain on society.They were a drain on my wallet, bank account and my resources. They almost destroyed my garage with their cats.They did not give a fuck.They just brushed off the fact that I said to them that I was going to turn my garage into a recording studio(trying to get them to leave) it was as if they did not believe me and i was just bluffing to get them to leave(well I was but I was not bluffing) And then when I did have a fully constructed studio Jesse shamed me for having the means to build a studio and accomplishing my dream when they did not have their dream kitchen. Not my fault, it did not happen overnight. 15+ years in the making. Nothing to be ashamed of at all.A friend would be proud and would champion my accomplishment, what does Jesse do? Shame me.Make me feel bad because they do not have their space to do what they love. That is not what a friend does. God dammit Jesse is so immature.So selfish only thinks of themself.      

I am all about helping people. If I had more money and resources I would help out the less fortunate(not jesse and jessica) 

I mean I would have to be a multimillionaire to really help out the less fortunate. I do my best with the resources I have to help people even if it is not direct cash or offering my home.Some people like Jesse and Jessica would point their nose up at the help I give because it is not exactly what they expect. That is not how it works. That is not how it works at all. If you are in need and someone offers you some kind of help, DO NOT point your nose up at said help because it is not what you expect. Take said help and be grateful someone is going out of their way to help you at all. 

I mean come on Jesse, when you were on the street homeless and you asked and begged people for money, and someone gave what they could and gave you only a dollar…..did you get angry at them because it was not $20.00? Are you that ungrateful? Do you think you are more entitled than what is handed to you?

I am not rich as Jesse so loosely indicated. Calling me “rich boy” shaming me because I said a few times to them I could not help them(it was the truth)I had helped them before so I guess they assumed I had all kinds of extra money, (jesse is not that smart).I had to lie to them and say I no longer have a credit card, just to get them to quit asking me to use it. What an asshole.When I use my credit card, it is not free money, I have to PAY BACK THE BALANCE. I guess one can be rich if they have “amount X” to their name and Jesse had nothing. But the said “amount X” has to be spent on bills. Sure I had money but most of it had to be held back for bills, Something Jesse has no concept of doing.When I bought equipment it meant that I saved up for it. Jesse would go wild every pay day(I am sure they still do), acting like a millionaire with their full paycheck in hand because they would cash it, not put it in the bank(no bank account). I watched them do it. Just spend like it was water like they had an unlimited amount and did not have to hold back for rent and bills but then they would fall short when it came time to pay rent and bills. It is easy to spend $200-$300 at one time, no wonder they were “short on rent” all the time, because they would just spend it all on payday and then realize later that they needed it for rent after it was all gone.

Then they would call me up desperate for help and with a kind heart I fell for it multiple times.(because they promised me they would pay me back even a little extra. Until I finally had enough and said I can't help.(because they would never pay me back)

 That is when Jesse said I “turned my back on them” why? because I did not fall for their con anymore. That was the “turning my back on them” I was no longer a sucker they could use and abuse, no longer someone they could take advantage of and take money from.I was on to them and that What a waste. They never intended to pay me back, that was just a ploy to get me to help them.Then they claimed I was trying to extort money from them after I just simply asked to be paid back. I mean who was doing the extorting? I simply wanted to be paid back, no more than what was owed. I never asked for interest. Just the principle. Any normal person would ask the same. Jesse just did not want to pay me back and kept coming up with excuses and stalled and stalled. Jesse PROMISED me, a MAN OF THEIR WORD, but no effort to pay me back fully, maybe a couple hundred just to keep me satisfied, but never the full amount.What a fucking loser. 

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Jesse is NOT entitled to anything. Jesse flew too close to the sun when it came to seeing how far they could get away with taking advantage of my kindness. I never want to see anyone suffer and my heart hurts when I see suffering. I saw Jesse and Jessica as a friend and when they were basically without shelter in the fall of 2013(when their RV caught “fire”) I wanted to help. I had a house with some extra room, so why not let them stay for a few weeks? I should have stood my ground and stated they get a place within 4 weeks or go to a hotel.NO MATTER WHAT. I did not think Jesse a friend of mine, would take so much advantage of me. So what if they did not want to go to a hotel room.Once they had full employment they should have been gone. That was the original idea, but none of them made any effort to get a place, and then the car broke down with no transportation. How were they supposed to get to said job? Then Mike came to visit and all of a sudden he was staying at my house. Not really asking, just never left. I finally charged him rent and he was gone. Then Jesse had “health problems” going to the hospital, losing their job. Then renting a car took all their money after paying me weekly “rent”.(i didn't do it monthly because they could have gotten a place at any moment.Jesse would not want to leave in the middle of the month after paying for said month of rent. I know that is what they would claim. and then the fact that I let them stay at my house after multiple times lending them money for rent and they never paid me back in the past. I should have known better. But they were my “friends” and in need of help. I don't think that RV really caught fire. I think there was a spark at the fuse box at most(if anything at all, could have been all lies) and Jesse used that as an excuse, it was getting colder and the RV was not in livable condition(I never saw it but I know how they live, it had no heat they had to get a new place before winter came) Jesse knew I now had a house(i had been there for a year) and did not rent a place anymore so I could have visitors long term, so they came up with a plan to stay at my house.Even though Jesse said to me we could never be roommates, and I agreed.I saw how they lived. Visiting for a few days was fine because I could clean up any mess they left but not living with me because Jesse is more of a slob than I am.I am not Mr Clean but at least it is MY mess and I have to deal with it. When they lived with me I had to deal with MY mess and THEIR mess. Plus handle my job.And handle them, babysit them like all three of them were children, it was too much to handle.

And Jesse is like 7 years OLDER than I am, I should not have to tell them to clean up.Especially when they are a guest in MY HOUSE.All three of them treated my house like it was theirs and I was the house guest.Having no regard to my mental health or concerns. The fact that they put those poor cats in my garage, never cleaned up after the cats, causing flies and more stench and filth.It did not matter that I had plans to turn the garage into a recording studio. Jesse, Teresa and Jessica only thought of themselves. As long as they had shelter(my shelter) they were fine. No need to get a house to rent. Why would they, they already had a place(mine). That is why they made no effort to get a place of their own.and when I finally found a place for them, did all the work even paid for it, Jesse acted like i was kicking them out of their family home. Like it was theirs for generations and I was the evil greedy landlord kicking them out on the street for no reason.It is really sick what Jesse does, how they manipulate people into getting what they want, getting people to do things in their favor. I really hope Jesse does not have anyone to manipulate and take advantage of. I was the poor sap that had a good heart and all I get is shit on. 

All I asked was to be paid back for what was lent out so I could recoup my bank account. Is that so hard to ask? Jesse acts like I am trying to extort money from them as if I never lent them money at all, and that I am just being greedy… trying to take money away from them. Stupid little wacko thinks they are entitled to things that which do not belong to them, expects handouts and to get everything without actually working for it.Stupid fuck thinks they can get everything for free, never pays taxes yet complains about others on government assistance.Jesse is more of a leech on society than anyone struggling on welfare and government assistance. Jesse is the “welfare queen” not anyone else.          

I really hope I never see that motherfucker again. I would love to pop one in their ugly mouth.I am not a violent person so I would never actually do that.They would just sue me for assault. So I would never give them the satisfaction.  

I just do not want to see Jesse or Jessica ever again. They are losers, very lazy and a waste of society.     

        

They only have Jessica, and Jessica is as big a bag of shit as Jesse, they can have each other.  

Both Jesse and Jessica can go fuck eachother in hell for enternity for all I care.  

Jesse only has themselves to blame for losing me as a friend.I was a friend, Jesse was never a true friend, only around to see what they could gain from me.Because as soon as they could not gain anything from me…..they were cynical and mean towards me, showing their true colors. 

I did nothing wrong, they can apologize all they want to make themselves feel better(only doing so, so they can get me to hang out again and they can steal from me again)They crossed a line when they claimed I turned my back on them when all I have ever did was try to help them the best I could. 

It is offensive to me to say I did not help at all because I went out of my way so many times to help them,I spent so much money that I will never get back so they could not be evicted and out on the street or in jail.I bailed them out so many times and it was all for nothing. I can not trust them again. This is why I blocked their phone number, blocked them on social media. They can not contact me unless they physically go to my house. And they won't be welcomed there. Such a loss because I was their friend and helped them so many times when I did not have to do anything at all to help.And I spent so much money, money I did not have to spend,  It just shows what an ungrateful little shit Jesse is.And proves you can try to help someone the best you can when they are down on their luck. Go out of your way, stop your busy schedule to help out and still get shit on because it was not what they expected. 

It's like this analogy. They expected “$100.00” from me, when all I could give was “$5.00” and they said I was a bad friend because I did not give them “$100.00” well what if i only have “$5.00” when they assume I have “$100.00” I should just give it to them because they think they are entitled to it? What if I actually do have “$100.00” and  I need said “$100.00” for my bills and I am holding it back to pay the bills? (That is what I did when I lent them money, I had money to pay my bills but lent it out to help them with the promise of paying me back(so I can still pay my bills) but never got paid back so I got stuck not able to pay my bills)so maybe Jesse's plan was to make me poor as they were and have me struggle like they do that is very mentally sick if that was the truth. doesn’t it matter that I was struggling to pay bills and I really did not have extra money to throw around? No I guess not because big ol Jesse thinks their shit dont stink. They think they are entitled to everything they demand including my house and all the money in my bank account. Jesse is a very toxic person. I hope people realize this and stay away. Hell their own family won't even really talk to them, this is why they came to me instead of their large family when they were down on their luck.   

Jesse David Ives has the intelligence of a thumbtack. They think they are entitled and owed everything. They demand that they get handed everything they need without working for it. If they work hard and do better with their money they would have it to pay rent. Instead they spend it as soon as they get it (I watched it happen in front of me) When Jesse got paid they acted like they were so much better than I was because they had $200-$300 dollars in hand. Oh wow SOOOO much money, (eye roll)Spending it like they did not have rent and bills to pay. It was annoying.Then calling me “rich boy” because I said I did not have the money to help them. They just assumed I had extra money. I too had to budget and save back for my bills. Yeah ok I did not have rent or a mortgage(I am humble and do not take my fortune for granted)But I did have credit card debt and other bills. It was not like I had unlimited money like Jesse assumed I did.And based on an assumption(Jesse thinking I was wealthy and had unlimited amount of income)it basically ended the friendship.I never showed off or waved around a bunch of cash in front of Jesse, I never bragged I had money. I just had a little more than Jesse.And they assumed I was rich. But really everything I have in my house is used or hand me downs, found on the street. 

THIS is why Jesse is dumber than a thumbtack. If I was rich, wouldn't I have a better sofa?  Wouldn’t I have better, cleaner, newer furniture all around? NOT hand me down furniture and dishes etc.I mean I DID get a new bed and mattress, but that was after receiving the simulas check.And after over 10 years of the old one. I could not have gotten a new bed without the stimulus check.Yes I DID have a studio but in comparison to other things it did not cost a lot for what it is. and so what.Just because I have a few extra dollars in my wallet, does not mean Jesse is entitled to it, yet that is what they demanded.Jesse was down on their luck(so is a lot of people) They expected me to help them and not just ANY help, since I did try to help them the last time they asked and they pointed their nose up at it. So what the fuck am I supposed to do? I tried to help and I get insulted because they did not accept said help. It was not what they wanted. They are so ungrateful.It was the fact they just wanted to stay at my house and forget about any responsibilities. Pay no rent or bills.(leave that up to me I guess)Jesse is such a waste and useless.

They have no real contribution to society. Jesse does not even file or pay taxes.

They get sued for owing money all the time and they never show up for court when asked to do so. Jesse runs away from their responsibilities instead of dealing with them like an adult

They are narcissist,and they only think of themselves. They take advantage of people and when they do something awful, they do not care who it hurts as long as they can get ahead and get what they think is entitled to them. I guarantee that they would push their own mother into the mud if it met they would get a meal,money, and ahead of the line etc. Yet they would criticize anyone else doing the same thing.Jesse David Ives is not a good person and they belong in prison.I only HOPE they are not taking advantage of anyone else.They deserve all the bad karma that is coming to them. Mark my word they will get evicted again. I guarantee that. It is only a matter of time. They will lose their job, and income. They won't be able to pay rent, and it will be nobody’s fault but their own.If they come to my property asking for help I will ask them to leave. And if they dont leave I will not hesitate to call the authorities.  

All Jesse does is walk around like they are the shit, expecting everyone to lick their shitty asshole and will not bow down to anyone because they see themselves as the ruler of all and  better than anyone else. They put me down because I have a job but it is not physically demanding,thinking that I am the one thinking I am better because of that when that is not true. I treat the Janitor the same way I would treat the CEO. With respect.Jesse is just putting what they feel about their job on to me thinking I am better because of my desk job vs their job.But Making it like I am the one thinking I am better because of my job, making me the bad guy, when in reality Jesse is the one that puts them self down.But then making me the bad guy because I have a desk job. I never ONCE said I was better than Jesse because of my job.If that is how Jesse feels about it, it is on them, not me. Yet that is what Jesse did here,they have low self esteem about their job and they deflect their feelings about it onto me, guilting me for having a good, not physical desk job. fuck you Jesse at least I am working. I can't please everyone. It's damn if I do and damn if I don't. 

If I was not working at all you would guilt trip me for not working and being a drain on society. When I do work you guilt me for not having a “back breaking job” like you do.and so what, I dont give a fuck, I am working, I work 60 hours a week. Shouldn't that be enough? What do you do? You don't even pay taxes, or even your debts.Get off my case about what I do as a job. It is hard work. I dont give a fuck if it is not back breaking, Its mentally draining. So fuck off. What is it with people from Ansyn to Dale to Jesse all MAD at me or what the fuck ever for taking a job I enjoy. Sure it is not backbreaking on my feet all day job, but have they met me? I dont have full use for my legs,fuck off fuck off FUCK OFF my legs are what they say fucked up. I can not do a physical job.Sorry buttercup sunshine it is what it is, I have delt with it and I am ok with it, there is NOTHING I can do about it. and I get along the best I can. I work 40 fucking hours a week and then ADD on the time it takes to get to work via walking and to and from the bus stop,thats SIXTY HOURS. I leave the house at 6am and I get home around 6pm.12 hours a day. what else do you fucking want from me. When I was unemployed they said go get a job, I got a job they said get a better one. FUCK OFF I like my job. 

I liked my job at WNIN but in the end I was drained from it. THEY ended it, So I found another job where I can sit down. It is not physical but everyone does the best they can to the best of their abilities. These motherfuckers think I have full use of my legs, yet the doctor told me he was surprised I could even walk, according to the X-Rays.I wear a fucking brace for christ’s sake.I cant get around without it otherwise Id me in a lot more pain. 

So really Jesse can fuck off with the guilt trip of me working a job at a desk,at least I am working and trying my best, Jesse has the gall to actually guilt trip me and give me shit for having a job I love? I mean really, go fuck yourself. 

They are not very intelligent anyway and would never be able to do the jobs I have done behind a desk. Or even the jobs I did at Camp Kysoc.Truth is, they are just jealous and want me to feel bad for having such a white collar career. I never ONCE said I was better, I never ONCE said that. It is all JESSE who thinks that a white collar job is somehow better than a blue collar job. That is their interpretation. And it is a pretty awful one. 

Absolutely NO ONE thinks a white collar job is better than any other job. That is false. If someone does, it is rare and immature. Most people treat each other with respect from the CEO to the Janitor.At least I do. and there was NO reason Jesse had to shame me for having a desk job. They assumed I thought I was better with no proof so they went ahead and put me down before I had a chance to, even though I would have never put them down for what they did. So immature.Why would I put down or shame someone I considered a friend, yet Jesse shamed me. The motherfucker is so childish it is maddening. We all do what we can and try our best to get by. I will not apologize for working a white collar job. I AM WORKING.Shouldn’t that be a good thing? Instead I am being SHAMED for working. God FUCKING dammit. Jesse is such a loser. If anyone has a problem with me working,they can go FUCK themselves. Jesse just enjoys shaming and guilting people for simply existing.They have such a low image of themselves, they shame me to make them feel better. All I was doing was existing and I get shamed for it. 

It is quite lame. Although it does make sense since Jesse is quite a lame individual. 

I mean Jesse IS a piece of SHIT, they have proven that over and over. Why shame and put someone down they consider a friend? Just proves Jesse was NEVER a friend. AND Jesse THINKS I am going to hang out with them again. Give me a fucking break. I AVOID running into Jesse just so I don't have to see their butt ugly face ever again. 

They just want to hang out because it gives them a chance to ask me for money. NOPE that will NEVER happen again. I mean if they are down and out I will give them the number to 211, that is the best that I can do. I won't leave them totally high and dry, but I dont have the funds to take care of other people(I barely can get by) . I can't go around giving away my income to other people. They are both capable of taking care of themselves. And NO I never turned my back on them, that is a deflection. Jesse actually turned their back on me the MOMENT I did not give them what they demanded I give them. I tried to the best of my ability to help them out in the end. I am not a charity. 

I should not be expected to fund everyone that is in need. I am not rich,I wish I could help out people in need but I make less than $15/hour and I am in debt. I have never made more than $15.00 an hour.How can I give more than I make? Jesse is such trash, that if they knew I had $5 dollars in my wallet they would try to con me to get said $5 dollars from me. It would not matter if I need said $5 dollars for other things,it's that Jesse needs the money and somehow I don't deserve to have “all that cash” Jesse needed help(fine I understand), SO I gave them help the best I could without giving them money or things.The help i did try to give was phone numbers to local area services that can help. I mean what does Jesse expect? Me to give them loads of cash? Access to my bank account? Access to my credit card? Let them live in my house indefinitely? Apparently because I did not give them those things and Jesse gets mad at me. 

What does Jesse do?? Points their nose up at said help I do give because it is not money or shelter. They EXPECTED money, the use of my credit card and my house. Anything else was NOT acceptable. And if I did not offer said things then I am not a good friend and I turned my back on them. 

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And really….. I did offer those things in the past, I lent them money, I spent on my credit card for things they needed and did not benefit me, only them, I let them live at my house for a very VERY long time for very low rent. I postponed the construction of my recording studio(i did not have a choice with them living at my house and the cats occupying the garage), something I had been planning on doing even BEFORE I bought my house, I sacrificed and did not have  any other visitors stay at my house including mom and dad so that Jesse and their women had a place to stay, and I still got shit on and pushed in the mud. No gratitude for what I did to help them whatsoever. I lent them money and my credit card only with the PROMISE they would pay me back in full, never asked for interest. Jesse just used and took advantage of my kindness and once I caught on that they were never going to repay me in full I was DONE.

And it was not REALLY the fact that they would never pay me back(i could have gotten over that eventually),that was not the end factor. What broke the straw on the camel's back was the fact Jesse claimed I turned my back on them after trying to help them again. (and I did) after ALL I did for them, they still claimed I was a bad friend and that I was selfish and greedy, THAT Was what caused me to get rid of their phone number,block them on my phone and on social media.

 It is not like I am a greedy person,I am not….I just wanted to recoup on what was spent since I really did not have the extra money to spend.That is only fair. Looking at what I did to help them, if it continued the way it was going Jesse was going to bleed me dry and that is not fair to me. It almost makes me think that it was intentional because they saw I had nice things, a house, a recording studio, a job I actually enjoyed and Jesse ASSumed I had all kinds of money and money to spare.That is why they always tried to put me down by calling me “rich boy” after I said I could not help them.

They did not get their way(i.e. get money from me) So Jesse attacks and puts me down, claims I DO have the money and that I am greedy and selfish and just that I do not want to help a friend in need and down on their luck, hence the claim of me turning my back on them. When in reality I did want to help them. It hurt me to see them struggle. 

But at the same time I was not going to sacrifice my well being,my mental health,or my bank account just so that Jesse could get out of a hole. I could only do so much.That is not being selfish or greedy. I have to look out for myself as well. I can help someone just as long as I am not getting hurt in the process. Jesse should give me the respect and not ask for so much. They were being the greedy selfish trash that they were. They turned their back on me once they could not get anything out of me. Ie money, credit card,shelter etc.They were trying to extort money and resources out of me, not the other way around. 

SO when Jesse claimed I was trying to extort money from them and that I was being greedy and selfish and that I turned my back on them…. it was a deflection because that is in reality what they did to me. All of it, extort money, turned their back on me and was selfish and greedy, did not give a shit on how living at my house affected me and my well being and that I could not even start construction on my recording studio until they left. They just brushed it off like I was lying to them, making it up to try to get them to leave sooner(I was trying to get them to leave but I did not make up the fact I was planning on constructing a recording studio) 

that was absolutely the truth and I could not do anything with them there, with the cats occupying my garage.

 Jesse did not like that I had that “advantage above them” (i.e. a house and “nice things”) so they wanted to bring me down to their level so I struggle too and not “have it so nice”.  If that was true, that would mean Jesse is truly a sick individual.They never wanted to see my successes. They hated the fact I actually did build a studio and in fact I was not bluffing to get them to leave, they even gave me shit for having said studio and that Jesse does not have their creative space(a nice kitchen) why do I get a creative space(a recording studio) I tried to share my studio,invite them in and tried to think of a project for which we all could use the space,a cooking podcast perhaps. Jesse claimed they were claustrophobic, (although could be true) the studio is no different than any other room in my house. It was an extension of my house, just a few more extra rooms dedicated to my music. 

That is it. They just HATED the fact I had a creative space and they didn't and they did not want anything to do with my studio.Although they did try to make my studio part of “four wolves” a subsidiary if you will. That is what Jesse was trying to get me to agree to.I believe this was so if I made any money off the studio they could claim part of the profit or that if I did go “legal” and get a tax id ect they could just piggyback off me. I was not going to let that happen. I KNOW this was Jesse’s intention. That is why I never agreed to it. I was not about to attach four wolves to my studio. I could see Jesse wanting any profit I made off the studio.

I even at one point offered proceeds of my music album to help them.My intentions were good because I was going to take a portion of the money I made and give it to them(i really was going to).This is how I even tried to sell the album on band camp.I said up front portions of the sale of this album will go to help some friends in need. They never knew this. That is why I never turned my back on them. I was trying to raise money for them when I absolutely did not have to. I knew I could not have them live at my house again and I knew local services only could go so far and I did not have the funds to help them, so I came up with a plan to still try to help them and raise extra funds for them.

That is bull shit, and anyone can see that is pure bullshit. That is not the definition of a friend.A real friend would be grateful for any help that is given. This is why Jesse is not a good person or friend. They are not very grateful for what IS given to them.They only expect certain things and if said things are not given to them then they will point their nose up at it. What an ungrateful piece of shit Jesse is. This is why I will never associate with them again. Jesus christ I tried to help them the best I could to the best of my ability with the resources I had to my disposal and all Jesse does is expect more and more. Sure I have a house, 

and then one time

I even tried to show them my new dishwasher and they acted like they did not even care. It was not like I was bragging or shoving it in their face,I figured they would be happy for me, They just wanted to show off their teenage bride. AND yes although she was 18( and legally an adult) it was weird for a 50+ year old to be fucking a barely legal teenaged girl right out of high school.

Years ago I was talking to a woman I used to work with ten years younger and although she was well above 18 and an adult, it felt weird even trying to hang out with her outside of work because of the generation gap. 

She was a child when I was in high school.She is cool as fuck but still that generation gap.

 

I can not imagine a 50+ year old man dating and fucking an 18 year old.. that would mean the man was 32 when she was born, way above high school and college aged. Even though 32 is the age Jesse was when I met them in college. Still very weird. I think her parents found out and put an end to it thankfully, Jesse would have fucked her over as well.It was good that the relationship ended.Although it sent Jesse down to a bad place mentally.They were never really mentally stable to begin with, I see that now. If they are not grateful for what is given to them if it is not what they expect. And if someone helps them out the best they can and Jesse still kicks them in the mud, that is not stable. 

I really think Jesse wanted to extort all my resources, trash my house and make it unlivable and to drag me down to their level.Make me suffer like they do.After all they trash every place they live so it's only natural they would trash my house like they did. They make it unpresentable so no visitors can come over. That is not fair to me. They were not good house guests, and that is why they were not invited back to live there again. It was all their fault on why I said it was not a good idea for them to stay at my house again.I am not mr clean but I TRY to keep it nice(and I need to do more housework but I work 60 hours a week) Jesse hated the fact I had a house, they wanted it for themselves. It was better when I had an apartment, at least then in their mind we were “equals” but now I have a house, they think now  I am better. It's all on them. I never once said that I was better,I never once indicated that I was better. I just simply had a house and by that alone meant I was better according to Jesse. They hated the fact I had a nice white collar desk job with my own office.(at least I was working) They had a backbreaking blue collar job and deflected the fact that somehow I was better than they were because of that.I never once said I was better because of my white collar job vs their blue collar job. 

I was raised to treat the janitor the same way you treat the CEO. It was Jesse's view of them self that caused the issue. Jesse has a poor image of themself and it is ALL ON THEM……..PERIOD. I mean really are they trying to guilt me because THEY have a poor self image? No one thinks anything bad about you Jesse. It is your poor self image that causes you to think or assume what people think of you.I never ONCE said I was better than you were.

Just because I have a house and a white collar job and you dont I am better than you because of that? Give me a fucking break. 

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Jesse I am better than you because I am not a piece of SHIT like you are. I treat my friends like they are family, and before you fucked everything up, I WAS a friend to you. You claimed to be a brother and family but you kicked me down the moment you could not get anything out of me. You were cynical and mean towards me for no reason with no explanation, because you are a narcissist you expected me to know the reason you were so mad at me already.

 The very moment I did not give you money or the help that you demanded.You turned your back on me.(instead of the other way around) I tried to help you the best I could, but you pointed your nose up at it and then became homeless.(your fault not mine)and the fact that you tried to blame your homelessness on me is disgusting. 

All you wanted in reality was to stay at my house and not have any responsibilities or bills.(i would have ended up paying for it all) Any help I gave you would have voided a reason for you to be so desperate begging me to stay at my house. Because you would have gotten help from local services and not need my help.

You wanted to be homeless so it would give you the reason and excuse to ask to stay at my house. If you had taken the phone numbers I gave you and gotten the help from local services like a normal person, you would not have been homeless therefore no excuse to ask to stay at my house.If local services helped and you were blessed with a little apartment you would not be homeless but you would have been stuck living in a little cramped apartment and not in my “mansion” as you called it once. Compared to a hotel room or cramped little apartment I guess my house IS a “mansion” and that is where you wanted to live, not anywhere else. You did everything you could to stay in my house. You would not want to be in a cramped little apartment although it would have been better than living on the street, you would find a reason to complain and bitch at me for having a “mansion” and how you have to stay in a cramped little apartment. SHUT THE FUCK UP AND BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU HAVE.GOOD LORD JESSE YOU ARE A LITTLE CRY BABY!

AND staying at my house is ALL you wanted. You did not want to get your own place and have to pay $700.00 a month in rent(at the very least) then have to pay utilities on top of paying rent.I think that is why you WANT to get evicted from places,it could be a reason to BE homeless and therefore come to me for help.(you wont get to stay at my house, the best I can do is tell you to call 211) You WANT To be in the gutter.So people can feel sorry for you and they can give you money and things, what a con job that is.and so lazy and irresponsible and childish.

Since you were homeless you had an excuse to ask me for help, and when I “refused” to help(I did not completely refuse because I DID TRY to help) you claimed I turned my back on you and was a bad friend, selfish and greedy “rich boy”. When all I was trying to do was help you but also not go broke and also looking out for my mental health. Jesse you did not care one bit about that not one bit. I tried to help you the best I could, and I went broke doing it. Did that matter? NO. You just wanted more and more, who is the greedy one here? YOU. When you called me greedy and claimed I was trying to extort money from you , that was just a deflection on what you were actually doing to me. What a fucking waste.I hope you burn in hell. You are not a good person Jesse, not one bit. You don't care about anyone but yourself. I bet you would shove your own mother in the mud if it meant YOU would get a meal before her. 

You always want to be on top of everyone, be supreme, but act like you are at the very bottom so people feel sorry for you. I no longer feel sorry for you. I don't want harm on you, but really Jesse, go to hell.   

I hope I never see you again, because even thinking about all that you have done gives me a very bad feeling. JAR555555 was 100% correct about you. I wish I had listened to JAR555555. I gave you the benefit of the doubt.And all you do is push me down in the mud and stomp on me. I thought no one could be as horrible as you are. I thought you were a friend, there is no way in hell a friend would just do that to someone ,chew me up and spit me out when you could not get anything out of me, for example: money. I will be happy if I NEVER have to see you again,and I will do everything in my power to avoid you and Jessica.

I do not wish you harm, but I never want to see you again.

   

       

Dear Jesse David Ives

I hope I never see you again, because even thinking about all that you have done gives me a very bad feeling. JAR555555 was 100% correct about you. I wish I had listened to JAR555555. I gave you the benefit of the doubt.And all you do is hhhhhhhhh and hhhhhhhh I thought no one could be as horrible as you are. I thought you were a friend, there is no way in hell a friend would just do that to someone ,chew me up and spit me out when you could not get anything out of me, for example: money. I will be happy if I NEVER have to see you again,and I will do everything in my power to avoid you and Jessica.

I do not wish you harm, but I never want to see you again.

We look forward to hearing from you soon.

Thank YOU 

You always want to be on top of everyone, and reign supreme, but you also act like you are at the very bottom so people feel sorry for you, and by making people feel sorry for you, you manipulate them to give you things and money so you don't have to work for it yourself. 

I no longer feel sorry for you.You are not a victim. You are very rich, you just take advantage of other people.I don't wish harm on you. I hope you get the help and therapy that you seriously need.

Jesse is the dumbest motherfucker I have ever come across. It is a wonder they know how to even breathe.I wish I had never met them. 

I had some good times sure, but after all the shit Jesse put me through it was not worth it.Jesse would flake out on plans all the time and not even have the decency to call me, text me, message me on facebook, to say plans have changed.Sure I understand I get distracted too,but make some kind of effort to contact me.Let me know you are ok and not dead. Minutes run out on the phone,fine, but at one time they were living within walking distance from my house, that would have been NO excuse,to not contact me.

There was one time where I was supposed to help them move furniture, SO I made plans to help.I waited around for them to call and when I finally called they said they no longer needed the help, that is fine, but it would have been nice if they had TOLD me so I could go on with other plans instead I waiting around for them to call. That is a toxic friendship.Jesse NEVER valued my time,never valued my feelings. It was ALWAYS about them.They would constantly flake out on plans and change them without letting me know so I am waiting around clearing my schedule and when I could have been doing other things. I did not want to start another project because they could show up at any moment and then I would have to stop a project and I don't like doing that. 

What I also don't like doing is doing a bunch of things before I have to go to work. I have a work schedule and I don't want to be running around town doing other things before work. Jesse never understood this and I made the mistake of going to flea markets when I had a schedule to work at a specific time.Relying on Jesse to take me to work,and when I reminded Jesse I have to get to work soon because we are on the other side of town he gets pissed for hounding him, with no regard to the fact I have to get to work. They were on their time and did not respect the fact I had to get to work at a specific time and could not be late.

Like I have said before, Jesse did this, they were the cause of the ending of the friendship.Jesse turned their back on me.Not the other way around. At this point in time there is NO apology that could change the situation. They went too far when they said I was a bad friend and claimed I turned my back on them,when all I was trying to do was help, it is offensive to claim that. Because I took the time out of my day to do research and to figure out how I could help them without having them stay at my house or giving them money, (i just did not give them the help they expected,they are so ungrateful) I was not helping to pat myself on the back(like they claimed) I helped because that is the decent thing to do. Even when helping Jesse, they shame and guilt me for reaching out and trying to help because they claim I only did so to make myself look good. What a piece of shit. 

 Jesse was just sticking around to see what they could gain from me, how much money they would steal from me. Because it was stealing. There was never any intention of really paying me back. They paid me a little bit to “show effort” but that was to keep me from taking them to court.(as if they would even show up anyway) 

Jesse would never respect my time,and would demand I spend all my time working on the website for the four wolves “business” never respecting the fact I had a job and other house work to attend to.Always claiming I had money to travel but never had money for the business, Well YEAH…..what's the point? They wanted me to work the booth at the flea market on Saturdays when at that time I worked Saturdays. Never thinking of that. There are people who would murder their own parents to get ahead and Jesse is one of these people. They don't have any regard for anyone except themselves. Jesse is a pure Psychopath. This is why I do everything in my power to absolutely stay away from them.They are not good for anyone,I only hope they don't murder Jessica  

And now on July 12 2023 Jessica has a court date. They are contesting the fact they owe money to Deaconess Hospital. WOW. Both Jesse and Jessica will do ANYTHING to get out of paying bills or responsibility. I will see if they even show up for court. 

They should just go live in the woods somewhere off the grid never to be seen again.Go live in a fucking tent for all I care. That would be the ultimate glory. Do society a favor and please disappear forever. It would be great if I never ever see either of them ever again. They are bad people. They will always be in the same place they have always been, in the gutter.Poor white trash. That is exactly where jesse wants to be so they can get people to feel sorry for them, have pity on them, possibly get people to give them money, so they don't have to work honestly for it.

I am willing to bet Jesses father was the same kind of piece of shit human.Jesse is just like their father. A low life poor white trash,thief.Never amounted to anything. I certainly was a friend to both of them. I never wanted to see them suffer. So I did my best to help them and sacrificed a lot, I even went broke. Did Jesse care? no. It was never enough for them, they just wanted more and more. They saw I was an easy target, an easy mark so they took advantage of my kindness.Tried to make me feel guilty for even just having a house. And EVEN A FUCKING JOB!!! Jesse was never happy or grateful for what was in front of them, always wanting more and more. 

They never really worked for it.They HAD a friend in me, but not anymore. They went too far and there is NO walking back from it now.Jesse ego just is too big, they will never really admit they were wrong.They ONLY apologized to get back in my good graces so they could take advantage of me again,ask for money and help again.That is all they do. Every time we hung out it was just to see what they could gain, a meal? Money? Never just to hangout. Always an endgame for Jesse , So pathetic.I will never call them…I lost their number, I will never agree to hang out or make plans to hang out,(they would just flake out anyway) Jesse is not very trustworthy, not a man of their word. I can never trust Jesse again.All they do is lie and manipulate people to get what they need and then they walk away once they cant get anything out of them.What a waste.  Good bye forever asshole, and good riddance. Have a nice life, just don't call me, you can't because I blocked you. Have fun in hell motherfucker, because that is where you are going. BURN

I will say this,I have cut all ties with Jesse and Jessica, Teresa too but she was gone a while ago. No connection on social media, no connection on my phone. All blocked. They can't call me with their current number unless they call with a different number. Blocked on facebook. I doubt they use anything else.If I see them around town, they are strangers. no acknowledgement to them. They do not exist in my universe anymore. Jesse did this, it's their fault. Jesse needs serious help, and I DO hope they get it.I just won't be there to give it to them, they probably would point their nose up at it anyway because it is not money or shelter that I would be giving them. What use do they have of me? I just wanted to be a friend. Hang out and have a good time. Jesse wanted my money and that is all they were around for.If I did not have any money then they were gone. That is probably why they cut ties with country and matt. They were poor and did not give Jesse money. And finally Jesse turned their back on me as well because I was tired of the bullshit.I was not going broke for this motherfucker. I wish them well but I am not a bank. I was never a bank,I do not know where Jesse thought I had money,I guess it was the credit card. That is it, to Jesse a credit card means unlimited money. It did not matter to them when I spent money on my card to help them, it was not money they would owe, it would be me that owed it. They were never going to pay me back anyway. And the moment I did not give them money(after I realized I was never going to be paid back) I was a bad friend. Well I don't want a friend like that,someone who only sticks around to see how much money they can get out of me. That is not a friendship.

I would love for Jesse  and Jessicto try to come over to my house and ask for money, especially when jar visits, that would be so delightful and entertaining.Or better yet, we see them on the bus or bus station. Boy I hope that happens. Jar would rip them a new one,and I would not try to stop him. It would be in public and Jar would shame Jesse so hard. I would not say a word and sit back and watch.

It is sad really, I was Jesse’s friend. But Jesse did not like the fact that I could not help them out of a bind(the way they expected) and they turned their back on me because of that. I did try to help. I was just not going to go broke doing it. That is not selfish, that is sensible. I mean there are millions of people in need all over the world. I can not help them. There is a homeless population in Evansville. I am not going to offer to let them stay at my house.or give them money, I just don't have it.Jesse thought they were entitled to my money and my house, and they learned real quick that is not how any of that works. Just because we were friends(in this case just because I know who you are), does not obligate you Jesse to everything I have. This is why I have decided to not acknowledge Jesse and Jessica recognize Jesse and Jessica are dead to me.I do not even know them anymore. So therefore I would not give money away to a stranger. They are strangers. They are no different than Joe Blow asking for spare change on the street. Sorry Pal I can’t spare it. I hope you have a nice day.

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Jesse Jessica and Teresa  are out of my life indefinitely. JAR was absolutely correct about them, Jesse had me targeted and took advantage of my kind heart the moment they met me.

In fact I think I sold them a CD player and actually never got paid the first week I met them. That should have been a red flag because it was always like that, always borrowing money with the promise of being paid back and never getting paid back. 

I once lent Jesse $5 dollars with the very promise they would pay me back on pay day. Then a few days later on pay day we hung out still owing me money, we went to a yard sale still owing me money and never once gave me back what they owed spending the money at the yard sale instead. Or was it I gave Jesse five bucks for gas they spent it at a yard sale instead,I really don't remember, either way it was a dick move.Jesse KNEW they owed me, they had the money to pay me back and still did not pay me.Only proves Jesse never intended to ever pay me back, only did so in little amounts to seem like they did.I bet their father was the same kind of con job sperm donor piece of shit Jesse is.and Jesse is EXACTLY like their Father.

It was ALL A CON from the beginning.I did not want to believe that someone who I thought of as a friend could be so conniving and evil. And it is not my fault for trying to help a friend, but after a while I realized it was all a con. Jesse was NEVER a man of honor or a man of his word.You see that was part of the con, to make people believe they are a good honest person, when in reality they are a liar. After Jesse claimed I was a bad friend for not helping them the way THEY wanted, refusing the help that I DID offer, that was it for me.Jesse is so ungrateful and not satisfied with what is offered to them. They just want to be supreme.

 

Jesse truly has a bad soul. They make themselves the victim, they want to be pathetic so people feel sorry for them. That way they can con and manipulate people into giving them money and things. This is why the last time I saw Jesse they told me they have to walk several miles to and from work. AND I just don't know what I am supposed to do with that information, since I don't have anything in my power to change the situation they are in.(this should be my response: I am sorry Jesse for this, but why tell me this, I have nothing in my power to change your situation so it is meaningless to me) I know that sounds heartless but after what Jesse has done in the past, this tactic only makes me think Jesse is trying to manipulate me into helping them with a battery for their truck.Because when I said get a vehicle, they responded and claimed they have one,just no battery, (they hope I offer to buy them a battery so they don't have to walk?) They HOPE I ask “what can I do to help”, and then they say “buy a battery” I know this is what Jesse is trying to do. SO my response is oh ok, you have to walk to work ... .ok. and that is it. They don't even ask for help because that would mean they are begging. They tried to manipulate me again into asking how I can help and then they would go on with the con, asking to buy a battery for their truck with the promise of paying me back next payday,which we all know would have never happened(paying me back). 

Walk to work Jesse for all I care. That shit dont work on me anymore.AND I hope no one else.Pathetic loser needs to go back to whence they came. Never to be seen again. 

Jesse WANTS to be lower than I am so they can manipulate me into thinking I have it better off. Make me feel bad for having a nice life. They WANT to be “the one who suffers the most” This is why they refused to take any help via local services because if they get help from local services, then they won't be in need anymore. Hence they won't be pathetic anymore. Jesse lives on being pathetic in need and in the gutter. They even want people to assume they are poor white trash. They actually want people to think they dress trashy and are low class.That is why they ask people in discussion. “you probably think I am poor white trash they way I dress” (more manipulation, power of suggestion)

So then when people assume that they are trashy they can claim to be the victim when in reality no one cares or is paying attention to them. No one thinks they dress trashy because no one is paying attention to them. I always thought it was weird that Jesse would claim that about other people, that the way that Jesse dresses, that they would think they are poor white trash, when no one cares on how you dress Jesse.You are not that important to other people.

They are out of my life forever. They could have already moved but I know they did not, because. Jessica had a court hearing and at least Jessica was there. Not sure about Jesse, they run away from their responsibilities. Yet they would criticize others that do the same, all deflecting really.Jesse is a coward.

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I struggle everyday to make ends meet, to pay my bills,I work 60 hours a week, and I earn my keep. I never ask my friends or family for money because I know they have their responsibilities too.And I would not want to take advantage of my friendship or family.

 Jesse was just sticking around the whole entire time of the existence of our “friendship” just to see what they could gain from me.It was not a real friendship. It was all how much money they could steal from me. They did not CARE that I had bills to pay or a limited income, They were just hanging around to see if I would give them money so they would not have to work for it on their own. 

They kept asking and asking and asking and asking and asking and asking and asking.For my help I gave in and helped a few times(with the promise of being paid back ... .never happened)They knew I had a kind heart and I would “help a friend” and I did. BUT I still get stomped on because I finally saw what Jesse was really about and put MY foot down and said I could not help because the times I did help, I scraped up the extra I had to help.I am not a fucking bank. It is Jesse’s loss. 

They did this to themselves.They are both perfectly capable of working and earning money. They just have to learn to save back money for said bills. 

It was all their fault that they got evicted and became homeless. They did not pay rent on time and naturally the landlord had to kick them out for non-payment. 

The reason why they could not pay rent is because Jesse was fucking a teenager, a young college student where they worked and that was against the rules, yet they still wanted to get their dick wet and went on with fucking a teenaged girl. They were fired because of it and should have been fired…. so inappropriate. and of course Jessica quit as well, with no income from both of them, meant they could not pay rent.and then they were evicted. and then homeless. 

I can rest at night knowing I will never have to deal with Jesse or Jessica again. My life is so much better without them in my life. If I did not cut ties with them I gar on tee they would be asking me for money constantly if I still talked with them. They thought I was a bank and could ask for money anytime they wanted.And ONCE I said I am not able to help, they were mean and cynical towards me, only proving they were around just to get money out of me.

I only hope they never find another sucker for them to take advantage of. I was a sucker and I am angry at myself for being so kind to such awful people. And YES Jesse is an awful person.

Goodbye forever motherfucker, you will never hear from me again. 

7/17/23—---

Jesse is scum, I write out these things to release it out of me.What Jesse did just scared me, I was a friend to them and they took advantage of that. I wish I had never met Jesse. Jesse was never a friend and that is sad because I was a friend to them.I did a lot for Jesse I mean it was A LOT. They were never grateful for all the help I gave them because they thought they were entitled to it.In their mind I was obligated to give them all the money they demanded.Why else are they even sticking around me? It was to take all the money and resources they could from me, to make me poor and to make them rich.I GAVE them more money than I ever should have.I wish I had never given them so much money or any money at all, 

I mean it would have been better spent if I gave the money to a homeless shelter, kept it or helped out someone who actually was a friend. I helped Jesse out with the promise of being paid back.That is not greed, that is practical. I did not have a lot of money to give and I scraped by to even help them. They took advantage of that. It did not matter that I scraped by with anything extra to help them get out of a jam, they wanted all my money. Jesse did not want me to have anything nice,or a credit card or any money in the bank. And they even asked to “borrow” my guitar, that was something I owned and they wanted, I KNOW if I lent them a guitar that I would never see it again. They even wanted to “borrow” my SNES,I would have never seen that again as well,because everything I lent Jesse(money, plumbing snake) I never saw again, So I learned my lesson after lending them ONE thing and never got it back showed me they did not respect my things and I should never lend them anything.Even though they kept asking and asking and asking to borrow  things,extension cord, table saw,ladder(it was more like manipulate and not ask, saying 

“they wish they had a ladder”, knowing I had a ladder hoping I would offer to lend it). Jesse was jealous of what I had and they trashed my house, my garage, tried to ruin my credit by using my credit card and never paid me back so I would be stuck with a higher balance than normal. Get me to open a bank account in my name for the “business” That would have been disastrous because I know Jesse would just use my name to gain credit for them 

I would have NEVER just handed them money if I thought they would never pay me back.They gave me their word that they would pay me back every penny even mentioned interest at one point,so I believed them,(at that point there was no reason not to believe them) but that was all a lie. (that is why after a few times of lending money and never being repaid I refused to help). I said I could not help and did not have the money when they kept asking and asking and asking(as if i was a bank) because I KNEW they would never pay me back) It was all a lie, there was never any intention of paying me back in the first place and everytime…… Everytime I asked for repayment, Jesse always came up with an excuse and or accused me of trying to extort them. That was the confusing part. Normally when someone extorts someone else it is to take money from them for no reason, all I wanted was to be paid back(and never asking for interest) and for Jesse to follow through on their promise. Jesse was never a man of their word.That was a lie too. The accusation of extortion was just another tactic to stall from having to pay me back because they really did not want to pay me back. Their intention was to steal from me and if they paid me back then it would not be stealing. They did not want me to have money, that is why they STOLE it from me.They were poor and pathetic, and saw I had a credit card, a little money in a bank account and a house and they did not want me to have such nice things, so they tried to take all that away. They wanted to take my house away as well. NOT have it as nice as it was, keep it trashed. Keep non-working vehicles in my driveway. Make my property look trashy. Bob, my neighbor, did not even like Jesse. 

I made a deal with Jesse (a deal with Jesse never works out) for them to buy that old deep freezer I had in the basement. They even never picked up that freezer from which I could have sold it. They did not want me to make any money so they said they wanted it,but after not picking it up and not paying me, I tried to sell it because I did not want it around trashing up my property.They claimed I went back on my word(another manipulation) But  Jesse never had the money for it,I had to get rid of it I gave in and just gave it to them,which became trash anyway. It wa my freezer, I said they could buy it from me, but then never had the money to buy it so naturally I had to move on and sell it to someone else, when they found out that I was trying to sell it(they saw I was selling it on market place) they got angry at me for selling it from under them when in reality I could not wait months and months for them to get the money,I had to get rid of it ASAP,(and to make a little cash would have been nice as well) I just gave in and gave it to them,which was probably the plan all along. 

I will never talk to them, I will never hang out with them, I will never try to sell them anything. I will never let them over at my house, stay overnight. I will never give them money, not even a bus token. 

I have bus tokens  but the bus is free for me until at least January 2024. ….That would make Jesse so angry if they found out I get free bus rides. I dont give a shit, I did not come up with that idea. I just got the bus pass so I could get a discount on monthly bus passes. I never knew I would get free bus rides for a full year(maybe even more if they allow it) I don't have full use of my leg, I am entitled to it. The free bus is a great thing because METS understands that individuals with disabilities and the elderly who take the bus need a break they have enough going on and have a lot of barriers that “normal” people don't have to deal with(believe me I know) I just don't have a “bad knee” a lot of people have a “bad knee” due to age and bad health.I have had a “bad knee” all my life. I have had several major surgeries to get my knee corrected.My doctor even once said he is surprised that I can even walk according to the XRays. My knee is so fucked up my doctor is amazed that I can even walk. 

This is why I get a disability bus pass and why the bus is free(for at least a year). It gives me a little break and I don't have to worry about getting bus fare every month. Jesse would claim it is not fair because they too have a bad knee, and I would respond and say, well get a doctor’s note and get the pass. They would come up with SOME excuse on why they can't get the pass.No time to get the doctor note and no time to get the pass etc. That is not my concern. I don't know why Jesse would be angry at me, I did not come up with the free bus rides for Disabled and Elderly. I mean it is good that it is here because sometimes people need a break. People without a lifelong disability have advantages, this is just making things a little more even. Maybe I am biased. I have lived it.But it is how I feel, I think I would feel the same even if I did not have a lifelong disability. Jesse has a bad knee? Fine. I can relate. BUT Jesse never wanted me to relate. Jesse always wanted to have it worse than me. Even claiming their knee is worse off. And you know, that's just great. This is not a competition. Jesse always made it a competition, except it was not to see who was BETTER, it was to see who was worse off. And guess what Jesse, YOU WIN. 

I will continue to live and improve my life, you Jesse will continue to make your life more pathetic. So people will feel sorry for you. 

They have a sad life. They know their life is pathetic so they never try to improve it. In fact they TRY to make their life pathetic so they can show how pathetic they are and people will feel sorry for them, pay attention to them and perhaps give them charity, for example… money. They WANT to be pathetic. This is quite lame and pathetic, but it is not my life. They can live their life lame and pathetic, I am no longer a part of it. Jason was 100% correct about Jesse and Jessica, both very bad individuals. They are crooks, con artists.and just all around very bad people.I can not believe I even let them into my life, let them stay at my house. They manipulate everyone they meet to get them to give them what they want. Once that does not work and people dont give them money,they move on. 

I only wish they could both be thrown in prison because that is where bad people like Jesse David Ives and Jessica Rene Ives belong. Away from society so they don't put harm on anyone else. They don't deserve to live a free happy life. Of course that is what Jesse wants, not to have a happy successful life, no they want to be lame and pathetic so people can feel sorry for them. 

A free happy wonderful life would mean they are free and happy and therefore don't need any kind of sympathy from people.

Jesse makes their life miserable so people will feel sorry for them. They can manipulate people, and get money out of people. I bet Jesse’s father was the same way. Jesse’s mother could see this and that is why she left Jesse’s father.I only hope Jesse does not take advantage of their own mother, but the way Jesse acts I can see them trying to steal from her too.They dont give a shit,as long as they get money. They did not give a shit about stealing from me, someone they called a friend, called me brother, called me family, they screwed me, why wouldn't they screw their own mother out of money? They could actually WORK FOR IT, but why do that when they could just manipulate people into giving them all the money they need, promising they will pay them back when in reality they never intended to pay anyone back. THAT'S THE CON.Motherfucker is pure pond scum. I am just glad I never have to deal with the scum again. Jesse is pure evil. If I ever do see them, it is like I never knew them. They probably won't acknowledge me anyway since they only pay attention to people who give them money and things, and since I stopped doing that, they want nothing to do with me. 

Their loss.I did nothing wrong. They will do me a favor if they never say hi to me if they see me at the bus station etc . It will be exactly what I want them to do. 

–7/18/23

I am kind of glad covid and the pandemic happened in the sense that it gave me an excuse to not talk to Jesse and Jessica, it also showed me what kind of people they really were. Non Mask non vaccine assholes. When I kept saying for a temporary time we have to stay distant.As advised by the world health organization, doctors and everyone with sense. I don't want to get sick, I don't want to get them sick. I did not know what this virus was, no one did. And if you had it you may not even know it. That is what is so dangerous and made it a pandemic and why it spread so much. I did not want to get sick and die, I did not want to get sick and spread it to other people, this was all before vaccines and testing. I was being cautious. Jesse took it personally and thought I was saying they were diseased. Well they are but for a different reason. Jesse said I was “acting paranoid” well so what. I was looking out for myself and I was looking out for my family and others, This pandemic showed me what kind of person Jesse truly is, a self centered narcissistic asshole. and I do not want someone like Jesse as a friend, who does not even care about my well being, does not care if I am struggling. As long as they get what they need they don't care if it hurts me. They got plenty from me and they wanted more and more and more. I kept helping because I am a kind person, but Jesse kept asking and asking and asking and asking to see what they could get away with. Kept asking for a ladder or table saw or chop saw(was not mine to lend out) Jesse wanted to stay at my house instead of dealing with their responsibilities.I think they were not expecting to say they could not stay at my house the last time they asked. 

They EXPECTED me to invite them in, but after all they did last time,(never even tried to get a place of their own,lived in my house for NINE MONTHS, that was not going to happen. That is why I tried my best to help them in other ways, alternatives to have time stay at my house but Jesse just pointed their nose up at the help I offered, and then STILL claimed I turned my back on them after I truly tried to help them it is offensive to me because I took the time out of my day to find ways to help them. My time is valuable and If I spend time to help you that means a lot. They did not respect my time and this is why I am done with Jesse and Jessica,I try to help them the best that I  could and they STILL say I was a bad friend. I blocked them on social media,blocked them on my phone.They can not reach me in  those ways, unless they change their phone number or physically come over to my house but Jesse won't waste the time or the bus fare to come over. They know I would not talk with them, it would be a waste of time, and if they do come over I will be sure it is a waste and not even acknowledge their existence. Same goes if I ever see that motherfucker at the bus station or around town. They are not my friend, it is like they don't even exist. 

Jesse really screwed up, They thought they could just take advantage of me, someone they claimed to be a friend with. But after examining who they really are I realize they were just hanging around to see what they could get out of me. It was not really a friendship. The very moment I could not help them when they were in need they were cynical and mean towards me, even though I did try to help. It was not the help they wanted. They knew I had a house so they felt I was obligated to share it. Any other kind of help was just not good enough. They EXPECTED me to share my house and my things. After all, I had a “mansion” three bedroom two bath house with a basement so it was only natural to let them stay at my house indefinitely. So they would not have to pay bills, rent or have any responsibilities. Put that all on me. Spend my credit card, spend all my money and never pay it back. Once I stopped the bullshit and said I just can't have you stay at my house but here is something that can help them. They did not want any type of help except staying at my house and money. They wanted my money, it was not fair I had money so they wanted to take it from me.It was not fair I had a house so they wanted to trash it. They lived in trash and filth and they wanted  me to do the same, they did not want anyone they knew to have things and live a better life than they did so they tried to drag me down to their level. I am so much better without them in my life. It is so much better, I get more respect. Jason was right, I associate myself with them and I was dragging myself down with trash. Jesse is trash.I am much better than that human pile of garbage. Jesse will always be in the gutter, and Jessica can be right there with them, they can diddle each other in the gutter.I will now talk to them, or acknowledge their existence. They are strangers. Forever gone out of my universe. Burn in hell Jesse you deserve to suffer. I

 I am really glad I don't talk to Jesse anymore because I have 20 dollars in change in my pocket and Jesse gets NONE of it. I have over $4000.00 in the bank and Jesse is not getting one red cent, sorry fucker, you will have to actually work for it. Make your own fucking money instead of trying to manipulating others into givingyou money. You can not manipulate people into giving you money. It is wrong and unethical. AND So what if you have to walk to and from work, so do I. With the exception of taking the bus, I still have to walk to and from the bus stop.With my knee that is a struggle sometimes but I still do it because I am not lazy. You don't get a cookie for walking to work.

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Jesse thinks they are so entitled that they think they can walk all over me, take advantage of me, use my credit card as if I have unlimited credit,and unlimited money.(they don't care either way, that is how much a pile of shit Jesse really is) I do not.Once I use up said credit, that credit card is useless(until I start paying it off). 

Jesse did have me use my credit card, never paid me back in full, then claimed I was trying to extort them just for simply asking to be paid back so I could pay off the credit card balance.Seems reasonable to me since they did promise to pay me back. Jesse was never a friend. They proved it to me because once I could not help them the WAY they wanted, they said I was the bad friend and I turned my back on them when in fact, Jesse turned their back on me. I was no use to them once they could not stay at my house, use my credit card or take my money.Jesse said to me they miss hanging out,(when I ran into them on the bus) yeah sure….they miss my credit card,and my bank account that is what they miss. They don't miss hanging out at all, not one bit. That is why the only thing they really have said to me everytime they run into me is that they have to walk so far to work, hoping that I offer some kind of help like money or my credit card to buy them a battery or vehicle fuck I dont know there is no level Jesee will go to. They go pretty low. 

They manipulate people into thinking they are trash by stating, “you probably think I am poor white trash by the way I dress” When that was never true at all, no one was thinking that. Jesse tries to plant ideas in people's heads about them. So that later they can manipulate them more to get them to give them money. Jesse can't pay rent? Well guess what, a lot of people struggle to pay bills and rent. Jesse you are no different. 

  

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As of Monday, July 24 2023 I have declared that Jesse Ives and Jessica Ives are officially out of my life. They no longer exist in my universe. If I see them when I am out and about, I will not even say hi to them. They will have to be the one to approach me, and if they do, I will not know who they are. They are strangers. I know Jesse knows they FUCKED UP BEYOD REPAIR.This is why Jesse makes no effort to contact me. There is no way to back track or take back what Jesse did.Although Jesse did apologize and that was to be expected(they did the bare minimum) but that does not take away the fact of what Jesse did. They still went on and on, on how they have to walk many miles to and from work, like what am I supposed to do with that information? I am a kind compassionate person and I care for people’s well being but telling me that is not going to change anything,since I can not change it for them.All it does it makes me feel sorry for them, Jesse and THAT is exactly what they wanted.But In reality I don't feel sorry because they can change that situation themself. Jesse wants people to feel sorry, Jesse wants to look pathetic to others so they put themselves on the bottom. Jesse wanted me to offer help, ask how I can help and that opens up the opportunity for them to ask for money for a battery or to repair their vehicle so they don't have to walk so much to work. I would have to turn them down immediately.Jesse would not like this and claim I am not a good friend because I am not helping them out when they are in need.(even though I did my best to help them) They would not say this out loud. But continue to look pathetic making me feel I made the wrong decision by not helping them. Saying they will just have to be in pain all day or something like that. I know that is what Jesse would do, they are that much of a bag of shit. 

I literally can not fix everyone's problems.I am not a bank. I am not mr. fixit, I am not a place to borrow every little thing you need. I do not have unlimited money like Jesse seems to think, because they took advantage of me “borrowing money” but never made any effort to really pay me back. They claimed I was trying to extort them when I asked for payment. I was just a “rich boy” to them. Someone they could take advantage and steal from. Using my credit card to their full advantage. That is why my generosity finally stopped and when it did, they were gone, they turned their back on me like I was never a friend to them.Claiming I turned my back on them and I was a bad friend for not helping friends in need(even though I did try to help even at the end). All that effort I made to be their friend, all that time I sent them money to help, letting them stay at my house for longer than they should have.Paying for court costs and speeding tickets, DMV fees, tows, taxi rides,letting them store stuff on my property,park their truck in my driveway, it was a scam when I was just trying to help a friend in need. Jesse just threw it all away by taking advantage. When I asked to move said stuff off my property Jesse acted like it was an inconvenience.Like it was up to them when it was going to be moved even though it was MY PROPERTY. I should have control over when it was to be moved. When they asked to have mail delivered at my house it was under my control when they no longer had mail delivered to MY HOUSE, it was MY PROPERTY. They tried to control even that. Asking me if they could get a pay card delivered to my house. I was like NO, what if I go out of town when it is delivered?, then you would not get it until I got back, which could be weeks or months(who knows) and you know if I did allow their pay card to be delivered, IT would have just gotten “lost in the mail” and they would have been SOL. 

Sorry Jesse you should have gotten it delivered to YOUR ADDRESS. 

You just were trying to hide from the court system.And why get it delivered to my house anyway?, you no longer live at my house. 

Wouldn't that be mail fraud to get mail delivered at a different residence than where you live(a po box is entirely different) They claimed I was trying to make it more convenient for me. Well yeah, I would not have to call you up and hold on to your mail Jesse. Wouldn't it be more convenient to have the mail delivered to some place where you can get it anytime you want on your time?, instead of relying on me to be available? I even tried to make it un-convenient for them so they would see if I say the mail is here, but then when they come by I am not even home. They still would not get their address changed. It was maddening. Jesse is such an idiot that they would not even have their mailing address changed. They would rather go over to my house every other day or so to get the mail, have me hold on to it, pile up at my house and rely on me to tell them when it arrives and have me wait around for them to come over. 

When I went out of town they would not be able to get any important mail. And I was going to be going out of town for as long as I wanted. IT DIDN'T MATTER, if they got a pay card or not, they tried to blame me for not getting paid because I Would not allow them to have the pay card mailed to my house,that was only because 

1. they do not live at my house and 

1. What if I went on vacation/out of town? They would not have been able to get the pay card because I hold my mail whenever I go out of town. 

What, Am I not supposed to go out of town now because the all mighty Jesse has to get paid, and it is my fault if they cant get their pay card delivered at my house instead of their address, they were paranoid someone was going to steal their mail (federal crime) but it was safe in my neighborhood(granted I did live in a better neighborhood but not 100% protected)But if mail had been stolen(federal crime) Jesse would have blamed me. Probably demanding I pay them back for what they would have been paid with the pay card.Yeah right, that would be on Jesse,since the pay card should not be delivered at my house in the first place. It would absolutely make no sense at all to still have the mail delivered at my house when they would have to come over every other day or so to pick up the mail, making it my responsibility to tell them and then holding on to said mail,pile on at my house. Then when I go out of town(for as long as I want) Jesse would not be able to get said mail, even if it was a check or something important. They still said not having the mail delivered at my house was more convenient for me? Well Jesse is a dumbass. I was tired of holding on to their mail. Should have just marked it return to sender and put back in the mailbox. But I did not want to confuse the post office and not have any of my mail delivered as well thinking any mail delivered at my address was to be returned.

Again they are trying to hide from the court system. If any bounty hunter or police officers ever come pounding on my door looking for Jesse Ives or Jessica Ives I would NOT hesitate to tell them where they live.I am not going to jail or getting into any kind of trouble for not being truthful with law enforcement. I will tell them everything I know about them, 

402 Sequoia Lane

Evansville Indiana 47712 

Or at least the last known address, who knows where those motherfuckers are now. Makes no difference to me because they are not existent to me. 

granted I do not know if they still live at the address I have but they do not reside at my address and I do not really know of their whereabouts. I do not associate myself with them anymore. I have not really since August of 2019.That was when they asked if they could stay at my house(again) and I said NO. 

and that was the beginning of the end when Jesse was not very friendly towards me, was cynical and not a true friend.They could not gain anything from me any more so they were gone. They would not take the help that I did try to give them, they only wanted to stay at my house indefinitely, have no bills or rent to pay. Put all the responsibility on me. That is not a friend. Jesse was never a friend, they were just sticking around to see what they could gain from me, the very moment it was obvious that they could no longer take advantage or use me they were gone. That is not a friend. 

a true friend would never ask someone that much. Jesse said to me the last time they saw me that they miss hanging out ... .yeah jesse misses my wallet. That is the ONLY reason they were sticking around, acting like they were my friend, because I had a credit card and to see if they could somehow convince me to have me spend it on them for what they needed,of course they would “promise to pay me back” when in reality it was never their intention to pay me back, this is why they stalled and hesitated to pay me back, even accused me of trying to extort them.Refused to sign an agreement, there was never any intention of ever paying me back. I am done with Jesse and Jessica, they do not exist in my universe. I do not know who they are.

I was never the endpoint for charity. Just because I could not help, that does not mean there is not another place that can. I am not the end all of charity. It was not the end if I could not help Jesse. Jesse never wanted any other help EXCEPT money from me or an offer to stay at my house indefinitely without paying rent or bills, that is what they really wanted. It did not matter if it caused me stress or that I could not have any other people stay at my house(because they were there) Jesse was just looking out for Jesse. That is why they pointed their nose up at the help I was trying to give them in Summer of 2019 when they were practically homeless. I am not here to fix that problem. Shame on you Jesse for thinking I had unlimited income, hell they probably did not care and just wanted to drain my bank account and ruin my credit so I would be at the same poverty level as they were. They never wanted to see me succeed. Hell, they hated that I had a recording studio and gave me shit for having the resources to build one, when they did not have the resources to build what they wanted, which was a nice kitchen.That is not my fault. They hated the fact that I had a house, that is why they trashed their bedrooms. They did not care to keep it organized. I am not mr clean, but they were guests in my house, at least act like it. They did not care to keep my house nice or help with chores. It was like I was a guest in their house instead of the other way around. Jesse no longer exists, they are dead to me. 

Jason was right all along and I wish I had listened to him. He knew what he was talking about and I did not listen to his warnings. Jason is very intelligent. He knows what he is talking about. When he said Jesse had me marked, it was true, I was a sucker, I was a fool for trusting Jesse. I did not think someone who regards me as a friend would do such things. Would not lie to me, would not take advantage.That is not what a friend would do right? Well Jesse was not a true friend, because the very moment they could not get anything out of me they were mean and cynical towards me. That is not what a true friend does. A true friend would not ask so much first off but if they do they would understand if the person can not help.Jesse thought I had unlimited income, or just did not care. As long as they got what they needed it did not matter how I ended up. That is the definition of a narcissist. 

Jesse had never any intention of ever paying me back. That would mean they would have less money.Jesse wanted to be higher up than I was so they kept stealing from me so I became broke and they became rich.When in reality Jesse will always be poor white trash. And I will always be better than Jesse, at least I dont lie and take advantage of my friends and family like Jesse has. Jesse could not even go to their own family when they were in need, this is why they always went to me, called me brother, called me family. They burned bridges with their own family. Even their own mother, They probably fucked over their family, and this is why they left home and never returned. 

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Jesse is such a jackass, they think I was there just to give them whatever they wanted. They flew too close to the sun.They fucked around and found out. They kept asking and kept asking and kept asking to borrow things. And they wanted to live at my house indefinitely, even though Jesse said to me once that we could never be roommates, and I agreed.(it was the truth). I don't think Jesse liked that I agreed, they wanted me to convince them that we could be roommates. So that Jesse could stay at my house forever. Jesse is not a good person to live with because for one they do not respect the space they live in. They were my house guest for nine months and they trashed the place(all three of them). I could not live like that and let Jesse trash my home. That was not fair to me. 

Of course Jesse is not all about being fair. They only look out for themselves. No matter who they hurt. They would fuck over their own mother if it meant they would get ahead.They wanted to live at my house, pay minum rent,pay no bills. and just live free. No responsibilities. It did not matter if it was a burden on me, stress on me. It did not matter if I could never have any other people visit.Or even start construction on my recording studio. As long as Jesse had a place to stay practically rent free, bill free that is all that mattered.They made no effort to really go out and find an apartment.They were always tired after working all day, and I understand that,b The plan was never for them to stay at my house for as long as they did, the plan was to stay for a couple weeks until they found a place. Jesse never made any effort to find a place, I had to do it for them, like they were a child.Of course that is what Jesse wanted, someone else to do the work for them,but if I did not they would have never left, I had to see past that to get them the fuck out of my house. and after they moved out there was always resentment stirring below, Jesse was nice at times but always an underbelly of resentment towards me ever since I had kicked them out of my home(they acted like it was their homestead and I was the evil landlord)This was 2014.They stayed at my house October 2013-June 2014.

and then when I refused to have them stay at my house again in 2019 there was more resentment and cynicism towards me, like I was being selfish and greedy for not sharing the wonderful home I had.And I am not in anyway obligated to share my home, my credit card, or my bank account. Why am I a bank to Jesse? Why am I the end of charity if I can not help them? 

Jesse You are homeless on the street due to your actions Jesse, you are not homeless because I was selfish and did not let me live in my home after the last incident. I would be such a fool to let you into my home after you stayed there last time for nine months and NEVER made any effort to leave. Using up my credit to your advantage. NOt a care in the world that I actually have to pay the credit card back. If I go over my credit limit I can not use the card. It is not unlimited money, but Jesse did not care about that. Jesse only looks out for Jesse.If I had gone broke that is nothing on Jesse.I would have gone broke and Jesse would have just moved on.Not a care in the world about it. As long as Jesse got what they needed, who cares what it did to me.

Everything finally blew up when Jesse claimed I was a bad friend and turned my back on them for refusing to help when they were at their lowest.I actually did try to help just not the way they wanted, so really I DID help them there was no TUNING MY BACK ON THEM, that claim is totally false, they just refused the help that I offered. It is offensive to me for them to point their nose up at the help I tried to give them since I went out of my way out of my busy schedule to try to find help for them. And the help I did offer them was resources they could have easily looked up themselves but Jesse has to have someone wipe their ass after a big shit. They can't do anything that is remotely responsible.Jesse is over FIFTY years old and the motherfucker has to have someone wipe their ass for them.Pitiful. 

There was one time where Jessica was not going to pay rent and I was like no no no, I said you have to pull your weight. They both acted like I was stealing their last penny. What a piece of shit they both are.Both Jessica and Jesse. 

I just could not go through that whole situation again.(for my mental wellbeing) They are such a burden,lazy and need to get help. Perhaps the mental institute. Jesse never was grateful for what I helped them with, just resentment for what I could not help them with.Jesse was the greedy selfish person in this scenario. Jesse turned their back on me, and good. They were never friends anyway. It was good that the whole thing blew up. Jesse and Jessica were never friends and they were never good for my well being. All they did was manipulate and take advantage of me. I don't need them. They will never have any other friends. I sure hope there is not anyone else they can fuck over.   

   

Jesse David Ives is like a Jellyfish, no heart, no brain.  

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Yes Jesse did treat me poorly, losing them as a friend was not a loss. They weren't actually a friend in the first place, so losing touch with them was not a loss. They walked all over me and took advantage of my kindness. One example of treating me poorly was when I allowed them to store some of their stuff underneath my carport as they moved because they were being evicted(as usual) and needed a spot to place all of their stuff safely as they moved. I said fine, thinking it would be temporary. BUT here’s the thing, they took ONE trip of junk and never returned that evening. Jesse just assumed they could leave their trash at my house for as long as they saw fit.(or just did not care about my say in the situation, even though it was my property and I should have every right to have a say) Because when I called them to see when they were coming back,(after making ONE trip) they acted like I was bothering them and I had NO business bothering them. As if they could leave their trash at my house as long as they wanted and return it on THEIR time. 

I should have thrown the trash away. and after they find out I trashed their shit, tell them I called and they did not seem to want to get it. And too bad,my house is not a place to put trash and leave it, take it away on your schedule. What an asshole. I should have been more stern,put my foot down, but that is in the past,I cannot change it. I can however control the present and hope for the future, I do by not being in touch with Jesse or Jessica, they are just bad news all around. They take advantage of people and don't care about anyone but themselves. They just leave their shit at my house with no worry about it.They think they can take it away on their time as if the property they left it on belongs to them.Jesse just wanted to fuck that teenaged girl,and wanted to be left alone. Jesse did not care it was left at my house they think they are superior so they can so what ever the fuck they want.  

 

AND Like when Jesse left that grill over at my house for far too long and when I FINALLY got them to pick it up, they acted like it was an inconvenience for them, even though it was their grill, why wouldn't they want it at their house? It’s like they hoped to store it at my house indefinitely. I could have trashed it but it was too big for the normal trash, andheavy trash was only twice a year. I wish I had trashed it. Jesse would not have a case since they left it on my property for far too long and I kept asking for them to pick it up. Jesse could have taken me to court over it but the cost of court outway the cost of the grill($100.00)and it was worth far less than that since it just sat and rusted at my house. I begged Jesse to pick it up,it was on my property for far too long, it seems like a judge would be in my favor since I asked Jesse to remove it and they did not so I had every right to remove it myself since I did not want it trashing up my property.Jesse just assume they could walk all over me, take advantage.Borrow money with the promise of paying me back and then never paying me back. That is not how a friendship works. That is not how any of it works. Jesse is a lonely pathetic loser. 

I really do hope they get help, I mean mental help, There is something seriously wrong with Jesse, I mean like mentally, Something wrong with their brain.I Never wish harm on anyone even if they put harm on me, Good luck and good riddance. I will never have to deal with Jesse or Jessica ever again. I hope I NEVER run into them on the bus or the bus station ever again. They would try to con me out of money if I ever see them again. This is why Jesse kept going on about having to walk a long distance to and from work.They were trying to manipulate me into feeling sorry for them and therefore getting me to offer them money for a battery for their truck.Or something like that. I know this is absolutely true, so I just respond with OK. I am not sure what I am supposed to do with that information since I can't help you Jesse. I dont have the power to change that situation for you Jesse. Telling me is not going to do anything.It is not going to change the fact you have to walk to and from work a long distance. So do I.Its life.I don't mean to sound callous. BUT shit I have helped you many times with nothing in return I never expected anything in return, but Jesse you took advantage, you asked to borrow money and I helped with said money and I Never got paid back. Am I supposed to just be super generous and not ask for anything in return? especially when I scrape up any extra money I have to help,and when I don't get paid back I suffer because I am now broke. Who really is the callous one?

I went out of my way every time to help Jesse and they were not grateful at all; they just kept walking all over me. I kept giving in and helping. No more.I will never help that motherfucker with anything.I don't wish harm on them, bothe Jesse and Jessica, but I don't want ANYTHING to do with them. They are bad news.They both need serious mental health. 

 

You see Jesse just assumed I had all kinds of money and that they could take whatever they needed. This is why they claimed I was being greedy when I asked for payment back(which they said they would do right away everytime I lent them money.They would claim I was trying to extort money from them as if they never owed me anything. They thought they were entitled to what I gave them as a gift and not as a loan. 

Jesse hurt me by saying I was a bad friend/person by not helping them the way they expected.(telling me I turned my back on them when they needed help, when I absolutely did not) That is when I was like fuck this noise this motherfucker aint worth it,they arent a friend if they dont appreciate the help I give them and only want to live at my house rent free.That is all they wanted. They did not want any kind of help that would get them independently off the street, they just wanted me to offer them stay at my house without paying rent and without contributing to any bills. And when they did not get said offer I was a bad friend and it was my fault they were homeless because (eye roll) I had a house so obviously I had the resources to help them get off the street IE have them stay at my house indefinitely.They stayed with me for NINE months I saw exactly how they treat anywhere they live including as guests in my home, and I was not going to live like that. 

If Jesse ever found out how much money I currently have in my bank account they would shit their pants, and come up with a plan somehow to get that money away from me and into their possession, that is how much a pile of shit Jesse is. They don't want me to be successful or have money. They THINK they are entitled to the money I have, and that I am not entitled to my own money. This is exactly why I will never associate myself with Jesse ever again. The pandemic just gave me an OUT and Jesse gave me a reason never to speak to them, Their actions caused the ending of the friendship(it was never really a friendship to begin with).It is 100% on them. I am not at fault here. I did my best to truly help them and all they did was walk all over me like a doormat.Jesse stating I was not a good friend and that I turned my back on them when they were at their lowest(homeless, all their fault) But I did not turn my back, I truly tried to help them. They just did not want the help I gave them, they wanted to stay at my house. I am sorry but Jesse does not get to control what kind of help that is offered to them. That is what they were trying to do. Have control over everything, even the type of charity that is offered to them because I did not have to go out of my way at all to help them. 

But I did and they never showed any gratitude. Not that it mattered. I was not doing it for praise. But for Jesse to go and claim that I turned my back on them after ALL that did for them,after all that I sacrificed for them,  just proves they were just sticking around to see what they could gain, and nothing else because the moment they could not get anything from me, then I was a bad friend. I could have just been there for them, someone to talk to, (which I tried to do)That is what a friend does, but NO that was never good enough with Jesse.You see Jesse would not gain anything from that, it did not put money in their wallet.Jesse did not want a friend,Jesse wanted an ATM and a place to stay indefinitely rent free. I bet Jesse even hated the fact they had to pay me a few hundred dollars a week,Jessica even tried to short me one week. I was like no way you HAVE TO CONTRIBUTE.They gave me the money but acted like I was taking their last meal. AND that is just the thing, they were giving me their extra money and the other half went towards a rental car, so by the end they did not have money to save for a deposit on a house to rent(Jesse was NOT going to an apartment) So I was stuck,but also that HAD to contribute to the utilities and pay some kind of rent if they were going to stay at my house that is only fair. I guess that is why Jesse thought I was being greedy,taking all their money, but my utilities went up with more people in the house. That is only fair to contribute to the bills. They cannot expect me to pay the extra cost.

Jesse kept stalling, made no real effort to find a place, kept going to the hospital and losing their job and income. I don't think they really wanted to move out.Otherwise, Jesse would have found a place quickly like a responsible adult.Jesse made no effort,I actually did the research and even paid for deposit and first month's rent. They trashed the place and got evicted but that was not my problem, at least they were finally out of my house. If I had to spend the money I had to, just to get them the fuck out of my house because they made no effort to really move. Even AFTER I got them  the house they rented, Jesse dragged their feet, AND my AC was not working. It was July and they still made NO effort to move out quickly. They NEVER wanted to move out, just take over my house.  

In hindsight I should have insisted they go to a hotel room after two weeks of staying at my house and making no effort to get a place of their own. 9 months was way too long to “get back on their feet” after a month they are just taking advantage of the low rent, utilities included housing. 

It was probably the plan all along, I bet that RV never really caught fire. Jesse found out I had a house(i told him), and made a plan to move in. That RV was never ideal so that they had to get someplace better to live…….. My house. 

They are both bad news. Both Jesse and Jessica are a horrible waste of society.They don't even file federal and state taxes(jesse once told me that fact because the government would just garnish the refund for the student loans they owe…so why waste their time ...eh because it's the law?) Both of them have horrible credit, they can't get a loan,a home mortgage, or a credit card. They own money all over town. They get sued for said loans all the time and the lender is lucky if they even show up for court. AND WHEN they have their wages garnished for said loan, then they just change jobs. Because if they are no longer getting paid at said job then the lender can not take said money out of the check(it no longer exists)

Eventually it WILL catch up to them. They WILL keep leaving jobs and they WILL run out of places to work. No employer is going to rehire them, especially if they left on bad terms(that's been every job Jesse has ever had, they get fired or they quit on bad terms) Eventually they will have to leave the state and start all over again.

And I can not wait for that to happen. Besides evidence of Jessica appearing for their last court date, As of Aug 3,2023…………… I don't even know if they ARE in town, next court date is August 9th so only time will tell. although if they don't show up that does not mean they skipped town. I have not seen them at Lawndale or the bus station downtown(the few times I was there last week) for a while.That still does not mean they are out of town or out of the state. and there is No evidence of an eviction.  

Perhaps that is why Jesse left home in the first place, they “had to start over” because they owed so much money in the city of Ft Scott.

Jesse was in their 30s when I met them in college so it is very possible for them to ruin their credit and owe a ton of money all over the city of Ft Scott for an entire decade of their 20s.They have been a deadbeat all their life, manipulating people into lending money and things to them with the promise of paying it back in full and never falling through on their promises. I'm willing to bet they are just like their father. This is probably the real reason Jesse had to leave Ft Scott,no one wanted anything to do with them because Jesse owed so much money and people were tired of the lies and the bullshit.

For the rest of their life, Jesse will just have to make their own money and pay their own bills instead of stealing it from other people, they need to stop trying to manipulate people into giving them a hand out, they would complain about someone else getting government handouts yet jesse thinks they are entitled to handouts.Jesse just thought they could walk all over and take advantage of me and expect me to take it. 

I was a friend to them, I truly was, I know we did not agree on everything politically but who does? I was willing to look past that, but what I am not going to tolerate is using and abusing. for example, Asking me if they could put their stuff underneath my carport while they move to a new place, then taking their time coming back to pick it up, as if they could on their own time.Not even communicating with me their intentions and their plans. That was not fair to me, Jesse is never about being fair, only what is convenient for Jesse. 

Jesse also wanted to have their pay card sent to my house instead of their place. BUT I stated that would not work since if I ever go out of town for a week or two I would have my mail stopped and then they would not have access to it and not be able to get said card.  They tried to say it would be my fault they don't get paid. I stated get a po box if you don't want it sent to your place. I was not about to have their mail sent to my house again. I only did that because they were staying at my house temporarily. It should have been changed the moment they changed addresses but naturally they did not change it right away, it took months of me telling them “you got mail” and then they had to come over to get it. 

It seems any smart person would not want that much trouble to get the mail. But Jesse is not very smart. Jesse even had certified mail come to my house because my address was the last known address. So naturally it would be sent to my address.It ended up being a bench warrant. BUT like I have said before if any police or bounty hunter comes banging at my door asking for Jesse’s wearabouts I will NOT HESITATE to tell them my last known address for them. They could even search my property if they insist. BUT I will cooperate so that would be unnecessary. Jesse tried to claim that not having their pay card sent to my house would be an inconvenience to me? Jesse is so backwards. How is it inconvenient for ME, when Jesse has to go out of their way to come to MY HOUSE on MY TIME to get some pay card for which they could have it sent to their place and get it the same day it arrives? I would have made it so difficult for them. They would not have gotten paid for weeks and weeks. AND they would regret ever asking me, but it would not be my fault since “hey I am not at home a lot” I am busy and I just can not wait around for you to come pick up your fucking mail” This is what I was trying to avoid but Jesse insisted I was trying to make it convenient for me when all I was trying to do was think of a scenario where I would not be around for them to pick up the mail and then they would not get paid. They made such a big deal over it. I was thinking of them and how if I was not able to be around for them to pick up said pay card then they would be SOL without getting paid and possibly not have money for a while. How is that inconvenient for me? LIke I said Jesse is backwards. I went on vacation for a week and a half,that is a long time without being paid if you get paid paycheck by paycheck and have nothing saved up. How would they eat? or pay bills if I went out of town for a week and half and had the mail held over at the Post Office, jesse would not have access to that mail. God dammit Jesse is such a dumbass.Why would they insist on having the pay card delivered to my address when I could go out of town for a week or two weeks for vacation or whatever and have the mail STOPPED and then Jesse would not get their pay card for as long as I was out of town. How is that more convenient for me? I just can not comprehend that. Hell I was just trying to prevent a scenario where if I were to go out of town Jesse would still be able to get their card and get paid. It is not like once I stop the mail I can have the mail continue while I am still out of town, I stop said mail so it does not pile up and prevents thieves from taking it.And it is respectful to the mail carrier. I bet you if I did allow this, and Jesse needed their pay card and I just happened to go on vacation for a week and a half, jesse would be contacting me multiple times a day asking when I would be returning and blaming me they can't pay rent, getting evicted etc. Insisting I make it up by letting them stay at my house since it would have been my fault they got evicted.After all if I had not gone out of town they could get paid and they would not have gotten evicted because they could pay rent. But If I had gone out of town it would have been my fault because Jesse could not get their pay card and therefore not pay rent and eventually get evicted for not paying rent. When Jesse could just get a bank account like a normal human being or the very least have their mail delivered to THEIR ADDRESS instead they try to hide where they live and give all the burden on me, and then say I was trying to make it more convenient for me for their mail not be delivered to my address…well yeah I don't owe that to Jesse. I don't owe them the privilege to have their mail delivered to my address.Why would I? If I go out of town for a number of days or weeks, Jesse could not have access to said mail because naturally I would stop the mail when I go out of town. I can't trust Jesse with my mail, I can't tell him to check the mail daily and for your pay card and hold on to my mail and give it to me when I return.That would never happen. Maybe that is what they wanted so they could go through my mail to see what bills I have.Would be no mortgage bill, but that would not mean anything since most bills have paperless options. Jesse would not be aware of that since they don't pay attention or pay bills anyway.I mean they have bills, they just don't pay them. That is why Jesse is constantly being sued. Arrrghhh such they are such a dumbass.

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Jesse had a court date for non payment of medical bills. According to public record, Jesse did not appear at said court date. I would be surprised if they showed up. Jesse is a lazy, no good waste of society.They would be better off, off the grid not paying any bills,living off the land away from civil society. Maybe that is what they want, hell they don't pay taxes anyway. They try to manipulate people into giving them money, never actually working for it.Taking advantage of people’s kindness. Expecting folks to give them what they want, because they believe they are entitled to it. If they aren't given what they expect then you are a selfish greedy person.   

jesse   would always guilt trip me

for being more fortunate than they were. if I had only 5 dollars to my name. well they only had 2 dollars. shame on me for being so " rich"

same thing with the credit cards, the house, the recording studio (did not happen overnight, over 20 years of gathering equipment and dreaming of a studio)

so fuck        for guilting me for just having things , for having a job I love, earning money with said job.       

           is so god-damned lazy it is sickening   

I just want to say this, I am not rich, I never said I was.I don't think I act like it either. I try to stay humble, I don't brag or shove what I have in others faces. I dont act like I am better than anyone. I am fortunate to have what I have.

I am a kind and generous person. Maybe too much, because shit for brains people like Jesse and Jessica can try to take advantage of that fact. I try to help out the best I can, and I did. I helped Jesse way more than I ever should have.With the little resources I had to my exposure, I still tried to scrape up what little extra I had to help those shitbuckets. Jesse was like a wounded animal crying for help.And being the kind hearted person I could not help myself but to try to help them, BUT then Jesse’s true nature appeared. It was obvious what they were doing. I mean I helped them all I could, and when I did not give them the help they expected, they turned on me like a rabid dog.Jesse expected me to offer them to stay at my house again and when I refused they turned on me. (and claiming I turned on them, putting all the blame on me)I mean I gave them resources of places in town that could do a better job.and I went out of my way in my very busy schedule to do such research. Jesse did not want that. 

They did not show gratitude.(not that I expected anything like that in return)That would mean they would have to actually get off the couch and do something, take responsibility.Jesse said I was just helping them out to make myself look good. This is what a narcissist would say, they can not comprehend that anyone would do anything just out of kindness because they don't do that.Jesse was just out for themselves.And when Jesse did not get what Jesse needed from me Jesse turned on me. Jesse was no longer friendly, they were cynical and mean.For once in their life Jesse was told NO. 

Basically Jesse fucked around and found out, they thought they could milk it and take advantage of me for as long as they saw fit. Jesse flew too close to the sun and thought eventually I would forgive them and then it would be the old way again.Jesse would fall on hard times,lose a job, and or get evicted and then turn to me for help.I am a kind person and I try to help people when I can, but even I have limits.

I can see now Jesse was just hanging around me because I had a credit card and money in a bank account. Oh “jesse needs an item, why not just ask Pete and tell him that they will pay him back”and then not even remotely attempt to pay back the amount owed.Need rent paid? Just ask Pete.This is why Jesse wanted to stay pathetic and poor. If Jesse appeared to not have money then they could manipulate people such as myself into feeling sorry for them.Well they fucked around and found out. I finally had enough of the bullshit. No apology will ever get me to be friends with Jesse or Jessica again.Stay away from me. I don't wish harm on them,but they are not in my life. I think Jesse knows they fucked up.

 I absolutely did nothing wrong,and Jesse can never claim I am partly to blame. I did everything in my power, used every resource at my exposure to help them get back on their feet and all they did was walk all over me and take advantage. 

I am still angry that Jesse asked to store their junk underneath my car port as they moved because they were being evicted(it was urgent) but then moved slowly to pick up said junk off my property. Once it was moved from their property from which they were being evicted from they assumed there was nothing urgent. They could just take their sweet ol time. Never mind that it was my property that Jesse put their junk in.. No respect to me for trying to move it as soon as possible. Naw Jesse thought they could just leave their junk at my house as long as they saw fit, and when I just promptly asked about said junk Jesse acted like I was the jerk for bothering them, I had some nerve to ask jesse to remove their junk from MY property. of all the things, to bother Jesse with….. oh my SMH. They just tried to take over as if the property was actually theirs and I had no right to ask them to remove their junk off “their” property, oh the nerve I must have to ask Jesse to remove their stuff in a timely manner.

I should have told them to remove said junk in 1 hour or it is all going into the trash.Leaving said junk underneath my carport did not mean forever. It was temporary and temporary meant that evening, or it is going in the dump.

That should have been the end, but I gave Jesse so many chances after that.and then what ended it all is when Jesse claimed I turned my back on them when they were at their lowest(homeless again) I did not offer them my house so that was it for Jesse.Well I am not a charity, my house is not a shelter for just anyone. I am a generous kind person but even I have limits.I should never expect to give up what I don't have. Yes I have a house, yes I have a credit card and yes I even have a bank account but that does not obligate me to give it all away to Jesse. 

No real friend would ask that much of me, yet Jesse saw how far they could go. They did not fear the consequences.They just assumed I would forgive them or give in and give them whatever they needed because I kept giving and giving. I never asked for anything extra in return, just to be paid back, that is it. I never even asked for interest, just the amount owed so I could pay back my debt created by helping Jesse.

BUt oh yea, smh I was trying to extort money from Jesse as if I did not need the money returned.I was the “greedy one” when all I did was ask to be repaid.What a selfish asshole.

Jesse just went too far and can NEVER retract what they did.I did not give them what they expected and that is when they turned on me. A true friend would understand, a true friend would never ask that much of their friends, but Jesse was never a friend to begin with. 

They were just hanging around to take from me.And when they could no longer take anything from me, they turned on me. of all the nerve. 

After all, I gave and sacrificed to help Jesse and Jessica(Teresa too). I still got screwed.Thats ok, I am still humble, have a ton of family and friends who care and love me.I don't need Jesse in my life if that is how they are going to treat me.

I have a good paying job,(it is not high paying… but I get by)I have a good home,and I have nice things. I am satisfied with life. I will never lose my home to eviction.I am humble in what I do have and I don't take what I have for granted.

I can't say that about Jesse. They will always be on the verge of eviction.It's only a matter of time, it is not IF, it is WHEN. That is on JESSE.  Karma is going to get them.They just better not come knockin at my door. IT WILL BE SLAMMED IN THEIR FACE.  

Jesse can go fuck themself.I will never speak to that motherfucker ever again.Even if they speak to me first,I will not respond. 

I have every right not to respond. It is like if a stranger speaks to me. I’ll be like eh I don't know you.Who are you? and that will be the most communication I will have with that motherfucker,I highly doubt that Jesse and or Jessica will ever speak to me or attempt to contact me. They know what they did. They know they fucked up. I had enough with the bullshit and a person can only take so much abuse.

Jesse would try to claim I am partly to blame,but I am not, I tried to help them the best I could. I even went out of my way to help. (that is what friends do)and I still get dumped on.How is that my fault?, when I tried to help and I still get dumped on.Jesse did not like the fact that I would not just give them whatever they demanded so they claimed I turned my back on them.They wanted a place to stay that was not a hotel room so they EXPECTED to stay at my house. They knew I was a nice guy and very charitable so they EXPECTED me to offer them a stay at my house. When I said that would not work, they were surprised.It was their fault they were homeless, Jesse fucked around with that college student and they were employed at USI so that was against policy.Kind of creepy if you ask me.When Jesse came around showing her off like they were a teenager 

I did not know what to say. I was thinking, ok???? so yeah you are fucking your  GIRLfriend. big deal. They were fucking a GIRL 20-30 years their Seinor. They were nearly 50 at the time and she was just barely 18 out of high school.That is kind of sick. BUT Jesse was never well mentally, we all know that now.  

I am ever so regretful that I ever met that loser. My life is so much better without Jesse and Jessica. I hope they get mental help. Jesse needs to see a therapist.WHEN they get evicted I just hope they don't try to show up on my property. I will just call the authorities if they do and they refuse to leave. That is my right to do so. My Castle, my rules. 

Jesse is one of the worst people I know. I mean I helped them out so many times, scraped whatever extra I had to help them and the moment I could not help them they were mean and cynical towards me,and they turned their back on me, but at the same time claimed I turned my back on them…..all projection. 

When I knew I was not going to be able to help them the way they really needed. I tried my best to give them at least some help,like phone numbers to places around town that could help them in more detail, the true help I could not provide. I wanted to help in some way, and it is offensive that Jesse would turn their nose up at the help I gave them.I mean I took the time out of my very very busy day to research those numbers,when Jesse was perfectly capable of finding said numbers themself.Jesse never really respected my time,never truly believed my time was valuable.I halted my schedule to help them out of friendship because I knew they were feeling down when that GIRL left them but that was not good enough.They were perfectly capable of finding resources to help them on their own, but Jesse was just so mentally broken after that girl they were fucking all of a sudden left them.

The help I offered simply was not enough, if the help I offered did not include an offer to stay at my house,then they did not want any part of it. They wanted my house.Pure and Simple. They knew I had a house, that was not fair, so they were trying to take it over as if it was theirs and then kick me out.They would have just loved that.After all they deserved my house, and I did not.If I did not do what I did, which was find a place for them and pay the deposit and first month's rent they would have stayed longer and continue to trash it. After all, it wasn't their house, they did not care if it was trashed.

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Jesse was never a friend, they just pretended to be one so they could get things from me. After all “friends help each other out” SO they became my “friend” and then ask me to help them out, A simple con job. It was all a fucking con job. Because once I could not help the motherfucker they were mean and cynical towards me, 

and they were not really nice after that last time.That is what sparked the end, when I told Jesse to get help(mental help), they claimed I did not help them when they were at their lowest(when I absolutely did) They could not get anything out of me(the kind of help THEY wanted) so they are no longer my friend, they turned their back on me.(but tried to claim I turned my back on them, all deflection) That is not what a real friend does. A real friend….. for one does not ask that much from a friend. A real friend would not ask what Jesse asked of me. 

2nd if any of my true friends did ask for what Jesse asked, and I said I could not help, they would understand, but really true friends do not ask that much from someone. Jesse just kept using me and asking me of things and then not appreciating what I did to help them with. 

For example acting like they had the right to just leave their junk at my house as they moved and they will get it on THEIR TIME, with no regard to me or what I wanted.They acted like it was THEIR PROPERTY and I had no right to ask them to move it in a timely manner. It was like “they will get it when they get it” with no respect to me when I went out of my way to let them leave their shit at my house in the first place. 

They took advantage of the “friendship” they were seeing how much they could get away with, they FUCKED AROUND AND FOUND OUT, thats what happened. Jesse is one of the dumbest motherfuckers on the planet.Because they were still trying to make a mense and inviting me over to their “house” I was not going to take the bait. Jesse was still going on and on, on how they have to walk to and from work and how they have to walk so much.Ok tell me ONCE, but they kept telling me like I was supposed to offer on how I can help. That is what they were hoping I would say. I did not take the bait so now they no longer try to contact me. They know where I live. but they never went over to my house. Or tried to call me from a different number(because I blocked them on social media and their phone).They made no effort to truly apologize.BECAUSE I did not offer to help them solve the problem of walking to and from work,(they never really asked but that is what they do, they manipulate to get people to offer so they don't have to beg and appear to be a loser which they are anyway) they stopped all efforts of trying to communicate with me, probably for the best anyway.

I would not talk to them or even acknowledge their existence if I ever see them at the bus terminal etc.They did this, I was a friend. but Jesse fucked up and can NEVER reverse what they did. It is too late. It is really sad. Jesse leads a sad pathetic life.and they drag Jessica into it too. Both of them are sad and pathetic. I am glad they are not part of my universe anymore. It was really dragging me down with them, making other people lose respect for me for simply associating myself with trash. I dont have to worry about that anymore, they are pure trash and they can both go fuck themselves all the way back to hell where they belong.They will alway be in the same pathetic place they have always been, they will never get out of that trashy hole. Always living off the grid running away from responsibility. Getting evicted, owing money, never paying off their debt,never paying taxes, trying to manipulate people into giving them money and things so they don't have to work for it. It will catch up to them, believe me. Not paying taxes will catch up to them. And if any bounty hunter bangs on my door looking for either one of them, I will not hesitate to cooperate. I will let them know everything I know and help them find those motherfuckers. I will not hide them for anyone. FUCK THEM.

They are so pathetic, they owe money on medical bills and buying a truck(which broke down and they don't even have any more)The repair shop took possession because Jesse did not pay the shop for the repairs, they had to take it for payment….only fair.(typical of Jesse not to pay the bill) they have to have their wages garnished. 

First of all it is not unusual to owe money, especially medical bills, but they both have made no effort to pay back said bills. They will just change jobs to avoid garnishment.and the court system has to start over to try to find out where they work to continue said garnishment. The irony is they probably could have filed to get assistance on said medical bills to avoid all of this,but Jesse did not bother, that would mean making an effort and being an actual adult, taking some responsibility. and it would mean being more on the grid. Jesse would just love to live off the grid, pay no taxes, pay no bills.no

responsibility whatsoever, manipulating whomever they can find into giving them money to survive.

They don't even have to work a real job if they steal money from other people. It really should be a crime what they did. Lying and manipulating people. 

Jesse is a liar plain and simple. You can not and should not trust anything that comes out of their mouth. Stay far away from Jesse David Ives and Jessica Rene Ives they are criminals and they both belong in prison.

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If I see Jesse out and about at the bus terminal and somehow they saw I had a bag of change, they would ask me for some change(knowing I do have change) and I would deny their request. They would get angry because I have a handful of change and I am not giving it to them like they are entitled to the money and everything I have.They think they are entitled to what I have and when I did not share what I have they turned their back on me.

I was no longer of any use to them so they walked away from the “friendship”. It was never a friendship because they just wanted what I had and they were going to take it all from me with no remorse.Jesse has no moral compass, because if they did they would understand that I can not give them everything they demand from me.AND they would not have asked so much from me. I have never had anyone else ask so much as Jesse did.Its like my real friends and family respect me enough to not ask so much.Any respectful person would understand that. Yes Jesse was desperate when they were homeless for the third time, but to ask me for that kind of help after all we went through before when I let them stay at my house(NINE MONTHS) especially right after coming back from vacation.They kept asking me when I am going to be home.and I kept telling them, I don't know when ever I get there. I did not want to tell them a specific time and when I didn't arrive at the exact state time, they could claim I lied to them.And I know that is what Jesse would do.(that is what they were hoping for) I was at the mercy of the greyhound bus, It could have broken down(god forbid) I might not have returned for a day or so who knows luckily I returned on time,but I was tired and wanted to get a shower, and relax before I had to return to work. but I had Jesse hounding me and leaving their shit at my house, when it was just supposed to be jessica's bike. Jesse lied to me about that too because they left way more than Jessica’s bike. And I wanted them to leave it behind my shed out of view of the street so it would not get stolen and Jesse claimed I lied to them because behind the shed is not the car port as I said they could leave it. What A nutjob.Since I was just looking out for them and the bike, if it is not locked up it could “roll away” so to speak. BUT Jesse wanted to make me out to be the bad guy telling them to leave it behind the shed instead of the car port, claiming I lied because I said they could leave it underneath the car port and then I changed my mind to behind the shed. My head hurts just thinking about all this nonsense.

Jesse is a nut and I regret ever meeting them. I am so glad they are totally out of my life now.I can rest assured I have loads of money in the bank,I can pay my debts off on time and I don't have to worry about Jesse ever asking me for help again.and if somehow they do ask me for help, I will simply say I can't help you.Call 211. They can guide you to help.

The moment Jesse met me, They were taking advantage of me. Then they found out I had a credit card, it was like striking gold for Jesse. Oh and then when Jesse found out I bought a house(i did not think it was that big of a deal telling them) they went nuts, They found a way to become desperate or at least come up with a lie so they can wiggle their way into my house and plan to never leave.I mean once they were there living there, they made no effort to find a place of their own. Every weekend they were just too tired from working so much. It was like they really did not want to leave.Why would they? They had a place to live already. Jesse is such a trash human being that they would not respect my space and find a place of their own in a timely manner, and by “timely” I mean up to a month. It took them nearly a year and me finding a place for them to actually move out and even then Jesse did not want to really move out, acting like I was kicking them out of their family homestead.Trying to guilt trip me into making them get their own place. They dragged their feet on moving and when the AC went out in the middle of the summer even then Jesse was slow to move out.They could have gone to their place with AC, 

but no Jesse was still slow to move out.its like they really did not want to move out of my house and they held a grudge to me even to the very last day I talked with them.I am pretty sure deep down inside they still held a grudge that is why they asked for my help again to live at my house again.When I said know that is what set them off to being cynical. I had a house, in their mind I was obligated to share,they were entitled to my house. I was just not going to go through that again, that is why I simply refuse to talk to them. 

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I have not seen Jesse or Jessica at the bus terminal for a few weeks. That does not mean anything, it just means their schedule may have changed. I hope I NEVER run into that motherfucker ever again. I tried to help them. I have a kind heart. Maybe it is too good for my own good. I hate to see people suffer. I hated to see Jesse suffer. But that was all an act. They made money and they had a job. but somehow they were always “short on rent”. That could have been a lie too, just to get money from me. What a thief. I gave in too easily and I believed them when they said they would pay me back next payday. How the fuck did they think they were going to get away with it. I mean they did, they just lost their meal ticket once I got tired of the using and abusing. Jesse took advantage, that is for sure. They lost a friend. Jesse was never a friend to me. I was a friend to them, but Jesse was never my friend ro me. It was all an act to get money from me. Once they could not get anything from me, they were gone like the wind. That is sad really. It is all for the best really. If Jesse still talked with me, I guarantee they would be asking me for money or help on something, asking to borrow a ladder or a tool,or whatever. When they are perfectly capable of purchasing such things themselves. They have a full time job, they have an income, there is no reason why they can't save up and buy whatever they need themselves. There is no reason why they can't budget and pay rent on time. I am not a fucking bank.I have a job,I get a paycheck but it is my paycheck, for my bills, and things that I want to buy for myself. That may sound selfish on the suffice. BUT what the fuck? Am I supposed to sacrifice my own bills, my own credit to help Jesse out? NO. yet that is what Jesse was expecting me to do. They expected me to let them use my credit card, use my credit, they did not realize or care that I had a credit limit,I can’t just spend $2000.00 if my limit is $2000.00, and I spend $1500 then I have to pay back $1500 before I get $2000.00 credit or else I only have $500 left to spend. If I spend all of $2000 and don't pay back $2000 then the card is useless. So every month I try to only spend what I can pay back. When I was allowing Jesse to use my credit card that was an extra expense taking away on what I could spend.Jesse did not care. They wanted me to be poor like they were, they wanted me to suffer. It was not fair I had a credit card and they didn't.That is sick. To take advantage of someone like that. Jesse was only looking out for themself. SO it did not matter if I had to pay off a bigger balance than I normally do past my budget. As long as Jesse got what they needed it did not matter. That is not what friends do. First off a real friend would not ask to borrow money from a credit card. That is just too much yet Jesse asked all the time.I really wished I had said sorry you are SOL I just don't have the money. and really I didn't, a credit card does not mean free money. It is an advance on future pay.BUT I should only spend what I can pay back and pay back the full balance due not just the minimum payment.I only have a certain amount of money coming in, so I should only spend that amount, Jesse was acting like I had an unlimited amount and I could pay my bills as well as their bill because they were never going to pay me back that was a lie. 

I really hope I never see that motherfucker ever again. I have not seen them at the downtown bus terminal for a while(when I do go down there), so maybe they have left the state, and if that is what is going on……GOOD. goodbye fucker.It could also mean I am just not there when they are. OR they changed schedules.It could also mean they changed jobs so their wages would not get garnished. I could definitely see both Jesse and Jessica quitting a job because their wages are being garnished for a bill they owe trying to start over and not have their wages garnished, making whoever they owe money try to find them again and start all over.I mean what a jack off. to actually quit employment to avoid wage garnishment. Eventually they are going to run out of places to find employment.No one is going to want to hire them because they leave so suddenly and dont stay very long.It is not a very wise thing to do, but it’s Jesse, they are not very intelligent. They only think of themselves in any and every situation. Eventually Jesse and Jessica will have to move to a different state to find a job and a place to live.They are a drain on society. A waste of space.

In the end Jesse was just jealous. I had stuff, they did not. I had a white collar good paying job with my own office, they had a factory blue collar back breaking job. I had a house, they had apartments which were ALL low rent dumps.I had a bank account and a credit card, and I was able to save a little back, Jesse did not have a bank account and did not have the good credit to even have a credit card.That was not my fault.None of which Jesse did not have was never my fault. Who cares if I have a credit card. It is not for Jesse to use. I was just too kind and trusting. Jesse never realized or cared, (most likely did not care because they are a narcissist). that yes I have a credit card, but that does not mean “free money” (probably why they don't have a credit card) There is a credit limit, if you spend on said card, the balance HAS TO BE PAID.or there is interest and if the credit limit is all spent then the card is useless. I spent on my card, but then when I spent extra with me spending on what Jesse needed with it, I still had to pay it all back.I really did not have the extra money SO when I spent above my budget with Jesse also using the card for what they needed it was a hardship for me. I still had to pay it back.Or pay interest and have less to spend next month because the amount is closer to the limit.

 Jesse didn't care, it wasn't their money, it wasn't their credit card or credit.so fuck Jesse all the way to the deepest part of hell.Jesse and Jessica are just the worst people that I ever met. They used up my resources, trashed my house and my (then) garage with no care in the world, no care to me on how it affected me. As long as they got what they needed,it did not matter if my house was trashed,my credit all used up and my bank account drained. Then they still claim I turned my back on them even after all that I sacrificed to help them.They turned their back on me. They had no more use of me anymore so they are the ones who walked away. Jesse is a very immature cluck.Karma will get the best of them. They will be in the same situation they are in now, always living paycheck to paycheck, always having their wages garnished for some outstanding bill they never paid and had to be taken to court over it. They never show up for said court so the ruling automatically goes to the plaintiff.They will always be on the verge of getting evicted and on the verge of being homeless. They will always be on a fine line of losing whatever employment they currently hold.Losing their job means no income and getting evicted because they have no savings held back for emergencies. It would all be their fault.       Fuck them.  

Jesse is so narcissistic that if they saw my bank balance of over $3K they would think I have enough money and that I can give them $2.5k. Not thinking that I owe credit card balances, and have bills to pay. They don't care, as long as they get what they need to survive, it doesn't matter who they hurt to get it.They would push their own mother in the mud if it meant they get a meal.I mean the pushed me in the mud to get what they needed and then claimed I turned my back on them when I did not give them more.They kept asking me for help, use of my credit card with the promise they would pay me back even giving me a date on when they would pay me, and when said date came, no money was given. When I asked there was no response. It is like I never gave them money at all. This is why I will never acknowledge them again. They did it to themselves. They turned their back on me because I would not provide what they demanded. They were homeless and they wanted my home. It did not matter how much stress it caused the first time. How they  trashed my house, no regard to me or my property. It was like it was their property and I was the guest. They wanted to stay as long as they could. I kicked them out, and they were evicted. Jesse never got over that. Not really. They did not care how much I already sacrificed. They needed to get what they needed and push me in the mud as they did it.Fuck both of them all  the way to hell. I hope I never see them again. I hope they left Indiana for good, never to return. 

And I know Jesse is telling people how bad of a friend I was and how they were screwed by me,by not letting them stay at my house when they were desperate and homeless, and how I was selfish and greedy.I had this “huge house with plenty of room” and I locked them out in the wet and cold.  Playing the innocent victim.That is all they do, play the victim. I guarantee that is what Jesse is doing. They would NEVER admit to taking advantage, manipulating me,stealing from me, they would never give up their grift.” and show how the sausage is made” if they did that, they could not con anyone else. They would actually have to have some responsibility.They would actually have to earn their money,instead of begging for it(that is what jesse was doing when they manipulated me or attempted to manipulate me into giving them what they wanted, it was just another form of begging but getting me to give so they would not have to ask. It's quite pathetic) I was their friend. and all  they did was use my kindness. I had a credit card and they took that to their advantage. 

They were always asking me for help. After all, friends help each other out right? All they had to do was gain my trust by hanging out with me,establish a friendship and then the grift was on. They would ask for more and more. Grift more and more out of me. Act like they are in such need of things and money.It was all a lie, What a con job. They both were perfectly capable of working and earning money. There should have been no reason why they could not pay rent. If they lost their job that is bad but not my fault. I helped them out the best I could, but I could not just give them my money. They promised they would pay me back next payday but then they never did. I ask for payback and they claim I am trying to extort them. Which is bullshit because I am just trying to get paid back. 

Jesse thinks their shit dont stink that they don't have to pay anyone back. They think people should just worship the ground they walk on. That is pure bullshit.

Jesse shit their pants, their pants are full of shit and they walk around like they don't stink, this is why Jesse is the sticky butt fairy, because they have a stinky butt, and  their pants are full of stinky shit. They keep pooping their pants because they are too stupid to realize they need to clean their pants.

 

They are so full of themselves they don't realize their pants are full of shit 

I just hope they do not find any other poor sap to grift off of. That would just be horrible. Jesse is truly a horrible waste on society. 

They both need to go to jail for a very long time, they rob and steal.They are lazy and just think everything should be handed to them with doing little or no work. Yet they are the first to criticize anyone using government social handouts' wasting THEIR taxpayer money even though they don't even pay taxes in the first place. They are a drain on society. They don't want anyone to have handouts, but they beg for handouts all the time like they are the only ones who deserve said handouts, but also don't pay taxes that pay for said handouts.

  Jesse would rob from their own mother just to get a meal, I guarantee that.

I just hope I never see either of them ever again. 

The last few times I have been downtown at the bus terminal, I have not seen them.(as of 9/11/23) I really hope they have left the state of Indiana for good. I am ashamed to know that I ever met them and actually called them my friends. I am ashamed that I ever poured out my heart and resources to ever help them. I gave up a lot to help them and all I get is shit on because I did not give them more.I am too nice, I have too much of a good heart because people can take advantage of that, Jesse and Jessica both took advantage of my good nature.They EXPECTED me to give them what they needed, Jesse never expected me to say no to them. When I did,  that threw them off. They claimed I was selfish.I had resources that they did not have and Jesse EXPECTED me to share said resources because why….we were friends? Jesse is a fucking moron.I wish I never met either of them, they are bad people.They drained me, put me into debt, trashed my house and then they expected me to just accept it and have them trash my house again? I did try to help them the last time, just not to the extent they expected, this is why they claimed “I turned my back on them” even though I tried to help them without using my resources again.  They just wanted what I had. It did not matter what drain it did on me or my mental health. Jesse would push me in the muck and step all over me to get what they needed. In fact that is what they did. and once they could not get anything out of me, they were gone. Fuck that motherfucker. I never want to see Jesse or Jessica ever again. and if I do, I will act like I don't even know them. They are very bad, horrible people. They are leeches and drain on society.  

I wish the friendship did not have to end, but it was never a friendship in the first place, I gave my friendship to them, all Jesse did was take and take. They promised me they would pay me back, they gave me their word, and then when I asked to be paid back(like anyone would in this situation) they claimed I was trying to extort them,(like I never gave them any money at all) which proves they never intended to pay me back at all.This was a way to stall or redirect from having the responsibility of paying me back. The only reason why they paid me anything(minimal payments) was to show they can be trusted and then they could ask for more in the future. but after a while I saw through the bullshit. 

AND it is not like I was being selfish,I don't OWE Jesse anything. Ok They were in need,fine….They needed a place to stay, sure. but why is it up to ME to bail them out? I don't have a whole lot of resources, yes I have a house and yes I have a credit card and yes I have a bank account, but does that obligate me to share said things with the world? NO. Jesse made it out like it was a communal thing, we were friends so I HAD to SHARE everything I had(that's what friends do is share?) I don't think Jesse has had many friends.I share with my friends but I have limits.I want the best for them, but when I am being used like Jesse did that is where I draw the line, 

and I should have drawn that line sooner,and I should have told them to go to a hotel after 2 weeks of trying to find a place. I don't have to share my house or my credit card simply because I have one and Jesse does not. That is insane. 

Jesse had it good at my house and they never wanted to leave. That is why they made no effort to find a place of their own. 

I don't think I will ever see Jesse again. I sure hope not, they are a leach. Jesse thought for some reason I owed them what I had. I had a house, credit cards and a bank account with a little bit of money saved back,  and since we were “friends” Jesse demanded I share what I had.(that is what friends do right) Since they were in need of shelter and I had a house(shelter) then they tried to obligate me to share my house. And since I had tools, saws, ladders etc, they also demanded I share those too. and also share the use of my credit cards. They knew I had a guitar and wanted me to lend it to them, my SNES as well. Even the use of my address. (so they could hide where they really live) I mean I had these things. What good are these items but to be lent out right? WRONG. If I lend it all out(for Jesse it is “given to”, there is no lending to Jesse) Then I would not have them, Jesse would have them instead. Jesse just wanted to take all that I had so they would have what they needed and I would be left with nothing. What a loser. 

Jesse is the only person I have ever met that called themself a friend but demanded so much from me. Who asked so much help from me. Asked to use my credit card, borrow money,said to me ”I could use your help” , asked to buy them things, asked to borrow my tools, my equipment or anything that I owned for my use. Jesse is just a leach. They would never return anything I lent to them. I lent out a plumbing snake and I never saw it again. This is why I never lent out anything else again. I helped them so many times and they still never really appreciated what I did for them. They were without a place to stay and I let them live at my house. They took advantage of that.      

God Damn you Jesse,I never had extra money to spend, but I still scraped by what little extra I had to help you, only with the promise of being paid back,I was going by what YOU told me, you said YOU WERE A MAN OF HONOR. I was not being greedy when I simply asked to be paid back,like YOU said you were going to do. I was just holding you up to your word. and  I just wanted to be made whole again. JUST SO I break even and I am not in debt anymore, THAT IS ALL.I was never looking for a profit.I really did not have the extra money to help the way that I did, but with the kindness of my heart I scraped by and helped anyway. but then I never did get paid back in full. You claimed I was trying to extort you. As if I never gave you a dime and I was just trying to grab money from you, take it away from you as if I did not deserve it. You were the one taking money from me.Asking me for my help, using my credit card as if it was free money and it did not have to be paid back. You did not care that I have a credit limit and I must pay back the balance, if I dont I pay interest and then once I use up my credit limit I cant use the card until I pay off the balance.  

Then when I finally said this is enough.I can't help you out like this anymore, you claim that I am not a good friend.You said I turned my back on you. NO you turned your back on me. You were cynical and mean towards me the very moment you could not get anything out of me. I tried to help you the best I could. I tried to give you phone numbers to resources in town that could keep you from being homeless but all you wanted was to stay at my house. Treat it like it was your house and not treat it like you were a house guest. Nevermind I had to still pay utilities even with the utilities increasing when you all lived there. Never mind I had to halt construction on my recording studio and when I said something you acted like I was just saying that to get you all to leave.that was the truth. I had plans to build a recording studio long before I even bought my house. I was a friend to you and it turns out our friendship was fake because the only reason you stuck around was to see what you could get out of me, how much money you could steal from me.Fuck You Jesse.

 

  Jesse walks around like everyone owes them something. If I have $10 dollars in my wallet for my needs and Jesse finds out then Jesse demands I give them the $10 dollars because THEY need it more than I do. Forget that I struggle every week just to pay my bills, It is Jesse that deserves money not me.Forget that I am holding back said $10.00 to pay a bill(or whatever, I could be holding it back to buy a bag of candy, it does not fucking matter ITS MY MONEY) that doesn't matter to Jesse, Jesse needs $10.00 and I have $10.00. Same thing with a credit card, I have a credit card and Jesse could buy a few things so Jesse could “use my help” I have a credit card so therefore Jesse demands I use it to help them “with the promise of being paid back”

Here is how it went:

Jesse needs help with rent, they are short and cant pay rent, Jesse comes to me, asks me for my help, promises me that they will pay me back next payday(the next week) but never does when payday arrives. Ignores my calls when I ask to be paid back. I use my credit card to help them pay rent because I don't have that extra cash in the bank, but now I owe more than I would have if I did not help Jesse with rent. I have a larger balance to pay now when the credit card is due than I would have normally. This does not matter to Jesse because now they are good on rent and that is all that matters. Now I AM IN THE HOLE. I do this a couple times, then they come to me when their “RV caught fire” has no place to go, winter is coming and the RV is no place for someone to live in the dead of winter. So I help them by letting them stay at my house. Here's the thing, they make no effort to get a place of their own. Their friend Mike makes himself at home at my house. They all pay me “rent” but not at market value. I let Jesse Jessica and Teresa(Mike too) all stay at my house.They all take advantage, make no effort to leave.Mike finally leaves because he has some sense.Jesse and Crew milk it as long as they can. Until I finally had enough, did all the work to find a place, paid the first months rent and deposit(figured it was worth it to get them the fuck out of my house) BUT after all I did for Jesse and them, I still “was a bad friend” I was only doing it to “pat myself on the back”  Jesse is one fucked up motherfucker, they cant even comprehend someone having a good intentions and actually caring about someone, telling me the ONLY reason I helped them is to make myself feel good?   

I have a house and Jesse claims to be a friend so therefore I am obligated to share my house and I am obligated to house them because “that is what friends do” BUT NONE of my other friends have EVER asked of me what Jesse has asked of me. My real friends respect me and our friendship.They know I am not rich and dont have unlimited resources even if I did they would never ask that much from me. 

Jesse just acted as if I had unlimited resources or just did not care as long as they got what they needed. It did not matter how that affected me.

Jesse just used me, they were never friends at all.   

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Fuck You Jesse I hope I never see that loser ever again.My time is valuable and Jesse, Jessica and even Teresa are not worth my time.  

What a piece of shit Jesse is,to sit there and claim I turned my back on them after ALL I did for them. After ALL I sacrificed and all the money I spent to help them, they STILL claim I was a bad friend. Such a piece of shit. Jesse will get their karma coming to them. They will never get out of the shithole they are in. They will always be trash. I helped them the best I could and even after all that they claimed I turned my back on them because I would not let them stay at my house again. Because last time they overstayed their welcome by about 8 months and 2 weeks. Plus I now did not have a garage for their million cats.(it was now my studio,I was not about to have them in my studio) AND there would be no way I would let their cats take over my house,especially not being fixed. they would ruin my house.Jesse and Jessica would just trash my house like it was theirs. That was never going to happen. I mean I did not want them to be homeless but I am not obligated to house them. I gave them resources to help them get off the street. My house was not the only option, because it was not an option,I made that clear. Jesse did not like that and turned their nose up at the help I was trying to give them. Alternatives to them staying at my house since that was not an option. Then Jesse acted like I was being selfish and greedy. As if I was obligated to share my house. Everyone on my street had a goddamn house, but they were never obligated to house the homeless, so why me? because they claimed to be my friend? NO they were never my friend. They proved that once they said I turned my back on them because I would not let them live at my house again. Fuck you Jesse.    

I even tried to get that motherfucker to sign some kind of agreement just so I got it in writing and Jesse refused to sign. Because they knew if I had something in writing I could take them to court(as if they would show up anyway)Jesse is “judgment proof” meaning that someone could sue them all day everyday of the week 365 days a year and Jesse would never show up for the court date(s), the judge would rule in the favor of the person suing them (because Jesse would never show up) but they would still never get their money, making it a waste of time. Jesse is such a shitfuck.

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Jesse will NEVER get out from where they are now. They will always be in the gutter. I believe they like being in the gutter because they can use it to their advantage, BEING IN THE GUTTER MEANS, they can TRY to manipulate people into feeling sorry for them,give them money or things that they want but not really need. This is whY i think they said to me (last time I saw them randomly on the bus) they have to walk so much to and from work. I am a good decent person,and I care for others,  but what hell am I supposed to do with that information? I can't fix the situation for Jesse, although I think Jesse was trying to get me to fix it somehow.

I Feel bad for you son, but I can not control that situation for you.I can not fix everyone’s problems. Jesse was just trying to manipulate me into feeling bad and hoping I would offer them money.To pay for a battery for their vehicle (because why? don't they have a job? don't they have a paycheck? why am I being asked to pay for such things?)That motherfucker just does not want to spend their own money on a battery. Probably costs no more than $200.00 so they try to manipulate me into buying it. WHY? They think I have the means to buy a battery even if I did not have the money in the bank, I have a credit card and that is more than jesse would ever have.(to Jesse having a credit card is like having free money, with a $2000.00 credit limit is like actually having $2000.00.(even in reality it is not free money, it is a loan) They can promise to pay me back all they want, they know they won't pay me back, paying me back was never the plan. That's the grift. They manipulate and scam people to pay for things that they should be responsible for.That way they can use the money to fuck around with. They manipulate others to pay for their bills and responsible adult things like a battery for their vehilcle. and then the money they do earn is to fuck around with.

This is why they have never once tried to contact me after turning them down to stay at my house..I blocked them on my phone and social media, but they know where I live. Jesse has made no effort whatsoever to rekindle the friendship because it was never a friendship in the first place. I mean I was a friend to them,they were never a true friend to me. Since now Jesse knows they can not get money out of me they don't make efforts to hangout.It is pathetic and I am glad they never come around to my house. 

ONE reason I believe they never come around is that since they live all the way on the west side(the last time we spoke they did) it would take all day and multiple buses(a lot of bus fare) to get over to my side of town. and THEN there would be the chance I am not even at home, they don't know my schedule(thank goodness).It would be most likely on a Saturday. I am usually home then, but Jesse does not know that for sure. If I wouldn't be doing yard work(that would be obvious I am home and at that point I could not avoid them) I wouldn't answer the door anyway (if I am inside the house). 

It is a good thing that they never come around. They have no reason to anyway. If all they were doing was sticking around to see what they could get from me………Money, use of credit card etc and I refuse to share said things,  then why come around anymore? I remember many times I tried to get both jesse and jessica to just come over and chill,chill on  my porch or play a game of monopoly (because that would not cost anyone any money) I knew they were broke, so was I, so I tried to come up with something we could do that did not cost any money, minus the trip coming over.Jesse never really wanted to do that. If they could not spend MY MONEY then what is the point of hanging out? What A piece of shit. I have not seen them since at least April 2023

(it is September 2023 now) . I hope I never see them again. They just both need to leave the state of Indiana and never come back. I hope they don't find anyone else to grift. Knowing Jesse they need a place to start over, some place where they aren't known. 

Jesse is so ungrateful. I help them out, more than I ever should have. I bail them out more than once,and more than I ever should have. I even let them stay at my house until they get settled(NINE MONTHS, ALMOST A YEAR). I buy them things on my credit card, I buy them a truck so they can save instead of renting a car, they promise to pay me back for everything I helped them out with,  and then when I ask them to be paid back they act like I am trying to take their last dime.Like I was trying to take their money that they would their last meal with. I also go out of my way to help them the best I can and once I can not help them then “I am not a friend” Just like Jason said they would do. They did EXACTLY what Jason said they would do. I just did not think someone could be such a piece of shit like Jesse is.I could not comprehend someone could go as low as Jesse has. Give ALL the blame on me for the way the “friendship” went. Someone I called a friend could do me dirty like Jesse did.I helped them out so many times, and the very moment I could not help them the way they wanted me to (let them stay in my house) they walked away.And it not like I did not give any effort to help them at all, I did. Jesse just did not accept the help I was offering because it did not include them staying at my house, that is all they wanted.

Hell I bet they made themselves homeless just so they could be in that desperate situation so they could back me in a corner forcing my hand and the only choice I had was to offer them to stay at my house. I guess they never counted on me saying no. This is why Jesse never acted on getting a place when they were on the verge of being evicted. They WANTED TO BE HOMELESS, so that they could come to me so desperate.I would have no choice but to help them and offer to stay at my house.

AND this is why Jesse pointed their nose up at the help I was trying to give them to help people on the verge of homelessness. All they wanted was to live at my house. That was it. That was the endgame. From the moment they found out I bought a house and I did not live in that apartment which was too small for all three of them plus me. They jumped on trying to permanently stay at my house rent free. And if I did not comply and share my house with them, then I was selfish, greedy and not a good friend.

Just like Jason said they would.That PROVES they were only sticking around to see what they could get out of me, it was never a friendship at all. Just a manipulating conniving piece of shit.Jesse can go to hell. 

Stinky butt is so selfish that they would not care if letting them stay at my house again would be a hardship. They need my help and they demand I help them.I helped them the best that I could, the best that I felt was possible to me. It is offensive to me that Stinky butt demanded more from me. That they demanded more than I could provide. And if I did not provide that help that meant that I was not a friend. That I turned my back on them when they were at their lowest, that is not true, I did research to find services that could help them. I was 100% trying my best to help them out. It just was that I did not help them the way they expected me to. They expected a free handout, they expected me to just give up everything for them, sacrifice everything, go broke, go into debt. Just so that they could get what they needed. Then when I had enough of the bullshit Stinky butt walked away, it was Stinky butt that turned their back on me. It is all malarky. They will never hear from me again. Stinky butt was never a friend, they were just out there to get what they needed.Stinky butt is such a selfish person. They called me selfish and greedy when the truth is Stinky butt is selfish and greedy because they were not thinking about the sacrifice I made when I helped them so much.They did not appreciate everything I did for them. The amount of money I spend on them. I ONLY helped them out with the promise of being paid back. It was not that I was being greedy it was that I did not have the extra funds to help them. BUT Stinky butt did not care, Stinky butt just wanted what was to belong to them which was my money. It did not matter that I went broke helping them it did not matter that they trashed my house and did not help with chores. Stinky butt just wanted a place to live and since I had a house I was to provide a place for them. It did not matter that the situation caused me stress. Or because my mom and dad did not want to visit because my house was full of people(i did not blame them). I could not have anyone over when Stinky butt Shit eater and Dumbledore were living there, the house was too crowded. At first it was ok for a few weeks tops, maybe even a month at the most but after that I should have stated that I needed them to go, a hotel room perhaps?, this is too much for me to handle. I should have gone with that.I wish I did, it would have resolved a lot of headache on my end. I mean I had a house but that did not mean I was obligated to have Stinky butt Shit eater and Dumbledore live at my fucking house.None of my other friends and family would have ever asked so much from me as Stinky butt did. This is why it is not common. Stinky butt just used me for as long as they could and when they could not get anything out of me they were gone. Totally tragic because I was their friend. I was always looking out for them worried about them. When they were homeless I was worried but what could I really do? They took advantage of me once, broke me mentally and financally, trashed my fucking house I was not about to have that ever happen again.I did not give a flying fuck that stinky butt claimed I was being greedy, so be it. I knew in my heart I was not greedy.Most people I knew,family friend etc would agree. I am not here to fix the world. I am not here to fucking house and feed the homeless, yet Stinky butt expected me to help them out.I have a fucking house but that did not mean I was obligated to share it.Many people in this city has a fucking house, they own a fucking house does that mean they have to share their fucking house  with someone who does not? That is insane. Stinky butt just expected to be given handouts and the irony is that they would criticize anyone who is on government assistance wasting their tax payer money. BUT also I know Stinky butt does not even file taxes so they absolutely had no right to talk about anyone who is on government assistance. when Stinky butt was doing the same thing only using me as a hand out.I mean this is why they did it, they did not want to be on government assistance. That would be contradictory to what they believe in, so they use and abuse a friendship instead.Bleeding them dry, taking everything they have, making them go broke(me)all because stinky butt did not want to ask for government assistance. all because of pride. Well Stinky butt lost a friend of nearly 20 years because of pride. Stinky butt was never a friend anyway because the moment I could not give them money Stinky butt was cynical and mean towards me, ghosting me, not wanting to hang out as if I did something wrong. That is toxic.If anything ever good came out of the Covid-19 pandemic it was that it gave me an excuse never to see or talk to stinky butt , shit eater or even dumbledore ever again. It showed who they really were. I was (at the time) trying to protect myself and them, I did not know what the virus was, I was not vaccinated yet. I did not want to get anyone sick. I did not want to get any of them sick. Hell, I did not want to get sick. I did not want to die from it. so I stayed away and Stinky butt took offense to that. It showed their true colors. It showed how selfish and self centered they really were. And I really did not think anyone could be that self centered to the point where they would not even buy back their keyboard in a safe manner. the only way was in person, when all I tried to do was be safe about it, then the stinky butt called me paranoid for simply thinking of others. This was at the beginning of the pandemic when no one was vaccinated, I was not even leaving the fucking house to go to work.   

and  To where Stinky butt would try to use my address and their own. So they  could hide from the court system.  I mean stinky butt has so many people going after them it is ridiculous. This is why I believe Stinky butt did not want to be on the record at their actual address. If they continued to use mine then they could hide from the system, this is why Stinky butt made such a big deal when I said they could not use my address as a mailing address.They said it was more convenient for me not to have them use my address when they a had to go out of their way just to get the mail. They had to come over on my time to get it too. But then I had to wait for them to get it once I told them. But also not really. I did tell them a couple times the mail is here, then hid in my studio as if I had to leave all of a sudden trying to burn it in their brain that this method is very inconvenient for them. and that they should get the mail where they live so they could get their mail whenever they needed on their time..       

This is all Stinky butt’s loss. I dont give a fuck what they claim I did. I am not at fault here whatsoever, I tried to help Stinky butt and I still get stomped on. I am not going to stand for that kind of abuse. Stinky butt has a lot of growing up to do that is for sure. Jar was sure right about Stinky butt. I wish I had listened to Jar more. He knows what he is talking about. Put this down as a lesson learned. I know I will never do this again. But also none of my other friends and family would EVER take advantage of me like Stinky butt did. Even if I had a million dollars in the bank they know that is not a thing to do. Stinky butt treated me like an their own ATM. Like it did not matter that they ever pay me back.They were never planing on it anyway, this is what Stinky butt does, they uses people and then when they cant get anything out of them they leaves. This is why Stinky butt does not have any friends. I never saw it in the nearly 20 years I knew them. Except for that one guy who also tried to live at my fucking house. They parted ways as well. All Stinky butt had was shit eater after they ruined Dumbledore’s life. There was also Country and the Soke brothers but I think that friendship ended as well. This is why Stinky butt went back to Shit eater. They can have each other and I certainly hope there is no one else they can grift into giving them money.Stinky butt sure did grift me and I am ashamed that it ever happened. but all I can do is move on, learn my lesson. That is all I can do is move on from this. I know that anyone else that I know who I call friends and family would never ask this much from me. Even Jar when jar was down and out down on their luck would not have come to me,Ethan was down and out too, but respected me too much. Jar and Ethan both know I am not rich, Stinky butt should have figured that out but did not give a flying fuck. I had a credit card. That was good as gold as far as stinky butt is concerned. if I had  $20,000 credit limit that was as good as having $20,000 in my hand to stinky butt anyway, I knew I didn't really have $20,000 to spend. Because I am an adult I know with every amount I spend on my credit card, the balance HAS TO BE PAID OFF. Stinky butt did not understand or did not give a flying fuck.This is why Stinky butt did not have a bank or a credit card because they was not responsible enough to have one. They would have spent the credit limit in one sitting and then be out of luck again, never being able to pay off the balance, racking up interest, late fees and other charges, going further into debt.

This is why Stinky butt wanted to use my credit card, it was not their credit that they were using and ruining. It did not matter to them if it was paid off or not as long as they got what they needed regardless if they pissed me off or not. they got what they needed at that is all that mattered. 

So really it is good Stinky butt can not get a credit card, although the credit card companies would love them too much. Stinky butt just has to learn that they can not use people like they did me. These are casualties of war. Losing my friendship with Stinky butt is not a loss because stinky butt was never really a friend. Stinky butt was just hanging around to get money from me as soon as I saw through the malarky and stopped helping them they were gone. That is kind of sad. Stinky butt has a very sad lonely life. Stinky butt just manipulates and uses people into giving them what they need instead of just being a friend.This is why Stinky butt does not have friends, and I do not feel sorry for them at all. Good riddance. 

A true friend would never ask so much like Stinky butt did. They truly were not "friends". Stinky butt just used me until they could not get anything from me. They were gone. 

Stinky butt was cynical and mean towards me because I did not let them stay at my fucking house again. I did not give them what they wanted so they ended the “friendship” but claimed I was the one that “turned my back on them” they claimed I was the one who walked     away. Stinky butt never understood or cared that I am not a bank,my fucking house is not a homeless shelter. why is it up to me to fucking house you stinky butt? I only walked away after you Stinky butt claimed that I was a bad friend because I did not give you shelter, after all I did for you. Letting you stay at my fucking house again was not going to work because you trashed it, you did not respect my space ie you did not leave in a timely manor. 

I gave them plenty of time to find a place. Staying at my fucking house was never supposed to be long term. Stinky butt was down and out so I said hey stay at my fucking house for a few weeks until you get a job and find place of your own, but Stinky butt never made any effort to find a place, once Stinky butt and Shit eater  had a job and established a weekly paycheck the very next step should have been finding a place to live. Stinky butt never did that next step. They made no effort to do so. 

Stinky butt spent all their time and energy trying to figure out ways to stay at my house instead of spending time and energy finding their own place. Their energy was spent trying to stay at mine. Stinky butt never wanted to leave, it was low rent, utilities included, a nice large fucking house, use of all the furnitire full use of the kitchen and all what comes in a kitchen, big screen TV, netflix,roku,high speed internet etc. Why leave? Stinky butt was only thinking of themself and did not give a flying fuck how it affected me. I had a fucking house and that is all that mattered. Stinky butt assumed they were entitled to my fucking house because we were “friends” and “friends” share. 

At the very last time, I did not share my fucking house so stinky butt claimed I was no longer a "friend" that I was the one who walked away. Stinky butt has the nerve to claim I was being greedy and selfish, further from  the truth. I really did try to help them. I went out of my way to help stinky butt shit eater and dumbledore, and all I get for it is I get stomped on. No real gratitude, because stinky butt thought they were entitled to everything I had because we were "friends". This is the reason I had to walk away. I blocked Stinky butt and Shit eater on social media and my phone. I ghosted both of them. Only to see them a few times on the bus but not really engaging with them. Stinky butt knows what they did. This is why they make no effort to contact me,no letters in the mail or just stopping by my fucking house. I mean Stinky butt knows where I live. BUt they know I wont speak with them. They know why I finally walked away. It is sad, really. Stinky butt is one sad pathetic individual.

In reality Stinky butt makes no effort to rekindel the “friendship”(as if there was one in the first place) because they know I will not give them money, let them use my credit card or stay at my fucking house  anymore so why even try? That is all what stinky butt was hanging around me for anyway, to get money that is it, and they proved it because once I could not provide stinky butt was cynical and mean towards me, they was never a "friend" to begin with, truly a waste. 

As of /October /2/ 2023/ I have not seen Stinky butt or shit eater at the downtown bus terminal or lawndale for a while, I am wondering if Stinky butt and Shit eater left the state of Indiana.Stinky butt has family in Missouri so maybe they thought they could not get any more money out of me then why stick around,Stinky butt was never my "friend" to begin with,just hanging around asking me for my help because we were "friends". That is what "friends" do, they help each other out, Stinky butt claimed we were “family” (probably because their own family disowned them) .They did this because family help each other out when they needed it (to the best of their ability), I would have never gone to stinky butt for that much help because 

1. I did not need it 

and 

1. I have a family who would not hesitate to come to my rescue if I asked. 

Stinky butt did not have that kind of family, because they burned too many bridges with their family. Really sad to burn bridges with your own family to the point where they cant go to them when they are in need. That is why they tried to make me their family. Kind of sad and lame if you ask me.  They claimed to be out on their luck but that is what stinky butt does, they always play the victim so they can manipulate others into getting what they want with spending little or no money of their own. Stinky butt is a crook, so is shit eater. and for the record, I did help stinky butt and shit eater the best that I could, but for some reason all my effort was not good enough, 

Stinky butt was and is  greedy and wanted more and more and more and more, 

They wanted more than I could ever offer, and when I could not offer what they wanted, then they were cynical and mean towards me, this is not what a true "friend" does. My fucking house is not a homeless shelter. Just because I have a fucking house does not mean I am obligated  to share it. I know plenty of people who own a fucking house but I never once asked to stay at that fucking house for a long period of time, 

if stinky butt was my true "friend" then they would not walk away the moment I could not help them the way they wanted me too, second a true "friend" would not ask so much from me like stinky butt did.If my friends and family are in need I will do my best to my ability to help out and a true friend would appreciate any kind of help I give them, even if it is just a phone number or even advice. a true friend would say thank you and that would be it. Not Stinky butt I did not let them stay at my fucking house so they was cyincal and held a grudge even though I said call Aurora and 211, they can help you they way I can not.  

Stinky butt did not want to do that because that meant they would have to do leg work, they would have to eventually get out of the situation they were in and work at getting out of the gutter, Stinky butt did not want to get out of the gutter because that would mean they are not pathetic losers they are successful and no one would feel sorry for them, they could no longer manipulate people. they would have to spend their own money on rent and bills. Stinky butt just wanted to stay at my fucking house, not work, and not pay rent and bills. 

What a loser. I bet that was their plan the last time they asked(2019). Just to not work, stay at my fucking house, they would fail on paying me rent and helping out with utilities. Only pay a month or two and then quit paying all together, hoping I would be nice enough for them to continue living at my fucking house rent free. They thought I would be ok with that because I am such an easy going nice guy(and I would not want them to be on the street). 

They did not expect me to say it was not going to work out………Then they claimed I was greedy for even bringing up the fact that they owed me money, when I was just trying to get that paid back, They claimed I was trying to extort them.

AND they said I would break my arm patting myself on the back for being such a good person and helping them out. Stinky butt can not comprehend that I helped them out of the kindness of my heart and not to boost my ego.Stinky butt has no ability to empathize that is why they gave me shit for when 

I empathized with them. They dont have the intellect to empthize with others because stinky butt is so narrisititic and self centered that they can not figure out how to give a flying fuck for others, other than themself.   

SO stinky butt is not a person of their word.(that was just a lie to get me to give them money) they are just a lying sack of shit con. who manipulates people into giving them what they need so they don't actually have to beg for it, and so they don't actually have to work for it. But at the same time, they would criticize anyone who is on government assistance just trying to survive. Stinky butt is a leech. 

I just hope I never ever see that piece of shit again. Stinky butt is just so selfish, only thinking of themself. Never thinking about how taking my money affects me. Like Jar said, I was an ATM for Stinky butt and shit eater. That is all I was to them. Once it dried out… they turned their back on me. That is never what a "friend" should ever do to someone. Stinky butt was never a "friend". It is sad really, I gave my friendship to them, I was there for them. I helped them out the best that I could and I still get stomped on, blamed and criticized, I still get called greedy and selfish. I have a fucking house yes, but I am not obligated to share it. Allowing them to stay at my fucking house  was only supposed to be for a few weeks….. a month tops, but Stinky butt never got off their ass to find a place, Stinky butt kept dragging their feet, making up poor excuses why they could not go out and find a place to rent. Stinky butt did not want to leave my fucking house. It was low rent, and free everything else, why would they ever want to leave that? no matter what the stress it put on me. Stinky butt was living high on the hog.Stinky butt did not give a flying fuck the stress it gave me as long as they got want the needed.Who really is the selfish one here? Stinky butt would shove their own mother in the mud if it meant they would get a meal. I am serious about this. I was too nice to let them stay for so long, I wish I had thought about the hotel option. Yes I know Stinky butt did not want to stay in a hotel, but if they were not going to be proactive on finding a place to rent what other choice do they have? The truth is Stinky butt, just did not want to leave my fucking house, it was just too good of a situation for them, even if it put stress on me. Stinky butt just did not give a flying fuck.               

Stinky butt does not give a flying fuck about me at all. As soon as I was not an asset(ATM) to them they were gone. What a piece of sh*t. They were cynical and mean towards me the very moment I did not give them money or let them stay at my fucking house. Even though I tried to help them the best I could. They still claimed I would rather them be homeless than live at my fucking house. Well they aint staying at my fucking house so if the alternative is the street well then have fun sleeping on the sidewalk. I gave you options to not stay on the street (call211) and they did not want to do that for some reason. If they called Aurora or 211 that would mean they would actually have to WORK at not being homeless and follow rules and guidelines. That is not what Stinky butt and Shit eater wanted to do. They just wanted to stay at my fucking house rent free. Making me do all the work. Never helping with fucking house work. Never keeping their area organized or clean. 

Now I am not mr clean but I at least TRY to keep my fucking house in order. Stinky butt and Shit eater, and Thresa too were not very good house guests. They just wanted to take advantage, no matter what stress it caused me. And then stinky butt has the balls to say I turned my back on them? I did quite the opposite. 

I did MORE than I ever should have to help them out. My other friends never asked me for help because they are my friends they dont ask because they know I am not able to help.Stinky butt just asks and when i dont help the way they want me to(because I did help) I am “greedy”.It makes me so mad that I did all that and I get sh*t on. BUT it does not matter. I was never helping stinky butt and shit eater for gratification. I was helping because that was the right thing to do. Stinky butt has no ability to empathize so they only help people for their own satisfaction, only to make them look good. I could give a flying fuck how it makes me look. I know it is the right thing to do. I helped them. I still get scolded.Dam if you do dam if  you dont. 

I help stinky butt out, hand them all kinds of money, use my credit card to help them with the promise i get paid back(i dont) let them live in my fucking house for nearly a year and in the end I lose a "friend" because stinky butt could not use and manipulate me anymore. 

The only reason they were sticking around acting like they were ""friends"”. Their motive was to drain me dry of my resources. “borrow” my tools and things but never return them,(so i no longer have them) “borrow” money but never pay it back.Use my credit card so my credit is damaged. Live in my fucking house, trash it, make it unlivable.have the cats spray and tear up the fucking house too (but I had them in my garage because i knew better). They left all sorts of trash in my car port never returning to pick it up,left that fucking grill, never picking it up.then pissed off when i finally made them get that grill, why? because it would trash their yard and not mine. They wanted my yard trashed. they wanted their mail at my fucking house because they wanted my fucking house.  The plan all along was just to make me as poor as they were.Stinky butt never liked it that I had a little more cash than they did. They wanted to change that. So that they could be on top and better than me. Make me the poor white trash in the gutter slob so they could be better. So once they could not do that anymore, once I caught on to their malarky they were cynical and mean and not friendly.     

August 8, 2023

Jesse Ives,

We hope there is never ever anyone else that you can manipulate, lie to and take advantage of. Jesse  We do not wish harm on you, but you seriously need mental help. Not just one therapist, you need a whole team of professionals looking over you 24 hours,7 days a week, examining you and trying to figure out how the hell they can help you.

 

We hope you will look past your inflated ego and get some serious help. There is no shame in asking for help.Mental Illness has the sigma of having shame attached to it and if you ask for help, somehow there is something wrong with you. This view needs to change, because it is not true. 

If you found out that you had cancer, you would not hesitate to get healthy. The same should apply to mental health.If there is something wrong with your brain,(clearly there is) then you should do everything you can to fix it. Just like if there is something wrong with your heart, you would fix it. The brain should be no different, since the brain and heart are both a part of you. if something that is a part of you is broken (your brain) why not fix it for your wellbeing? 

It is really up to you Jesse to get the help that you need. You do not have to suffer. You do not have to keep living the way that you do.You don't have to be the same as your father. We really do wish you the very best,and we hope you get the help that you truly need, then maybe you won't manipulate, take advantage of and steal from people like you have in the past.You may not realize it but what you did was very very hurtful. We hope you change your narcissistic selfish behavior,because this behavior is very harmful to others around you.Please do get some help, find your happiness and good luck to you. We hope you can get better. 

Concerned Citizens of Montgomery Alabama ..

Jessica McCammon Ives?

402 Sequoia Lane

Evansville Indiana 47712 

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Treasure Hunt ATTN: PAYROLL 4619 University Dr Evansville IN 47712

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10/16/23

9 times out of 10 Stinky butt and Shit eater have left the state of Indiana…... .GOOD. I am glad they are out of my life. It is a shame because I was truly their friend . But I can not be "friends" with someone who manipulates and uses me. That is precisely what 

stinky butt was doing. Just hanging out with me to see what they could gain. Making me feel sorry for them so they can get me to give them money, etc. That is the ONLY reason stinky butt was acting like a "friend", because the very MOMENT i could not help them, give them money they were mean and cynical, a true "friend" would not do that, hell a true "friend" would not have asked so much from me in the first place, my true friends know the boundaries of any friendship. Stinky butt did not know the boundaries of a true friendship. I was just someone they could use and manipulate so they would not have to actually work for anything. I had a tool or item they tried to just ask me for said tool etc, that way they would not have to buy it themself. Because they would have no intention of returning it. It was not fair I had such an item and they wanted it and did not want me to have it. 

I had a fucking house and that was not fair, so they tried their best to trash it and make it unlivable. They tried to use my credit card and ruin my credit, because I have good credit, they don't. It was not fair. I had money in the bank So they tried to drag me down to their level, making me as poor as they were. They wanted to be better, on top, so they attempted to drag me down, make me poor, ruin my credit. which is pretty pathetic. Trying to be on top and the only way to do so is to rob and steal from someone drag them in the gutter so they are on top. very childish. because they could be successful without dragging others down in order to get on top. they could actually get on top and help others along the way. Stinky butt is 100% pure loser. 

I tried to help Stinky butt the last time they were homeless, I gave them the phone numbers to Aurora, and 211, catholic charities etc. These are organizations that are set to help people like Stinky butt. Since I was not equipped to  help Stinky butt this was the best I thought I could do. This was not what Stinky butt expected. Stinky butt just wanted me to offer them stay at my fucking house again. Forgetting the fact it caused me so much stress, forgetting the fact I could not have any other visitors, forgetting it out me into debt. Forgetting they trashed my fucking house, my garage. but stinky butt did not forget, stinky butt just did not give a flying fuck what it did to me. they wanted my fucking house plain and simple. Stinky butt and Shit eater are totally out of my life and I hope I never run into them or see them ever again. Stinky butt is a mess and I hope they get help, but I never want to deal with that motherfucker ever again. They were using me as an ATM and it dried up. Even Shit eater said once they should get a credit card in case I am not around. they said the quiet part out loud. They should get a credit card even if I am around. I am not there just for them to use my credit card but apparently to shit eater my credit card was all that was good to them. once I stopped that malarky they weren't very nice. I mean I have recordings of shit eater calling me begging me to help when I just could not help, i did not have the extra 

 I was not about to have them stay at my fucking house again. I know how they are, Stinky butt would never leave, dragging their feet making no effort to ever leave. They wanted back in and they found a reason to ask to stay at my fucking house again. Made themselves homeless intentionally. So that they could make me feel sorry for them. BUT I saw past the bullshit . they had every chance to find a place. 

It is offensive to me to claim I turned my back on them. after all I did for them, and even after I made the effort to help them the last time stinky butt claims I was a bad "friend", greedy and selfish. I gave the effort and went out of my way to try to get them help. It just was not appreciated. because Stinky butt just wanted to live the high life, high on the hog, living at my fucking house with no responsibiltes what so ever. Fuck them. 

this is why I blocked them right after they told me I did not help them, and that  I turned my back on them. They just wanted a free meal and a place to stay for free. in 2019 when they asked to stay at my fucking house again, they both did not have a job, this is why they were evicted in the first place, no income, could not pay rent, so how could they pay me rent? that is the thing they were hoping they would not have to. but I knew they did not have the money to pay me so I said it was not going to work out. I was not being selfish, just smart, I saw past the malarky and stinky butt did not like that. They were hoping I would be a sucker and just give in to their con. 

 Stinky butt turned their back on me the VERY MOMENT they said to me that I turned my back on them, after all I did to help them, after all I did, it was still not enough. I was still the “bad friend",(even though I was not) I was still greedy and selfish(not true) from their fucked up persepctive. They did not even add the fact all the times that I went out of my way to help them. Stinky butt did not really want to call the organizations that would help them because that would mean they would have to make an effort to get out of the gutter, that would mean real work, which stinky butt and shit eater are not capable of. It would also mean they would have to pay rent and rent is not cheap. even a one bedroom could be over $500 a month plus utilities. They were living at my fucking house 600 a month utilites included. Plus it was a nice large fucking house, the 500 would get maybe a one bedroom apartment.  

I gave them money,bailed them out from being evicted, gave them money when they were short on rent.  let them over use my credit card many many times(thought they would pay me back), let them store their junk underneath my car port. I let them stay at my fucking house for 9 months. and when they stayed with me I had their cats in my garage(not the best condition for the cats) so I had to stall construction on my recording studio (there was no way I was going to have those cat in my fucking house). They never kept up with the cats, litter box, so flies infested my garage. It stank bad, they started to reproduce. Something I had been waiting for a long time to complete. 

I did so much for these motherfuckers and in the end I get pushed in the mud, they claimed I was trying to extort them for money. when ALL I was trying to do was get my money paid back so I could pay back my credit card. that is ALL I was trying to do. I did not want anything above what they owed me. Stinky butt just claimed I was being selfish when all I was trying to do was stay out of debt. as they was trying to drag me into debt so they would not have to be on the bottom anymore. but in the end Stinky butt is still on the bottom, as thias said stinky butt will always be in the same situation. in the gutter. because they will always find a short cut, find someone to bail them out so they dont have to do any real work. what a lazy piece of sh*t stinky butt really is. stinky butt is worst than any “welfare queen” because stinky butt is the ultimate welfare queen. 

Stinky butt always thought only of themself. Never thinking of the impact it had on me, the stress it caused. I could not even have "friends" or family visit because they were over running my fucking house. Paying minimal rent and never helping with utilities. They were not going to leave until I had to insist they leave and Stinky butt acted like I was kicking them out of their family homestead. When I wanted my life back. I dont think Stinky butt really 100% forgave me for insisting they leave my fucking house and get a place of their own. It was stinky butt that always stated “we are "friends" but we could never be roommates” I agreed 110% but that is when I had the apartment. It was way too small. When I got my fucking house, it was much larger, and Stinky butt could see the opprotunity to live in a much better place, a nice quiet neighborhood.

 Pay me minimal rent, no help on utilities even though they were used 3x as much. and I was stuck with the bills, as yes it was my fucking house and my bills to pay but the usage went up 3x as much so it would only be fair to get help for that usage as I would not have been able to afford it. I would not have used it that much in the first place. Stinky butt is just a drain on society. 

I wish them the best, I am not that bad of a person. I do not wish harm on anyone, even the motherfucker who screwed me over. But I never want to deal with stinky butt or shit eater again. They need help, I am just not the one capable of giving them such help. 

look here, I helped stinky butt and shit eater out the best I could, I sacrificed a lot i mean ALOLT.I  went into debt, spent money that I will NEVER get back. Helped them out, bailed them out more than once. I never really asked to be paid back but when I asked I never asked for anything extra like interest. and their response was that I was trying to extort them. as if they did not owe me any money. 

I did for them more than I ever should have and I still get thrown in the mud and called a bad friend. Stinky butt should be as lucky as finding half as good  a friend as I am. I was a real good friend . I gave up a lot for stinky butt. AND shit eater, but despite ALL  the help i gave them, they still push me in the mud, say I am a bad "friend" and say I am selfish and greedy. Just because I did not help out even more. I never asked for anything in return, except to be paid back(so i could at least be even), that is not being greedy, yet stinky butt called me greedy for asking to be paid back as if I had unlimited money or something. I never did , and I never acted like I did.(stinky butt was just greedy)  God help me I hope they never show up on my property again. I WILLl call the authorities. It is probably one reason why they never do come around. 

1. they live on the west side of town, it is too much money(bus fare) and too much time to come to the east side. Just to risk the chance I would even be at home. (i would not answer anyway if I am not outside doing yard work)

2 .stinky butt knows I will not talk to them after seeing them on the bus and I was not very excited to even  talk with them. I guess I must have gave out a  fuck you vibe even though i was nice. 

1. I will not help them again, this is why they never even once tried to contact me(even after blocking them on the phone and social media they know where I live) yet they made no effort at all, because they know I will not give them money any more, why bother….and that is sad. I am not a resource for stinky butt and more, I am not an ATM so stinky butt just turns their back on me. and tells me I am a bad "friend" for not helping them when they are in need after all the help and money I did give them. no appreciation for what i did give. just take take take. 

10/17/23

Stinky butt is an example of fuck around and find out. Stinky butt thought they was ok by giving me sh*t for not helping them (the way they wanted) the last time they asked for help, the last time they were homeless, even though i went out of my way to research places to help them that are equipped to handle a case like stinky butt (they could have done the same thing)Then when stinky butt was angry at me and not even telling me why, as if I was supposed to know. (that is how self centered they are) finally telling me I did not help them when they were at their worst. even though i helped out to the best of my knowledge and ability. It is very offensive for stinky butt to expect more than I could give, which is exactly what they did. they expected more out of me, more than I could ever provide and when i did not follow through to their demands….i was the bad "friend" who turned my back on them. No other person that I have even known, no other "friend" would do this or expect this from me. they could ask for help and I could respond “oh i am so sorry i just can't help you” they would be alright and move on, they would not end a friendship over it like stinky butt did.  

I am not a social worker, I am not a manager of a  homeless shelter and I am not someone with an unlimited amount of funds that can just be given away with no questions asked. Stinky butt treated me as if I was all four. and when I did not follow  through with what they demanded they turned their back on me. at the sametime claiming I turned my back on them.

I don't think stinky butt really has any other "friends". At least  I never met any of them. They probably burned too many bridges, that is why they had to start over in Indiana  and leave home. I was a true "friend", stinky butt was not my "friend". just there to see what they could get out of me, and when there was nothing more they could get, stinky butt was gone. What a loser. They never come around to my fucking house because I am no longer an asset to them, they cant get money out of me why bother being around me, so sad. 

10/24/23

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I remember one time hanging out with stinky butt I had a jar full of coins. They offered to count it for me, I figured what was the harm since I was there with them, they could not pocket the money., 

As they counted it, I know now they wished they had this jar of  money. As I recall after I cashed it in (it was maybe $20-30) they asked for help on gas because they knew I had the cash now. 

What a loser…… I had this money saved up and I was going to use it for my bills. 

This is what I mean by if stinky butt knew how much money I had in the bank

(as of 10/24, over $3000.00 ... .closer to 4k) they would do everything to get it ALL for themselves, not caring that I need that money to pay my bills. that I actually work for that money. stinky butt just does not give a flying fuck about anyone but themself. It is all about stinky butt. I may have some cash in the bank but that does not matter, it is not fair and it all should go to stinky butt. It it did not matter if stinky butt thought I was rich, (they called me rich boy one time) I am not rich, but I guess only having almost 4 grand in the bank compared to the four pennies stinky butt has in their pocket. 4 grand is a lot of money, but it does not matter that I have bills to pay, I have 4 grand and it all should go to stinky butt instead. LOSER. 

Call me selfish, call me greedy all you want, stinky butt but you can't guilt trip me any more. I work, I pay taxes. I HAVE BILLS TO PAY just like every red blooded american adult.  am not your fucking ATM.  I mean JESUS FUCKING CHRIST.

 I could help you directly BUT I did try to get you help in some way. I will do that for anyone. BUT I will not set myself on fire just so you can have a warm bed. That means I will help you but I will not sacrifice my own well being just so you have it good. That is not fair to me. (that is no way selfish, I have boundaries) 

BUT I will do my best to get you stinky butt started, which I did but stinky butt did not want the help I gave them, that is offensive because I went out of my way out of my busy day to get said information. All Stinky butt wanted was to stay at my  fucking house rent free, all utilities included no responsibilities, no chores, no contribution whatsoever, just to live free at my fucking house. and they were not going to take any help that is less than an offer to stay at my fucking house. This is exactly why Stinky butt turned their back on me, but claimed I turned my back on them to guilt trip me. to deflect on what they were actually doing.  Stinky butt walked away from the “friendship”. Leading me to say fuck it. Realizing how much stinky butt was never a ""friend" to me the whole time I knew them, because they walked away the very second that  I could not give them money or things. which only proves they were only sticking around to see what they could squeeze out of me. Once they could not get anything from me like money they were cynical and mean, not friendly at all. That is just the same as just walking away, turning their back on me. They were cynical , mean, less communication, just the same as turning their back on me. It is not like I did not help them at all, I did. I tired to get them help when they were homeless. BUT it just was not the help they wanted. They wanted help without the work. Just to live rent free, all utilities paid, and with out any responsibilities of fucking house work or anything like that. JAR was right, I wish I had listened to him . So I hope Stinky butt and Shit eater have left the state, it would be so much better if they moved far away. I would be so glad if they did and I never ever have to see those fucking losers ever again. If I do I will not acknowledge them whatsoever. I dont even know who the flying fuck they are. 

Stinky butt and Shit eater are bad people,karma will get them in the end. 

Stinky butt fucked around and found out and lost a good "friend" in the process. But in the end Stinky butt was not really a "friend" to begin with because if Stinky butt really was a "friend" they would not have asked so much from me. A real "friend", family knows boundaries. you see, stinky butt never really learned boundaries. Never learned that you don't ask people for so much when they can not give what you need. I could not provide and give stinky butt what they needed(housing,money etc) so when I could not provide stinky butt was just angry, and angry at me because I did not give them what they needed. somehow stinky butt assumed I was rich? I never acted like I was rich. I had a job but I did not make over 30k a year. That is still poverty. I may have had a credit card but only with a co-signer in the beginning. a credit card is no way free money. It is a huge responsibility and if stinky butt ever is given a credit card, watch out because they will be in so much debt, there is a good reason they do not have one. ONLY the credit card companies would benefit because of the interest they would owe. there is no way they would ever pay any of it back. 

I was a true "friend" to stinky butt and shit eater. ( and even dumbledorf) I did truly care for their well being but stinky butt just took advantage of that and I got so tired of the manipulation and lies. I did not let them live in my fucking house again after (and all that happened before who would blame me?) although i did not want them living in my fucking house it did not mean I wanted them homeless. I would not want them living on the street but I did not want them living in my fucking house. but stinky butt twisted that and claimed I would rather they be homeless than live in my fucking house, trying to guilt me.

basically saying the only two choices were 1. the street and 2 my fucking house. and since I did not want them at my fucking house, stinky butt twisted it by saying I want them to be homeless. Id rather have them homeless then in my fucking house, well my fucking house was never an option. In reality I tried to get them help in other ways. I am not heartless and I would not want them to be living on the street, just not at my fucking house. there are so many people who are homeless in evansville,I would not want them to be homeless but that does not mean they get an invite to live in my fucking house. The other option from living on the street is a homeless shelter but since Stinky butt had 20 cats they could not go there, and they refused to give up said cats. Oh well you made your bed stinky butt. you should not have tried to flying fuck a teenager. sick fuck. 

10/26/23 1310

Stinky butt would not give a flying fuck if I did not have money or not, stinky butt did not give a flying fuck if having them stay at my fucking house was a hard ship or not, they felt entitled to what I had just because they are stinky butt.and stinky butt gets what ever stinky butt wants and when stinky butt does not get what they deserve the act like a little child., they take their ball and go home. if you were a "friend" to stinky butt and you did not give what they wanted well then they become mean and cynical towards you. and then you wonder what the flying fuck you did, because they dont tell you. they just stop communication like a 5 year old would do. making you apologize for something you never did but that is part of the manipulation. They act like you did something horrible to them so you come crawling back trying to be better and sh*t like that. Stinky butt is just an awful person. They were never a true "friend". a true "friend" would know boundaries, a true "friend" would know my economic status they would know that I don't have a whole lot of money despite me having a credit card, ( a lot of average people have credit cards) They just screwed up their credit so they saw I had a credit card and saw “free money” regardless what it did to me, as long as stinky butt got what they “deserve” it did not matter the stress it caused me, stinky butt was only out for stinky butt. that is it. and when stinky butt did not get what they asked for they threw a temper tantrum took their ball and went home, good god almighty I know 5 year olds that are more mature than that. No wonder this fucker likes mcfart face pos   they acts just like them. 

stinky butt was my "friend" up to the point I did not give them anything. (they were just nice to me so they could get money from me) The moment I did not give them anything they asked for stinky butt was mean to me, and would insult me. One time they claimed I was so stupid I could not tie my own shoes. I was like where the flying fuck is this coming from?  Stinky butt was pissed off at me but i had no idea at the time why they would not communicate to me, why they were mad, just expected me to know why, they are a little bitch, always expecting people to kiss their ass but at the same time criticizing others of doing the same thing, deflecting on others. They are so narcissistic that they expected me to know why they are mad at me, why they are cynical towards me. 

10/30/23

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I've stopped talking to the toxic people who were in my life.

They never were real friends, because the very moment I didn't give them my money and let them stay at my house..

They were cynical and unfriendly towards me.

All they wanted to do (as I realize now) was to live at my house, rent free and not contribute to any bills that came with living at my house....like utilities, Netflix etc.

and also not contribute to any house work/chores and at the same time still ask me for money and when I did scrape the little extra money I didn't really have to help them , they never paid me back and when I did ask to be paid back (so I wouldn't  be totally in debt) they claimed it to be extortion!! 

It took me a bit to realize they were never true friends at all. 

Also if anyone ever needs help please don't hesitate to ask me. I will try my best to help to the best of my abilities and resources I have.

The difference is...these people didn't appreciate the help I did give them. And they didn't respect boundaries.

Good riddance

10/30/23

and that is what started the beginning of the end, is when I asked stinky butt if they knew anyone that removes fences and even in texting had an attitude asking depends on how much I am willing to spend indicating that they would be the one to remove the fence and I responded by saying just give me some names of people if you know any. They would never actually state they was the one offering the “service” expecting me to “figure it out” 

then they gave me a nasty attitude. I just responded back that they needed to get help(mental help)  and they were said to me  I never gave them help when they asked for it,(let them stay in my fucking house)  forgetting or just flat out refusing to recognize that I did help them many times over. I just said to them I did not have the money thinking it was the help they were referring to but it was the time I said they could not stay at my fucking house, stinky butt acually held a grudge since summer of 2019. It was 2022 when this conversation happened. 

I also had not been hanging out with stinky butt and Shit eater because of the pandemic. Only looking out for them and myself and others. BUT Stinky butt took it too personally thinking I was making excuses not to hang out.

They did not believe the covid 19 was a big deal as they never got vaccinated or even wore a mask in public. I was not about to get myself sick, get others sick and I was thinking of my own family as well. This was before I even got a chance to get a vaccination, before they were even available. BUT even after being vaccinated I refused to hang out if they did not wear a mask because I could unknowingly give the virus to them because I could be fine(because I am vaccinated) but still have the virus give it to stinky butt and shit eater and then they could contract it to someone else not being vaccinated or wear a mask. I was being careful and thinking of others , 

all stinky butt could say is I was “acting paranoid”. 

So IF one good thing came out from the pandemic it is that I found out truly what  a bad person stinky butt is. I had a legitimate excuse not to have them over or not to hang out. They just took it personally anyway and thought I was making up excuses. Which at the time I was not. I hated not being able to socialize. BUT I found Stinky butt to be a truly bad person only hanging around me to see how much change they could get from me. Because if that was not true Stinky butt would have never crossed that line. or at least did it once and never again. BUT They did cross that line( and I helped) so they saw the opportunity to keep asking and asking. 

If my "friends" and family need help I try my best to help them to the best of my ability. My real "friends" know not to ask so much from me. I would not do the same. Stinky butt just did not have sense to know where the proper rules of a true "friend" ship was because they never truly had "friends", they were just assets to them, just to see how they could gain from the friendship and once they could not get anything out of me they claim I was the bad "friend" and turned my back on them. when in reality it was never a friendship to begin with because really if it was a real friendship stinky butt would not have asked so much from me, they would realize I am not rich and did not have all sorts of money just to give out. They would have respected my property and insist that they dont stay at my fucking house and get a hotel room like any adult would. they just saw the opportunity to stay rent free.  It would have even been cheaper than any hotel room and I guarantee if  I had insisted they get a hotel room(after they established a job) they would have quit claiming they could no longer afford said hotel room. and then coming to me to stay at my fucking house. 

so in the end, Stinky butt fucked around and found out. Stating that I turned my back on them and did not help them when they needed it. because in reality I did try to help them, it is not like I totally did not attempt to help them. It was that I did not give them the help they expected me to give them. They help they thought they were entitled to. Stinky butt lost a good "friend". I did not lose a friend because Stinky butt was never my "friend" at all. Shit eater too. as far as they are both concerned, they both can go to hell. 

11/2/23

The thing about this whole situation is that stinky butt in the end did not want the help I was trying to give them when they were homeless (yet again)in the summer of 2019. I had gone out of my way once to help them by letting them stay at my fucking house for an incredible long period of time(in 2013-2014), I had stretched my budget and spent my credit card to help them on things they needed like things as simple as motor oil or to tow their car to the repair shop among other things. Even when I really did not have the means to overspend on my credit card, AND even if it was not spending the credit limit…. I was trying to only spend what I could pay back monthly  (without going over the limit as well) and with stinky butt also making purchases (even if I had the card the whole time) 

it was extra.  and extra that I could not afford and stinky butt never paid me back(claimed I was trying to extort them when I asked to be paid back)  

so I was in the hole even more.

Stinky butt even one time asked me for use of my credit card on a game they was playing on their phone. yeah that was NEVER going to happen, because the cc info would be in their phone and they would just spend spend spend. FUCK THAT 

and that is what I mean, stinky butt just took advantage pushed boundaries to see how far they could go on using me. fucked around and found out thats for sure. 

With all that being said, I guess stinky butt assumed I would do it again. I had learned my lesson the first time, since Stinky butt never paid me back for any of those purchases and I was still in the hole because of it. I even paid for first month and deposit on a rental so they could get the fuck out of my fucking house, 

Stinky butt just thought they were entitled. They absolutely are not entitled whatsoever. So when they asked me if they could stay at my fucking house again (in 2019) after being evicted (all came from losing their job because they fucked around with a college student at the college they were working at) all their fault.also since it was public record, I knew about the eviction, I was trying to 

encourage stinky butt into finding a new place, all a while not telling them i knew about the evcation(maybe i should have) they would not budge just claimed they did not have the time(just like always)

SO that laziness cost them the eviction, it was most likely and probably the plan all along, …

1. get evicted

 2. become homeless,

 3. come to pete for help

 4. just live at his fucking house. 

Stinky butt always hated that I “kicked them out” of my home, acting like I was the evil landlord kicking them out of their homestead as if they were entitled to live at my fucking house rent free, no utility payments and no fucking house work. . living the life off of my coattails having no responsibility whatsoever. 

This is why it threw them off when I said no, it ruined their whole plan of just living rent free, utilities included, no house work, no chores, just living the life off of my expense. AND I was not going to tolerate that once I realized what was going on. Stinky butt made no effort to find a place before(I had to get it for them) I was not about to have them do that to me again. I was their "friend" but even the best of "friends" have boundaries, most people know those boundaries, I would not do anything remotely to any of my "friends" or family what stinky butt did to me. I am an adult, I know boundaries and I respect them. 

I was like “that is not going to work out” stinky butt was not too happy about this.

(this is the reason they were unfriendly and cynical towards me but not telling me why expecting me to know)

But it is what it is. They took it as me turning my back on them because I did it once before, they ask to themselves, what changed? (a whole lot) I should not have done it in the first place but I am such a kind hearted guy. I hate to see people suffer. BUT I learned my lesson. and here's the catch it is not like I totally let them in  the mud, I gave them resources to help them in their situation. Contact information of services like 

Aurora,

Swirca,

Catholic Charities, 

United Care  Services 

These are places that  could do a better job at helping them. They are here to help people in exactly the situation stinky butt was in.  So it is not like I totally threw them in the mud and turned my back on them as they claimed. I knew I was not capable mentally,emotionally, physically and economically able to do so  this is why I went out of my busy schedule to look these places up, something stinky butt is capable of doing but for some reason did not. 

I looked these places up because I was not able to help stinky butt in the way that they wanted me to so I did my best to find someone who could, simple as that . Stinky butt somehow had it in their mind that I was able to help because well I did before, not thinking it was a drain on me mentally physically emotionally and economically. they just thought well I did it before then I can do it again. not even thinking or caring how it affected me in the first place, that it should have never had been an option to begin with. Stinky butt just did not respect my boundaries.did not give a flying fuck, as long as stinky butt got what stinky butt needed it did not matter who got hurt(me) in the process. 

Actually DO I know why they did not look up and call any local services that could actually help them , they are lazy and did not want to go that route of asking a place that really could help them they just wanted to stay at my fucking house rent free, pay no utilites, and do no house work.  

If they got help and out of the gutter then no one would feel sorry for them then they would be successful, that would actually be bad because then no one would feel pity on them, 

and this is what they live for. They want people to feel sorry for them, have pity on them so they can use that to their advantage and get things and money from people. if they are successful , full of life , have income to pay their bills,rent etc and  out of the gutter then they have no reason for anyone to have pity on them.that destroys the whole con game. It is quite pathetic really. I mean for someone to live and actually WANT people to feel sorry for them, they try to stay in the gutter and stay poor so they can use that to con people into giving them money and things. This is why if they ever win the lottery that would be very bad. then no one would feel sorry for them. This is why stinky butt tried to make me feel sorry for them because they had to walk so far to and from work, they feed off  the pity , they want to be pathetic and somehow use that to their advantage, 

if they go me to feel sorry for them then they could con me into giving them money for a car battery or repair ect so they would not have to walk so much to and from work, they could drive to and from work instead, but want me to pay for said repair so they don't have to. I knew what they were doing and I was not going to catch the bait. They were phishing for a scam and tried it. I knew what was up. This is why they also stopped talking to me because I was not going to fall for their con again. I tried to help them so many times. In fact I DID help them(so much out of my way too). It was not to pat myself on the back as stinky butt claimed later. they just could not comprehend that someone would actually be so selfless and kind. They only thought I was helping them to make myself look good, which is further from the truth. Stinky butt is so narcissistic that they could not comprehend someone helping other folks out simply because it is the right thing to do and not have some other motive, Stinky butt just thought they could go far getting me to help them, they did not respect my boundaries. But they wanted to see how far they could go, pushing me and to see how far I would tolerate their con. Stinky butt fucked around and found out. I hope to never see 

stinky butt or shit eater again. and if I do somehow bump into them at the bus station etc, I will not even talk to them, or acknowledge their existence. They are both dead to me. They would probably try the same con anyway and ask me for help or simply try to make me feel sorry for them and this is what they do, they manipulate others to make them feel sorry for them. People can offer help and they don't have to ask and beg for help. 

This way they are simply offered help and they dont look like they are begging for help.  Going to Aura and Catholic Charities would be asking for help, 

Stinky butt just did not want to ask. they wanted the help offered to them. Because they felt they were entitled to said help. They felt they should not have to ask for it. that is beneath them. Really pathetic. No one is too good to ask for help or ask for what they need. Stinky butt just pushed the boundaries of our so-called friendship and found out what I could tolerate.   You see, I have a lot of people who are my friends . I considered Stinky butt and Shit eater "friends" even if we disagreed on things. I still (at times) enjoyed their company, that's what it was about. BUT stinky butt just pushed me too far. I was willing to lose a "friend" over what they did. I just could not tolerate the behavior and manipulation. everytime I would turn around they would be asking me for help on rent or a hotel or asking me for things like tools or my ladder. My guitar or SNES. Stinky butt never had a true "friend" so they thought this is what "friends"  do. BUT even the best of "friends" have boundaries. My other real friends would not ask me what stinky butt asked me because they respect me. 

I know one of my oldest and dearest friend once told me he was really down on his luck after the divorce but did not come to me for money because he respects me and our friendship as I would not do the same. I mean I would not have left him in the dark. I would try my best to help. but the difference is any of my other "friends" and family would have appreciated any help I give out and not think they are entitled to my money. as stinky butt thought. I mean I tried to help them when they were homeless AGAIN (without the offer of living in my fucking house) but stinky butt thought all other help was bentath them. they were only entitled to my fucking house and no other help was good enough. stinky butt just wanted my fucking house. THEY would have been satisfied if I just handed over the deed. infact one time when i was joking around and said I am moving to nYC(bob dylan lyric) they said to me if I would sell them my fucking house. on contract. all along the motherfucker wanted my fucking house.  

 They know I am not rich regardless if I have a credit card or not, a credit card is not free money as stinky butt would think it is . just because i owned a fucking house did not mean I had buckets of cash hidden somewhere to just spend on what ever. Stinky butt did not give a flying fuck. they just wanted what stinky butt wanted at any cost even if the cost was my friendship, stinky butt did not give a flying fuck. 

in the end Stinky butt and shit eater lost me as a "friend". I did not lose them as "friends" because they were never a true "friend" to me, I was just an asset, ATM and credit card to stinky butt and shit eater, once that asset dried up they were done with me  and that was precisely what happened,because once I could not give them the help they believed they were entitled to(because 

I did give them help) they were cynical and mean towards me. and for a while 

I did not know why until stinky butt revealed that I did not help them when they needed it and I turned my back on them, as in when they asked to stay at my fucking house I did not agree so therefore they were out on the street. In fact 

there were a few times after they left in 2014 stinky butt called me up because they were homeless but i would not budge, they claimed Id rather they be homeless then live in my fucking house, well if the choice is my fucking house or the street then get a blanket because the sidewalk is hard. 

the fact IS I do not want them homeless,i just did not want them at my fucking house, there are  more than two options asshole. my fucking house was never an option. Stinky butt made it out to be only TWO options so they could manipulate me into making me feel bad for them. They made it out to only two options my fucking house or the street, when my fucking house was NEVER an option to begin with.  that is their way of manipulation making me feel bad for refusing to have them live at my fucking house rent free because i know how that would end up,they was unemployed no income. so screw them  NEVER EVER want to see them EVER again. Stinky butt will lie and con their way out of anything. NO I would not want them homeless BUT then go to a shelter. I gave them phone numbers of places that could absolutely help them but they did not take the help. Stinky butt just wanted to stay at my fucking house rent free and i see that now. There were times where they tried not to pay me the 200 a week “rent” and I insisted they don't skip, because if they can skip once they can take that as an advantage. BUT then acted like I was taking all their money/ Well then find some place else to live then. without contributing SOMETHING you cant live at my fucking house, even I had to pay(for utilites and property tax) OH And I paid for the fucking house too. Motherfucker just thought that they were so entitled to something they did not deserve. 

You see I have to work extra hard, my right knee does not work as well as it should.

 I have learning disabilities. ADHD, I have NF. I don't use those as a crutch or excuse.

 I thrive to succeed anyway. I went to school and even college and graduated. I tried my best to get an education and  then get a job where I can make my own money (and I succeeded) to get a house and things that I need. 

Although my house was a “gift” it was not a hand out. It was a leg up

(no pun intended). I am humble because I am grateful for what I have and I don't take it for granted. I don't brag about it. In fact I never told stinky butt I bought my house with cash, no mortgage or my trust, stinky butt just assumed I had money because I had a credit card. and They figured out on their own that I must have had help for my house because of my low income, they just assumed. ANd I still never told them. They went on an assumption. 

and I was tired of being manipulated and taken advantage of. When  stinky butt claimed to me I did not help them when they needed it most and turned my back on them they gave me an out and I took it. I was not going to be insulted like that. I don't give a flying fuck. I saw what they were doing. I did try to help them to the best of my ability. Stinky butt is just not grateful for the help I was trying to give them. They just wanted to live at my fucking house rent free, utilites  included. use of laundry and shower. no contribution to housework and chores, that is beneath them. Stinky butt just expected me to worship the ground they walked on kiss their ass and let them live in my fucking house.after nine months i had to put a stop to it. Stinky butt was just not moving fast enough. they was always between jobs, in the hospital or spending all their money on paying me rent and the rent for the car. so they had no room to save up to get a place. most places needed a deposit. I ended up paying for first months rent and deposit, it was worth the 1400 because I needed them out of my fucking house. I should have just said go to a hotel room. I know that would have been rough for them knowing I had a “mansion” compared to a hotel room but my GOD, not my problem. at that point the both had jobs, they could afford SOMETHING. just get the fuck out of my fucking house. I had to stop the construction of my studio which when i told them they acted like I was bluffing just to get them to move out. I was not bluffing but I WAS using that fact to get them to move faster, it did not seem to work, they did not give a flying fuck if I was going to build a recording studio in my garage 

when later on  stinky butt gave me sh*t for having the means to build a studio when they did not have the means to build their dream kitchen, tuff cookies not my problem. I worked hard to build my studio. To acquire all  the equipment for said studio. go to school to learn about music and music recording. It was my passion. I had the means to do so. Tough cookies if you cant do the same, not to sound harsh and heartless. It's not my problem. I mean I wish the best but don't give me sh*t for something that has nothing to do with you. It's not like I am doing it just to shove it in your face stinky butt, which now that I look back at their reaction is what they were thinking. It's not all about you, stinky butt. I would have done it regardless of anything. 

Stinky butt is just a sorry ass loser,I am sorry to say this but it is the absolute truth. It is really sad. They want to be pathetic so people feel sorry for them and then they can take advantage of that. Manipulate people into giving them money. If they are not broke and poor then no one would give them money. BUT if they were not broke and poor they would not need to ask for money (i bet they would ask anyway because Stinky butt is greedy) but also I think it is deeper than that. Stinky butt wants people to feel sorry for them. Something is fucked up with stinky butt menally. 

Like the time they tried to one up me on how much soda they drink when I agreed with them that I too drink a lot of soda…. they were like “no I drink like a gallon of mt dew a day” I was like give it up man. not everything is a fucking competion. Couldn’t they just leave it that yes we both drink too much soda? 

Yeah I just hope I never have to deal with stinky butt or Shit eater ever again. 

it is really sad and pathetic that Stinky butt has to be the way they are. They will always be in the same situation. Always struggling. I tried to help them the best I could and I still get pushed in the mud, because I did not continue to help them the way THEY wanted, because I DID try to help them….I just did not have the means or the funds to help them they way THEY wanted.It is not fair to me to ask for they type of help they were asking me because

 I simply did not have the funds. Yes I have a credit card and even I have a bank account like any normal person would but my credit card is not for anyone to use.It comes with great responsibility. If I spend using said card, I HAVE TO PAY BACK THE BALANCE or else will face interest and fines. It is not FREE MONEY. This is why Stinky butt and Shit eater will never get good credit to have a credit card because of this mindset. If they had any sense at all they would never even remotely ask to use my credit card, but they did not respect me or my boundaries. If stinky butt had one ounce of respect for me, they would not have asked as much as they did.I am glad I will never see them again(i hope) it has been at least April since I saw them last on the bus and at the bus station. They can both fuck off.  They need help. I mean mentally need help. 

And just because I did not give Stinky butt money when they had fallen on desperate hard times does not make me greedy or selfish as they would try to guilt me. It was that I was not rich as stinky butt claimed me to be. and I simply did not have the spare cash to help them,(I scraped every thing extra I had when I did help them, I went beyond my means to help them out and I still get pushed in the mud)  that is why I looked for alternatives to help them WITHOUT giving them money,things or letting them stay at my fucking house. I am not totally heartless, I will help a "friend" in need when I can but I have limits, Stinky butt just fucked around and found out…pushed those limits to see how far they could go and lost a "friend" in the process. sorry stinky butt, your loss not mine.

Stinky butt

just had it in their head that I had all kinds of money to spare and I could just throw it around to anyone who needed it. OR they just did not give a flying fuck and wanted to seperate me from my money because in reality Stinky butt is greedy and selfish. It did not matter if I was barely scraping by and did not really have the extra funds to help them. Stinky butt needed money and stinky butt was going to take the money I had so stinky butt could have money. It was not fair that I had money (I really did not) and stinky butt had nothing. So stinky butt wanted to take what I had do stinky butt could have it. Stinky butt would leave me in the dust if it meant they would have a pile of cash to spend on junk. Even though they had a job and an income, they spent all their paycheck on sh*t they did not need and then when it came time to pay rent and bill(adult stuff) they were broke, so they asked me for “help” and promised to pay me back next payday, when  said payday came along I did not hear anything from them, it was like they were lying just so they could get me to give them my money. It did not matter that I really did not have the extra funds to give them ANYTHING but I felt bad for them and they did promise to pay back so I figured whats the difference. I’’ll pay out now but get even when I get paid back the next week, except it never happened and they kept asking and asking for more help. And never ever paying it back except for a few hundred tops. Then when I ask for more of it back(just to break even) I  get accused of trying to steal it from them, extortion etc. accused me of being greedy and taking all their money so they are poor and dont have a dime. guilting me on even having the audacity of asking to be paid back so I dont go into debt and have to pay late fees and interest on my credit card. dragging me further into debt. 

You see, I believe stinky butt was jealous I was financially secure, always paying my bills on time, being responsible, paying off the balance of my credit card. They want to put an end to that and drag me down to their level, putting me in a hole to where I can't pay my cc debt. 

Because really…..why was it up to me and only me to help them?  I am good hearted but I am not rich. Stinky butt just took advantage of my kind heart. I finally saw the bullshit . Stinky butt never cared about me. They just wanted my money. What little money I had in the first place,  that did not matter, stinky butt wanted it. 

you see that bitch snatch is just a low life loser. I was "friends" with  stinky butt and shit eater but they both took advantage of my kindness. I went way out of my way to help them and they took advantage of it. I stuck my neck out for them, scraped by what little extra I had to help them, thinking I would get paid back so I would be even in the end. but nope. Stinky butt just took advantage of it. Spent their paycheck on junk thinking “oh pete will just help with rent, I can spend this $800 paycheck on sh*t I dont need even though I need it for rent” 

motherfucker is a loser. They get exactly what they deserve. Stinky butt fucked around and found out. Lost a "friend" in the process but they are so selfish they moved on quickly. only telling me they missed me last time they saw me, yeah they miss my wallet and my credit card. they don't give two shits about me. otherwise they would not have asked so much from me. stinky butt never respected boundaries. they kept pushing and pushing to see how far they could go, did not really give a flying fuck if the consenquce was a lost of a friendship, they moved on pretty quickly, only appoligizing to make themselves feel and look better. they were not really sorry, only sorry they lost the opportunity to rob me even more. fuck stinky butt I hope I never see that motherfucker ever again. It's been since at least April and it is now November doing pretty good on never seeing both stinky butt and shit eater. It would be great if they just left Indiana all together. I would not acknowledge them if I did see them. I would not speak to them or even look in their direction. there is nothing stinky butt can do to walk this back they fucked up royally and there is no walking back from it because even when I saw them the last time,  they was trying to manipulate me by saying they have to walk a couple miles to and from work as if I am supposed to fix that somehow, I would say how can i help you with that and they would reply with well you can help pay for truck repair etc. I’ll pay you next payday different day same sh*t. good for you stinky butt I too have to walk a long distance to and from work, but they would argue that it is not the same, “at least I take the bus” etc. well I still have to walk to and from the bus stop. it is still difficult for me. quit your belly aching. little bitch is whining that they have to walk everyday boo hoo. i dont feel sorry for stinky butt or shit eater, they make their bed. they have to lye in it. 

If I ever tried to approach  stinky butt and shit eater about all of this… they would try to twist it all and attempt to make it all my fault. I am certain. They are only out for themselves and it doesn't matter who they hurt. 

Stinky butt did this before by claiming I was trying to extort them when I simply asked to be paid back what they rightfully owed me (and I just asked for the principle, nothing extra), something stinky butt agreed to when I lent them the money in the first place. “Said they were a man of their word” 

So when I came to them and asked for repayment (as anyone would and so I would not go into debt as anyone would expect) they acted like they did not owe me anything at all and I was being greedy trying to take all the only money they had. making me think they never intended to pay me back and they thought it was not a hardship that I lent out the money, They thought i had the extra money and did not really need to be paid back at all,  they deserved said money, they were never going to pay me back. They just wanted to take everything I had so they would be richer and better. They Pushed me in the mud in the process. I now believe that they wanted me to see how it was like to have nothing so the plan was to take it all that I had from me. Borrow money and never pay it back, borrow things like my ladder, tools, SNES etc. and never give it back, this is why stinky butt was pissed I insisted on going with them when they borrowed my ladder to assure that they returned it ,(as if I did not trust stinky butt to return it………a little secret, I did not trust them) otherwise if I did not go with them,  they would have never returned it, they wanted it for themself and never intended to return it. me being there to make sure I get it back only ruined their plan of taking it from me ( it was a very nice $200.00 ladder that I still use to this day and it is always good to have a ladder when owning a home, you never know when you will need it, it is EXACTLY WHY I HAVE ONE) the ladder is NOT FOR STINKY BUTT TO HAVE, stupid ass motherfucker thought they could just take it from me  I guess they thought that they deserved the ladder I did not in their sick head. 

Stinky butt would shame me into having a nice studio and space to create when they had nothing. shame me for having a large fucking house when they had to live in a hotel room. Something a real "friend" would not do at all. Stinky butt is all around toxic. a real "friend" wants their "friends" to be successful and would not be envious and jealous. but somehow since I did have a fucking house , I was doing it just to hurt stinky butt. I was being hurtful simply for having a fucking house and they did not and that was not fair. I had this huge fucking house but  I would not share it. Forcing stinky butt to live in a tiny hotel room, why have a huge fucking house? according to stinky butt I had plenty of room. they thought I was obligated to share my fucking house. FUCK JESSE 

I guarantee they would twist everything to be my fault. Saying I was the one who walked away from the friendship and claiming they are innocent and did nothing wrong, Fuck both of them. They can both take a short trip to hell. If I ever see stinky butt and or shit eater at the bus station downtown or lawndale or anywhere, I will tell them both to go to hell. OR I will just not acknowledge them. They were NEVER my "friend" in the first place, Stinky butt proved that once they could not get what they wanted out of me, even though I did try my best to help them with the limited resources I had. Stinky butt just wanted more and more. I could not keep providing them with funds or stay at my fucking house,that was just not an option but stinky butt wanted nothing but those two options(funds, or my fucking house) I am not ATM and my fucking house is not a homeless shelter. I did not just walk away with no help at all, I did try to get them help with the best of my ability. But with Stinky butt nothing was good enough if it did not include an offer to stay at my fucking house or money. I offered them help but it just was not good enough that is why “i turned my back on them” I did not provide what they EXPECTED therefore I “turned my back on them” . It is quite offensive really, I tried my best with the resources I had and stinky butt still would not take the help I was giving them, then they claimed I did not help them when they were at their lowest. WHAT THE FUCK ????

I will be very surprised if I ever see them again anyway, they wont just appear at my fucking house, it would take money and time to come to my side of town from the west side. too much effort on their part. 

if i had little as $5.00 in my wallet and Stinky butt saw that I had $5.00, they would immediately ask me if they could borrow(HAVE) said $5.00 not caring that I might need that $5.00 even if I did not need said money it was not his to obtain. Stinky butt was always trying to separate me from my money . Stinky butt is a bum. Stinky butt is leech Stinky butt is a crook.. I believe Stinky butt was just out to make me as poor as they were. 

Stinky butt runs away from their responsibilities yet criticizes others for doing the same. as if they are better than anyone else doing the same thing. 

If they ever get arrested and go to jail I would not be sad. It would mean they finally got caught. 

I do not regret cutting ties with stinky butt and shit eater, in fact I am glad stinky butt gave me an out. It is totally 100% on them. by claiming I was a bad "friend", selfish and greedy. when I did ALL I COULD with the resources I had to help them and they still were not appreciative. Good god someone could given stinky butt $1000 and they would complain about why it is not $5000 they would never be satisfied with what they have. Or Satisfied with what was given to them when they needed help. They were always wanting what others have. I mean I gave stinky butt soooooooo much money and dug them out of that hole so many times, they were in more than once, but they were never satisfied. they wanted all that I had my fucking house and everything in it. I gave them a hand out and they kept asking for more. I scraped up what little extra I had to help them and they still wanted more. 

I am just so glad I don't have to deal with the bullshit  anymore. I see now it was all bullshit, stinky butt was never a "friend". they were just there to see what they could get out of me, money, things, tools, etc. None of it was ever going to be returned. They were never going to return anything that they borrowed. Stinky butt did not have much and saw I had something,it was not much but it was more than stinky butt would ever have. so stinky butt just was trying to take all I had so I could be at their level.

it's like if stinky butt saw I had money in my wallet, they would ask for help and ask for the money, if I respond and say no I need it for my bills(or whatever) they would accuse me of being greedy or make up some sorry lame excuse and try to guilt me into giving them said money. stinky butt would not give a flying fuck if I needed the money for my needs, stinky butt needs it and tries everything to get it from me. Stinky butt is a very selfish self serving individual at the same time accusing me of being selfish because I did not give into their demands giving me the money or even letting them stay at my fucking house even though I let them stay at one point for way too long and the second time I learned my lesson, but I did not leave them in the dust because I gave them phone numbers of places in town who could better help them since I was not able to help I still try to reach out and help the best I could, that was not good enough. I see now stinky butt just wanted to live at my fucking house and have no responibilities, use up my resources eventually stop paying rent and just live at my fucking house. not caring what it did to me financially and mentally. 

Stinky butt is not capable of making a lot of money , so they go around making people feel sorry for them asking for “help” asking for money so they do not have to work really hard for said money. Stinky butt is a very lazy self serving and selfish person. They would kick their own mother in the mud just so they could get money, a meal or something that they wanted. It does not matter. They would rather just stay at my fucking house, never help with bills or rent, never help with house work and chores. 

The VERY MOMENT they found out I had purchased a fucking house and did not live in a small two bedroom apartment they were coming up with a plan to take over my fucking house , and stay there forever. Before they did not want to live with me because I had a small apartment. There would be no room for all their cats and junk, plus my stuff as well. BUT I moved into a three bedroom two bath fucking house with a large basement, that suddenly changed. Stinky butt lied and said there was a fire in their RV(i believe now) or at least stretched the truth, there was a “spark” at the electric system, and they said there was a “fire”. to come up with a  excuse that they were “homeless” the RV was not a stable living condition especially with winter coming(they came Oct 2013) so I all of a sudden had a fucking house so stinky butt wanted to live in my fucking house and did everything they could to occupy my fucking house. They did take over my house for nine fucking months. 

Even If I did not have a penny to my name, stinky butt would not give a flying fuck they would still want me to give them all the money I had and would call me greedy for not giving them all the money I had to my name. After all it is Stinky butt that deserves to have money not me. They sacrificed a friendship for money and greed. They were so selfish and greedy  they practically ended a friendship with me because I would not give them money. They would have rather had money in their hands than a friendship with me. 

12/5/23

Jesse Ives is just a toothless hillbilly ,and I would like to punch him straight in the mouth.

If I ever win the lottery big jackpot, Stinky butt and 

Shiteater will never know because I will never see them again. It would be an awful thing if they did find out because they would do everything in their power to take all the lottery winnings away from me. (because they deserve it more than I do and “it is not fair”) Stinky butt is a thief. That is all they are. The entire time I knew Stinky butt and Shit eater  it was just for them to rob me. They did not give a flying fuck about the friendship. They were just there to figure out how much money they could rob from me. That is all that it was. It was never a true friendship. I went out on a limb for them, to help them. I hated to see anyone suffer so I tried my best to help. BUT I really did not have the means to help them, I scraped up anything extra  I had to help them with the promise of being paid back, which I never did get paid back. When I asked, stinky butt claimed I was trying to extort them. Whatever that means. Extortion usually comes with me knowing something they did and I would expose  stinky butt if I don't get paid. I claimed none of that, That is how much of a dumb toothless hillbilly stinky butt truly is, It was all a grift. Stinky butt really was not that much of a dire need. They could have gotten out of that hole. but why do that when they are in that hole people are more prone to help and give them money. Like I did. IT is all a con game. 

Stinky butt is over 50 years old and still acting like a pathetic child asking for help when it is not really needed. I really hope there is no one else they can con, that would be truly a shame. I was a sucker I admit that. I have too kind of a heart and that is my curse. People like Stinky butt and Shit eater  can take advantage of that. 

AND

I was just trying to get paid back what was owed,so I could be whole again, and not go deeply into debt with the extra I spent to help those two thieves. and I did not even ask for interest. but stinky butt claimed I was trying to take the money they had. and I was being selfish for asking for money.”when I did not need it” For some reason Stinky butt assumed I did not need money to live. 

After they claimed I  turned my back on them because I did not let them stay at my fucking house again. I lost all respect for stinky butt. They did not respect my boundaries. Just fucking around and finding out. Seeing how far they could go. pushing me to the edge. THEY thought I was so loyal that I would bow down to anything they said. 

Stinky butt lost a "friend" . I did not lose anything because Stinky butt was never my "friend". Stinky butt is just a snake in the grass. That is all they will ever be. 

Sorry to sound bitter and selfish, I am not. I would help people out if I could. And If I ever have the means and resources I certainly will. BUT I will give to established charities. I will never just give out money to family and "friends". If any of my family and "friends' ' fall on hard times I will be there for them, I will try my best to get them help but never again will I just hand out money. Stinky butt ruined that for me. I am just not rich enough or set up to help people in need. I will however try my best to be there for them and find resources to help them. I wont just walk away and turn my back on people. Hell I did not even turn my back on Stinky butt as they claim. Stinky butt took advantage of my good hearted nature.  and found out how far they could go. They pushed me to the edge and found out my true boundaries. They lost a true "friend" as a result. I am sure they do not really give a flying fuck. IT was all a con to stinky butt anyway. They will move on and find the next mark to take advantage of. Stinky butt has no soul anyway. They are truly an empty soulless person. 

I do not wish harm on Stinky butt and Shit eater , but they will get what is coming to them. Karma will get them. They have to learn that they can not take advantage of people. They won't be able to take advantage of people much longer, folks will see past their bullshit and will walk away from their sad story, Stinky butt will find out their con wont work much longer. They can't guilt people into thinking they are horrible people if they don't give to them. No no no that is not how it works. I gave to them with the kindness of my heart and I still got sh*t on. So no matter what I did, gave them money or not, they still called me a horrible "friend" and claimed I turned my back on them. I could have given them $100,000 and somehow it would not have been enough. Stinky butt is a very greedy soulless individual. Always wanted more, never satisfied with what they had. Which was more than a lot of  people have. Stinky butt is just a very sad person. Always in that hole, they are more satisfied being in the hole then not. I think they enjoy being in the gutter so people can feel sorry for them. Stinky butt tried to get me to feel sorry for them the last time we spoke but it didn't work. I saw past the bullshit  finally. 

Stinky butt is a Con Man and a Thief

12/10/23

I was a "friend" to stinky butt and shit eaters. We had good times until stinky butt took advantage of my kindness. Once I let them stay at my fucking house it was all downhill from there. They saw an opportunity. Stinky butt was never my "friend". They were just there to take from me. Use me. I was a nice kind person and they knew that. The time they wanted to put stuff underneath my carport “temporarily”  and then did not respect me by taking their time and then never returning to pick up the rest of the junk they had. 

I mean they asked me if they could drop their junk off on my property as they were moving but they took their time a longtime.  Stinky butt just wanted to get their dick wet so they ignored the fact they still had junk at my fucking house. When I asked when are they returning to pick up more of their stuff they acted like I was a cockblock and interupting their fuck fest. And that I was being rude by insisting they come get their stuff. I did not want it to linger if stinky butt had their way. They would have just kept the junk there and they would “get it when they get it”. No regard to me or my property, just junk up my car port. Make my fucking house look trashy. That is what Stinky butt wanted to do anyway. I had a nice fucking house and they did not think I deserved such nice things so they did their best to trash it up. why the fuck did I have a nice “mansion” to live in, and they didn't. 

So i believe that stinky butt came up with a plan to trash my house and make it unlivable, make it trashy so I can't have nice things. “Borrowing money from me and never paying it back, make me poor and in debt ruin my credit like theirs is ruined. So I can be below their level. Stinky butt did not want anyone above them. And the fact that I had a credit card, bank account and a fucking house to live in, made me “above them” 

And it was out in the open,where anyone could come on my property and take anything(but my neighborhood is safe enough) it just looked trashy I am proud of what I have and I was not about to trash up my property and my fucking house. Fuck that. 

Stinky butt fucked around and found out. They probably did not give a flying flying fuck that they lost a "friend". They only lost the opportunity to use and take advantage of me. 

I was just an opportunity for them and nothing more. 

This is pathetic because I was a "friend" to stinky butt and shit eater. We could have just hung out, played monopoly and that would have been fine. I NEVER asked stinky butt for money or help. I needed help, I was broke all the time, barely scraping by but I respected them not to ask for help. I could get by on my own. Stinky butt always asking for a hand out at the same time criticizing others who ask for a hand out because it takes away the opportunity for them to take the hand out. 

and then the grill they never picked up and was pissed I insisted they pick it up. Like what I am supposed to say or do? They have their grill at my fucking house. Did they want it? Why was it such a big deal for them to try to pick it up, even after they lived so close to me on Parker,to where they could literally walk it from my fucking house…. stinky butt acted like they were being inconvenienced by me asking to get THEIR grill.  I mean it was trash anyway, I would have put it out to be picked up if they did not want it. AND I did not want it. So why was it such a problem for them to get THEIR grill in the first place. Stinky butt is on fucked up indivual. I am so glad I don't have to deal with stinky butt and shit eater. They are totally not worth it. In fact I wish I had never met them. We had our good times but in the end Stinky butt is just a snake in the grass, only out for themself. Once I did not give them what they wanted they were mean in cynical towards me. They were falling on hard  times and since I had helped them once before they figured I could do it again when the first time should not have ever happened they out stayed their welcome by 9 months. yeah stay at my fucking house for a few weeks tops while you get things settled moving to evansville, but never should have been more than a month. I really should have been more aggressive. If they cant find a place in a month, well then get a hotel room. I know stinky butt was set against a hotel room since they did it before,so that should have been an incentive to get off their ass and get a place to live, 

instead they were sitting high on the hog at my fucking house. Taking advantage of all my resources. Using up my water, utilities,laundry facilities,my food and my space. not thinking about what it did to me physically and mentally. not caring what it did. 

and when they did need help again, when they were homeless again it is not like i did not help them at all, I gave them phone numbers of places that could help them, I did not want them to be homeless, I just did not want them living at my fucking house. so it seems to stinky butt that I would rather them be homeless then stay at my fucking house if it was A or B then yes have fun sleeping on the sidewalk motherfucker, but really I did not want them to be homeless, just not staying at my fucking house. Plain and simple. There are many resources out there for them, but they did not want to use them since it would mean they would have to WORK at it. They just wanted to stay high on the hog and not have ANY RESPONSIBILITIES. no rent, no utilities, just use up my resources. use my fucking house as if it was their own, trash it and make it unlivable. and then when that would happen they would have left leaving me with a trashed unlivable fucking house. no sweat off their back since it was not their fucking house to begin with it would not have mattered. 

It is just so hypocritical of stinky butt to criticize others for taking  a hand out, using social services like food stamps and welfare at the same time EXPECTING and DEMANDING me to help them when they were in need. AND when I could not help them I was a bad "friend" and “I turned my back on them”

Just because I had a bank account and I had a fucking house, credit card, did not make me rich. But somehow since I had those things it made stinky butt think they were entitled to what I had. It is just so infuriating. I was a "friend" to stinky butt, but all i was to stinky butt was an opportunity to take advantage. I was never expecting stinky butt give me money(except what they owed me) housing, tools, anything like that. I just wanted someone to hang out with. We could just hang out on the front porch and shoot the breeze for hours and that would have been fine.(that did not cost anyone anything) Instead stinky butt was just there to see what they could take from me, they never had any intention to return anything they asked to borrow. They did not think I was allowed to have anything I had. It was not fair so they tried to take it all from me, even my nice fucking house. So they trashed it as well. 

One time Stinky butt asked to “borrow” my ladder, I lent it out but I was with them  the whole time. They did not like that, acted like I did not trust them to return it, well that was the truth. It was a $200.00 ladder, something I could not afford to replace. I was not about to let it out of my sight.

 I once lent stinky butt a $20.00 plumbing snake and I never got it back, they did not even make an effort to replace it(they said they would but just lip service, everything they tell me is a lie anyway, and that was the end of that (fool me once…), never again would I lend out ANYTHING to them. 

They once asked to borrow one of my guitars.(but actually they said “I wish I knew someone with a guitar to lend out”…never actually asking but trying to manipulate me into feeling sorry for them and offering them one of mine so they did not actually have to ask) I was like nope , I never lend out any of my equipment EVER.to anyone. It is just a rule that I go by. (it would be too much to keep track and if I lend it out then I would not have it to use, sounds selfish but I don't lend anything out except my time because what i have took so much time and effort, I cant afford to replace anything, lending out my stuff would risk losing it… stinky butt  would not give a flying fuck if they lost it because they does not have a connection to it) I would not lend out any equipment to stinky butt even even if it was not a rule of mine. I would not trust stinky butt with a stick I found on the ground that meant absolutely nothing to me. Stinky butt does not respect me, does not respect my boundaries or the “friendship” we did had. But it was not really a friendship, …to stinky butt I was just an opportunity . Once that opportunity was gone, they were gone. Because I was no longer an opportunity to manipulate and use. I don't think stinky butt has any "friends" because people are just opportunities for them. This is why stinky butt has no "friends". They have shit eater right now but as soon as they are not a use to them they will throw them a way too. Very sad and pathetic. That is how stinky butt is. They are without a soul. A soulless piece of sh*t. Stinky butt is a loser. 

I had a dream that I saw them, they were in some junk vehicle. wanting me to talk with them. I hope I never see Stinky butt or Shit eater again. They have never made an effort to come over to my fucking house, that is a good thing. I am no longer a resource for them. They can't get anything out of me anymore. I won't give them money so why hang around me? That is the ONLY reason Stinky butt was sticking around. Very sad and pathetic and  I came to realize this and Jar was telling me this the whole time, warning me. I just could not believe someone could be so cold and soul-less as stinky butt is. (to this day I still cannot believe it) I just could not believe that someone who considered me a "friend" would take advantage as stinky butt did with me. Only being nice and friendly to me when they could get something out of me like money, but as soon as that well ran dry, the moment they could not get sh*t from me as they wanted,(because I did try to help, not just as they demanded) they were cynical and mean. what a fucking loser. 

It was not like I turned my back on stinky butt, when they were at their lowest. I did truly want to help them the best that I could. I just was not going to sacrifice my mental wellbeing, my home and my money just so that stinky butt had a place to stay. That is not being selfish. I need to look out for myself too. I can help people out all I can but if I am being compromised to help others what good does that do? If I had let them stay at my fucking house again, the cats would have been in my fucking house, and not my garage because my garage is my studio now.(no fucking way would they be allowed in my studio)  It is totally different. The cats would have destroyed my fucking house, spraying everywhere, making the fucking house stink. There was a lot of time and money spent to get that basement floor replaced, because the old floor was destroyed by cat piss and spray(previous owners). I was not about to reverse all that just so that stinky butt could have a warm place to stay. I have boundaries and stinky butt found out where those boundaries are, they tried to breach them by making me feel guilty for not giving them shelter, claiming I was greedy and selfish . why? because I would not share my fucking house? give me a break. I gave them phone numbers of places in town that could help people in their situation, they would honestly help them and they did not want “that kind of help” They really did not want help, they just wanted to stay at my fucking house rent free. use my washer dryer for free, use up my water, heat and ac for free. Have free access to netflix and spotify. Have free wifi. Everything I built up to have, Stinky butt just wanted to take it for themself. Who is really the selfish greedy one? Stinky butt was just projecting onto me. They were really the greedy one. They was Selfish and trying to extort me. Taking money out of my pocket as they claimed I was trying to do, when all I wanted was to be paid back that is it. 

It is a good thing I cut ties with Stinky butt and Shit eater, They were just going to drain me until I had nothing. Continue to use and manipulate me. Ask things of me that I was not really capable of providing. Keep asking for help on rent and bills, what am I a bank? That is what stinky butt saw me as, and that was it. I had a credit card and they ceased the opportunity to drain my resources for their own gain. That what I was to them, and ATM machine. and if I tried to have anything nice or do anything, spend my own money , they guilted me. I went out of town to visit jar, it was that oh I had money to go to indianapolis but I did not have money to help pay for their “business” or I went to chicago but refused to contribute to four wolves. They wanted me to work both on a saturday morning(when I was working the second shift at WNIN. That just was not going to work. First of all I am not about to go across town, work a booth for four hours and then go back cross town and work master control for 8 more than would be an ENTIRE day of working no break. NO FUCKING WAY. 

This is why I told them I was out of the business, I simply did not have the funds to contribute to their scam business, even  though I paid a lot for the website and put a lot of my time was given into the website. They said it was not good enough because it was not bringing in business. but in order to pay online you need a paypal account and with a paypal account you need a bank account, stinky butt  wanted ME To open a bank account in MY NAME and use it for the business. for the paypal account, they refused to get a bank account. I was like NO WAY. I have a tough enough time keeping track of my own checkbook and keeping it balanced. I was not about to joint venture with my bank with stinky butt. They would just take over and RUIN my credit. BOUNDARIES they never respected my BOUNDARIES. Stinky butt never cared that using my credit card for their needs meant that the money spent on said card still had to be paid back. It was like free money for them. because they could just “say” they would pay me back, I was too much of a sucker and a kind heart to say no, I took them at their word. and then never pay me back for getting everything for free. for stinky butt it was wonderful. got a bunch of stuff for free.  Say you will pay back every penny, say you are a man of your word and get a away with it because when I asked for said money back because they said they would pay me back and was a man of their word, they claimed extortion. that was the plan all along. motherfucker can say anything, promise anything but in the end it was just empty promises. empty just like their soul was empty. if they had a soul they would not have even tried to cross those boundaries with someone they called a brother hell even their own brother would not believe their lies. That is why they said I was family . their own family disowned them, probably why they were so far away in indiana. They tried to make me feel like I was family so I would not be obligated to ask for any of the money I lent them back because “family just gives and does not expects anything in return no questions asked” that is what stinky butt was going for. but it was not like I was being greedy,I did not have the money to lend out in the first place. so I needed it to be returned so I was not in debt. Stinky butt created a massive debt in my name. and did not give a flying fuck to repay me. Motherfucker is a crook. I will never be totally paid back, they did  pay me a few hundred but that did not amount to what they owed, not the 700 at least for that fucking truck they could not even drive. 

I believe now it was all a con. From day one stinky butt was just out to see what they could take from people, manipulate lies and steal. asking for help, making themself look like they are in so much need. make people feel so sorry for the pathetic loser. That was the con. they always wanted to present themselves as being below everyone. and in the gutter so people feel sorry and give them money or whatnot,  they did not have to earn anything, just look pathetic, manipulate and get what you want. and I guess I was a sucker until they showed their true colors, 

by stating I was not a "friend" for not helping them even though i really did. I did not help them they way they wanted so therefore I was not helping at all. any help they were getting was not enough. it was all a con anyway. 

Why was it that I had to “rescue you” ? I was just a "friend". Every once and a while they would call me up asking me for help on rent like I had the extra money to do so. I was barely getting by. I mean it was not like I was making $20 dollars an hour. it was more like $14 and not even taking home $380 a week. 1520 a month and with my bills, yes Stinky butt I had bills like anyone, I did not have anything extra. So why was it me they were running to when they could not pay rent? Because I am a nice guy, I don't want to see people struggle So I try my best to help them. but when I did my very  best to help stinky butt(give them resources and phone numbers of places that had the means to help) the help was not good enough. button line, stinky butt just wanted to stay at my fucking house, rent free, no utilities, no responsibilities, not even help with chores. just take over my home. Trash my home, it did not matter, it was not theirs  anyway. no respect to me or my property, no respect for my boundaries. It still pisses me off that stinky butt though they could just use and manipulate me and then when I did not give them the help they demanded (let them stay at my fucking house for as long as the wanted) I was not a good "friend". yes they were homeless but it was never up to me to give them shelter. I always had good intentions when I gave stinky butt help. 

It was never to “pat myself on the back” . I am a truly good person. Stinky butt is soulless to think I was just helping them to make myself look good. because that is what stinky butt would do. THEY would give to charity not because it is the right thing to do but to make themselves look good. prop themselves up in the community. 

It hurts my head just thinking about how stinky butt took advantage of my kindness and manipulated me, used me. took advantage. stole from me. lied to me to my face and said they were a “man of their word” but then when I asked for the money back, they did everything in their power to avoid paying me back, manipulating me to think I was taking all their money because I simply asked to be paid back what I lent them. that I was taking what was not deserved to me, but I just wanted to make sure I was not in debt. After all, I scraped everything extra I had to help stinky butt out and they still pushed me in the mud. They were never my "friend" at all. Stinky butt was just hanging around to get money out of me. Greedy Soulless piece of sh*t. 

It's like stinky butt did everything in their power to take everything I had because they had nothing so they wanted me to have nothing as well. If stinky butt could not have things, I could not have things. Stinky butt needed money and I had money so they did everything to take said money I had away from me. I had good credit and stinky butt had bad credit so stinky butt wanted me to have bad credit , they did not want anyone above them. I had a fucking house, stinky butt did not have a fucking house. I tried to keep my fucking house nice, and all stinky butt did was try to trash it. 

They never respected me or my fucking house. when they lived at my fucking house their space was always a mess, I mean a horrible mess. I am not “mr clean” but at least I try to keep a nice fucking house in order. Stinky butt did nothing but disrespect me and my personal space. They do not comprehend boundaries. It is all theirs for the taking. if I had $20 dollars in my wallet, well it should be theirs, not mine. I mean come on. I had a credit card and stinky butt just thought it was theirs for the taking. I needed to share it, or else I was a bad "friend". I had a fucking house, so they wanted it. why try to get their own place when I already had a place. You see when I had an apartment, it was just too small for all of us. Once I got a fucking house it was in their mind, a mansion and plenty of room for four people to live in. 

Stinky butt is a snake, pure and simple. Just out there for themself. Taking what they can take and not caring what it does to other people. Not really a "friend" but only hanging around to see what they can gain. People are not "friends' ' to stinky butt, they are only opportunities. If they are no longer a use to them then they find a way to not talk to them, just as they did with me. I could not provide them with money so they were no longer my "friend". I was no longer a use to stinky butt. 

Stinky butt is a very greedy, self serving selfish individual. BUT they also project and call me greedy and self serving. Iam greedy because I have a fucking house and I did not share it. I have money in the bank and a credit card and I did not let stinky butt have all of my money, I lent stinky butt money and I had the gaul to ask for what I lent them back. Iam self serving because I only helped them to “pat myself on the back” according to stinky butt. I asked for what I lent them back, therefore I was greedy and just wanted to take their money, when in reality, Stinky butt just wanted to steal all of my money. Ask to borrow money and have NO intention of ever paying it back. That was just a lie. Stinky butt is a liar. 

It was all lip service, yet they would criticize anyone who would do the same. all projections. 

Stinky butt is definitely a snake in the grass. Ready to strike when they find a victim. talking out the side of their mouth to make people feel sorry for them. Trying to get you to give them your money. you see they deserve it more than you do. 

If I had $1200.00 in the bank, and stinky butt found out how much money I had in my bank account, stinky butt would come up with a plan to take it from me. I am not deserving of said $1200.00 (even though I worked very hard to get the money and I need the money to pay my bills and by the time I am done paying said bills I have nothing left. According to Stinky butt, Stinky butt deserves the money more than I do. This is one reason why I cut ties with the snake. They kept hounding me for money asking me for help on rent because they fell short, with the promise of being paid back next  payday, and then when payday came I heard nothing from them, it was just a way to get my money. NOW I am even wondering if they were really short on rent or  if it was just another lie. 

It is one thing to help a friend out, and I did all I could but it is another thing when they still say I turned my back on them after all I did for them only proves they were only wanting money and to take over my fucking house. a real "friend" would appreciate any kind of help that is given. Also a real "friend" would know boundaries and would never ask as much as stinky butt did.  People are only opportunities and never a real "friend" to stinky butt. 

goodbye forever stinky butt and shit eater. I hope I never have to see you again. good riddance 

Through writing my experiences with Stinky Butt and shit eater I came to realize that people are only opportunities to Stinky Butt .not friends. If someone is not of any use then Stinky Butt moves on. That's exactly what they did with me. I could not provide them with money, therefore I was worthless. I think this is why stinky butt  has never made an attempt to come to my fucking house, they said they were sorry one time when I just happen to see them at the bus terminal downtown, but only to save face and to clear their conscience. It was never really sincere. it was only to get me back in good graces so they could manipulate and use me for my money once again. 

I am only an opportunity for them. and really would they make an attempt to apologize any other way>? It was an opportunity to save face at that moment. 

I hope I never see that buck tooth hillbilly ever again.

Through writing my experiences with Stinky Butt and shit eater I came to realize that people are only opportunities to Stinky Butt ,not friends. If someone is not of any use then Stinky Butt moves on.  They are mean and cynical towards that person, not friendly anymore if they cant use the person anymore. That's exactly what they did with me. I could not provide them with money, therefore I was worthless. I hope I never see that buck tooth hillbilly ever again.

Stinky butt was always an asshole. They would always ask me for “help” or say “I could use your help” . I wish I caught on earlier. I eventually just had to start saying I can't help. That is when they started being cynical towards me, only proves they were only my "friend" to gain for themselves. not really a true "friend". 

To Stinky butt I was just an ATM. Just like JAR said.i did not want to believe someone who called themselves a "friend" would just use and manipulate me. But it turns out that is exactly what stinky butt was doing.   I was nothing more. Stinky butt would “say” they needed help and I would  try my best to help. But when Stinky butt did not get the kind of help they demanded  then I was a bad "friend". I helped the best I could with the resources I had without going broke. BUT stinky butt just was too greedy and sacrificed a friendship over their greed. They would rather have my money over a friendship, which is patheditc And I was not about to sacrifice my fucking house and my well being just so that stinky butt had a warm bed to sleep in. Stinky butt is just disappointed I am no longer talking to them, they can't call me up and manipulate me into giving them money any more when they “fall short on rent” any more. I am no longer their “safety net” too bad motherfucker, you did that on your own. I absolutely did nothing wrong, I did everything correct. I was not going to be a sponge any longer. Stinky butt fucked around and found out, they found out where my boundaries are. 

They kept pushing and pushing and found out they lost a good "friend" over it. Then again , Stinky butt does not have "friends" ; they only have opportunities. and once those opportunities are no longer available to them,  they are gone. So who really walked away from the friendship? I sure didn't because I was trying to help even at the very end. Stinky butt left once they could not get money from me. I never walked away. I was never unfriendly or cynical towards stinky butt or shit eater. I was just trying to help out the best I could with the resources I had. Stinky butt just expected more and more and more. But you see the best I could was not good enough. I could not provide stinky butt with shelter and money,when they were at their lowest and homeless (their fault) I helped them once when they were “homeless” and that was a big mistake. They did not leave in a timely manor, stinky butt did not make any effort to even find a place of their own, I had to do all the work. I can't even imagine what would have happened if I did not do anything. all I know for my well being and mental health they HAD TO GO. I dont think stinky butt ever forgave me for “kicking them out” even though they were never supposed to stay at my fucking house that long to begin with. Stinky butt just pushed me and my boundaries. 

They fucked around and found out. They should have been more proactive. but why would they? Stinky butt had it made when living at my fucking house, 

Things they would not get if they had a place of their own. 

*cheap rent, (for the area) 

*full use of a large house with a full basement, 

*large garage for storage (at the time) 

*all utilities included. 

*FREE USE OF a washer & dryer(at anytime)

*high speed internet. 

*use of Netflix and Spotify and other streaming services on ROKU

*use of a nice kitchen

*two full bathrooms

*furniture

*a bed

*TV

*Stereo

*plates, cups, silverware, cookware

So yeah, stinky butt was taking their sweet ass time taking advantage, not to leave the luxuries of my home. and when I finally had enough they acted like I was kicking them out of THEIR family homestead that they had in their family for multiple generations. I was the evil landlord kicking them out of THEIR HOME! when in reality I was just saying “you have outstayed your welcome”  we are "friends" but we can not be roommates. AND it was not like i was kicking them out on the street, they had a place to go to, that I paid first months rent and deposit on. To help them get started. Stinky butt just did not want to leave the nice big fucking house with everything practically free and very cheap rent. So No I did not kick them out on the street to be homeless, (they eventually did that to themselves) I set up a place for them to live. granted it was Jimtown  in a shotgun house, but it was a place of their own. Something stinky butt said from the beginning they wanted( a place of their own), something they said when they started staying at my fucking house but my fucking house was just too grand for them to really want a place of their own. It was for my own mental health and well being that they leave. 

12/29/23

and besides I did not have to help them at all, I wish I had said get a hotel room,  they paid me $200 a week certainly they could afford a hotel room. 

That should have been the plan from the beginning, stay for one month…..

 (by thanksgiving ... .they had come down around halloween, that is ONE MONTH)….to get a job and a place to live. That is what I was hoping for, but stinky butt just did not want to leave the luxuries of my home. They did not want to stay in a hotel room(and lose internet, netflix,washer dryer,large kitchen full basement etc etc), and really I was too nice of a person. I did not want that for them(to live in a hotel room), but I should have put my foot down, set boundaries. set a time limit. set a goal. Maybe stinky butt would have got their sh*t together if they knew I would kick them out if they did not get a place by a certain date, the way things went stinky butt ASSumed it was an open invitation to stay as long as they needed and that would mean forever. Everyday, every weekend I would ask stinky butt if they wanted to go out and find a place and everytime they would come up with an excuse they were too tired etc. Well I was tired too. I understand working 40 hours a week is exhausting. I may not have had a full time job at the time, but I worked at Camp Kysoc for three summers THAT was a full time job, stinky butt could not have claimed “You don't know what it is like you only have a part time job”. When I worked at Kysoc I was on call 24/7 during those summers.  

I think that is why stinky butt did not understand why I was so tired on Sunday after work, they assumed I just sat at a desk monitoring the tv all day. BUT I was working Saturday nights and then Sunday mornings. TV and Radio Master Control is not just sitting watching tv all day. it was not like i had “joked” about. I think stinky butt took me seriously when I said that. 

Rest is important but shelter is also important. I guess Stinky butt figured they already had a place to live (my fucking house) so why bother trying to find a different place. 

When before in the past, stinky butt always told me “no offense but we could never be roommates” knowing how they are and how they live, …in filth. I agreed. I don't think stinky butt wanted me to agree. I think they wanted me to convince them we could be roommates. So they could be invited to live with me and not pay rent.  Their reasoning was that at the time of the original statement I had that tiny 2 bedroom apartment. Once I had the “mansion” their tone changed. and really wanted to live where I lived. Since now I had a larger fucking fucking house, larger kitchen, 3 bedroom 2 bathroom a full basement with a washer/dryer full garage, and not a small apartment only one bathroom small kitchen. Plus with my apartment I could not have pets unless I paid extra. With my fucking house it was my rules. 

And now and on December 28 stinky butt is trying to "friend" request someone we both knew on facebook.  She is skeptical and I don't blame her one bit. 

I did not have to help stinky butt the way I did. I just did out of the kindness of my heart. I am too kind. I let Stinky butt and Shit eater  take advantage and I did not set boundaries. I didn't think I had to. I thought boundaries were implied. "friends" just don't do what stinky butt did. They don't ask for so much help, they don't fall short on rent, ask for help, promise to pay back said rent money on pay day and then don't communicate and attempt to pay at all. When I ask for said money they claim extortion as if the loan never happened. "friends" do not do that. Yet I did help and stinky butt still claimed I turned my back on them, after all that, Stinky butt could not get anymore money from me, they said I turned my back on them. It was just an opportunity not a friendship.Once that opportunity dried out, stinky butt was gone like the wind. Stinky butt was cynical and mean towards me because they did not get what they wanted. Like a toddler they kicked and screamed. Did not treat me like I was their "friend". Because I did not provide for them a fucking house when they were houseless. I gave them phone numbers of local services that had the capability, funds and resources to help when I was all tapped out. They did not want that help, they just wanted to live off my resources, and drain me dry. You see, using up local resources would mean stinky butt would have to work at it.  Living at my fucking house, using my resources means they can do what ever,no worries. Pay cheap rent and get everything else for free. Why give that up even if it meant a drain on my well being and mental health. When I refused them to live at my fucking house for the second time i was not being selfish, I saw what they did before, they took advantage, they made NO EFFORT to get a place of their own, hell I had to do the research and set up the appointments myself. 

Stinky butt just was not doing it. and not that they was not capable of getting a place to live, they were nearly 50 years old at the time, and had lived in many places in their life, they just did not want to leave the luxuries of  my fucking house. I even paid for the truck rental for them to move and even when they had a place they still would not leave. AND Even when the AC was not working in the middle of July.  Stinky butt just wanted my fucking house. They are a loser. and a narcissist. because people are not "friends" to stinky butt,  they are only opportunities. Once said opportunities dry up, stinky butt is mean and cynical towards those people hoping they walk away, when they walk away finally realizing what a snake stinky butt truly is Stinky butt  plays victim  and says the people walked away from the friendship for no reason.  Fuck that bucktooth hillbilly. making them self innocent

I mean really , how the hell did they find the time to get all those other places while working a full time job? Why all of a sudden were they “too tired” to even go out and look for a place to live? I know why, because they were already living in a place why they would leave? The only time they go out and hustle to find  a place to live is when they absolutely have to, like getting evicted(every place they have ever lived). 

I should have set a goal, set boundaries, “get a place by such and such date” or be out on the street. let them call my bluff but try it, see what happens. Have it in writing. I would have held of my end of the bargain by letting them stay at my fucking house for a month, they should agree to their end by leaving in a time frame or be out on the street. So I have reason to kick them out on the street, if they have not left in a month. Make the commitment to find a place. but the plan was never for them to live at my fucking house indefinally. it was just until they got back on their feet which should have been a few weeks, a month tops. not NINE FUCKING MONTHS. So since stinky butt and shit eater both walked away from the friendship for no good reason, they are both not good people. they are terrible in fact. I did NOTHING absolutely NOTHING wrong. The blame is ALL ON THEM. They TURNED THEIR BACK ON ME. I am totally innocent in this case. 

I tried my best to help them with the resources I had. I went way out of my way to help them, and spent a ton of my own money to get them what they needed to get out of the hole. I went into debt and even stalled the construction of my studio in the process. Something I did not have to do. 

I do all that , sacrifice a whole lot, and I still get sh*t on and pushed in the mud. After all I did for them, Stinky butt still pushes me in the mud. It was all greed. Stinky butt did not give a flying fuck about the friendship. I was not a "friend". It was an opportunity. That is all it was. 

The motherfucker lives at my fucking house for 9 months. Trashes their area, never makes any effort to clean, ruins my garage by having multiple cats, out does their welcome by 8 months, never makes an effort to pay me back in full(then claims extortion when I ask for payment) never made an effort to get their own place when they were staying at my fucking house, and they expect me to let them stay at my fucking house until they get back on their feet again? no fucking way. 

Fuck that motherfucker. Stinky butt would push their own mother in the mud if it meant they would get ahead, food or money. the asshole is only out for themself. 

I even tried to push them to get a place by telling them I wanted to start building my studio in the garage, something  I had planned to do even before I bought my fucking house. but they did not believe me, thought I was bluffing to get them to leave. and when I did have a studio built stinky butt still gave me sh*t for having the means to even build a studio. After all, they did not have the means to build their dream kitchen. It was unfair in their eyes. I had what I needed and they did not. but hey it took me decades to save and build what I had. It did not happen overnight. 

and i dont give a flying fuck how it makes me look. stinky butt can call me selfish greedy or whatever, after all that has been done and said, my real "friends'' and family will praise me for not letting them take advantage of me again. Fool me once motherfucker, NEVER AGAIN. I am a kind person and I try to help out the best I can. but I have to look out for my own mental well being. In fact I did help and they did not take said help. the last time they asked. So what am I supposed to do? Give them all the money I have so I am broke and they have money? and when I refuse to give them my money, that's not greed, it's survival. I have a job, I make money, but it is for MY BILLS. When Stinky butt “borrowed” money they were taking my money, money I needed for my bills. I just did not have piles of money laying around that I did not need. I lent it out with the promise of being paid back, and when I did not get paid back I took a hit because I still needed to pay my bills. 

Stinky butt was now solid and whole, but now I was in the hole. What kind of "friend" is that? And they did not give a flying fuck that I was now in debt, since when I asked to be paid back so that I could pay my bills they tried to claim I was extorting them. That  I was just being greedy, like I really did not need the money at all. What a waste Stinky butt and Shit eater are. They had no intention of paying me back at all so Stinky butt just kept making excuses so they would never actually have to pay me back. Stinky butt was just using me for my kindness and the fact I had a credit card. They thought it was “free money” I was just an opportunity NOT a friendship. If Stinky butt was a true "friend" they would not have kept asking me for money, hell they would not have asked at all. None of my other "friends" ask me for help, they understand boundaries. They know I struggle to get by. Stinky butt did not give a flying fuck. They wanted what they thought was theirs. 

A true "friend" respects boundaries. Stinky butt did not respect boundaries of a friendship. 

Stinky butt was just out for what they could gain. It was not a friendship. I was warned by several people but I just did not want to believe someone would be a snake like stinky butt is. But stinky butt is a snake. Only out for themself. They are selfish and greedy, yet they claimed I am the selfish and greedy one even AFTER I helped them out of the goodness of my heart, I went way out of my way to help them and when I simply asked to be paid back I was being greedy? As if I did not need the money. Fuck that. It is a good thing Stinky butt gave me an out by telling me I was the one who turned my back on them. I did not. I just could not give them the help they demanded. That is it. That somehow means I was not being a good "friend"? Then it was not a friendship in the first place. Because I did try to give them help. It just was the kind of help where they had to do work. It was a hand up and not just a hand out, stinky butt wanted a hand out. and no responsibility. The kind of help I was offering was the help where they had to work for it. (it was a contact list of places that could help them) They just wanted to stay at my fucking house rent free and not have any responsibilities. I was not about to have them stay at my fucking house again, ever again. Not after they were just supposed to stay at my fucking house for just a couple weeks until they get things settled. Stinky butt just took advantage of that and overstayed their welcome. They acted like I was kicking them out of THEIR family home of centuries being there. And I was the evil greedy landlord. Fuck all of that. I was just saying that stinky butt had to find their own place and could not stay at my fucking house anymore.   

good riddance 

March 4 2024

I could go the rest of my life without ever seeing both those losers ever again and I would be happy. I have not really spoken to them for several years now,

(the covid pandemic is primarily the reason) I finally saw through their bullshit . real "friends" would not do what they did. Claim what the claimed. Said I was a bad "friend", turned my back on them because I did not let them stay at my fucking house again. After they already stayed at my fucking house and made no real effort to get their own place. in their mind they already had a place to live, why leave? I Had a fucking house with “plenty of room” I was to share it. I had a credit card, so whenever they were in a bind, I was to use it to get them out of said bind. 

When they were behind on rent

(because they spent their money on crap they didn't need)  I was to “bail” them out. 

A promise of payback would be made, but it was all bullshit. Because when I asked for said money stinky butt claimed I was extorting them as if they never owed me any money at all and that I was just being greedy trying to take all the money they had.I dont think Stinky butt ever planned on really paying me back, that was just another lie. “Said they was a man of his word” but that was just another lie. Stinky butt is a dishonest person. They would do anything to get out of any kind of responsibility.  Stinky butt was never a "friend". Stinky butt is a hustler. 

a "friend" should never expect anything from people they call "friends". I should never have to sacrifice my well being or my bank account for someone I consider a "friend". If they are in trouble or in a bind. I should do my best to try and help them, but I should not go broke. The sad thing is….

 I did still try to help stinky butt. by giving them phone numbers of places in town that could help them in their situation, it was not like I was totally heartless as they claimed, I did truly try to help them.  but they STILL claimed I turned my back on them because I did not give them the help they expected from me. Which was far greater than I could provide. They expected it and if I did not give what they expected I was a bad "friend", and I was the one that was selfish. This is why I had to cut them out of my life. I tried to help them to the best of my ability and they still said I turned my back on them.After all I did for them, after all I sacrificed. I still was not a good person, I still was just greedy. as they claimed. 

I just wanted friendship, companionship. If we were to just hangout on the front porch and chat all afternoon, that would have been great. I never have asked my "friends" for money when I needed it. I figure it out on my own. I would never ask my "friends" for money because I know they work hard for it, that is a line I would never cross. When Stinky butt kept asking me for help, I gave in, they said they was a “man of his word” and man of honor. I believed him . It was all bullshit, I asked for payment, payback so I would not go broke and they claimed I was trying to extort him, I was being greedy and I was trying to take away their money. As if they never borrowed any money at all. I was just trying to take the money they had, I was just being selfish and greedy according to stinky butt. 

I hope I never see them again. I really hope they leave the state of Indiana and never return. I feel bad for Deaconess and Andrews Auto Sales,(two places I know they owe money to)  they will NEVER get their money. Stinky butt knows how to disappear, they just run from any kind of responsibility. But complain and whine about others doing the same exact thing. Saying how bad they are for running from responsibility when they does the same exact thing. Very hypocritical of them. Even if I did happen to see them at the bus stop or where ever I would not acknowledge them anyway. I take the mets micro home so I would never be downtown at the bus station which is where I would have a chance to run into them. I work 40 hours a week and I never really leave the fucking house on the weekend. They live on the west side or at least that is where they lived the last time I saw them.Who the fuck knows now. They could be ANYWHERE. Stinky butt would leave a place just to avoid responsibility. Stinky butt would quit a job because their wages are being garnished because they owe money somewhere, that is how dishonest they are. I wish I knew where exactly they lived so I could tell Andrews Auto Sales. Just so they can find out where they live. Take them to court but as if stinky butt would show up for court anyway. a bench warrant would not even force Stinky butt to court. Stinky butt  needs to be arrested and brought to jail. 

There are some people so dishonest and untrustworthy that they project their dishonestly on others. Stinky butt tried to make ME the bad person, the bad "friend", the greedy selfish person. When in reality Stinky butt was the dishonest untrustworthy selfish greedy person. they tried to put all the blame on ME, when i did nothing wrong and I did everything I could to help them and I still get called out for being the bad "friend" and turning my back on them when I did all I could to make sure they were whole and taken care of . I just did not have the resources to fully provide the needs that Stinky butt and Shit eater needed but I tired my best to find such places that did have such resources. I still get called a bad "friend" after ALL I did for them, after all the money I gave them, after all I sacrificed I still get called out for turning my back on them and being greedy and selfish, it's like all I did was for absolutely NOTHING. Even though what I did was not to just “pat myself on the back” as stinky butt claimed. Stinky butt is so selfish and narcissistic  they can't comprehend someone not being selfish and helping someone out without expecting anything in return, I only asked to be paid back because I am not wealthy and anything I did help with money wise was scraping by anything extra I had to help and I really should not have because I really did not have the extra funds to help. I only did help because I was promised I would be paid back, but I never was paid back. Stinky butt fucked around and found out, lost my trust,I will never trust that loser again. They took advantage of my kindness. they fucked around and found out when they told me I tuned my back on them, they figured I would just forgive that crap and move on continue being "friends", but that was the last straw. It is stinky butt’s loss, not mine. It was never a friendship so nothing was lost. I gained a piece of mind. I gained my sanity. Stinky butt just tries to make everyone feel sorry for them. Even at the end Stinky butt was going on and on and on how they had to walk so much to and from work. Well good for you stinky butt. I have to walk to and from the bus stop as well. My life is not easy either. So what if you don't have a vehicle neither do I. What the flying fuck is your point?  Are you trying to make me feel sorry for you so I give you money and you can repair your vehicle? Manipulate me into giving you money so you don't actually have to ask? I see past your bullshit now. It does not work anymore.  

Not having a vehicle  does make life harder, that I do understand completely, but I don't shove it in anyone's face. I don't make anyone feel sorry for me because I don't have a vehicle. I don't ask people for money. I am in deep debt too but that is my deal. I would NEVER manipulate friends and family into just giving me money and and then if they did not give me money make them feel like sh*t because they did not give me money. Tell them they are not a good "friend" because they did not help me. I understand not everyone is wealthy. I respect my friends and family never to ask them for that kind of help. I will struggle in silence before asking for that kind of help from my "friends" and family.

stinky butt burned bridges from family, that is why I was the only one left. They burned that bridge as well. It was all them too. They tried to put the blame on me but it is all them. They burned it all down. I did NOTHING wrong. I tried to help but they did not take the help I was trying to give in the end, because it was not what they demanded, which was full access to my house , bank account and credit card. anything else would be less than good. It would not be worth their  time because the help I was trying to provide meant they had to do more work and all they wanted was to live at my fucking house and have access to my credit card, have no bills and spend my money on things they wanted. such a lazy piece of sh*t. I work hard for what I have and Stinky butt just wanted to sit there and take it from me? Because it was not fair that I should have a fucking house and they does not. Well what is not fair is that they should try to attempt to take what I have away from me simply because I have it and they dont. I dont give a flying fuck stinky butt if you have to walk to and from work. I have to walk to and from the bus stop, it's difficult. but I dont complain about it or expect someone to just hand over money so my life is easier. I wish I had money for the uberlyft so my life would be easier but I deal with it. I dont complain, I do my job, pay my bills and try to live a decent life. All stinky butt does is complain and say how worse off they are so people feel sorry for them. They make people feel bad for having a good life. Stinky butt is just a pathetic little sh*t and will always be in the gutter.  They want to be in the gutter and will never improve on their life because then they could not manipulate people into feeling sorry for them. 

If their life is fine then they can't come up with excuses to make people feel sorry for them. I fell into the trap because I am a good person and I don't like to see people suffer so I try my best to help. 

Evidently the help I tried to give stinky butt in the end was not good enough. They just wanted to stay at my fucking house, they did not want anything else except to stay at my fucking house any other help was not good enough. That is why stinky butt brushed it off and ignored it because I was not offering them to stay at my fucking house again. After I let them stay at my fucking house for far too long they made NO effort to get a place of their own, that is why I did not offer(one reason) They would have never left. 

They overstayed their welcome. and I was not about to be used like that again. So what if stinky butt saw me as greedy or selfish, I still did my best to help the best I could. It was not like I totally did not reach out and try to help and brush them off completely, that would be the definition of “turning my back on them” but I DID try to help them. It just was not what they EXPECTED. Stinky butt wanted my fucking fucking house, plain and simple and NOTHING LESS. The best scenario for stinky butt would have been for me to hand over ownership to my fucking house, give them the keys and say 

“it's yours now” 

hell stinky butt wanted to have ownership or part ownership of my studio, and make it part of “four wolves” I am thinking they wanted any kind of income from what I would make from the studio if i made any money from it. I was like no way. My studio is mine and that does not make me selfish, it makes me practical. My blood and sweat is in this, it is mine. I am not selfish for not sharing, it is just my project. plus they were jealous and gave me sh*t for even having built a studio because it “was not fair” I had a creative space and they didn't. What they did not understand is that it was 20 years before even building a studio I had been working on getting the gear for it. It was not just overnight as it appeared to be. This was my lifelong dream and stinky butt wanted what I had. 

Stinky butt always stated that we would not be good roommates and I agreed. I knew how he lived. I am not mr clean, but I try my best to keep my fucking house in order. They are not good roommates. and I believe stinky butt made that statement is when I lived in an apartment and having a fucking house was not even a thought yet. and when I agreed they did not like that as well. They wanted me to push back and argue and state that they would be a good roommate. insisting they become my roommate, just another form of manipulation. and Just another way of getting me to offer and not having them ask. and then when I bought my fucking house, it was everything they dreamed of. I had a fucking fucking house they did not and I was to share it with stinky butt. Only fair thing to do. according to the all powerful stinky butt. Stinky butt just over stayed their welcome. It should have been a few weeks a month tops, move to Evansville, find employment, save up a months worth of rent and then find a place to live. It should have been a month tops. They were there around Halloween, moved out and established by Thanksgiving. That is a MONTH. If they were not out by Thanksgiving? well then get a hotel room. They were paying me a few hundred a week they could afford a cheap hotel room for sure. Stinky butt just did not want to move. to a fucking house or apartment, they would have to pay more in rent and then pay utilities. At my fucking house they were paying very low rent for the area and not even contributing to utilities, water. They had full access to laundry, high speed internet, netflix etc. Why would they want to move? they had it made. 

Except it gave me heartache and stress. and Stinky butt still asked for money and use of my credit card. continuing to use and manipulate me.  

Stinky butt did not give a flying fuck. As long as they got what they needed, shelter, laundry, even food that I paid for, internet, water, heat air,etc that I paid for because I was paying for it anyway for me to use, stinky butt shit eater and dumbledore where just there to use what I had. and when I said no the second time, well then I was just a bad person, a bad "friend". I turned my back on them when  they were in need. According to stinky butt I did nothing to help them at all even though I did everything I could think of to help them that was not enough.It is insulting to me to refuse help and that is what Stinky butt did, they refused my help and then said I did not help them. what an asshole. 

if stinky butt was a true "friend", first of all they would respect me enough not to ask so much from me, second of all if they did ask and I said I just could not help them, they would not have claimed I “turned my back on them” they would understand that I am not wealthy, I think they assumed I was wealthy because I had a fucking house and a credit card. because I honestly could not help them they way they wanted me to, which was to let them stay at my fucking house again. It just was not going to work out. They did not do their diligence and get their own place in a timely manor, they did not prove to me they are responsible and trustworthy. All they did was prove to me how bad of a person they are. 

They made NO EFFORT to get their own place in a timely fashion, they just blamed health issues losing their job car trouble etc the reason they did not get a place. They wanted to stay at my fucking house, pay low rent, no utilties, free landry, free everything else. etc etc. They never really wanted to leave.  Everytime I would ask stinky butt if they wanted to go out looking for an apartment they would just claim they was too tired from working. and I get it, I now work 40 hours I am tired too but they were never to stay at my fucking house forever, that was never the plan. I should have been more clear i guess but to anyone with half a brain would have known that. It was just until they get a job, save up for first months rent and deposit and get a place ASAP. I had to find a place for them and even pay for first months rent and deposit, that what it took to get them to leave and even when they had said place, stinky butt STILL took their time moving, I even paid for the truck to get their stuff moved because they did not have a working vehicle. they still took their time. and even when my AC was not working in the dead heat of July, they still would not move quicker. It is apparent now that stinky butt just did not want to leave, because he acted like I was kicking them out of their family homestead of 200 years and I was the evil landlord or banker kicking them out of their family homestead, when it was MY HOME. NEVER THEIR HOME. 

The dude seriously needs to grow the fuck up. Taking advantage of people, being dishonest at the same time claiming to be honest and trustworthy. Lying to people at the sametime putting down people who flat out lie. 

I was a true "friend" to Stinky butt and Shit eater, despite our disagreements, I tried to see past that. We did not agree on things politically(who totally agrees on everything anyway?. and I was willing to see past that because I am an adult. Stinky butt was just hanging around me to see what kind of money they could get from me.  Because once I could not provide money to them, they was cynical and mean towards me, only proves once again they was only hanging around for money. I did not let them stay at my fucking house again when they were homeless again, even though I tried to still help them out knowing I did not want them staying at my fucking house, they proved they are not good people to live with. Stinky butt made NO effort to get their own place. they wanted to just stay at my fucking house, pay low rent, everything else paid for. Claiming I turned my back on them and did not even help them saying Id rather them be homeless than stay at my fucking house. Well I did not want them staying at my fucking house again because of stinky butt’s behaivor before of not making an effort to get their own place, 

I had to do all the work on finding a place for them to rent, I even paid for first months rent and deposit just to get them the fuck out of my fucking house. 

If that's what it was going to take, I had to make the expense just to get them to leave. but then they still acted like I was kicking them out of THEIR home. What a loser. 

Stinky butt is just really really lazy and irresponsible. Not trustworthy at all. They are a hustler and not a true "friend". They were only hanging around to see what they could gain. Once that opportunity dried up, stinky butt was gone. It was only an opportunity, not a "friend". Even though I was a "friend", Stinky butt was not a "friend" to me. I don't understand how anyone could live like that. Not have any empathy for anyone and even criticize me for being kind and having empathy. saying I was only being kind and I only helped stinky butt out to “pat myself on the back” to praise myself. which is furthest from the truth. I helped them out because I did not like to see them suffer. BUT when they were homeless AGAIN. I was not about to fall into that trap again. I knew their behavior and that Stinky butt would make no effort to leave. Getting their own place was never their plan. They just wanted to live at my fucking house, pay very low rent(for the neighborhood), have access to high speed internet,netflix, spotify etc,free laundry. 

Use of the shower, full kitchen,dishes,kitchenware. Furnished house. Why would they leave that and go to a crap living conditions, crappy house (for what they could afford in rent) unfirnished, no kitchenware,no dishes, no laundry, no internet or even a TV. ( i had multiple tvs) They had it made living at my house but it caused me heartach and stress, put me in debt. Stinky butt just did not see or give a flying fuck about that. Stinky butt was looking out for themself. They are so selfish and self centered that they could not see past their nose. I had something they wanted, a fucking house. It was not fair that I had a fucking house and stinky butt did not have a fucking house, they did their best to take my fucking house from me. all three of them did not respect my space, treated it like it was theirs. trashed it and made no effort to get their own place. I had to do the research, find a place, make the appointment to see the place, pay the deposit and first month's rent. After NINE months I was just so tired of Stinky butt making excuses on getting their own place, they really did not want to leave my fucking house. But it was causing me heartache. Stinky butt just did not give a flying fuck. I did not mind helping them out, but it should have been a month tops. They came around halloween, they should have had a place by Thanksgiving and that was my plan, but Stinky butt made no effort to get a place, everytime I asked if they wanted to go out looking they claimed they were “too tired”. Well so was I. That is what happens after working all day. But from my perspective, it HAD TO BE DONE, but for Stinky butt, they already had a place to live so why go out and find a place? That was not fair to me. Yes I had a fucking house, and yes it was a three bedroom two bath, with a full basement (a mansion compared to a hotel room) but I was not physically or mentally able to have stinky butt shit eater and dumbledore as roommates any longer, because they did not pull their weight or even respect me or my space, despite the fact I was sharing my fucking house out of the goodness of my heart, something I absolutely did not have to do, they felt they were owed it. They demanded that it was theirs to take. 

They thought they were privileged enough and obligated me to share my fucking house when I did not have to share it at all. I never had to even let them stay at my fucking house.  I was just being kind to let them in. I in no way had to let them stay at my fucking house. So when I finally said go somewhere else, I’ll even help pay to get you started. I even paid for the truck rental to get them moved….. They acted like I was kicking them out of THEIR home and not in fact politely asking them to find another place to live. That is all I was doing. I had a home yes, but it was MY HOME. It was getting over crowded, plus I wanted to get construction on my studio started but i could not because the garage was being used to store their junk and space for their cats. It seems even when I told them I needed them to find another place because I wanted to get my studio built they brushed it off as if I was bluffing and did not respect my wishes. ANOTHER example of not respecting me or my space. And when I finally got them to leave they took their time, put the guilt trip on me for “kicking them out” when all I wanted was my home back, my space back and with three other people living in my fucking house I did not feel it was my domain. I just wanted that back. I dont think stinky butt ever forgave me for “kicking them out” they was always cynical and angry but at times “holding their tongue” but down deep still angry at me. But the plan was never to have them stay with me indefinitely. It should have been a month tops. I was way too kind to let  them stay for as long as they did. and also paying for their rent and deposit, truck rental. I did not have to do any of that. I even bought that truck in vincennes, had to get it towed back to evansville, because Stinky butt could not drive a stick, yet they still bought it ($700 fucking dollars of my money) , just to get them moving out of my house but it did not work, the motherfucker could not even drive it. I bought it so they could save money for a fucking house or apartment rental, because all their money was going for car rental and they could not save for a place. so I figured give them some leeway a push to help them get a place, but after ALL I did, I still was the bad "friend" who turned my back on them. Because after a second time of being homeless I refused to have them stay at my fucking house, but who can blame me?, after the last time of disrespecting me and my space and never making an effort to get a place. What makes me think things would be different, especially when this was summer of  2019 right before the pandemic, none of us had any idea what kind of sh*t  that was about  to go down but I am lucky as hell for being wise enough not to let them stay at my fucking house again, because they would have never left, everything would have been shut down. they could not leave even if they wanted to. And I would have been screwed because I would have had to work at home with all that distraction. As if I did not have enough distraction as it is. 

In the end stinky butt never saw all the things I did for them or just did not give a flying fuck because they was just looking out for himself, they just claimed I did it to “pat myself on the back” and not out of simply kindness,  and that I was being selfish and greedy for simply asking to be paid back the money they owed me. screw them. Stinky butt lacks empathy so they do not understand that someone could just be kind to others without expecting anything in return. 

Stinky butt just does not have that kind of intelligence which tells them that people can be kind to others just because that is the right thing to do. Or that someone can do something for someone without wanting anything in return. Stinky butt is so selfish and self centered they can not comprehend that someone would just do acts of kindness without asking for anything in return. I only asked to be paid back because that was the initial plan and that I really did not have the funds to give out so much money, 

Stinky butt just assumed I was wealthy because I am crafty and most of the furniture and things I do have are second hand, used or found items. I do not have a bunch of brand new furniture or kitchenware 

a lot were gifts or found items. 

Even my fucking house is a gift but it is not my fault that I am lucky. I do not take that for granted. Unlike Stinky butt taking me for granted. Fucked around and found out when they said  to me that I turned my back on them, after everything i did for them…they did not figure that was the absolutely last straw and that I would delete their phone number, block them on facebook and totally ghost them forever. But I did. and I will never speak to them ever again. It is their loss. They thought I would just give in. and brush it off. forgive and forget. They was sadly mistaken. That was the last straw. I helped as much as I can and I still was not appreciated. was told I was a bad person. because I did not share my fucking house again. it is my fucking house, I am no way obligated in sharing anything. 

Just because I have 5 dollars and stinky butt has 2 dollars it does not give stinky butt the right to demand I give them my 5 dollars. then they would have 7 dollars but then I would have no dollars. How is that even fair? That is basically what stinky butt was doing, I had a fucking house and stinky butt did not have a fucking house and stinky butt was demanding I share my fucking house simply because I had a fucking house. That is insane. I did share my fucking house for a while, just to help them get back on their feet but they outstayed their welcome. I had to get them out for my own sanity. any means necessary. and it cost me but it was worth it, I would be paying more if they had stayed. I had to do something. I had put my studio construction on hold. it was not right. Stinky butt had to get their own place. and i think as I said before Stinky butt resented me “kicking them out” and never really forgave me. They really did not want to get their own place and acted like it was not their choice to move. I was “kicking them out” like they did something wrong. They thought everything was hunky dory and it was just grand staying at my fucking house. they just wanted to live there forever. but 200 a week was low rent and utilities were getting high because of more people using water and my ac and heater on all day instead of only when i was at home. I just could not sustain that. 

it's not out of greed it is out of I am not wealthy as stinky butt claimed. and that was their assumption, I never claimed to be wealthy , although to a slob like stinky butt someone with a bank account is wealthy. 

I had a fucking house, bank account and credit card… I was John D Rockefeller as far as stinky butt was concerned.  

yeah and really fuck this guy, stinky butt was never a real "friend". I gave all I could to help and it was never enough. They always wanted more and more. and when I did not give the kind of help they expected then I was a bad person. fuck that. I tried so hard to help them, lead productive lives, when they were homeless again I gave them resources to get the help they needed but they just brushed it off. they just really wanted to stay at my fucking house and forget about everything else. That is all they wanted. They did not want any real help, which I was trying to give but they refused. They wanted to live at my fucking house rent free (which would eventually happen I am sure of it), pay no utilites, have free access to high speed internet, free laundry, kitchen, showers etc and all on my dime. 

It really did not matter that it caused me stress or caused me to go broke, or I could not have anyone visit or build my dream recording studio, it wasn't any of their concern because it was not their dime or stress., that is how much stinky butt is self centered. it was all about stinky butt, no one else. The only way I was to help out stinky butt was to let them stay at my fucking house, anything else would be no help at all. because I did try to help and they claimed I did not help them at all and that I “turned my back on them” when they needed help the most. So I did help them,I never turned my back on them but they claimed I did because I did not offer them stay at my fucking house. I did everything I could to avoid that. 

I did not want them staying at my fucking house but I did not turn away and do nothing I at least tried to get them help. but all stinky butt wanted was to stay at my fucking house. they wanted nothing less, after all I did for them, giving them money for rent when they still lived in terea haute, letting them stay at my fucking house, buying them a truck, then having it towed from Vincennces, help with car repair, having it towed, buying meals, letting them use my laundry, my shower when they did not have water, renting a truck to help the move, getting them a place to live and paying first months rent and deposit,letting them keep their cats in my garage, buying supplies to build the cat cage, buying other supplies for other things,towing their truck when they had a flat and getting a tire for it. so it would not be towed away and lose the vehicle all together(they paid me because I kept hounding them and insisting they pay me back asap so that I could pay off the credit card balance……but acted like I was taking their last meal or at least money for food). The list goes on and on.  

So in the end, Stinky butt can not for one second claim that I EVER turned my back on them or that I was a bad "friend". 

I did EVERYTHING in my power to help them and prevent them from being homeless, I even tried to get them to find a new place after I found out they were being evicted from their trailer(but did not tell them I knew) but they did not listen to me. I knew when they were evicted they would be homeless and ASK ME TO STAY AT MY FUCKING HOUSE, and low and behold, they were evicted and homeless AND THEY ASKED ME IF THEY COULD STAY AT MY FUCKING HOUSE. the exact thing I was trying to avoid. So I tried to give them names of places that could help in their situation so that they did not have to ask to stay at my fucking house. but stinky butt wanted none of that, they just wanted to stay at my fucking house rent free. Was never going to happen even if they paid me $2000 a month (that should have been the cost in the first place for the neighborhood and the size and condition of the house) the fucking house on florida was $700 a month and it was a shithole, motherfucker could not afford that anyway but I did not even want to give them an inkling of a chance to stay at my fucking house. 

Stay away from people who will manipulate and use you.